Wednesday, August 31, 2005

I Look You No Up!

HYPOPOTAMUS! HYPOPOTAMUS!

Haha, thks to Jul, someone arh, i learnt a new word... She always have tonnes of "creative" words/ideas running about in her mind...

But i love it!

HYPOPOTAMUS!!!

Dun get it? Nvm, go figure...

I went to read the Hippo... Well, courtesy of u noe who...

Thought im not yet done... But im already as pissed... Though its on a total separate issue altogether...

Definately, im not able to judge tt hippo, on whether i shd feel the same anger...

I hate backstabbers, definately... And i most cannot tolerate Hippos...

I SEE THAT HIPPO NO UP!

Not coz u r a hippo, its coz of your personality... I accept Hippos... Coz they are swimming all around me, but luckily, my company dun haf hippos... Haha...

I left e phrase, "I see her no up!" on msn before i logged off my com in e office... I didnt even haf time to wait for replies... Coz colleague waiting to send me home mah, didnt wan him to wait... Guilty leh... I got heart one ok?

Ok back to e hippo...

HIPPO claims that hippo went thru alot in life, haf a shitty family(she named it IRRITATING TROUBLEMAKING FAMILY), and blame on fate y she was born there... She also claimed tt she had shitty relationships and tt her life is shitty...

Now, i haf a high toleration level reading stuffs... But i was so angry then... Y?

Ppl who haf been thru more hardships, are supposedly, shd be more mature, understanding, and can handle themselves better... Especially for those with incomplete families, they are generally more independant, coz they haf been thru more...

So, tis HIPPO completely turned otherwise... She still break down like at least once every week... COmplain tis complain tt... Put e blame on everyone else but never on herself...

U haf been thru so much for NOTHING, HIPPO!!!

She tried to be an angel, and kept saying super nice things to portray how nice she is... But unfortunately, HIPPOS cannot keep up the angelic appearance forever... Coz u r a HIPPO!!! Through more n more words... She had started to reveal more n more ugly side of her... Unknowingly to her it seems... Or she doesnt care anymore, since she was attached to a so called "Perfect" man of her life...

Ahhh... Old tricks liao lah... At 1st act nice nice, win ppl's heart... After tt show ur ugly side, then start quarrel liao right.... tsk tsk tsk...

I had a sudden gush of so much emotions jus be4 i left the office... Perhaps it was due to e stress i had, after leading a meeting for 3 hrs...

I came back, read more... I came upon a usual part, where Hippo broke down again coz of her family, she asked ppl not to look down on her... But she also added tt if ppl find out e real story, they wun...

Oh pls...

Ive had a miserable life as well... My mum was screaming n crying e other night, saying all sorts of nasty stuff at me... I told SHuzhen about it on msn, but tts all i did... I didnt haf to do tt, coz she isnt the kind who will console ppl well, or at least to me... I didnt cry...

I used to cry alot alot... Same as Hippo... But all these things happened for reasons... Learnt from it girl!!! For goodness sake, u r even older than me...

I was beated n abused even till my poly days, and there was one particular night during yr 3, when my mum started to beat me up, coz of money in e middle of e night...

I cried, i wanted to leave...

I wanted to find my bf...

I wanted to go to my Dad's place...

I wanted to break away...

But i didnt... I grit my teeth and stayed... I told myself, i can tolerate... I didnt even tell my best fren, close fren or watever... I still went to sch next day, wif injuries... Ive been thru worst... Tis is jus part of my life that i mus endure with... My bf knew about it... Wat did he do? Nothing...

Point is, if u trip and fall, u pick urself up again... Tats e whole point of having mistakes... Of having problems...

At the end of the day... Accept it, no one is going to lend u a hand, no one is going to console u, not even ur husband, bf, parents, siblings... U jus haf to pick up the pieces urself...

Not everyone is blessed with complete families... Even some who are, complained that they dun communicate lah, tis n tt... More than 50% of the families in Sg are incomplete, and they r on the rise, mind u!

I can tell u arh, i will trade in 50 yrs of my life, jus to haf a family... I do not mind not having frenz, not having best frenz, not having bf, or any relationships... One thing i yearned for most, is FAMILY! Which is a word so far fetched i will never ever see...

How would u feel whenever u try to tell ppl ard u, ur problems n all... They tell u, Im sorry, really cant help... Ur situation is really hopeless...

Maybe its my bad kharma for only knowing ppl who do not put in their efforts... When, i always go all out for them... Maybe its my bad kharma from my previous life that i am going thru shit... Maybe ive not been a gd fren, maybe ive not done enuff... Maybe i do not care enuff... Maybe i, maybe i...

Whenever theres a prob, even though i noe ive already done my best... But i tell e other party, that maybe its my fault, for not being able to communicate better... I always point e finger to myself... And i improve...

But do ppl even tell me they are wrong too? Do ppl even consider their doings? Ive been waiting n waiting n waiting for certain resolutions... But they never came... Tts e thing wif ppl, when u tell them its ur fault, though ur intention is to trash things out n solve it.... Ppl get happy tt U SAID ITS UR FAULT NOT MINE, they grinned silently... And then start attacking u... Telling u all e nastiest things... They will tell u, yalor, u tis u tt... Tis is jus one very true aspect of the weaknesses in human...

And i tell myself, y shd i try so hard? Y shd i try so hard to make so much efforts wif these insensitive, full of themselve brats?

I noe ive digressed...

I jus cant see eye to eye wif some ppl... I can forgive u if u r still studying, playing ur way ard... But come on, most haf already grow up... It is high time u reflect on urself... Instead of inflicting e coz on others!

I see her NO UP!

Pick urself up dude, sympathy will not work forever...

Tats for ur personal stuffs part...

For ur HIPPO n evil n backstabbing, i do not even wan to comment on it... Im not e one getting hurt, others are... Think of e seed u spreaded when u decide to do things, which will affect others greatly... U may think they will never find out, but trust me... WHAT COMES AROUND, GOES AROUND!

Like e old saying goes, "life comes in a full circle", u will see ur bad kharma one day... I do hope u embrace it, and not blame it on others then... If tts e case, then im sorry to see u haf basically led a selfish, and insensitive life which u deemed will be meaningless...

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

WAR IS COMING - EXCLAIMED JUL

Early in e morning, when i was so busy... Jul suddenly msg me thru msn and told me war is coming... The end is nearing... etc etc...

Being e usual ignorant self, i hurried down my office building and saw tis!













I saw soldiers preparing their weapons... And i thought i was dreaming... I stared at the comotion for awhile... Then my Boss called my hp, "Celes arh, see finish liao quickly come up, i need u to do some filing!"...


To her disappointment... I never managed to get back... Coz the soldiers took me away...




They hid me inside for awhile... While the war is going on... I screamed and screamed till my throat hurts... But to no vail... Finally, a kind soldier unlocked my cell, and took me away...


I thot i was to go back to work...

But i was wrong...



They took me into a old mansion, where there is tis rusty old heavy metal door... Kept in secret... Nobody in e world know about it...




Then, they transported me deep underground...


For a moment, i thought i was going to hell...




Seconds turn to minutes,
Minutes turn to hrs,
Hrs turn to days,
Days turn to weeks,
Weeks turn to months,
Months turn to years...




We worked very hard underground, serving the soldiers...




Eggs and bacons were luxuries served only to the soldiers... Our hair got so long, but we cant cut it... To avoid being tangled to dangerous stuffs... We plaited it...



Pappy got so old, that his black hair all turned white... And he was tortured, being stretched by a stretching machine...



At last, my last days of my life... Waiting to die on my bed... As I see my Pappy one last time, whimpering by my bed side... I rest my soul...


Peace everyone! Peace! V

(At least theres a bed, ive been sleeping on mattresses all my life!)

Monday, August 29, 2005

My Com Is Up and Running! Thks to your truly!

Yup, i singlehandedly fixed my com, even though i noe nuts about it...

Y?

Coz i couldnt find anyone nice enuff to help me reformat my com, claiming its too troublesome...

TROUBLESOME?

I spent bloody 12 hrs burning my files... I spent another half a day fixing my com... Nvm...

There goes my weekend, anyway...

My com is infected with 15 virus threats... Which i painstakingly, removed them manually... Coz somehow, my norton jus doesnt work, even though i updated e definitions myself...

For those who never tried be4, its not locating the exe file and delete it so simple... U haf to search for a list of all files, registries, dll, etc, tt e virus will possible create in ur system... And u can only delete them in safe mode... Then after deleting all the obvious files...

U haf to look deep in ur registry... I tell u, i basically drowned inside... Its so huge and messy, tt a human can basically get lost in the numbers...

Switching between safe mode, normal mode, safe mode, normal mode is crazy...

I do not knoe how to set up a proper firewall... E last one i did, drastically slowed my com down... So its not feasible...

Left with no choice, i tackled my com myself... With e risk of either making it work, or crashing it totally... I wasnt even done backing up my data then...

This is e time when u think... Money truly make the world goes round...

If i pay u, still troublesome or not?

...

If i was to get married, 1st requirement, do u noe SIM LIM SQ inside out?, 2nd requirement, "Can u DIY e whole pc, and reformat, n maintain it, n etc...?"...

If ans is Yes to both, then i'll marry u... Dun worry, i can fixed appliances myself, i will cook too, but u wash e dishes hor?

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Oh No!

I think my com is crashing... Coz i think its infected somewat... I may disappear for awhile...

Need to backup my 30GB of files inside... Oh man, how e hell am i going to do tt with jus cdrs? Sigh...

Cya soon...

I hope...

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

3DSENSE MEDIA SCHOOL INVITED TO PIXAR ANIMATION STUDIOS

For the animation freaks... I copied this from my email... Thot of sharing with those who haf e interest...

There are nice pictures... I'll upload the pictures when i get home...

Meanwhile... Jus read thru...

3dsense Media School invited to PIXAR ANIMATION STUDIOS
on tie ups,collaborations and a discussion on 3dsense Animation Diploma Programmes


4 Aug 2005 , Emeryville CA

The footprints are vivid.And they are real. Reality bites.Definitely truly mesmerising.

3dsense Media School sets foot into the soils of Pixar Animation Studios, notably one of the best Animation Studios in the world, known to mankind, and charts yet another remarkable milestone in her historical diary.Under the roof of this US$100 million custom-architected building of bolts and nuts, creativity is experienced first hand.



Team 3dsense Outside PIXAR Animation Studios.


An afternoon with Character Animators Andrew Gordon (Advisor of 3dsense Media School), Victor Navone, the one who rose to stardom for ¡®Alien Song' (Speaker, 3D Passion 2005) and Director Ralph Eggleston, the one who art directed ¡®Finding Nemo' (and directed "For the birds" amongst many other Pixar Films) was totally fairy tale. The story began with a hearty lunch comprising burgers and fries from Pixar's caf¨¦. From the curriculum of 3dsense Diploma programme to little chats on Singapore and the digital media industry, the afternoon air reek of scents of joy and laughter.

After lunch, Andrew and Victor played hosts to the team from 3dsense who listened attentively to their guided tour. Light hearted, entertaining, truly fantastic. The trip was greeted by many other equally renowned Pixar ¡®crusaders' who so valiantly won the hearts of many Pixar fans and aspiring CG artists. The engagement was truly animated; the learning curve massively steep. Every nook and corner of Pixar presents abundant learning opportunities, from the Exhibit halls of the latest movie, ¡®The Incredibles' to the highly polished and decorated work stations of the Animators. The nifty woodcraft bookshelf inside Andrew's workstation that leads to a custom-designed casino and mini-bar manifests the creative autonomy Pixar affords her team of Animators. Undoubtedly, this is Pixar Animation Studios, the brainchild of ¡®Toy Story', ¡®Bugs Life', and ¡®Monsters Inc', ¡®Finding Nemo', just to name a few.


Left:Pixar Animator Victor Navone, Centre: Pixar Director Ralph Eggleston, Right: 3dsense Education Director Lai Kok Sen


Inside Andrew's working area, the team from 3dsense Media School , further discussed on possible tie ups, initiatives and more importantly, the curriculum of the school, which whould make her globally competitive. Andrew was heartened by works of our inaugural first batch of Diploma in Digital Visual Effects and Animation Students, on the note that the school focuses on independent film, Group film as well as a specialization module throughout the school's intensive fulltime programme, was lauded by even Ralph Eggleston, who directed PIXAR's ¡°For the birds¡±. Further discussion regarding other possible initiatives was carried out in terms of raising the bar for the standard of the school.

It was always difficult to pen an ending to a great story. Nevertheless, realism contradicts eternity. Knowing that we left with bags of knowledge and information truly beneficial to 3dsense and her students are the best takeaway from this visit to Pixar. Special thanks to Andrew Gordon, Victor Navone and Ralph Eggleston for the wonderful time. These are truly magical moments. Most importantly, this opens yet another new chapter of 3dsense involvement with Pixar and her great team of CG artists.

In the end, the school was also presented a limited edition of hand signed poster by PIXAR's Mr Teddy Newton, more recently known for as the writer for ¡°Jack Jack Attack¡±, a short created from ¡°The Incredibles¡±. 3dsense and all her students now await anxiously Victor Navone's visit to Singapore in October 2005 and his Masterclass session to our students.

More important and exciting initiatives are tied up during this trip and will be announced in weeks to come. So hold on tight, as 3dsense Media School notches forward again with our tie ups with animators from PIXAR Animation Studios !!!

This is truly a magical and a happy ending.




Sounds like they truly enjoyed their trip yah? We'll see how the industry move from now on... But as a bystander for me, i guess... We'll see...



Sunday, August 21, 2005

Naruto Figurines Keychains

I went to get a tub of cdrs yest, initially i wanted to get 100, then i realised e price is jus a dollar diff compared to get 2 50, so i only bought 50 in e end... Not enuff then buy again lor... Dun waste...

I also bought a 2 tier drawer...

Then i went to get hp screen protector but to no avail...

Then i went to e VCD shop to confirm e price n check e stocks of the 1st 2 LOTR ext. DVDs, about $120. 20 bucks lower than wat i expected...

I saw Romeo & Juliet again, i like e movie in e past... So thot of getting it... 2 for $18 for vcds... I took it and search ard but i couldnt find another one tt im interested in, so i got to let it go in e end...

Then i went to look for some Shaman King stuffs to collect... But found nothing... Then jus when i was about to leave... I saw a packet of a set of Naruto Figurines...

Its so cheap, $4.80 for a set of 5 characters... Last pack...

Hmm, so i bought it... Its e same concept like e previous inuyasha set i bought... But the inuyasha one cost much more...

The pieces are much bigger than my inuyasha set... And e quality is better, e characters are realistic and not distorted... They even haf another item attached to them... Though i dun particularly love them, but i like it tt they haf e characters real, instead of those ugly, skinny, distorted ones...


Wa lao, bring my inuyasha to shame man... So much bigger at a much cheaper price... My inuyasha is baby version somemore, and hair wrong color...

Ok, show u e pics...


Naruto, and tt frog, forgot his name... Haha...




Sasuke, so handsome, and his stupid evil barrel...




Neji... And his konoha forehead protector... Dun u find Neji and e girl look like ghosts when they use their technique... Their eyes are so scary... Make them look old somemore...




Chouji in his bloated technique form and wat potato chips? ... Its funny how when Chouji nearly died, he became slim again... At least we know how Chouji looks like when hes slim eh? Quite gd looking...




Arh, Shikamaru and tt Kakashi doggie, duno y attached to him... But tt dog is done very well, it looked exactly e same, and i like e way they pose Shikamaru...




And lastly, KAKASHI when hes young... So cute right??? I like!!! Wa, he underage read tt sexual novel, Flirting Paradise liao... Haha, no gd... DUno wats tt bear mask about? Never see in e show leh...


I like Kakashi, though all not my fav... Coz e only one i really hope to haf is GAARA...

I love him to bits ... He is so pitiful... Feel so sad for him... And somehow, hes jus so charming... Although when he grew alittle, he starts to lose e charming part of him... Duno y...

Till tis stage im watching, all of them grew taller abit, and abit more mature liao...

I actually prefer e adult ninjas... I find them more interesting, even though these young lads are supposed to be e leads... Haha...

I wan Gaara!!!! I saw a baby Gaara on a purple hp strap... Very sweet, but useless leh...

Pappy has slept with me on my mattress beside me for 2 nights liao... So cute... But i put alarm clock at 530am to bring him out, coz my room dun haf toilet for him... Haha...

Saturday, August 20, 2005

LOTR - Return Of The King

This is all about the dvd... So if u arent into e show, dun even start reading...

Ive watched the extended version... Finally! Ive waited like, 2 yrs? The show went from a 3 hrs film to a crazy 4 hrs and 10 mins extended one... Im not so hero now liao, i watched it separately, since it was separated into 2 disc anyways...

I couldnt get used to it initially... Coz the show became different, story, approach, even the soundtrack had been remade specially...

Even their voice became different... It was more raw this time... Which made me appreciate the fact, i will keep both e theatre version n extended version... I had actually intended to throw away the theatre version... Haha, coz of obvious reasons but i wun say it here...

For those of u who had fallen asleep during LOTR 3... U better dun ever attempt to watch tis... Coz after watching tis, ive realised how fast paced the theatre version was... Haha... Even though i of coz, didnt fall asleep when i went to e cinema... I went to watch 5 times, mind u!!!

Yes, i am tt obsessed!!!

Some story updates:

1) Saruman died, he was stabbed by Worm tongue and fallen to his death, Worm tongue died as well...

It happened in the 1st part of e show, i was so shocked, coz he didnt die in the theatre version, and he died quite gruesomely...

2) Aragon sort of did flirted with Eowyn... Which i find it absolutely unneccessary of him for some actions since he seemed to be leading her on... Then again, he thought his gf had left (gone to undying lands)... SO…

3) Eowyn fell in love with Faramir at Minas Tirith (I was right after all but no one believed me last time), it was love at 1st sight for Faramir... They held hands and cuddled each other (sort of)... Which was quite funny for e flow of e story, no wonder tt part was taken out...

4) Eowyn nearly died after killing the witch king... When her bro, Eomer, found her body among e corpse after e battle (before Pippin found Merry), he was so devastated... See liao heart pain leh... Aragon nursed her of coz, and she started breathing and woke up... Meanwhile tt scene, a song was playing, sung by Liv Tylor... 1st time leh...

5) Gandaf's staff was shattered to pieces by the witch king, he nearly died at Minas Tirith, before he went to save Faramir who was nearly burnt to death alive by his Denethor... Which i had wondered about also, since his staff was missing for e rest of e movie...

6) Sauron sent out one character to tok to Aragon n gang at the black gates (after Aragon shouted, "Let the lord of the black gate come forth!" something like tt)... ANd tis character is creepy, he looked scary... He's called Mouth of Sauron but hes not a orc, hes actually a human being turned evil, something like tt... I found out about tis when i saw their documentary on...

7) There were additional scenes to show the Dimholt Mountain... Inside the cave of the army of dead... It was creepy, lots n lots of skulls... They used 60,000 skulls i think... E whole cave collapsed wif skulls flowing out... Yucks... After Aragon said "What say u?" The scene continues, it didnt end there... SO it was interesting...

Ok, these r some major updates... Its totally different from the extended 1st 2... 1st 2 are like more add ons... But this one, as mentioned was done fr scratch again, and they called in e actors to do some additional scenes last yr jus to put it in e special...

E whole trilogy took 7 yrs to complete...

They mentioned that they haf scenes of how Theodred (Dead son of Theoden – King of Rohan) died… But they didn’t put it in Two Towers coz they thought audience wouldn’t be interested… Haha, then Peter Jackson joked tt, he’ll include it in the 25 anniversary… They mentioned a lot of scenes tt they wanted to add on, but when yrs later when they are going to do it, they will be too old to even remember they shot those in e 1st place… So funny right…

Wat captured me most about e show are e documentaries… Many hrs of documentaries about the show… It was jus so complete… From the documentary on Tolkien, I tell u, I am so moved by his story… And they explained everything, which made me really wan to read e book… To the sets, designs, pre production, production, post production, Weta, and even 3d demonstrations…

Seeing how passionate they are with their work, they simply moved me to tears… I cried at least once to all of the documentaries… Coz everyone was jus so into their work, u can tell…

Everyone weeped, the documentary was so emotional when it came to e end…

I knoe ppl will say I trying to exaggerate, so I wun touch on e details… U will see it if u ever watch it, if u dun… So be it… I know I dun regret watching them…

It was so detailed till u feel you went thru the whole journey with them… They explained so much, tt made me realized even much more about e show… If u think its jus a adventure movie about a ring… Well, I guess u jus couldn’t see it… And u haf insulted Tolkien greatly… Even though, for fimling purpose, the story was already broken down so much simpler, compared to the original, but some ppl jus dun get it… Maybe they jus dun like to think…

Tolkien’s Lord Of the Rings trilogy wasn’t called the most complicated and difficult piece of literature in the world for nothing… Even till now, many professors still cant understand the novel fully, coz of the enormous amount of details… And hidden agendas fr his other bks…

Tolkien’s love story, again, moved me to tears…

Theres tis special documentary on tis young lad, Cameron something… Whom inspired the Osacr winning song, Into the West… He was a extremely young talented 16 yrs director, a New Zealander… He started filming ever since a young kid, and had since won several awards… E quality he churned out was just simply, UNBELIEVABLE… U got to see it to know it…

Jack Peterson noticed tis young lad, but eventually he died due to cancer, even before they could completed e return of the King…

His story n short movies are so amazing that it brought me to tears… His works are something u will never ever find in Singapore… He is tt talented, but unfortunately, he couldn’t battle out against fate…

U knoe sometimes when u keep crying continuously for a long time, u ended up wif a sharp pain like a headache? Yea, tt was what happened to me, I had to take panadols in the end…

Tis is not about I crazy or not… It is the fact that it was so emotional… And u can feel everyone’s (ppl behind e scenes) heartfelt fire… Ive heard numerous amazing things about e team that they haf, but seeing it in details was a whole other picture…

Like wat they said, this was an amazing journey which had became legendary…

One word to describe the DVD, “PHENOMENON”

But even tt is an understatement… Dun believe? Watch it!


I am so going to get the other 2, when i get my pay... My colleagues are crazy over LOTR too, they are always toking about it... Even the games... Haha, its so happy when u meet the ppl who share the same interests...

Friday, August 19, 2005

Superstar - KELONG!!!

Kelong one lah, superstar... I see liao wan to vomit blood... My sis was so affected tt she couldnt sleep last night... Haha... Then she ended up chatting wif me till 2am... I am damn tired now u noe... Cannot like tis liao next time...

Though we all know tt its so obvious they wan to make Kelly win, but then, cannot do it until so kelongly right... Think audience no eyes, no ears, above all, NO BRAINS arh?

Mus be her poly juniors lah, all crazy one... Go MRT give out her flyers... One even voted 60 calls... Young ppl nowadays... All blind, so biased... So undertable...

Eeee... Pui!

My colleague saw liao also sian, he switched off e TV... Hahaha...

I knew Kelvin (e blind) will win, even though Shuzhen kept saying impossible... Haha, coz i knoe how majority of the voters work... Coz i watched Singapore Idol mah...

But now its super sian, nothing to look foward to on the finals... It will be so boring to see one who cannot sing, and the other one, jus not suitable for big stage performance...

And to think Kelly's rendition of Angela's Yi Shi De Mei Hao will be released next week... Totally screwed e song man...

And during Xin Hui's last song on the stage, Kelly still go up there, stand with her, sway with her, and cry cry cry... Duno wat she thinkin...

We'll see how far she goes... Perhaps she suddenly magically tranform her voice? Or like Jolin Tsai who had her voice tuned using computers for her album...

I now then post tis entry, already 556pm, im going home to enjoy my weekend!!!!

Today got things to do... No time to post... Heh...

BLog again soon...

Thursday, August 18, 2005

Lunch - Sliced Fish Soup Wif Rice

Tis is the most troublesome lunch i had since ive started working here...

Oh btw, HAPPY 1 MTH WORKING ANNIVERSARY TO ME!

Yah, i work for bloody so long liao, n today i realised only one mth... Times passes so slow eh? One more mth for probation... Yea, my probation 2 mths only...

Anyways, back to the lunch...

Tis time, the food came in those packets... Since its wet, i would haf to empty it into a bowl... Troublesome leh... I went to the pantry, got myself a huge scary bowl... Poured the soup and splashed all over the basin... Nvm, i kena some on my pants somemore... Luckily, its black...

Then i went back to my table, put e bowl on e newspaper. Then when i tried to shift it, e soup splashed out all over... Luckily got newspapers... And luckily my work not underneath... Coz sometimes i jus put e newspapers on my work, and put my food on top... Coz wun really stain mah, got e plastic containers tt u takeaway...

Aiyah. I had a messy lunch, and i ate e slowest coz of e packaging... It was a huge bowl... I wanted to leave some soup behind... But then throw where? Toilet bowl? Basin? Sigh, forget it, i poured it into my throat... And when i did tt, e soup poured on myself... *faintz*

After everything, i got to use my wet tissue to wipe the whole table...

I went back to the pantry to wash e bowl, then i saw dirty cups in the basin... Biangz... See liao so eye sore... Aiyah, wash lah... Help them wash... Guys dun wash cups... Wat to expect? Nvm lah... Few cups only... But i becum wet wet... Hahahha...

Ok la, since nothin much to do, quite new for a change...

When u eat alone arh, no matter how i take my time, i always finished my food in less than 10 mins... Which of coz, the guys will like finish their food in 5... Normal 1 hr lunch in other companies becum 15 mins finished and back to worK...

Ive decided to bring some milo 3 in 1 to the office... Then i can drink when im bored... They haf coffee and tea but i dun like...

Now my stomach big big containing e huge bowl of soup... FULL ALERT!!!!

Nuanuanua

Jul is nuanuanuaing on her msn...

Sigh... But bloody hell, she confirm got things to do one lor...

Guess wat, i got abosolutely nothing to do today!!! ZERO!!!

Y? Coz my boss left the office!!!

I duno whether will be be back... When shes not ard, i got nothing to do... Coz im assisting her mah...

Website cannot do... Then wat?

sob sob sob sob sob sob sob...

Then noe wat im doing now besides bloggin? Im updating my windows... Haha... But my windows got prob... Sigh... Scared crash, but i backup abit le...

Yesterday, i watched some Naruto... I thot the episodes i missed got show Rock Lee's operation, but dun haf leh... Hmm...

Then i watched till the part where Rock Lee display his drunken fists, aka taijitsu, so funny... Hes a mix of Bruce Lee and Jackie Chan!!!

Duno y anime like to imitate Bruce Lee one leh... Shaman King also haf... Lee Pai Long instead of Lee Xiao Long... But hes a zombie... Then very funny, he died the same way as the real Bruce Lee, both shot to death...

But Bruce different lah, he was shot during movie acting, somebody replaced the props gun with a real one and killed him... Eh? Or isit his son arh? The Crow? Alamak, i forgotten... Haha... Either one lah, shot to death by e gun...

But his son was gd, i like the crow, or at least those parts before they replaced him...

Shaman King got show their version of Bruce's movies in a cinema... Acted by Pai Long, then damn funny, their broken mandarin... I had to replay n replay to finally hear wat they r trying to say... And i kept laughing thru out...

Ok, to be continued... Got to restart com...

Back, continue...

Where was i?

So anyways, Naruto i watch till Gaara n grp come saved them... Then i stopped, got to sleep... My dark circles are getting more n more horrible... Duno y... And today i forgot to conceal it, so i look scary... But hack lah, like i care...

The last 1 week plus of graphic works nearly turned me into a blind panda... Seriously, i couldnt see much things when im out... Everything is so blurry... And i got worried... Coz i hope to never wear specs or contacts in my life...

Fortunately, the graphic work ended... And it will take some time for it to be intensive again... So after a few days of normal work, my vision appeared clearer... Heng arh!!! Funny hor, im still using the com full time as usual... But jus becoz im not doing graphic, my eye sight became better...

But i guess how it goes... Its normal i heard...

Ok la... I go find things to do... Tok later...

Daily Horoscope From My Yahoo Mail

- Various and sundry personal issues might be on your mind today, Celestine Seow. You could well want to work them all out without any distractions, so you just might decide to spend part of the day alone. Responsibilities from the outside world, however, might make it impossible for you to take as much time for yourself as you would like. Don't let this get to you. Just work out the matters that seem most pressing, then save the rest for later.




How true how true... Oh man, sometimes i wonder how they do this??? Just by watching the movement of the stars????

E thing about tis particular horoscope service is tt, almost daily, i read something bad or negative about myself, or things tt are not smooth... Yea, wat a way to start my day... However, its more realistic dun u think?

Other than hearing, wow, u will meet someone of ur life, wow, u r in e limelight, wow, everything is in ur favour, which never ever come true anyways...

Not say i believe or not... I read it not really for fun, but coz they sent to me daily for free, haha... Since its jus a short paragraph, at least i can take few seconds since i haf nothin much to do eh? Haha...

Jus tt, occassionally, it creeps me out, when wat they said, is so true for the day...

Oh well... All e silly gimmicks...

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Lunch - Huge Malay Food

My colleague bought Malay rice for me... Wah lao, e rice so much i can eat 3 meals... So scary... But the food is gd though, i 1st time eat... Just abit wasteful... He said scared i not full... Haha... Very ex though, its 4 bucks...

Usually my food 2-3 bucks... Today becum 4, hmm, shall not eat tt so often... I wanted to eat Curry one, but he never go there... So i duno wat to eat, then follow their choices...

Jialat lah, i do their website till meet quota liao, so i cannot continue, unless we remove some old stuffs or increase the quota... Kept calling the design firm, and they quoted me crazy rates... So ex for a ugly design and a small space... Siao...

Then my Boss said tis weekend then she review e site and see how...

Then how? Meanwhile i got nothin to do liao leh... She asked me do letterhead... I finished liao, 8 designs...

Sian sian sian sian...

This week is super slow... Hw to tahan like tt??? But lucky wed liao... If its still mon, i will die...

Felt Better

Felt slightly better today. A few episodes of Naruto i missed from e last series i borrowed, and some rest, helped me abit...

My mood is not so tense anymore...

And bloody hell, i am blogging in the office!!! Mus be itchy backside... Not scared kena scolded arh? Duno leh... Haha...

Ranting over, though e main issue is still there, but dun worry... I'll get it all sorted out... I definately will... Since i haf been getting over things myself over the past yrs anyways... I will come back better and STRONGER!!!

I jus need some time n space to overcome certain aspects of my weakness...

Shuzhen passed me the rest of e Naruto series... So i'll be mugging to e pc extensively again...

As i expected, Chouji and Neji are saved... Hahaha...

I received a sad truth from her though... In the manga... GAARA (my fav character) died!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Alamak... How can? I was so depressed...

But lucky anime changed sotry arh... Gd gd...

For my bday, i received Ang Bao from my mum n sis... So i can tide thru this mth... Haha, since i took last mth's pay to get my hp...

Alright... Back to work...

Back to the boring, web!!!!

Arrrhhhh... Sianz...

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

HAPPY BELATED 21ST BDAY TO CELESTINE!

Yeah, to myself...

Its over now. Finally... It was on Sunday btw... I cant explain whether it was happy or not, coz i myself, am bloody hell confused... I haf mixed feelings...

Guess wat SHuzhen gave me? LOTR EXT DVD RETURN OF THE KING! Original leh, mind u!!!!

SO nice, im going to buy the other 2 when i get my tis mth's pay.

I love their packaging, i like!!!

............................

I didnt noe wat happy things to blog here... Coz im feeling damn fuck up right now, and i cant let it all out...

Sigh...

I need some time to get over my issues. I need a new avenue...

.............................

Ive decided to start another blog. A confidential one... This time, it will be the real me wif real thots...

Who the hell will genuinely wan to know the real me, my real thots...

YES! NO ONE!!! None at all...

Come on lah, lets face it, ppl will only be concerned with their own troubles... Who the hell go all the way for one another in these days... They only wan others to hear them out, accompany them, but when e table turn ard, they will run away...

When my fren was down, i spent nights n nights sleepless to tok tt person over, spent so many days going out, accompany tt person even till late nights till i take midnight cabs home even when i was broke...

But when i needed someone, tt person made up some excuse and ended my call...

Bloody hell...

More examples? I have so many, and many often which i cant even say it here...

???: Hey, how haf u been?

Me: Not very gd.

???: Oh ok.

???: So anyways, wat did u do today?

Me: .............

Another one.

!!!: How have u been?

Me: Not gd.

!!!: Hmm, cheer up.

!!!: So how was ur weekend? Had fun?

Me: -______________________-"

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I'll still blog here... Everything will be the same, just like some decisions i have to make, i will still appear the same on the outside... But not anymore the old self...

Of coz, ppl are always only concerned superficially, who the hell would even bother wat i really write... Ppl only wan to read happy things, see happening entries...

And when at times i write more serious stuffs, they complain its too long lah, say i too boring lah... Tis n tt... Worst, say i so negative... Like Wat THE????

When u depressed, u write sad stuff, ppl say u negative... When u happy write happy stuffs, ppl say u so gd life... Bloody hell...

Nvm...

I noe, no matter how much effort i make, nobody will see the real me, ppl always misunderstand me, even when i never do anything...

Since even the closest can misunderstand and can still misjudge, i dun see any reason y i shd make my life so miserable by trying so hard...

I am trying so hard for ppl to see ME... But unfortunately, ppl only sees wat they pressumed... If i dun even try, ppl either see me as a fucked up bitch and spread crazy rumours about me, if not a tough and extremely difficult to get along wif coz i never compromise, if not, they will see me as a damn rich spoilt girl... DAMN, where e hell they pressume all these fr???

2 WORDS:

GIVEN UP...

Friday, August 12, 2005

Bday Dinner @ Orchard Hotel

I had my early bday dinner with my mum, big sis, and her hubby at Orchard Hotel just now... 2nd sis cannot make it, as usual...

Funny thing is, for the other days where i do not have plans, i leave work at 6pm on the dot, today i actually left at 640pm... Haha... So unlucky right... So i met them directly at 7pm whereby they picked me at my blk area... I wanted to go home and rest awhile 1st u noe... Lucky they come pick me, if not i sure late if take MRT...

I bloody hell forgot to bring my huge water bottle today, jus becoz i placed it at a different location today... Bloody hell...

Anyways, i haf one mth free of silly BYEBYE RING RING service... So instead of e usual dial tone u hear when u call me, u hear ppl toking and or music... So, those who didnt understand English, quickly ended e call coz they thot they went into my voicemail...

Ended up my phone bill increased, coz i haf to call them back... Once or twice is ok, but not every time mah... Incoming is free, out going is limited...

I think tis is how they make money...

Back to e dinner...

Dinner is great, never had the international buffet or Orchard Hotel before... Its nice... But u can only get a place thru reservation, u seldom get seats... Nice hotel, nice lobby, but bad lounge singers, similar to e girls from superstar... Not tt it matters, i jus heard them when i went to e toilet... Haha...

There is one oyster section, where the chef open each oyster on e spot for u... I ate 4... I went back to e table n said e next following rubbish.

"His job is terrible hor, everyday stand there open oysters... So tough to open!"

After it came out fr my mouth, i realised i said stupids things...

"Of coz got shifts one mah!" My bro in law shouted...

Haha, yalor...

The food isnt excellent, but gd enuff... Next time, i mus find a fren to sample every singapore hotel's food... Wahahah, tt shall be my lifetime goal... In fact, i had already been to quite many... So my journey shall continue when i find one zhi1 ying1...

To find a fren to sleep in every sg gd hotels is really impossible enuff... But i think food shd be reasonable right? After all, its not tt ex...

Tmr got to wake up early, duno wan to watch Shaman King later or not...

Tis yr's bday, i dun haf celebration, so wat if its 21, doesnt make any difference anyway... In fact, i already had a celebration mah, at Shuzhen's bday, jus imagine myself in her shoes can liao...

But of coz, i'll be going out with her... Meeting her tmr for ktv, dinner, then movie (Charlie & the Choc factory) but i heard tt show sucks leh... Nvm lah, go see my idol can liao... Haha... Then i wan to get some stuffs, and also take some pics, and laze ard city hall and my fav spot then take night rider back... Abit pathetic right... Nvm lah...

Sun's program's still pending...

My big sis gave me a crystal pendant, my fav Swarovski brand... I like, but i may need to get a chain... See how bah... And its a amethyst butterfly, my fav color besides green, and my fav butterfly... Cool~

Tmr i go hospital 1st, get my father's letterbox keys and his housing installment n misc payment booklets, to get his bills and pay for him...

Sian leh, got to take cab there, then most prob take cab to orchard... Sigh... Got to pay alot of surcharges leh...

But then, if i dun do it, nobody will... So i haf to do it no matter wat...

I go tmr coz i dun wan to go on my bday, very bu ji2 li4...

Time passes so soon hor, when everyone ard me turned 21, i thot mine still far away... And everyone can do certain things while i still cant... Like go watch R21 movies, not tt i haf a prob wif it anyway, i go watch R21 movies all these yrs... But then going there knowing tt they check ur IC and also bo chap them is soo soo different...

Haha...

Ok la, shall stop here... Blog more again... I haf many things i wan to say... But not enuff time... No choice lah, work liao is lidat...

Forgot to mention, i very full leh, then kena motion sickness, coz long journey, then return journey they go for long spins... Wan to collapse inside liao, my gastric juice already flow to my mouth... Sigh... When will i ever recover from tt???

Feel so sick... Blah...

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Forgotten & Others Stuffs

Forgotten The Way Where Light Once Shone,
Forgotten The Path Where One Belong,
Forgotten The Will To Live And Fight,
Forgotten The Pain And Sleepless Nights.

Forget Is What Most Man Will Do,
But Forget I Did Not,
Because Of You.

I received this message today. From a number unnamed in my phone. He messaged me yesterday to wish me a Happy National Day, and wished that i have been doing well recently.

I knew hes waiting for my reply.

But i won't. And i never will...

From the moment, i chose to delete certain named contacts, i had already decided to never ever return any replies to these ppl...

Unfortunately, to me, he is forgotten. Or shall i say, i do not even know who he is... Coz i have no idea.

But i gathered he should be one of those IRC guys i knew, whom i deleted in mass from my hp mths ago...

I made a pact to myself then. I do not wish to be involved with guys for some time... I just wan to be alone... In fact, i do not wish to be involved with anyone... I really just wan to be alone...

After being hurt so badly by friends, family, bfs... I wondered, why shd i even bother... If theres no involvement, there wont be any complications... In my life, i wish nothing more than just to be peaceful...

I dun mind doing boring stuffs, i dun mind leading a normal life, coz these r things i never seem to haf e privilege to haf...

But when i saw tat message... Something in me saved it... I just deleted it off my hp, i jus wan the message... Nothing else...

I know its a forwarded message, but i also know whoever he is, he did made some effort, coz he had a personal message after tt...

But then, i do not take my words back...

I do not know how long can i keep my "alone status", but nevertheless, i do not wish it to end so soon...

Initially, i intended to write a happy entry, coz i dun wan it to be tainted...

Nvm, shall write something else...

I found another working file that contained my overwritten works... So im saved in a way... For tt, its gd... Met a new staff from M'sia... Had been emailin him alot, he came over today to visit our office and to take his namecard nicely done by your truly... Heh...

Finally saw his face... Haha... He was sort of delighted to see me as well... Heh...

My Boss booked Hotel 81 for him, he'll be back to M'sia tmr...

I seriously think im destined to work in a Male Dominated Environment, as in those tt i am the only female there... Nvm lah, i dun work well wif females anyway... Cant stand their politics n gossips... Lame...

By the way, u knoe Singapore published tt book with photographs for its 40th Bday? Just to let u knoe, JAC KEE, he got two photos selected... And its in tt book... So he got it for free... Dun ask me wat pic he took, i duno, i only heard fr him tt its nature pics...

But hes damn proud of it... So i thot i'll say it here...

Guess wats e 1st thing i said when he told me his works got selected?

I asked...

GOT MONEY OR NOT???


Hahahahahaha... Damn funny right...

Of coz dun haf lah, he only got e book sent to him... Free...


Tmr i'll say something about Shaman King And Naruto... I also may wan to tok about my office toilet... We'll see...

Shuzhen going to lend me the rest of the Naruto series, oh no, means next week i wun be blogging again... Haha, who cares...

Monday, August 08, 2005

Im Loving It!

I jus cant stop loving my phone... Never haf i felt so much love left in me... Then again, i love everything i buy... Coz i got TASTE!!! Wahahaha...

My Pappy jus puked beside me... 2 TIMES SOMEMORE!!! After i cleared e 1st, which looked like gui tiao, he did it again, tis time it looked like shit... He can actually puke two kinds of food out, power sia...

Okok, forget wat i said... I jus had my dinner too... I had nasi lemak...

Wa, i showed my phone to my colleagues... TIs morning, when he came to pick me, i immediately told him i bought new hp... Not hao lian its coz, 2 weeks ago, suddenly, he said, "Eh Celes, change ur phone leh! So old liao, see liao sibei eye sore!", which i replied to him, "U sponsor me lor, i'll change!"...

Haha, so he was e 1st i told in e office... Then they played wif my phone... I showed them the AI features... Haha, cool arh... They were so bloody hell impressed... And of coz my LINUX OS is no kidding feat man... Even though its only 65K, u cant believe e quality of e screen...

After i told them how much, and e packaged i received, wif e wireless headset, extra batt etc... They were so hooked... Haha...

One colleague jus bought his O2 last week, he saw my hp on my desk while walkin pass me, and said, its beautiful...

Another one said, sibei swee...

Nice right... Wahahah... I am a happy girl today again...

Before i went home, tt O2 hp colleague said, tmr he go trade in... Haha...


But then hor, today not so gd...

The namecard and catalogue print out not gd leh... Not my fault, its e shop... Boss said next time, i go down better, coz i knoe... So my colleague said next time we 2 go together... But i scared motion sickness leh... Wait he find out, then he pick me up will be scared le next time...

Its my little secret...

Then hor, i accidentally overwritten my logo working files... Damn jialat, hope those wun be chosen, if not i'll haf to redo fr scratch... Duno Illustrator got cache one or not... Nvm, wed then check...

Have i said it?

Yes?

Dun Care!!!

I JUS LOVE MY PHONE TO BITS!!!

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Im Finally Done! Jul and Gang!

Yea, im done with Naruto temporarily... Im done wif e series i borrowed. Stopped at a weird point though, i stopped at the death of Neji. So sad... Duno Chouji and Neji really die or not... Nvm, i'll ask SHuzhen...

But then got 4 episodes missing, Epi 94, which is not really impt, it was part of a battle... E battle between Tsunade, Jiraiya, Orichimaru, Naruto, and tt medi squad guy, haha, forgot his name. Oh, and Shikune... Arh, something lidat lah...

Then, impt thing is missing epi 107-109... The parts where Sasuke turned to the dark side... Haha, sounds like star wars eh? And Rock Lee's operation...

Looks like i'll haf to continue on the manga from now on... But at least i can take my time...

Im now left wif 2 other series of anime, but those two i can take my own sweet time as well...

Oh, INUYASHA no more le... Be cek thing is, last epi no ending one... The evil ones not killed yet, and their mission not completed yet... Wat followed thru e ending, was thankin e audience for their 4 yrs of continuos support, and their manga will continue...

SO sad... Inuyasha no manga to read here... So i'll haf to imagine myself le... Sigh, nvm... Wait for their 4th movie to come here... But i doubt it will... Nvm...

INUYASHA shall end here... Saga completed... Chapter closed... Dun think about it anymore... At least its not an unwanted ended i saw from Qi Ling Wang (Chess Spirit)... Qi Ling Wang left me so unsatisfied with their ending... And though i continued to read e rest of the story thru manga, im still not happy... Not happy how they make the ending...

I went thru a tedious video workshop of illustrator CS2 at home jus now... Stress leh, but its interesting... Im beginning to get the hang of it... And im loving it... So gd arh, if during poly times got AI CS2, alot of assignments can be done so easily... Ive never learnt so much about Illustrator before... Definately opened my eyes...

Ok la, coz i used to be skeptical of tt software... But now, its really different... While photoshop pretty much stayed stagnant, Illustrator took a deep leap... Im totally impressed! Now freehand is pretty much losing itself, after its much talked about saga wif it being taken over by Adobe...

Sigh, we went thru e hard way man... Technology had made most of my stuffs obselete... But nvm la, tts life anyway...

I had a weird dream last night... I dreamt tt Rumei called... Then she jio me go genting wif their gang on sat and come back on mon, she asked me take Mon leave somemore... I told her cannot, i said i'll come back myself on sun... So means next day... They driving up with 2 cars... Wif her, Jul, Jian An, Jerric, Adriel, Jesper, etc... SOme not even my frenz, so funny... Duno y i dreamt of them... Maybe coz i haf been reading their blogs bah... Haha...

She called like 1+ am... Then they came down to my house to pick me... Actually only Jul and RM, e rest duno where yet... Packed my stuff like mad, then eventually, went wif them...

The original 6 hr journey became like 1 hr in my dream... After we reached, e place was like room temperature... Sianz... Then theres tis smart alec, who trys to act like he knoes e place so well... But then hes not anyone of e above i mentioned... DUno where he popped out...

Then we checked in to Theme Park Hotel, i was complaining... DUno y they picked tt... Ex and lousy... But the room is like an empty office, wif a whole lane of mattresses lined next to each other... E staff explained tis is e best hotel for big groups like us... Jus like campin...

Like real... We were sharing e place wif so many other big groups wif only ONE TOILET!!!

Then i duno wat happened le...

Next idiotic thing was, my dream repeated itself... So time wasting... But e ending's different tis time... Same thing, both gals came to my house, but tis time, somehow, things keep corkin up, preventing me from finish packing, etc...

Tis is weird... My 1st time dreaming of them... Haha...

But no Astra, haha, think maybe coz he not in sg la... So not possible to appear in my dream... Haha, duno la, its jus so weird...


Saturday, August 06, 2005

I'm In Love ~~~

With which guy?

Pui! Nope...

Im in love with my new hp!!!


MOTOROLA E680I, their latest hp...

Ok, stop telling me motorola no trade in value, i will never do it! Understand!

Besides, tis is my 1st time getting a moto phone... My prev was 2 panasonic and 1 samsung... I kept all of them...




I did a whole week of research in my office everyday for e past week before i set my hands on tis one... Even though my heart had already decided e moment i saw it... Wahahaha... My 1st phone tt is big... Usually my phone is those sleek sleek, small small, or got crytals one... But i like tis one, great features, appearance i can accept too, not so guy... And e price is within my range as well...

But lucky i tt day never go buy on impulse... I wanted to, but tat outlet no tis new model... Heng arh!

Today i went hor, got promotion! I saved 100 dollars... It went from 500+ to 400+... So happy... I signed 2 years of contract and they gave me $128 rebate somemore... Wahahhaha, i am a happy girl today!!!

Inside got one more extra batt!!! Wahahaha... Free wireless headset!!! Wahahahaha...

Happy happy happy...

And e theme inside got green color one!!! Wahahaaha...

I read e manual liao, coz never use moto be4...

U noe wat? My phone is a AI robot!!! I can talk to it... I say out the number, e phone will key in, i say "Dial Out", the phone call out for me... And tt robot (male voice) even can read out my messages, even those tt i short cut make no sense words... So cool~~~

Its a phone for lazy ppl!!!

And i love e handwrittin feature, so easy to type chinese now...

Wif e stylus, hand writting, voice commands, i believe i can never get a normal hand type phone again...

Definately a phone to keep for a long time... No regrets!!!

I also bought one small silk pouch, one make up pouch, one casual handbag, one hp holder, and 2 hair products... I couldnt find any suitable hp holder to put in my office... Nvm, anytime...

I encountered weird ppl and unhappy things today also, but its so common everyday for me till i find it nothin much liao... Haha, see how bah, maybe i blog again tmr or something... I going to watch finish e naruto later... Tmr got work to do...

Heh... But i felt very sad when i put my old phone into e box... I even took a long look at it before i closed e box... So sad!!! Nvm, next time when i got house, i display them out as antiques... Wahahah...

I AM SO MUCH IN LUVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV...................