Sunday, April 30, 2006

$2 Service Charge

Urgh, I forgot when im over 21, the stupid POSB would start charging me $2 service charge for below $500 savings...

Other banks would charge no matter wat age u r... So POSB was being nice... Lol, until my bday last yr of coz...

Damn it... Totally forgot...

And today is the 30th, so i just got deducted again!!!

I duno kena how many times liao... Bekcek...

But its my fault lah, i overlooked on tt... Nvm, at least i bloody hell definately will remember now.

Need to manage my accounts more properly now on...

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Extreme Makeover

Yest i dreamt of SZ again... I always dream of her one leh...

But majority of my dreams about her all turned out negatively one... Lol... And then i would sms her wat i dreamt and she always either say, "Its just a dream." or "So funny." or "Y u dream of such things?"...

Like how i last time dreamt tt we had a big quarrel and then in a pub or something, we made up by *eh hem* making out... She nudged her head over and we had tis deep smoldering wet kiss... Hahahah...

And i still remember e aftertaste somemore... It was so vivid coz it was so shocking... I kissed girls be4 but never a wet one... I gotta admit while it was kinda sweet in e dream, coz we made up but it was somewat creepy... Haha...

As much as i can be physically close to other girl frenz (like holding arms etc), but i just can never do it wif her... In fact, the 1st time i held her hand was like only 2 yrs ago when we were at Genting... No idea y... But i told her tt there is tis barrier wif her... Hahahah...

Even when crossing arms abit purposely, i still felt it was weird...

Maybe becoz i noe she is not e physically close kind of person so i cant bring myself doing it... Wouldnt i be a perfect bf if i was a guy, it means if my gf is a virgin i wouldnt haf sex wif her? Then again, if i am guy, then things would be different... Hahaha...

I told her about e kiss and shockingly she replied, "U actually think it is OK for us to kiss in ur dream?"...

Then after some exchange, she said, "Well, we can try it in real life to find out how its like." or something along tt line... I remained silent for awhile coz i was doing some things and she then sent me another msg, saying, i can ignore e prev msg... Hahaha...

I replied n said, "No need to find out, i already noe."... But truth be told, it was a gd kiss, i guess u wouldnt dream of having horrible kisses... Unless maybe u haven kiss be4 and thus duno wats a gd kiss...

Anyways, yest i dreamt tt i met her up today at Northpoint after her exam... And somehow, Northpoint looked more atas... Lots of restaurants and new shops... She looked totally different... Her hair is longer than mine, rebonded, dyed wif highlight streaks... She had her bangs cut... Her fashion sense totally changed 180! Her heels were even higher than mine!

She looked so different... Maybe it was good she changed herself like tt to make herself look trendy, clubber or sort, but i was certainly very very uncomfortable e whole time... I couldnt accept the changes... She had heavy make up on as well... And when we were outdoor, she took her a pair of stylo reflective sunglasses...

Too cool man! Where e hell did my old SZ go? I certainly prefered the natural SZ...

And then when we got inside, i realised e sunglasses had transition lens, to which i felt it was a waste of money... I had no idea tt she would do tis kind of makeover, or spend tis kind of money just becoz she got the progress package money! Somehow i figured tt she used tt money in my dream...

She was being very chatty somemore... She kept toking thru out e whole shopping trip, but i wasnt really listening to her... I was in my own world coz i was truly so uncomfortable i just wanted to tell her i wanna go home... I kept thinking y she becum lidat, wat happened?

It is so scary... I think her fault lah, she said she wan to do tis do tt to her looks... Then i go n compute tis image in my dream... Hahhah...

I seriously hope she doesnt do all of these though... Coz one reason i like about her is shes down to earth compared to other girls i noe... Subtle changes can lah, since as we grow older, we tend to do different things to ourselves...

But not 180 suddenly... Cannot accept, will heart attack!!!

Hahahah...

Anyways, e dream ended when we settled down at a Jap Curry Steamboat Restaurant... So cool eh? I thot of it one leh (in my dreams though)... But we never gotten down to eating it and i felt something lickin my toes (Urgh, Pappy!)... Sigh... I wan to try out the food leh!!!

Mother's Day Gift

My family all got timing one... There would be a certain time in e day when im still sleepin, and my son would try to wake me up by licking my toes or hand ard tt time (he doesnt wake me earlier)... Then when i woke, he would bring his ball to me... Then i would tell him, "No, no ball!"... And then start cursing, "Where got ppl play ball e moment they wake up one? *tsk*"... Ok, hes not "ppl" but watwever!

After which, still on my bed, i would play my mp3s on speaker mode (moi hp) and throw e phone on my sis's bed... Then while enjoying e songs and thinking back wat i dreamt (wif my eyes closed), usually after 5 - 10 mins, my mum would return from her shopping...

And tis goes on everyday!

But my mum's quite funny today... She came back wif 3 new bags n barged into my room... Actually not barge, coz my rm door not closed one... She walked into my room, wif a proud grin and said, "I bought 3 bags hor, then 3 of u (her 3 children) each pay as Mother's Day gift ok?"...

Lol, i wanted to laugh... She win liao, lidat also can... Next time i also wan to try...

I go buy new hp or camera then come back tell my bf, hubby, or whoever, "Oi! I bought a new phone, u pay for it as my bday gift ok?"...

BF/Hubby: Dun wan...

Me: Huh? But i bought liao leh!!!! Dun lidat lah! Pay abit pls!!! Handsome??? I really really really love e phone lor!

Muahahahahah...

Actually lidat also gd lah, at least they got something they like, rather then buy them things tt r useless or not to their likings...

Growing

U noe, i kept saying my eyes only got one wif eye lid (right eye), which grew last yr... Okay, somehow, the other one is growing too recently (left)...

No idea y but i did realised the line is growing, but very weak though... And e line is like about only half now and i doubt it would grow more... I guess if i start putting on stickers, it may be fixed, but then hor, its not comfortable to haf stickers on ur lids leh...

I cannot tahan on a day to day basis... Then take out liao hor, got mark one, coz skin cannot breathe... So, let it be lah...

Oh, kinda reminded me of e motion sickness remedy i said some time ago... The sticking of e plaster over ur naval hor, i think it works... Coz i tahaned a 1 hr journey in sg and didnt feel nauseous... So i think it works, jus tt u can see the plaster thru my top... Lol, i didnt realised until much later on coz i was wearing white...

But seriously hor, taking it off is nightmare man... Cant imagine how ppl endure waxing... Especially their private areas...

Only 5 days left to SZ's final paper, but then hor, she arh, got tution from wed to sun wor, so only can meet up for a meal... Must be trying to catch up after her exams... No matter, next week see how... At least i noe now i haf some money... Not so jialat...

I need to get a new foundation coz my face turned fairer already and my current foundation is getting weirder n weirder each day due to the mis-matched color... Hmm, i guess i may need to get 1 or 2 shades lighter... I hate choosing foundation shades coz i can never get e right one...

I am now light brown liao... I am the fairest among my siblings le... Actually i think my 2nd sis would soon take over me, coz she is recovering from her tan (fr wakeboarding) very fast... My eldest sis turned darker coz she goes swimming alot lately...

I am used to being called the charcoal, malay, or indian one in my family... And its kinda strange tt i am fairer now... My mum said, "At least u can becum fairer, i thot u forever black black one!"... I was told even as baby i was born dark dark one... When i saw my hand is actually fairer than my sisters, it just felt so strange, coz i also feel tt i can never get fairer... Hahaha...

I also found out my skin tone is warm, so tt explains y i somehow look better in red and gold accessories... But i dun look nice in brown though... Weird... And i look better in white n pink which is supposed to be for ppl wif cool skintone...

But i am still dark though compared to other chinese who are white, or yellowish or rosy beige... I am in the olive brown category, just tt i am now in the lighter range... Hahahah...

But then like i always say i wuold get dark as soon as i get under e sun... So fair now also no use... Maybe coz i haf been using sun screen on my face lately...

Some time ago, i was sitting on the floor in front of my mum, who was sitting on e sofa bench... Then she took some of my hair and see see look look... Then she said, "Ur gold one quite nice hor?"... I then said, "Actually not supposed to be gold, supposed to be white or yellow... Some r white... All kinds of color lah, coz we didnt bleached long enuff, scare my hair spoil..." She replied, "Yah, these r white..."

Me: Got purple tint somemore leh...

Depending on my next job, i am so going to get full white next time, wif a light blonde as the base, e one i chose originally... I am so fascinated wif white streaks now...

I am also crazy about white roses... I saw one bouquet some time ago while shopping wif SZ... I cant seem to find a particular type of flower tt i like... But when i saw it, I fell in love wif it...

While i like flowers in general, i dun really like some as individual... If i receive i happy wif anything, but then if i buy for myself then i would choose properly... I dun like sun flower coz e flower is too big and strong... I prefer more feminine ones... I dun like tulips or lilies coz they r too weak, very fast wither one... Lol, i am so mafan... Birds of paradise is not flower to me... Those small small ones also just side flowers...

So i prefer roses in the end... But roses got many colors mah... I used to like blue, green, purple ones when i was little... Then as i grow older, i fancy e red, pink, deep pink... I hate yellow and beige...

Dun give me yellow rose wor, means breakup one leh... I can accept funeral white flowers like lilies or white roses... But i cannot accept breakup flowers... SZ gave me one then, but she didnt noe... Dun wan anything to happen btween us mah...

I gave her shoes last yr and forgot to take back Ang Bao money, so meant e friendship would break, then she gave me yellow rose tis yr... So choi choi!!!

Anyways, now i love white roses, but they dun make nice dry flowers though, coz they would turn yellow brown, i dun like... So give n tt for now... No such thing as perfect right?

Friday, April 28, 2006

Progress Package $

The money is IN, everybody! Check your acc! Heh heh!

Now i am not tt broke anymore...

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I was just telling my mum, my frenz dad kept borrowing money fr her, and its hard to say no jus becoz its father asking u... Even if its for no gd purposes, even if u noe u cannot get back e money...

Then she hor, actually said, "U see! I so gd, no money also never borrow from u all!"...

Wa lao, never my foot arh... She still owe me money lor, further more i never even thot of asking it back coz she is my mother lor... Further more, when i was younger, she took all my savings, pawned all my jewellry somemore...

Sigh...

Actually i did try to ask it back yrs ago and it turned really bad... So i gave up...

Besides, she now got money wat, got allowance lor, even more than my old salary... Just dun gamble everything away lah... She next week going Genting again... Sigh, lets jus wish her gd luck...

Just becoz she is my mother, i pretended wat she said was true and just kept quiet...

Zuo Ren Zhen Nan...

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Moi 1st Vote!

Hmm, i noe i said many entries be4 tt my area will surely walk over...

But then little did i noe, for e 1st time in 15 yrs, and for e 1st time in 18 yrs for our PM, tt our district is being challenged... I just moved here couple of yrs ago though... If not for my place's good location, i can say tt AMK is nothing compared to Yishun in terms of a home... But tts just my opinion... However, obviously as i grew up, Yishun became abit too far off to get anywhere...

However, i just checked my online poll card and it stated my Electoral Division and Polling District is YCK wor...

So now then i realised i am not under AMK leh...

Then now got to wait for them to send the poll card...

Hmm...

Confidential voting eh? Seriously, i haf no idea who's in the opposition party YET. I saw the news and caught a glimpse of his face though...

SZ also kena, shes from Nee Soon Central... Yishun damn big hor, got Nee Soon Central, East, West, etc... The different separations is y Yishun looks rather different from the other sides... It used to be all kinds of pattern one, then until yrs ago they started tis flower theme, which makes each area one particular flower, so means Blk 100+ would haf tis flower, Blk 200+ would haf another flower etc... Kinda cute i thot then...

Next sat's the polling day... Gonna get myself down to the secondary sch beside my flat...

Night Changes Many Thots

Yest night while i was laying down on my bed, trying to sleep... My thots began to spin and i duno y but it came to the night when my dog, Baby, was put to sleep... It was as though a stubborn recorder player that i couldnt find e button to off it...

I tried to shrug it off but somehow i just cant... The scene just kept on playing on my mind... Every detail, every moment, his last cry, his last struggle, his will to stay alive, his resistance to death, as the nurse injected one after one syringe of poison coz he just wouldnt leave...

It took 4-5 syringe to end his life... When others just needed one... It was extremely miserable... Coz it took so much longer than our hearts can bear... Wats worst is knowing ur small little child not wanting to go, i guess breaks e ppl's hearts much more, who made e decision...

To me, it is saddening to noe tt in e last moments of ur life, u felt huge pain (due to e needle n poison), and when u resist it wif all ur might, only to hear ur love ones, telling u to stop and go in peace... And the nurse injecting it over n over again to make sure u die...

The memory was so vivid as if it was just yest... And i started to cry... Feeling the warmth of my own son between my legs, made me cry even harder... I hope i do not haf to make tt decision 10 yrs later...

It was a decision which i couldnt stop... Baby only stayed wif me for 3 yrs, be4 moving to my eldest sis place... To which he spent his last 8 yrs at...

I said no, to which the rest of e family said i was heartless to let Baby go thru so much pain... I do not believe in murder... However nice u put it, it is injecting poison into his blood... And having seen how the whole process is like, i am even more firm on my stand fr ever...

I asked them one qns then, "So u mean next time when i haf cancer, u can put me to sleep if its allowed?"...

To me, there is no diff between deciding deaths of pets or humans... We r e same, becoz we haf feelings... Just in their case, simpler n less complex...

No matter, it happened... Just be4 my sis signed on the paper, she looked at me and said, "Dun blame me."...

I guess theres no choice eh? I had already voiced my thots... Hes ur dog after all... We werent particularly close but somehow i felt it affected me more than anyone else... Maybe i am just plain dumb in tis sense... I think too much...

Its already been 2 yrs, i didnt wan to remember e date coz it would make me sad... But i remembered it was be4 my dip show... Yrs haf passed and every time i thot i can forget about e whole thing...

But somehow its still here...

I dreamt of his spirit then, i was back in my old house where he stayed wif me... I can felt his pressence but i cant see him... He then handed me a very nice collar wif diamantes... And he left...

Mths later (in reality), i saw tt collar in one of e pet shops... I told my sis about it and she asked me to buy it... I didnt...

It was just a dream...

Its never e same when somebody dies... While u console urself n others tt they still live in ur heart or watever shit u tell urself... Its just never gonna be the same...

While u still hold some memories, the moment the life is gone, you start losing the memories...

I looked ard me, and everybody seemed to haf gotten over it, especially wif their new pets...

But i cant... While i haf Pappy in my heart, i also haf places for others... Baby is still in there somewhere... A place where Pappy cant replace... Even though i am not particular close wif Baby... In fact, i noe Baby doesnt like me... And i had e least opportunity to be wif him unlike e rest of my family...

I tried to recall how Baby looks like, but its jus fading away...

I do haf his pictures... But i still cant fully remember how hes like... The image is getting blurer each time... So i feel sad... I feel sad that death takes all once existed away slowly wif e passing of time...

I took his last set of pics when he came for a visit together wif my sis n her hubby... I had a bad feeling then tat hes going to leave soon... I told my mum but didnt to e rest... And its so strange tt in my photos, it was e best photos of him ever but also, he already looked dead in some of them...

I hope to believe hes somewhere else now...

At the least, my sis n her hubby gave him a very gd life before it ended... I guess tts wats most impt...

Missing you, Baby~

(Im not blaming on anyone or saying tt it is very wrong to put ur pets to sleep... Becoz i noe i could never interfere in how u take care of your own... I am against putting pets to sleep becoz i saw e process n saw the pain incurred... However, i agree tt there are situations where it may be inevitable to do it...

However, as much as it comes to my own, i hope he goes in the natural way when his time comes... I like to believe that death is destined rather than a decision...

For i haf seen many whose pets were very sick and deemed hopeless... Everybody asked them to put their pets to sleep but the owner just ignored everyone... And miraclously, the pets recovered and stayed alive for another few yrs...

I like to belive in the natural cycle of life... But i also understand tt sometimes, u just haf to do it, no matter how much it breaks you.)

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Saladin (New 3D Animation Series)

I forgot to post tis... Just checked e link, its still there...

Introducing you to Malaysia's 3D Animated Series called Saladin... The series is based on the life of Salah Al-Din Yusuf Bin Ayyub. Saladin was one of Islam’s most legendary figures, who united and led Muslim factions in the past.

I wonder is he also the one i saw in one of e foreign war epic movies i saw some time ago, called Salahudin? I thot it was Saladin, but others said its Salahudin then... But i forgot which was e movie... Is it Alexander?

Anyways, after e miserable failure of our own 3D animation movie, Zodiac... Malaysia's upcoming animation series is simply of a different level as wat we did in sg... Well, we r still stuck in producing 3d works for the kids... Just by watching the 6 min long trailer, u can already tell we r way miles apart...

Sadly but true, tis brought many others to question y cant we produce e tis kind of calibre, many do not think we lack e talents, having seen so many personal great 3d works... Besides, MDA did pumped in couple of million bucks for Zodiac, and so did M'sia's MSC to Saladin... So in the end, are we putting our fundings in the right places? I wonder...

Anyways, watch e trailer... Its pretty good... But do not even think of comparing it wif works of Pixar, deamworks, disney etc... In the 1st place, tis is not a movie but a series... And having seen quite a no. of foreign (western) 3d series, tis is one of the top notch... As u noe, usually series would cut its budget and most likely only targets kids...

The series aroused my interest... And i am actually interested in knowing more... I guess tts great enuff... As ppl who are exposed to CG itself, sometimes our opinions are more likely to be different... So our review would be biased to either too high expectations or too technically...

So i always believe the responses from the general public is more valuable... After all, arent we making the works for the consumers? While a gd CG movie would make e CG ppl pay for e tickets, but profits only come in from the rest of e population...

And from e reviews of others, i believe tis series will rock...

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Just Alittle More

I was typing another serious entry a moment ago, until it was rather painful thinking about e past and i eventually lost my train of thots... I stopped and saved it as draft though its incomplete... Perhaps it would be easier if i dun use my own experiences on my entries... It shd be simpler tis way...

I doubt i am going to finish tt entry though... Maybe i shdnt think about complicated/serious/emotional stuffs when im alone... It makes it even tougher...

Some randoms stuffs...

Yest night i shifted my whole computer table to my living rm... It was such a chore... But i haf to do it... Coz i haf to get some things done in the night, and i cant use my com without a proper sitting chair and decent light... Besides i cannot disturb my sis who would be sleeping...

I am not saying i would definately get e things done right away, now, tonight, or tmr (due to personal reasons n struggles), but i noe at least it was a start... I noe i haf to move on, and i will... Just tt Im trying not to push n force myself too hard, coz i noe it would surely backfire... Then again, maybe i shd be harder on myself, as wat the rest would say...

But to push an already weakened state of mind to e wall is abit too difficult to manage... At least i tried and i did small little things, step by step, to aid me in pushin forward, and to me, tts impt, regardless of wat others say... I also stopped a few events/matters from happening tt would cause me to carry on the standstill even though some of them seemed quite appealing n lucrative...

But like i said, i am not the kind of person who is motivated and driven by money and materialistic temptations even though i need it to survive at the least...

I chatted wif a fren last night over msn and told him tt i decided on some things after giving some thots... And he actually said, "Well, i do not knoe whether to feel happy for u, support u or otherwise. ", "But keep moving on and dun look back."

I was pleasantly surprised, coz a normal person would jus say, "Tts great!" or something to tt effect... But from his words, i knew he took in wat i said seriously, gave it some thot and replied to me individually, to Celestine... Although he doesnt noe me very well, but apparently he remembered e impt stuffs about me in tis particular situation... Or at least enuff to come to tis conclusion...

In fact, wat he said was exactly how i felt... I made a decision, but it wasnt neccessarily wats best or something i truly wan, but the thing is i duno wat i wan now, coz i no longer wan anything... But if i carry on like these, i would never move on... And not moving on would cease all possibilities to find wat my heart and soul truly seek...

And thus i do not noe whether i shd be happy and supportive about it tt ive finally come somewhere or otherwise... He nailed tt... A place where others do not see, cant be bothered to see, or they saw but either chose to ignore or decided not to say anything about it...

But of coz, we also tok alot of nonsense later on... Lol...

Anyways, luckily my whole computer table can be pushed ard... Luckily my living got tis particular space to put it although i am blocking e walking path... And luckily in tis position, i can connect to the tel line... Haha...

But putting it here has its disadvantages as well, when my mum or me cook, the smoke n oil are going to be coated on my com... Also, my mum would watch tv and thereby i would be affected...

I will see how it goes though... Hope i get it done, soon...

Just 8 more days to SZ's graduation... I am very excited and looking forward to it... I haf not seen her for some time liao... She is mugging extensively for her final exams and under alot of stress... I feel so sorry tt i cant do anything about it to lessen up her burden...

I can only hope my comfort reached her when she needed it, though digitally...

Shes got to cross tis final hurdle herself... So i thot tt i would make more effort on my part, in my own things... Work hard together, tts wat i thot... The only thing i can do, the only way i can lend her my strength in my own small way... Which explains y e follow up of certain things i did... Like e chalet, i tried n fought hard...

You must jia you, ok? Yao over le! Just alittle more... Wo ye shi zai nu li wor... Though maybe not as much as e mental strainings u r having, but wo zhen de ye nu li, nu li de huo ze, nu li de hu xi (if u get wat i meant)...

PS: Jus read my entry as it is, i dun type e explicit details for obvious reasons...

Monday, April 24, 2006

NSRCC Chalet

(Finally, blogger was down e whole of yest)

Loads pf pics ahead... I am not very in the mood for blogging now, so perhaps i'll tok about the event in another entry... Tis one just to show u how it looks like... NSRCC = National Service Resort Country Club. Its at Tenan Merah... Very near changi...

My eldest sis n her hubby signed up for the country club... Few thousands of dollars each for the course of 5 yrs... They r thinking of upgrading to condo, so they thot they shd try out condo facilities lifestyle 1st...

Becoz if u stay in condo, for the facilities u haf to pay 200+ per mth minimum no matter u got use or not... Dun even touch on the maintenance fees part, which is another few hundreds... They told e agent they wouldnt noe whether they would be comfortable using the same facilities over yrs n yrs... So e agent told them one way to find out is to sign up at a club and see whether u like tt kind of lifestyle or not...

For public, the chalet would be over 300 bucks, for members would be about 180, per night... But of coz as of all chalets u HAF to book 2 nights minimum... But my sis was lucky coz somebody cancelled last min so she was able to haf it as one night...









Our chalet number, got 2 free parking lots for each chalet... After 11pm, u haf to be quiet and only a max of 8 to stay over night... U can haf as many in the day as u like obviously... Of coz, u can choose to haf more ppl staying overnight, just dun be too noisy as they would come and spot check...






The fan is not supposed to be there, so ugly... Coz we just arrived and e air con wasnt cold enuff yet...


Got karaoke system but we didnt noe, so never bring discs... So sad...


The 2 gamblers... Sigh, they gambled for 12 hrs straight, moving from poker to mahjong till 3am...





Dining area which later in the night became laptop area...


Was so bored taking pics... But I thot i shdnt waste e effort of bring down my cam... Pardon e no make up face...


Kitchen... Alot of plates, cups, bowls in the cabinet... But we dun dare to use... Lol...


The freezer box is so useful...


The level 1 toilet... No bad, quite clean and spacious... Got towels, soap n shampoo etc... Then housekeeping will change for u next day lor...


No bathtub though... But shower area is huge, can bath in grps, hahahah....


The sinful mahjong at the side of e stairs... I hate mahjong btw, in fact i just hate gamblers... Mahjong is not only sinful but noisy! I cannot stand it... My family member lost alot of money over those stupid tiles... So i hate it for personal reasons... But if frenz wan to play play lor, but bf cannot...


Lets see wats up there...




Tis is e second room... 2 single beds, wif make up table n wardrobe wif many hangers...

I didnt take e 1st rm, which was a queen size bed coz there were ppl sleeping...


The view from the room..


It was so hot when we just arrived... I didnt bring my cap but fortunately i had my sunglasses... Thank god... It became my hair band also...


I need to get a new pair of colored shades, coz the plastic started to crack liao... When i was in NYP, i fell in love wif a pair of green/yellow shades, but the tt pair was broken... So sad...

Where can i get nice cheap pair of good shades?


The second level toilet... Much cleaner n nicer than e 1st... I only used tis one the whole day...




My big sis n her hubby wore these popular shoes, the croc or something lidat... 50 bucks a pair, her hubby one is grey...

I borrowed it and bounced ard, lol... Its super comfy, and has got very good grip and bounce.... But it is super ugly lor... The shoes is super huge and makes my big foot look gigantic and makes me look like a dwarf...

But then it is really really comfy... The most comfortable ive ever worn...


The garden in front is big... I can imagine kids playing soccer, dogs playing fetch... But too bad lah, no pets allowed...


Every 10 mins, a plane will fly past...


The last one ive been to was alot better and nicer... Though unfortunately i didnt take any photos... I haf no idea where was e last one though... Cant remember... lol
The beds were huge, super comfy... And got bath tub in one of the toilets... But then its only 1 level though... Kitchen was smaller though... But very ex i heard...

I went to tis place wif my mum and 5 married couples in their 30s... And 3 teenager boys... All of them i duno one... Shall tok about it more next time if i got e mood...


I look horrible wif out make up, sigh, nvm, hack lah... At least i managed up a smile...

To be continued...

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Puzzle Game

I like to play games tt involve unlockin locked doors, non creepy/ghostly/scary kind...

So jus to share wif u tis current one i am playing...

Test ur intellect n analytical skills...

MOTAS is an online graphic adventure game in which the adventurer has to solve riddles and puzzles, find and use objects, escape from locked rooms, find hidden passages and be a detective and examine everything to unlock the doors of the mystery of time and space.

Click e link n play... But then its very long coz there r many levels... U dun haf to clear all levels in one shot though, u can always revisit the site... The levels would be unlocked once u clear them...

I started playing yest night, then i continued level 8 which i was stucked few hrs ago today after i woke... But i cleared it and i am currently stuck at level 12...

While i was playing tis, i am sometimes amazed at myself, i never noe tt i still can think... Lol... Hahahah... But i also realised i couldnt really think much when i just woke... Play as and when u like, probably when u r free, as it takes up alot of time and might give u headaches... haha...

If u give up easily and dun like to think one, then dun play lah...

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Chalet

I haf a chalet later to attend to... At Tanan Merah's NSRCC... Damn far, but never been there be4, go see see also gd... Heard tt e houses are big n beautiful... Then again, e one im going may be cheap n small... Not sure yet...

If its nice maybe i take pics, but see how lah... Better bring my cap, sunglass and sun block, duno wat i would be doin there anyways... Maybe i go sleep... Lol... Duno wear skirt or wat also...

Going off in the noon and got BBQ later on...

But i am coming back later tonight alone, not going to sleep there... Coz no one would be at home tonight except my mum's bf, so I would haf to come back to feed my son his dinner, which would haf becum supper... Her bf doesnt take care of my son anyways...

Am already sick of e long mrt ride fr Tanan Merah to YCK...

Was wondering how i cum back wif all e bbq smoke smell... Maybe i shd bath there, but tt would mean i haf to pack alot of things like e toiletries... So troublesome... Maybe i dun bbq, eat can liao... Coz every time i do the BBQ one... Maybe today i relax abit... Haha...

Anyways, after i wake liao then think...

I got things to do tonight, and since my sis's going somewhere else n not coming back to sleep... I shd use e opportunity to get some of my stuffs done...

Anyways, CONGRATS to Jul for getting her advertising degree coz... So happy for her...

But then hor, sigh, another one... I happy for ppl but sad for myself... When then my turn? 4 yrs later, must bear wif it... Cannot compare, different ppl different lives different obligations... Sure would see my day one...

Friday, April 21, 2006

The Old Times - Gaming

I suddenly thot of bloggin tis, no idea y... Suddenly my mind is flooded wif memories of e old days...

I was born into a rich family, almost wif a gold spoon, but unfortunately, the good times ended be4 i even started to remember anything... So the times i started making memories, my family had already broken up, the richness was history...

My small little family (all females) was a slightly above average income family... But due to the breakup, we moved from one of e richest district in sg then, Katong, which i believe many of u duno tt place except the katong laksa... Lol... Funny leh, i tell u hor, e laksa then at tt district wasnt famous one lor... & moved to a relatively poor but quiet and peaceful neighbourhood, Yishun...

Most part of it was still like pulau ubin... Wif small fishing ponds n huts... I am not kidding!!! The channel 8 program, Good Morning Teacher (e famous Chen Liping (ai yoyo) and Li Nan Xing drama) was shot there...

And u noe wat, tt place was owned by my sis's fren's family... They then later on sold their land to e government and we said bye bye to tt place forever... I used to sneak in there to play... *wipes tears*

At tt time, there was no sembawang, woodlands, or watever... Sg just seemed to stop there... Then i am surrounded by forests one u noe... When i just moved there, there wasnt as many HBDs as now obviously... No such thing as condos unlike now... The district was still underdeveloped... No Northpt shopping centres, no golden village... Only buses, no MRT yet...

The nearest hang out is at AMK... Coz u noe AMK under who lah, so AMK was developed earlier...

Becoz of e move, my sis transfered fr a SAP pri sch to a neighbourhood one... The second best pri sch in Yishun then, e best there was Chong Fu (i think), but we couldnt get in... Well, coz we werent rich anymore and thereby not influencial enuff to get in... So we settled in Yishun Pri... She went 1st, i went kindergarden (no gd memories, only bad ones) coz we were 4 yrs apart...

I duno u remember or not, during my time, water guns were in trend suddenly... And the best one was like $50+, those giant ones tt u pump one time can shoot far far... The cheaper ones u got to pump like siao to shoot near near... Lol... The money is smaller then in case u dun remember...

I got the big big one... Hehehehe... And i put watercolor (often black) inside and sabo the kids in my neighbourhood... Muahahaha... I was a spoilt and evil kid then... I always bully ppl one... So now retribution lor, ppl bully me...

I grew up there much like a kampong kid... I play wif mud, spiders, insects, water, drains, go explore forests, new places, kill animals (sigh)... Aiyah, all those dirty dirty things wif e kids of e whole neighbourhood...

Very dangerous though, i anyhow eat fruits somemore... Lucky never die... Not to mention obviously we did many crazy things like jumping off e blk from e 3rd level... Now u ask me i also dun dare liao... Tis is one of e reasons y my body is actually covered in scars... Haha...

So next time dun let ur kids lidat... But then now they also no chance do these things liao lah... Where to find quick sand, quick mud now... I almost drowned in orange mud up to my neck... And had to go big drain wash myself... Then e boys all take off their clothes one... Lol... Then i wanted to sabo and took their clothes to hide... But gave them back in e end...

Sounds so much like e old movies...

Though e time was not long, but i was genuinely happy then... Though i got injured almost every other day, but i was happy... After a short 2 yrs, sg started to develop and Yishun too... Mrt came though stopped at our district coz they haven develop e rest of the line... Shoppin centre, cinema, etc... Reservoir was built, forests were cut down, big drains removed...

So it came to a pt tt kampong play days ended, and we could only roam about hdb buildings... Then i moved house again (i moved 4 times in yishun actually), then started to lead more similar lives as to u guys in pri sch... My pri 3 life onwards became normal hdb kid's life...

I still go catch spiders n all lah, jus tt not many places to explore liao... Oh, but i dun catch though, i merely follow e guys there... Then we go play somewhere else... But becoz of my old kampong nature, i would bring my grp go do dangerous but fun stuffs... I was a bad influence... Their parents always call my house ask where their children were one... Lol... But then i only wanted to share e fun mah...

Then daily games upgraded into digital gaming... At tt time hor, sg not many arcades, e nearest was again AMK... But for a 7 yr old to travel so far i dun get to do it very often, but sometimes got ppl bring me there... Also at tt time, only gangsters go arcades... Unless u wan to hook ah bengs, but i was too young, so i always kena ordered ard only... Lol...

But then hor, got money one leh... U help them hor (not do bad things lah, run errands like carry their things or convey message coz too noisy liao), sometimes i get $50 leh!!! Then i take cab go home then e gangsters would go somewhere else wif e girls... Duno they go where, i wonder now... Haha... They usually would give me money to go home coz its a burden to bring small kids ard... Then those gangsters rode motobikes in black leather outfits wif black sunglasses one leh... Very stylo then, but obiang now lah...

Those were e days... Now come to think about it so scary... Lucky they never sell me away... Haha...

So if u cannot or no money go arcade at tt pt, there is only 2 kinds of gaming systems at home... Not playstation or xbox, but sega and nintendo... But hor, they r so ex...

I was lucky to own Sega then... The 1st generation, big black box one... Then u slot e tape vertically... Then sometimes cannot detect u take e tape n blow at e chip, hit e machine a few times then can work... Haha...

But its not worth it at all... No such thing as memory card then... So i never managed to complete any of my games except one (which my guy fren n i completed after many of hrs in my place)... Then one tape is like between 60-90 bucks... Currency different then wor if u dun remember...

1 packet of food = $1.50, soft drinks = $0.60, yakult = $0.25, $1 ice cream = $0.60, normal ice cream = $0.30, MacDonalds one meal = $4, etc... So anything more than $50 is like so crazy...

I remembered i got alot of Sonic, 1, 2, 3, and duno wat versions they haf... But hor, Sonic play no ending one leh, i dun even noe got how many levels... Got one sonic hor, it gave me 99 lives... 99 leh!!! So confirm got many levels mah... So i wanted to find out and play for 18 hrs, but still wun finish one...

In e end, i gave up... Coz cannot save one... Then cannot pause e game forever mah, my mum dun allow... Even though sometimes i use Tails instead of Sonic and fly thru e whole game but still cannot finish... Damn it!!!

Then Street Fighters 1st gen came out... Then alot of guys crazy over it... Although i dun play, but my frenz come my house to play games everyday after sch, so i bought for them to play... See, i so nice hor... Haha...

Very sian one lor, u play one game till far far liao, then coz cannot save got to start all over again...

Then nintendo came up wif e memory card thingy and launched e cd rom kind... I didnt ugrade le coz my games cannot waste mah... Besides i play games everyday till i wan to puke liao... In e end my games i never touch, let my frenz use only... I started to go into collecting movies... Haha... If i sian i play wif e 1st gen Game Boy... E black n white thick thick one...

U noe hor, if u continuosly play gameboy for long hrs, e batteries would explode inside e Gameboy and crack e cover... Happened to my fren then... I not so hardcore then coz same thing cannot save one 1st gen... Scary... It hurt his fingers then...

Then got adapter to connect 2 players together, but nobody owned Gameboy then, in my neighbourhood... I think those rich kids all cannot go out one, tts y i duno them... Haha... Also i think they r all in EM1, i was from EM2, no rich kids one leh...

Then when home gaming became common n cheap, i already got so sick of it and moved on wif my life liao... There ends my gaming life, my primary sch days... Unless u count my occasional playing of Gameboy Color... Becoz tts e only old gaming device tt i still keep... Not my one somemore, belonged to one of my ex bfs... He never take back...

But also spoil liao lah, cannot save anymore...

If u r ard same age as me, and u duno wat e hell i was toking about... Either u never go out when young or you must be living in big houses (Urrgh)... I duno which part of sg u stayed, but i remembered every single thing tt happened then...

I had a wonderful childhood coz i go out everyday, and i made frenz wif everybody... Although my experiences would maybe scare many of the city kids away... But i seriously thot everybody shd go thru tt kampong childhood period... Learn alot one leh...

I totally changed also becoz of the things tt happened during my childhood... Maybe i would share more when i got e "feel" to blog about it... Got many many stories one u noe... Heh...

Sigh, but now every changed liao... Sobz...

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Idol Magic

Oh myyyy oh my...

Did u catch this week's American Idol?

I tell you, it is the best night out of all the seasons...

Everyone was awesome, they were exceptional tonight, maybe except one... She didnt sing well... But the rest of the 7 did superb performances... It was all their personal best i thot... And all of them were out to win this...

In my eagerness to come in to blog about e magic i just saw... I choked myself while drinking water... Urgh, and i am still coughing while typing... Lol...

It is already known tt this batch of contestants are e best among the 5 seasons... But tonight everybody turned on Magic!!!

I was kinda bored wif AI tis season, even though they haf e best line of ppl tis yr... But its e same old things if u get wat i mean... But watching e show while eating my dinner jus now wasnt a mistake... It was so gd till i took e whole hr to finish my food, coz they were so great tt i actually stopped eating at many moments...

Tonight's theme is American Songbook (Rob Steward)... Simply marvelous, old time classics...

I love it so much...

My personal fav contestant is Katharine McPhee, i love her e moment i saw her audition... Just tt, my sis kept saying shes fat... I dun haf a prob wif tt anyways... I just love her... I hope she wins, although i also hope a guy can win tis yr... But the contestant i like never win, since season 2, my fav always got 2nd... Damn it!!!

Chris and Taylor was great just now... I never liked Ace but tonight he did great and it makes me wan to see more of him...

Katharine McPhee was the last contestant of e night... She did Someone To Watch Over Me... A beautiful song, it was perfect... Her perfect choice of selection... It was so good she actually moved me to tears... And she moved the audience as well...

I haf never heard so much emotions in a classic be4... She reminded me of y i like her in e 1st place... I have never been moved to tears by a solo female performance be4 in my life... This is e 1st!!!

Tonight is great... Simply too good...

But if u dun like classics, maybe u would be bored to death...

Chris did Wat A Wonderful World, a change as tonight he did not do his usual heavy metal rock... A very nice and refreshing change...

All thanks to Rob Steward... And Rob Steward is singing tmr at the results show... Definately a must-see... Rob Steward is awesome... He rocked the music industry in his tight leather pants (much like Gackt eh? haha) and now touched everybody wif his rendition series of classics...

Absolutely amazing...

Super Band

Tmr is the official movie launch for Hostel... I was thinking of catching tis movie myself, since i realised nobody wanna catch gory movie... Haha... Then i thot i would just walk 10 mins to the cinema and catch it alone, and then i realised hor, only town area got tis show leh!!!

I duno neighbourhood dun show R21 movies... I mean wats e diff...

I dun wan to travel so far jus to catch a movie alone... Hmmmmmmmmmmm...

But then hor, when i tell ppl wats the movie about, everybody dun wan to watch liao... Haha... Maybe i should not haf told them...

But got lots of "sexy" scenes also mah, though i duno got reveal boobs or not, but i noe haf sexy scenes coz the male goes prostituting ard, etc... Sure got pretty girls mah... Lol...

Yest night the channel u variety program introduced 2 teams fr the Superband Competition... Then i suddenly sprang in front of e tv (fr kitchen) coz i suddenly heard something...

"Nuke dashita daichi de
Te ni ireta no wa jiyuu
Maybe lucky maybe lucky
I dare say I'm lucky ... "

Its L'Arc En Ciel song u noe!!! My radar is uber sensitive to my fav j-rock band!!! I was so excited, i literally flew to e tv!!!!!

But then hor, seein 3 middle age guys singing tt, i duno wan to cry, wan to laugh, or duno wat... On one hand, i applaud their guts to do a jap song (and a laruku song at tt), on the other hand, i also duno wat to say leh, coz the whole "feel" jus dun match...

Tat team happened to be one of the teams i prefered, coz they haf great chemistry (band formed 3 yrs), and they are older so they r more experienced than some ah bengs/lians rock star wannabes...

They are also loud enuff... Unlike other teams whom i cannot hear their singing, coz it was overshadowed by their music... Tis team is loud and composed...

But then, hearing them sing my fav band's song is just so da-match... Luckily they sang e verse only, didnt even go into the chorus...

Oh do u noe, one of the guitarist of a certain team (not tis team) even tried to look like HYDE... I almost choked when i 1st see him, coz i immediately can tell hes trying the HYDE image... (Uber sensitive radar)

Some teams tried desperately to look like Miyavi and Gackt i thot... But then hor... -_____-"

I think if they do wat they shd (especially the older teams), like Beyond or Wubai chinese rock songs hor (like e old bengs), they would be so much more appealing... Jus tt unfortunately they would lose the votes of the young ones coz new generation duno Beyond/Wubai, etc... Like my generation though we are caught inbetween, but i am one of e few who love Beyond then...

It is very tough to watch Superband teams singing songs tt i do not like at all... I hate the song Ben Xiao Hai (Andy/Jacky/Xiao Hei) and a team of 3 very young christian guys, sang it! Though i haf to admit they r rather appealing for duno wat reasons.. Maybe coz of their youth n energy? But judges said e vocalist cannot sing... He sang wif his throat, not his diaphragm (spell like tis or not, i lazy to check)...

But then hor, i saw the program introduce tt young team hor, the vocalist even said he got to teach their drummer how to sing properly wif diaphragm (e clip is shot be4 the competition i think)...

But they r very cute lah, they call themselves Mi Lu Bing (Lost Army) but reason is coz they all love MILO BENG!!! But also becoz of tis, i remember their team name... Lol...

I also hate MAY DAY SONGS!!! Then e 1st round hor, the bloody 1st team sang May Day's Sun Wu Kong... I almost offed my tv...

I especially like the full malay team (i think they r called Juz-B)... Coz 1stly, they r all malay and yet they put in so much effort memorising chinese songs... They sang the number 1 to die for song of Shin Yue Tuan (Si Le Dou Yao Ai), tt song hor, i sing at ktv also wan to die, and they actually challenged themselve wif tt...

So cool... And their chinese i can understand leh!!! Hope they would be in the finals... Love their effort... There is also another team of mixed race, called Si Nu Pi, (which sounds like snoopy but duno they meant it as snoopy or not, coz got one malay guy dress like spider man)... The spiderman is uber high, but he anyhow sing his song, the chinese words all never come out... I knoe coz got subtitles... Haha..

But they r good too... And judges love tt team...

The all girls team hor, (Glamours) i duno wat to say about them...

Then got alot of PRCs also... Got 2 kungfu guys too, but they out already...

I was rather excited about e competition in e beginning... Coz i thot it would be more interesting to watch coz its live band and they r most probably formed for some time... Thus they should be more experienced than those solo singing competitions... Shd be more gd stuffs to look at...

But then the judges chose all kinds of patterns of teams, so it wasnt really wat i thot liao...

I missed the last one, coz went out wif Jul... Actually i am not really interested already... Also i dun wanna hear more songs i dun like... They confirm sing alot of May Day songs... hahahah...

But they r very smart... They dun reveal e judges score tis time round, so they can rig the results if they wan to...

So smart...

Moi Son

Its very difficult to take nice pics of my son, coz he erm, 1 doesnt pose unlike Bondie, 2 he black black one, cannot see his face even if he pause himself...

Anyways, tt night, when my sis n i were bored, i told her to take pic of him wif her hp, u noe la, SE phone cam very gd one... Then i happily joined in e fun, lol... Then we both started snapping away wif our hps and my son was wondering wat e hell we were doing...



U cant tell e diff of his after groomin, coz he erm black black one.. But his fur is very short but e groomer left his neck fur unshaved... Its kinda funny in real life, coz he looked like hes wearing a vest, jus tt u cant really tell on e pic...

Wat i wan to show is his tail...


U see, so funny... Tt groomer very funny make his tail like tt...




I dun think u remember how it looks like be4... So i dug some old photos to show...


Tail be4 like tis one lor... Now so funny, but everyone kept saying its cute and wan to catch tt ball... Hahah...

Some random old photos since i am at it anyways...


His classic sleepin position... Sigh, he think tt hes a cat...


Cute eh... But black black no face...


Moi comfy blanket...


Its rare tt he looks in e cam...


Tis one he lookin at me, not e cam... Tis pic he still smaller...


Tis one our old beds, we joined our 2 single beds then he like to sleep inbetween our pillows...


Tis one new beds liao... My bed still same lah, jus tt my sis one is e higher queen size bed... He cannot sleep lidat liao though, coz i put e tissue box there now... See he sleep until so ugly, legs open one... tsk tsk...


He loves my sis's blanket...


Black black again... Here u can see he quite fat, got pear bottom...


Very cute like lamb meh meh lidat... Hes licking my leg... (still a puppy then)


Tis is a follow up shot after e prev, very funny hor? I must haf tasted great... Hahaha...


Its a water mat but no more liao, the bit e thing then e water/oil leaked out... Still slim...


His bone bone, still slim...


He loves milky bones...


Hes holdin on to his own bolster... Tis one is his wife... He screws her everyday... Purposely bought for him, coz he humps our bolsters then so disgusting, so got one for him, his size... Lol...

But now his wife dun look like tis, shes naked... He dun like her to be dressed up so he strips her whenever i put back, so in e end i threw e cover away, coz he started to eat and tear it apart... So violent... Hardcore sex, pity his wife...

I decided not to neuter him, also coz he too big liao, more risky... My frenz dogs died at the surgery... I scared, so i dun wanna him to go thru e risk... Since he doesnt hump ppl, ok liao lah, jus let him hump his wife lor...

Its rather disgusting though, i hate it when he do tt... But then neuter liao doesnt mean they dun hump, they still do, maybe no sperm bah... Anyways, all dog owners live wif these, females haf to deal wif their menses, worst i thot...


All dogs supposed to sit like tis... Tis is e normal position, but then he hor, think too fat or wat, he doesnt do tis... He happened to sit like tis coz i was scolding him or something, tts y his ears went back...


He sit like tis one lor, so ugly... Like human lidat...


Tis one i like, coz like bear like tt... Very cute...


He look like hes pooing... Haha...


U dun think he sit like human meh... U see his position... Duno he learn fr where one...


I love tis pic... He looked like kena squashed lidat... Hahahah...