Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Paiseh

I am so paiseh at writing a angry post lidat...

Sigh, seems like i am still very bad at being angry... I would feel guilty and worry whether it would affect others later... So useless, mei you yong... Still learning, got to be more firm... If not always kena bully... Hahaha...

My mum today hor, she off my pc by switching off the plug leh... I got a shock and told her pc cannot off lidat one... Although i had told her countless times, she said, "I duno mah!"... And then hid herself fr me, in case my pc spoilt...

I was more concerned about my anime then my pc, i on to dl at the golden hrs mah, and then i lost it... Urgh... But it did affect my com, my pc went dead twice... *tsk tsk* I haven back up yet, dun die 1st... Dun die now also, i dun wan to borrow money fr ppl...

Angry Rant *Excuse Me*

My mum went ktv wif a few aunties just now... Then for goodness sake, one of the aunties actually showed my mum the NYP scandal video clip...

This is crazy shit, y e hell u keep it in ur hp to show everyone and then laugh at it while they r having sex... I didnt say much to my mum coz they r frenz of my mum though i duno where she knew them... But the thing is, how can ppl be so fucking evil!!!

Its already bad for ppl to distribute it, and it is even worst when u view it, u laugh at her, mock at her, insult her, and my mum even said she shd quit her sch and commit suicide...

What the ???????????

My mum kept saying how cum shes still studying and all tt... And i shouted like, "Wat? U expect her to quit poly becoz of tt?"... And she replied, "Yalah, dun study liao lah!"...

Then i was like, "Then wat u wan her to do? Go n die ar?"... And she said, "Yah, she shd..."

-________________________-"

I cannot understand y r we blood related... If it was me, i wonder will she suggest tt i shd die... Then again, her face is more important as proven, maybe she will...

For one, she kept complaining we singaporeans are so narrow minded n stupid, till we little things only commit suicide... Then now, she say she shd go n die... No face to see e world, so disgraceful, etc...

Then to add to my disgust, while i am having my nice hot fish porridge, then she kept toking about her skills in sucking/kissing/licking cock... Then she kept describing it... I nearly puked my food out... Its damn disgusting lor...

(In case u duno, i do find blowjobs and sex VISUALLY disgusting...)

I even stopped watching my anime coz it was so disturbing... But most of all, i am very agitated...

Then she kept on going like, "wah, see her face very clearly, even prostitutes n porn stars also not so gd...etc" Then she actually said real porn face also not clear or got sensor one...

Alamak, wat kind of porn she watched... Where got porn censor face one... Guys wan to see pretty girls face moaning, where got ppl wan to watch censored one... But anyways, tts not e pt...

I am mad coz like i said, i had the video then and i made a decision to NOT watch it, for 2 reasons... One for my own moral grd, and two for e victim's sake...

U noe how she begged one web master after another to take down her links, photos n videos or not? How can u ppl be so non chalant about it?

Even though i duno her, but then does tt matter?

But of coz, i am the only one who CHOSE not to watch... Everybody i know who had e link watched it...

Some said to me, "Well i watch only, i never distribute."... So? Its like wat u trying to prove? Obviously when u tell me tt, u noe somehow somewat u r doing a wrong thing, but then u cover urself up by making urself sound more innocent...

Bloody hell...

Then its like ven the most innocent who had watched it, comment about it... Then u will defend n say, even if we tok about her, she also wun noe! So it doesnt matter! Oh yah? then i tok bad about u behind ur back lor, i tok about ur family, ur frenz, everything... Nvm wat, mouth is mine, i can tok n discuss wif ppl all i wan, coz u wun noe mah! And i duno ur family n frenz also mah, so i can tok about them all i wan! Like tt okay right??????????

In e 1st place y e hell u even go watch it when u noe they r just having sex... And then after killing ur curiosity and realised theres nothing much, u shrug it off like, "Nothing much lor, very boring, very bo liao... Oh no big deal, their sex is boring... Lidat lor!"... Bloody hell...

Unless its a intentional distributed porn, then go ahead and watch them... But we noe tis is not...

But aiyah, anyways, ppl r going to say i am crazy, coz its just a storm in a teacup and i haf no reason to be angry... Well, screw u... If shes somebody u noe, u wun say tt already... If next time, something unfortunate happen to u, i will jus say, "Y u make such a big fuss?", n then laugh about u behind ur back...

There are alot of ppl we duno, but tt doesnt mean we shd be indifferent to them... If u found out ur fren'z fren'z fren had an accident, u still feel something one mah...

Nvm lah, ppl are lidat anyways...

I shd stop ranting...

Back to my anime and porridge...

Save urself the trouble if u r going to say i am mad... Coz i noe i am crazy, for being different in my thots, for being idealistic... I knoe idealism doesnt exist anymore... But i hope for tt cannot ar? Wat e hell is wrong being idealistic? Even if i am the only one, so? Then kill me lor, ask me go n die lor...

I never say i am a gd person or a saint... But there are some things tt i would not do... Or at least try not to do them...

Not targetting anyone, just angry only so cum here rant about it... I noe most of u watched it liao lah, just dun do things like wat those aunties did...

Monday, May 29, 2006

X-Men

Continuing fr the last entry... I did went to sleep at 8 and then like i predicted, i didnt managed to wake up... Lol... I couldnt hear my alarm at all somemore...

I was supposed to meet SZ at 130 then at 120, a sms came, and i was woken up by tt... It was SZ, she told me to go walk walk 1st coz she'll be late... I looked at the clock and shocked myself... Oh my, i just woke...

I called her and she turned back home... So i met her 230 instead... I was so shock... Haha...

Anyways, we went Bishan... Didnt managed to eat my mian xian coz theres no table so i skipped lunch... We had Sakae Sushi for dinner... Wanted to eat Ajisan Ramen but then i was wearing white so i didnt wan to dirty myself... I said sushi is cleaner... Lol...

Oh, and i bought a new umbrella finally!!! And i like e design too... Cost $6.90, about a dollar cheaper than wat i originally wanted to buy (e baleno umbrella)...

We decided to catch midnight movie, X-men... But we had like 4 hrs to spare... So we headed for ice cream... Initially intended to just haf it at Bishan's Swensens... But the Q was damn long, so we headed to Yishun's Swensens, and then headed back to Bishan... Which was stupid, coz we could haf just watched e show at yishun then... But we bought e ticks liao, so cant be help...

X-men is gd movie... I cant remember the last one, i can only recall the 1st... But no matter, u dun haf to remember e story to watch tis one... Although the plots not as gd as the prev 2... But no matter, it was a thrilling, interesting ride... You wouldnt feel bored, things happen one after another...

Its pretty sad tt many gd ppl died in tis one... I was very surprised Scott died... He died so suddenly early part of e film... Further more, they didnt even show how he died... But i was also glad tt Jean Grey was alive again, although she died ultimately in the end... Anyways in the comic, Pheonix didnt die...

Lots of death in tis one, but u wun bawl over it, coz they dun give u enuff time to grieve over e characters... Except i fought very hard to fight back my tears for the death of Charles Xavier...

If u do intend to watch it...

PLEASE REMEMBER TO STAY BEHIND TILL AFTER THE CREDITS!!!

The movie continued for a short little while... Though its like only 20 seconds, but its a BIG revelation... And *hint*, it actually relates back to one of the scenes in sch if u dun get it... And then u can go laugh at ur other frenz who were so impatient to leave... Lol... I did, i told my sis and laughed at her... Muahahahah....

Just a handful of ppl stayed behind wif us... Somehow they must haf gotten the news too... I read reviews so i knew... But then I almost left coz i didnt noe whether SZ's willing to wait and also i wasnt sure if the news was reliable or not...

Its just too silly... They shd haf written subtitles to ask ppl to stay... Then again, i am also thankful for the empty cinema n toilets later...

Its not bad, shd be watched... But not for ppl who are biased to the comics... If u dun like the 1st n 2nd, i dun understand y u still wan to catch e 3rd... Those ppl who complained are the hard core comic lovers...

True enuff, they did not follow ur beloved comics... But nevertheless, they came up wif a story... Daredevil followed the comic, and wat happened? Totally trashy, i came out cursing n swearing... And then the comic lovers started defending... Crap... It was so bad it didnt even managed to do a sequel then, wat did it proved? How much can u defend it?

Then we walked from Bishan to my place as usual... Near 1 hr, it was faster coz i was wearing slippers, i was prepared... I think next time i meet SZ i shd carry slippers in my bag jus in case... Lol...

Then meanwhile half way, i knew i was bitten by mosquitoes... But i dun wan to scratch it... Then when i waited wif SZ for the night rider, i went to scratch it and to my horror, i felt some sticky substance and realised my fingers were smeared wif blood...

I actually bled... Heavily somemore... It was dripping down my leg... Even after cleaning the wound, it continued to bleed for some time... It was creepy, how can a mosquito bite make me bleed so much... DAMN TT MOSQUITO!!! Must be a giant commando!

Wasnt painful, but very itchy... Urgh, hate insects...

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Cant Sleep

I cant sleep... Urgh... I was woken up by sms and then i couldnt sleep... I meeting SZ in the noon, and i am still not tired now... But then if i sleep at 8 or 9, i confirm cannot wake up to meet her... I shall wear flats later, in case i tired... Lol...

I cannot watch anime also, coz my sis sleepin i cannot on the sound... I moved my com back coz its too hot outside... And also its not fruitful anyways... I will need to off the air con soon and then open the door for my son to go pee n poo...

Now tt theres no guys in my house i am so happy, at least i dun feel uncomfortable wif my room door open (for my son)... And i dun haf to care wat i wear at home or how i look like... I go braless at home, and so when theres guys ard, its damn irritating...

Anyways, i am watching some clips (muted) wif subtitles... But somehow, i seem to hear small frequencies of them speaking... I think i am mad... Must be lack of sleep...

Few days ago, i dreamt of having incest relationship wif my uncle (my mum's bro, actually not incest coz they r not blood related, but definately morally wrong) ! Secret affair somemore... If its not the wrong kind of person, i much loved e dream... I was in a cold weather country, and its so comfortable cuddling or be physically close wif ppl there... Also, i was exploring the neighbourhood which was so beautiful, i wish i can jus live there... Lots of bridges, water features, greenery, mountains, trees, etc... I dun mind being trapped there forever...

I haf another new gadget, a pocket size dv camcorder/mp3 player/digi cam/recorder... 4 mega pix... I am going to bring it out later to try... Provided i remember... More about it some other time...

I noe y i last week hungry le, it was pms... Just tt i thot i came already tis mth... Lol... Now im having menses, and sigh, i hate going out wif menses but no choice... During pre menstrual period, one week be4 i would feel very hungry and never seem to feel full or haf lots of craving... Then now dun haf those feelings liao but im hungry now though... As in real hungry...

I wonder wat we would be having for dinner tonight... To sacrifice n eat gd food or not??? Hmm... I think i will go eat e 2 bucks taiwan oyster mian xian for lunch myself, coz SZ confirm eat liao then meet me... If not then i eat instant noodle liao then meet her... Aiyah duno lah, more hungry now...

I feel like watching The Core again... Coz i saw one of e movie's character in a commercial trailer on tv just now... Maybe if i dun sleep then i watch after my sis wake up... Which is still 1 hrs plus away... She hor, work at 9, can wake up at 830 then still can bath and makeup somemore... I got to wake 1 hr earlier than her every time... Plus i dun bath in the morning... Must practise more speed making up...

Friday, May 26, 2006

My Little Blue Bag

For most females, the little blue bag can make their eyes glow wif excitement...

While i am not tt atas...
(Im toking about e famous color of Tiffany btw, coz guys wouldnt noe wat im toking about)

My own little dark blue bag can do the same for Celestine...



They never change their design, all these yrs the same... Every time i see someone carrying tis, i would feel so excited n wonder wat they bought...

And if my bday is near, and my fren or someone meet me wif tis, i feel even more overwhelmed, coz i noe confirm for me... They noe mah...

When i was a little girl, i mentioned be4 tt i would buy every single piece of Swarovski crystals (one of their series, not all of coz)... And i saved and bought one every few mths... But then, of coz, later my family became broke n all, and obviously i gave tt up... I also collect glass bottles then, which i also gave up...

For the period of time when i stoppd collecting crystals, i thot tt i would carry on after i come out to work... But things do not wait for ppl, those pieces i used to target and love, stopped production one after another...

Seeing them vanished in their catalog yr after yr was simply heart pain then...

I remembered i saw 1 crystal i love during secondary 1, it was a Sun... And there is also a moon... I like the moon better but i felt tt e Moon symbolises sadness whereas Sun represents happiness... As i was going thru a miserable part of my life, i thot tt i shd get the Sun for self encouragement...

But then it cost 70 bucks and i had no money then... So i told my fren if its fated, i would get my happiness eventually... But i was worried it would no longer be there by then... Then u noe ppl will always tell u, "Can one lah, confirm u will be able to buy it in e future"... Stuffs lidat...

I saved, and then i think after 1 yr, i finally set aside some extra money for extra expenses... I mean i got save just tt there r other priorities when u r poor... Tt crystal could not be a priority... It was just but a mere decorative piece of crystal...

And then when e time came, i went to look for it... The Sun had ceased production... No more le... But then i still see alot of the Moons... I felt very sad tt my happiness left me...

Anyways, tt was all in e past...

For me now, i only hope to buy their accessories when i am even older... Those decorative crystals are just not practical anymore... Unless they r significant to me in terms of e design or object...




The name of e gift... Joe & Harry... I dun like e name... Not nice at all...


I got 2 mousy...




For some crazy reason, their eyes looked rather innocent n cute... Although they r just 4 lucky stones...

The crystals look better in real life...



At 1st glance, i dun really like it... Coz like i said, decorative crystals are too impractical for me, coz i cannot display them... Besides, i dun like "cute" stuffs anymore, i am long over tt stage... I like unique and sophisticated small stuffs... But then my appreciation for the gift doesnt reduce though...

Like wat my fren said, "I dun like e gift, but i appreciate the thot."...

But then after playing wif it moren seeing them longer, i thot they were getting cuter n cuter... Then i start to love them even more... Lol...

I love crystals, much more than diamonds, (ok coz i sour grape), anyways, i can imagined my future home to be crystalized... Haha...

So tis is e reason y most of my things contained crystals or diamantes... I am crazy over bling bling... Sparkles!!!

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Thots Tt Came Out Of My Mouth

TOday, my mum asked me to do some errands , which i rather grumbled about... And i am a honest gal, i actually told her, "Huh, sian, i lazy to go"... Lol... She didnt scold me, she just replied, "U must go out arh, if not ur bones would be stiff, becum more fat, etc..." I am so amazed wif myself tt i actually blurted my actual thots out... Haha...

I would rather do it tmr, coz i was tired... I woke up early tis 2 days okay, and i slept late too... I slept the latest in moi house, n woke up e earliest lor!!! Yea, i am trying to turn my bio clock back tis time for real... But of coz, i did not deny i was lazy, but i wasnt intending to say tt out loud...

Anyways, i did go, despite having a sore eye... But i did forget my hp, and my mum couldnt find me later, i was going to meet her and she thot i had fallen back to sleep at home... And she shouted, "Where got ppl go out never bring hp one?"... Most of the times she went out, she never bring her phone, to which i always scold her n said i cannot find her... Now her turn... Lol...

The thing is she just wan to withdraw money... But then no matter how many times i taught her how to use the atm, she just never bother to remember... So whenever she wans to withdraw, i would haf to do it for her... Besides, tt bank is so far away... And my sis work in a bank somemore, i dun understand y she dun wan to ask her to do it... Her explanation is tt my sis always go drinking, then if she dropped e money, i pay ar? -_-"

Somemore, today she lazy to find her card, so i still go n do bank transfer (though online) to my own acc, then go withdraw... So troublesome for a lazy me... But its great to see suddenly ur broke acc got money, and then gone e next...

Then when i returned, i saw this beautiful fluffy orange cat under my blk... Think its a male, judging fr its behavior... Hes got tis long n big orange tail tts as long as its body, i thot it looked rather unique... Anyways, i was walking past it, and i said out loud, "so cute~~~~"... And the next moment, i actually said, "Feel like chopping off ur tail!"...

OH MY GAWD!!!

What did i just said?

But then its not the chop ur tail violent abusive kind... Its the oh so cute wanna chop ur tail feeling, u noe? U noe? Different, u noe? Hhahaha...

Like how i sometimes find my son very cute and feel like squeezing him to death, but in a cute way, get it?

Nah, nvm... Maybe i watched too many gory movies...

Oh, i received my 1st bday gift of tis yr!!!!!! Muahahahahha... I am so happy... Coz my bday is 3 mths away...

I dun received gifts usually... Most of the time only fr my 2 sisters n SZ... SZ, buy me many many many small small gifts, then i can count alot tis yr!!! Heheheheh... Buy me 22 small gifts! Then i haf so many!!!

I took pics of it, n will post e pics later or tmr... If duno wat i like, just pop in Swarovski and get anything, chances r i would like it better than other stuffs... But then small crystal accessories would be a much better option, i haf prob getting decorative crystals, coz i cannot display them out...

I wan more sunglasses, big ones... I wan different colors for my collection!!!

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Hellsing

I had finished Hellsing few days ago...

The DVD is better than the Full Metal Panic... Full Metal Panic jams sometimes, but tts coz of my dvd player... The frustration about FMP was tt, when 2 person are having conversations, the subtitles actually went black for one...

I mean like who e hell uses black font for subtitles??? How to see?

And then for Hellsing, fortunately theres no black subtitles, but then they sometimes dun bother to translate or translate half of the sentence only... If its short, i can more or less understand their conversation (wif my intuition)... If u keep watching anime, u can more or less understand wat they r saying be it u noe jap or not... But then Hellsing is quite different, they often spoke in riddles, lol...

But then becoz Hellsing is god damn serious business and sometimes they r very soft, i had to on the English audio which sucks as hell like usual... I refused to on the chinese subtitles coz tt would give me more headaches...

Hellsing is ok... Violent, gross, scary, creepy, contained some sexual scenes... No gd looking characters to drool (a pity!)... I did hope they could draw Arucard more handsome, coz hes so manly... Although hes a monster...

The zombies kind of creep me.. It seems like anime zombies creeps me more than movies like Dawn of the Dead... Theres so many zombies, coz in tt show, when a vampires bites a human, tt human will turn into a cannibalistic distorted zombie...

Very very serious anime... So not for those who like to haf some laughs... Although its serious, it doesnt provoke ur mind... So it doesnt stress u out... The anime is quite generous wif blood n gore...

There r some elements i like... Like e powers of the ancient vampire Arucard... I thot its pretty cool n interesting, for his limit release etc... Though i duno y they kept having dog linkage... To me, vampires, zombies, and dogs dun link... Well, u see dogs in Resident Evil as well, maybe they kind of do to the script writers...

But the ending was rather depressing... So much deaths... And worst, the good guys somemore... I dun like to see the good man die... But then, if they dun, there wouldnt be any emotional impact... E real world after all isnt all sweet n rosy... Lol...

Everyone in the hellsing organisation died except the 3 main characters and 1 caretaker in e last epi... Tts very depressing... The story doesnt end though... I am kind of curious wats going to happen next, although i dun think i would watch it...

Anyways theres no sequel... They would haf to restart a story, which is too much work...

It ended wif a hint indication... But its just a hint... U never noe e actual answer...

Ultimately its kind of sad, there is just so much u can do, tis much u can fight as a human... It makes u feel kind of pathetic...

But theres 1 funny thing though... There is tis female vampire, shes one of the real vampires who lived for a long time... She basically now dun bother wif e world anymore coz she lived too long anyways... So she just live inside her house, which looked like a library...

She said tis, "Although living for so long is very tiring, but there are still so many books that i havent read. I just wan to read my books now in peace... " Something like tt...

Immediately when i saw tt, i thot of SZ... If she ever turns into a vampire, i am sure shes going to be like her... Read more n more books, coz SZ is a hardcore reader... She really love to read...

I smsed her telling her about tis character and tt she would be lidat if she becums a vampire, and she replied me, "Wah, i so envy her got so much time to read!"... Which made me burst into laughter...

But of coz, its no laughing matter, coz later on she was killed n consumed by a evil vampire... Wif e last struggle of her soul, she tried to break free from his body, n tt vampire sliced her off... So half her head dropped on the floor, in a pool of blood...

Before she died, she burnt all the books, and her house... Very sad...

I wonder wat would ppl do when they r granted wif immortality... Wif never ending time, wat will u do? But of coz, its never going to happen...

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Full Metal Panic

Wooo~ I am done wif Full Metal Panic... I let off a sigh of relief when e show ended and my sister laughed... I felt as though i had just experienced war myself...

The last haul was very exciting... And finally tt god-damn-never-die chap finally died... Hes indestructable, no matter how many times e main lead kill his robot, he always survive... Luckily the last epi he self destruct, if not i think tis tough cookie would never die...

I duno whether is tis on purpose or not, but the robot tt the main lead uses, is called Al (same as FMA)...

I now wonder whether to download the 2nd series or shall i just end here...

I enjoyed e missions, coz its on the adult level and the pace is tight... I was so engrossed and glued to every mission... But then my mind starts wandering whenever they go back to non mission days and continue their love love thingy...

Too bad, i do not like the main female lead enuff to enjoy their relationship... In fact, i would prefer the 2nd female lead to be wif him... Its e typical anime love triangle where u noe the 2 main leads would ultimately end up wif each other in the end...

So it is quite bekcek when u prefer e 3rd person who will always be there, who sacrifice more, who understand e other party more (not in tis one though, for other animes in general) but never will tt person be wif e main lead ... But i noticed for animes i always prefer e 3rd person, coz somehow i feel more for them and they would be more deserving for e love...

Maybe tis is y i dun like love-only anime... Coz i would ended up being more angry than ever... Lol...

In live action movies too, somehow there would always be a silly person who give alot to the girl or guy and be wif them whenever they need and they would still end up wif e show lead... And then u feel so sorry for tt silly person who held on to tt feeling... E worst is e kind where they sacrifice themselves or bear wif their pain n bring e leads together... See liao will be so bekcek...

Like the korean drama, Stairways to Heaven... Tt guy committed suicide to donate his cornea to e girl he love, so tt she could see her lover one last time be4 she die... How to feel not touched lidat leh?

Actually, in tis anime, surprisingly, i like the characters other than e 2 main leads even more...

Nice, will rewatch soon...

Full Metal But Not The Same

My sis bought 2 anime last night... She doesnt noe a thing so she anyhow choose... She bought Hellsing... And i was like, "Y e hell u bought Hellsing? U confirm dun like the show one!"...

Besides Hellsing's only 13 epi, not worth e money though its dirt cheap... She doesnt like to watch boring anime, those serious, fighting, alot of toking one... Even though Hellsing is about vampires, ghosts, living dead etc... I myself wasnt even interested...

I watched a few episodes on tv then... But there is too much toking eventually, but its very violent, and she dun like violent shows anyways... I dun like Hellsing coz its set in England and they r like westerners who all speak in jap... I dun really like tis kind of combinations...

But the thing about e anime is tt one main character same name as me, Celes... Heh...

Then she happily said, "I bought Full Metal liao, can watch already!"... Well, e last time we borrowed e Full Metal Alchemist Dvd, my sis didnt haf time to watch... And also she was more into Bleach (coz its brainless) then... I told her she wouldnt like FMA, coz its all about toking n toking and u need to use ur brain n u feel heavy n depressed... So she didnt watch it in e end... We tried to ask someone to burn e dvds, but it cant work...

But then when i saw the Full Metal's cover she bought, i knew something wrong liao... Alot of girls in it... I took it and screamed, "Oi! Tis is not tt Full Metal! This is FULL METAL PANIC!!!! Robots one, and abit chick flick too!"... Besides when she told me its 25 epi only i already suspected something... FMA is 52 epi mah...

I dun like to watch futuristic, or robot animes, like Gundam Seed... Though i heard tt Gundam Seed Destiny is very gd... Coz its all e same old depressing thing about technology, greed n evil/selfish human nature...

But i got to say Full Metal Panic is quite gd lor (for a 25 epi anime)... Its very exciting, more fast paced, finally a 2003 anime... I usually watch very very old ones... The anime is very funny too, i laughed at almost every episode, so its not only a robots anime, it became more light hearted after e introduction...

My sis got e 1st TV serial, the 2nd serial was made in 2005 and the OVA in 2006... Alittle bit sexual la, quite a guy anime...

Its strange tt i initially thot they had a good n interesting plot to work wif, but then as it goes on, they forgo tt plot and made it simpler n simpler...

I am now at epi 19... The missions r quite exciting, coz alot of ppl can die in e movie, e missions are very dangerous... Alot of different races in the anime too (obviously they speak jap)... I just finished a 3 epi battle, and i felt rather sad... Coz for tt mission, all e good guys were all killed by the bad guys... U follow thru a mission and yet they all died (except e main lead of coz)...

And the main lead couldnt be affected coz hes a anti-terrorist specialist, and he had to move on to e next mission... But it was his mistake in his strategy tt resulted in e rest of the team's death... Not really his fault, but his enemies outwitted him...

Then i saw the rest all fought wif their lives to their last breathe... Very sad...

Their captain was saying at some pt when they lost complete communication wif e lead to the other teamates, "Looks like we got e worst card after, if u had fought in eastern europe, u would haf know n felt tt e moment when, God has given up on u..."

And then he set his robot to self destruction mode to die together wif e bad guy, just seconds be4 his death he said, "U noe y God gave some ppl the worst cards? Its becoz he regretted having created idiots called HUMAN!"...

I almost choked on my dinner... Its very sad when u see him say tt... Coz u got to see wat happened be4 n after... His statement was very powerful n emotional at tt moment... But unfortunately his opponent was too strong, e enemy sliced e robot into 2 be4 flying off... And he self destructed...

When e main lead finally returned to save them, all of them had perished... Sigh...

But of coz, after tt epi, e anime became light hearted again...

I like e 2nd female lead character, i thot shes very pretty... The female lead is like Inuyasha's Kagome and her name also similar, called Kaname, just tt her hair is blue n longer... The guy is liek D.N. angel's dark i thot...

Gonna watch Sg Idol now... 8 PM leh... Going to laugh my hearts off!!!

Saturday, May 20, 2006

Baskets Galore

Moi sis came back fr Bangkok wif a huge box, and inside were many many baskets...

Its as though she can sell them off a push cart or something...



These werent the only ones she bought, she gave some away... I was to choose one from tis pile (actually only e 5 in front)... There is one small one something like e small blur one in front but its brown and e plushie is a dog's head... I love tt one but its not practical... Ended up she gave it away even be4 i could take a photo... I am sad... I thot shes gonna keep it...

Anyways, i chose tis one...


So cute... Funny hor, my sis so old liao still buy these kind of things... I wouldnt though... Even if its cheap...

E thing in front is my son's toy...








She gonna put all the baskets in her wardrobe, much like wat i did... I cant imagine how her wardrobe would look like after shes done packing...

Not sure wat i'll put inside tis one... But i noe it would be useful... Tentatively its still parking inside my wardrobe... Tt night i showed SZ my wardrobe and she said, "Wah, really alot of containers!"... Lol...

I need one more tray... Not sure whether to get it or not... I wan the $2 one from Popular...

Anyways, i caught 2 pics of my son's sad face... He was depressed coz i was doing make up and whenever he sees tt he noes i would be going out soon and he would be utterly shattered... Lol


Now my wallpaper...


So poor thing...

I showed my sis e pics but i never said anything... Then she asked me y he like got sad look lidat... Lol... I thot i imagined it when i took them...

Strange tt i actually managed to take pics of him... And so clear somemore u can see his face... I am so proud of my cam... Muahahaha... Maybe hes just depressed, so he posed for me...

Random Thots

My mum had broken up wif her bf... Coz her bf was fired so he wouldnt haf money... I was out KTVing wif SZ on thurs night, and when i returned after midnight, i realised he was still watching tv...

Usually he would be sleeping coz he need to wake up extremely early to work and so i said, "Haven sleep yet ar?" when i came into e house... He then replied tt e movie is nice (although he doesnt understand)...

Then 1 hr later, my mum told me e news when he went inside to sleep...

So sudden eh... My sis thot my mum was pretty heartless...

Anyways, my mum went in M'sia yest morning, and tt guy packed his stuffs and left early noon... He left e house keys on e table...

Today after he left, I then realised no matter whether u like or dislike a person... After living together wif tt person for yrs, u would still feel something for tt person even if u hate him... Maybe it was too sudden... The house kinda felt different... And its also rather strange tt at the same timing, tt person isnt coming back anymore...

Not tt u anticipated ppl coming home after work, its just became a natural thing and u only noticed it when things changed...

Maybe i am at home too much... I am becoming like my son... I wonder how my son would take it... Its like he didnt even bid goodbye to my son... Coz my son doesnt noe hes not coming back anyways... And my son yest night also waited for him to return at tt sensitive timing...

But its good to be in a house of females only again... My son isnt so close wif him, so i think he would forget him eventually...

E ktv was ok, i realised it was rather taxing for my lungs (i just recovered though still coughing n sneezing)... I can feel it... Sigh, old liao old liao...

I think i may catch Da Vinci Code next week... SZ dun wan to watch (coz she already noe e story) so i would go catch it myself... I wonder how many ppl are going to catch it since well, Christians & Catholics haf already boycotted tis movie and are not supposed to watch anything tt suggest any doubts about their faith...

I thot its pretty dumb tt they even tried to stop tis movie fr screening... But I also thot it was pretty dumb to try to stop Passion of Christ last time... Since Passion Of Christ is just re-enacting wat e bible said, ok, maybe they edited but it was to their religious favor anyways... If their god exists, i believe he would be so moved by e sheer number of ppl who weeped in tt movie, young or old, male or female...

But obviously, those who didnt cry were not non believers... So tt included myself... Watching tt movie had alot of assumptions... They assumed u noe about their religion, well coz majority of ppl are in tt religion... If not tt i knew more than other non believers, if not u wouldnt even be able to understand wat e heck is goin on...

I was hoping for a part 2 though, coz tt movie ended on a clifthanger... It ended when Jesus was resurrected... He poped out from his coffin and end liao... I wan to see e miracles he do later mah...

I already heard fr many christians who went to watch out of curiosity or ignorance and said the "truth" is crap, etc, and tt it strengthened their believe in their god much more now... Watever, its just a movie, adapted fr a "novel"...

I hope e movie is not too slow n boring coz obviously i read e book mah... But i still wan to catch it...

Poseidon

Tis one would be short, coz theres nothing much to tok about e movie...

The movie was rather exciting and thrilling... A good choice if u wanna catch a movie to kill time but dun wanna be bored and there isnt any other good choices...

The story/plot is rubbish, there is no build up or watever... No emotional impact, although alot of ppl died, u wun feel much... Its a very fast movie, the event happened at the 1st quarter after some short characters introduction...

And then u would then follow thru e journey of e only grp of survivors (they were e ONLY ppl who tried to escape, e rest waited for their deaths and e rest assumed dead, very gd budget there)... But seriously, even how they managed to escape dun make logic n sense, but remember becoz u watch e movie to kill time, u forgive tt...

But it was rather thot provoking, i was thinking of myself meanwhile, wondering wat i would do... And also e death of e 1st guy in tt grp affected me quite abit... 2 guys were hanging over, e lower guy hanging on to e upper guy's leg, and e upper guy holding on to e main lead's hands...

So obviously, it was too heavy, so e main guy asked e upper guy to let e lower guy off... Within seconds, e upper guy kicked the lower guy and tt guy fell to his death falling on sharp metals... And then later on e lift dropped on him...

E show doesnt give u time to think, immediately, they picked off their trail again coz they were rushing for time...

But then its like, hmm... I duno wat i would do if i was in e same situation... Then again, u would wan to save urself so maybe even e best person would do tt within seconds... Besides, in tt movie, e lower guy initially was asked by e upper guy to follow them coz e lower guy was a ship crew so he knew e ship well and then he died lidat... The upper guy would haf be e lower guy if not for e lower guy telling e upper guy to go 1st...

Anyways, its a fast paced thrilling movie... But its forgettable...

I did find e upside down setting thru out e movie pretty interesting coz e ship was overturned... So instead of being trapped inside and trying to escape up to e deck when e ship was sinking, they were doing it downwards...

Must be pretty nerve wrecking for the props crew...

Hostel

Hostel wasnt wat i expected and also definately not wat i heard from others...

For one, it wasnt a only sex n blood crappy movie, coz believe it or not, the movie has a plot... I think those ppl r either too excited over e boobs, or too scared to watch e violence...

For two, it is definately not e best movie they made, and i couldnt believe tis movie could be listed as a fav for anyone... Those ppl mus be mad... Although i dun like Kill Bill 1 & 2 coz of e stupid story they wrote, but i still understand y some ppl love e movie...

For three, the movie was disappointingly NOT VIOLENT enuff... In fact, i even thot they saved their budget on blood... Sigh... Wat saw thru e flesh, the ppl must haf closed their eyes... No actual gross scenes at all...

So much for R21 rating, i believed tis was due to the naked women & their boobs... But i am not tt surprised also, coz ive watched too many R21 movies tt fall short on the violence n gore parts... Wasted my anticipation...

Well, Kill Bill isnt gory too, although it was supposed to be one of the gory movies... In fact, for part 1, the 1st massive fighting scene they even changed it to black n white and minused off all the blood... Duh... Then they changed back to color when the fight was finished... Damn lame... Supposed to be artistic, artistic my foot!

For Hostel, the torture scenes are the typical, knife come at flesh, then CUT, then show after effect, or never show at all, camera turn to expressions of actors/actress... -_-" Even simple things like, when they kill someone, they slit the throat, they also cut... Biangz, i haf seen (in horror movies somemore), they slit, then blood gush out all in one continuos scene lor... Wats so violent about tt anyways?

I suddenly felt CSI should even be shown on national TV... Just weeks ago, i was watching one episode on transvetites... Then they even show u the throat slit n how it looks inside... Damn gross lor, can see the shaved Adam apple bone!

But then i left the theatre quite happy coz it was a satisfied ending... The only survivor did watever he could to win back some justice... He did all he could, and all tt i could think of... Unfortunately also, tt was all he could do... He was only but a mere one person... All the evil bad guys died...

Maybe e most disgusting is e jap girl's burnt n disfigure face wif one eye ball hanging out... Then e male lead even got to cut it off for her coz she was in pain... But then all never show one lah... They suggest only, even e eyeball dun look like eye ball...

Hill Have Eyes though wat? NC16 or 18, was more gross n violent... The guy used his axe hit n the head, then the brain n blood spurts out... All in one continuos shot, no cut one... I thot the scene where e mutated guy was ripping e old woman's corpse and eating it was pretty daunting...

No matter, i wanted to watch Hostel of e violence... Tt was pretty disappointing but it wasnt a bad movie too in terms of other factors... Still a gd complete film...

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Cute Snap

I was playing wif my cam tis noon n my son being e kpo chap, kept poking his nose to my cam... Then accidentally, i snapped and he so happened to poke his nose into my len barrel...
















So cute, but then ugly at the same time... But still, i like it... Like The Dog lidat... And i obviously wasnt focusing, it so happened my finger just snapped at tt moment... Mus be in born reaction...

But of coz, when i checked my lens afterwards, he got a scolding obviously... I had to spend some time cleaning his saliva off my lens screen... Urgh... So troublsome, taking off the lens cap, take out e blower and brush and clean... Ok lah, not tt troublesome... But still...

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Dream: Hideout At Raffles City

I always dream of war invasion in sg... No idea y...

Ive stopped dreaming of HYDE & Gackt so it was back to my usual... I dreamt of a recurring dream, i can dream a dream many times...

Me and a gal (probably my close fren) and her baby, we were shopping... But somewat, later on we headed over to the hdbs and weird things started to happen... While i was leaning against the corridor wall, after some comotion, 2 guys appeared from one of e household and e 5 of us stuck together after tt...

Then coz we were on a high level, we could see that sg was being invaded (i think by supernatural beings)... So anyways, there were explosions etc, and e 1st thing tt came into our mind was to rush to the nearest NTUC and stock up some food for running...

Since it was already so chaotic, theres no need to pay... U can see everyone was doing the same... But becoz we r on the move to run away, all we could carry were 2 heavy baskets... And i got to say, it was fun n it feels gd to take anything u like without paying... Haha...

I haf no idea y but i actually said, "I saw fr TV be4, most imptly we got to take more chocolates!!!"... Lol, duno is it becoz of LOST or not... Haha... But my craving for chocs appeared in my dream, i even opened one while we were stocking up... Needless to say i took mostly dark choc... Seemed like i still think of myself in my own dream... Haha... I took all the dark toblerone i could find...

We needed to take some veges but preferably those tt doesnt spoil fast... We also took bananas which was a bad choice... It fills stomach but they were damn heavy... The last i took were some carrots... All the while i was thinking e food could only last us for weeks n we r on our own after tt... And i was very nervous and kept my cool... We had to find a way to survive...

Anyways, there we started to run and there is a place somehow we were all running or hiding... Everyone is in their grps in tis area... We were sort of like waiting or camping in tis place...

But becoz i dreamt of tis dream be4, i did not wan the dream to end e way it did last time... The next thing's going to happen was tt some ghosts or something like a pack of dark clouds would sweep over us, reducing our population... They would minimise all the grps to be 3 n suck e lives of the rest away...

The last time, my close fren (its not SZ, coz look different) died... So i was bent on not letting her die tis time... So i told my grp to split... The 2 guys by themselves and me n close fren n baby together so tt we would be spared...

And it did happen... The clouds swept over us, and killed many ppl... We were saved... But somehow i think the baby was a burden to my brain's creativity, so along e way, my head decided to take out tt character... Lol... And when my head did tt, my close fren became SZ...

The dream moved on... It changed... Me n SZ were back in the supermarket, n tis time we decided to just stay n hide there since theres abundance of food... We both agreed it is also alright if we just live as long as we can there and die... (Much like Dawn Of The Dead)... We settled ourselves in a corner where there was also hidden storage warehouse where we thot we would hide ourselves in when there is danger...

We lived lidat for days... I am not sure whether it was fun or not... But i knew i was sick of cold food...

And then somehow the dream started to change, instead of just being a normal supermarket, there were clothes, shoes n accessories etc... More ppl started to camp in tis place like we do... Coz i think more n more ppl found out about e invasion n thot of tis idea... I saw them starting to wear the clothes on e rack, and so i decided to do e same... I was wearing tshirt n a pair of jeans... I saw a new jeans of my size and decided to change into it...

Later on, i saw a top i like and i changed into it too... A oversized baby doll white top...

Me & SZ were no longer together... And then my brain registered tt tis is e basement of Raffles City... Becoz e place was getting more n more crowded, i decided to leave and see if theres anything on the outside world...

I went outside, and life still went on for some places coz they still didnt noe about e invasion...

I met a small grp of guys and i told them about the whole situation... They did not believe me and so i brought them to town areas where everyone shd be working to find the buildings abandoned... It was at night though... Then we stopped a car and convinced the grp of guys in e car to join us...

Meanwhile we saw the empty streets wif occasional taxi drivers (they still haf no idea)... We split and headed back to Raffles City which i told them we could stay there for a short while and there is food...

Meanwhile we passed by many roadside stalls (business as usual, ignorant customers still eating)... Whenever i passed by one table i would grab their food wif my hand and eat it... Hmm, it felt so gd eating warm food... They thot i was crazy so they did not chase after me...

But then meanwhile some evil forces were stopping us from heading there... And took many lives away... I of coz survived and headed back to Raffles City, which had changed alot inside...

I took a bag (its white n pink branded i still remember) off a push cart, n packed some stuffs for more adventure... I saw many interesting things tt i like but ironically i told myself though they r free now, but i cant take them along...

I went back to the supermarket to bring her away...

Then my dream somehow ended there... Very scary one... The road towards Raffles City was full of evil obstacles, i had to fight so hard and ended up all the guys tt followed me died... *waste my time* Shouldnt haf left in e 1st place...

I think i was indeed very hungry last night...

Monday, May 15, 2006

Moi Sis Bday

Its my sis's bday... She just came back from Bangkok and she bought so many stuffs... She got me a cheap looking but nice bracelet... She said it looks like fr Topshop but then it looked tarnished... Quite me, coz there r green stones... I like... Would love it if its more chunky... I wanna get charm bracelet...

I gave her a beads hp pouch wif strap and a purple hp chain (very nice, i love it myself, but wun get it for my own due to e price)... I am going to get her Hello Kitty Chocs tis x'mas... Gosh, i am wondering wat to get her next yr already...

She also bought alot of alcohol... Hmm, i saw 3 long cans of my fav stout, Murphys which is only available at duty free... Or so i heard... Duno i can take one can or not... Got to ask her humbly... Heh...

My son was too excited to see her, so he peed on e floor... He peed all over under my pc table... Yup, i moved my pc table to e living rm again... He does tt when hes super happy or super excited... Only when he used to see my big sis and her...

I am very hungry today... Duno y, maybe coz ive not been really eatin these 2 weeks, and my body wan to get all the food back...

I will start cooking tmr again... Ate my mum's dinner jus now... Too oily n salty...

I got not much money left... Sigh... I spent so much last week... Shall see wat i can do...

HYDEXGACKT Dreams

Last wk, I met up wif SZ, and she was saying about HYDE and i asked, "U noe about him?"... She replied, "Of coz, u tok so much about him in ur blog!"... Lol... But she doesnt really noe how HYDE and Gackt look like apart from e few pics i posted of HYDE...

Anyways, last thurs, when we went shopping, i told her lets go HMV for awhile... Coz i wanted to see HYDE's albums... Then i went to see see look look liao and i also showed her Gackt & Miyavi... I happily told her, "Okie, enuff liao, can go now!" and left e shop... And she said i was like taking a peep at my secret lover and then left happily lidat... Hahaha...

Well, i admitted its true anywas... Heh... I was smiling all the way out...

Then later on in the evening, while she was at the washroom, i was waiting for her outside one toy shop... Then i started thinking about HYDE... Then tis couple passed by me and the guy gave me a very funny look... I then turned to my reflection n saw tt i was actually smiling not knowingly... And tt guy actually thot i smiled at him... Male's ego!!!

Then i told her so much about Gackt tt day... Muahahahha... I knoe him inside out lor!!!

I usually only intro Gackt to girls, coz girls somehow are easily obsessed wif him... HYDE is my personal fav, so i dun share... Hahahah...

Anyways, on fri morning... I was dreaming and then suddenly i saw at a very far view, theres Gackt... But just at tt moment, i was woken up by a call... I swear i was cursing at the caller...

Then sat we went out and watched Poseidon... More about Poseidon & Hostel soon... THen she came to sleepover... And i showed her many many pics of Gackt, HYDE & Mana... I like Mana coz hes pretty... Victorian classic lollita, i like!!! But his legs r so skinny, i often wonder how guy's legs can be lidat... Even much skinnier than girls...

Anyways, Gackt is 180cm, 60KG... I never thot any tall guys could be skinnier... Until i noe Miyavi... Miyavi is 185cm and 57kg!!! How crazy is tt!!! I bet girls at 185 weighs heavier than tt!

I loaded Moon Child for SZ to see... And then we slept wif a heavy heart... Coz everybody died in the show mah... I like duno watch how many times liao tt movie...

And she actually said, "Since Gackt wrote tt story, after watching tt movie, i seemed to understand him better!"... Haha...

The next morning we woke but were both tired... So we went back to sleep... In tt very short time, i dreamt like ages... But then i dreamt of HYDE & Gackt... But i cant remember...

Last night, i slept for 12hrs!!! I cant believe i was tt tired...

But i dreamt of both of them again... Tis time i remember... But it was a confusing one...

I dreamt tt i was studying my old secondary (AMKSS) but then the sch building was my Yishun Primary Sch... And then i am of class 3/1 but it consists of my poly mates as well, Navin, Weiyong, Din, whom i am not close wif somemore...

Anyways, for some reason, Gackt came to sg and studied in my sch... He was of class 3/5... In tt class consisted of my sec bitchy netball girls, who were so possessive about him tt they dun allow any other girls to be near him... SZ was in tt class too...

And hes in his black suit somemore... So funny...

So we had tis project work thingy and the teams could consist of mixed classes... Somehow, my leader, think its Navin, he actually chose Gackt... Muahahahha... I was so happy when i found out but pretended i dun care... Lol...

Then we wanted to haf a grp meeting in e class, so we sent one guy to contact Gackt... I wanted to do it but they did it be4 me... *sob*... Then suddenly, Gackt, in his suit, came barging into our classrm... He is so gd looking... But looks abit different... I pictured him wifout make up and he looked so chinese...

We discussed and meanwhile i took many secretive glances at him... Lol... I almost died... We were going to do the project later in the evening in sch...

And then e dream moved to another sub dream... We were on a bus, going somewhere, together wif a big grp pf schmates... Then, somehow i went to borrow e washroom of a apartment and suddenly Gackt kept knocking on my door, asking me to be quick, etc... I was pooing and had to use my leg to hold e door, in case he broke e door, which he nearly did...

Anyways, when i was done... I crossed to e apartment next to it where everybody gathering at e sofa area... And suddenly Gackt sang Happy Birthday to me... Hahaahah... I realised it was aug 14 and i had no idea how Gackt found out since ive not had e chance to tok to him yet... We ate some food n cake... Then i went to chat wif Gackt... And i found out e 1st apartment i went to was where hes staying now...

Afterwards, we all left to go back sch... And somehow, i was walking wif Gackt alone... So we tok for a long time... I asked him how cum hes in sg, and y was he in my sch, how he find sg, etc... It was so magical...

Next we went to do our project, and we were filming car scenes at our quadrangle... And alot of stunts were shot... THen i realised HYDE was in our grp... We had camp fire and he kept singing wif his guitar... I asked Gackt to sing but he doesnt wan to... He said he doesnt really like singing in real life other than for shows... Lol...

HYDE was e star of our video... He was e driver too... We were shooting mtvs or sort, and of coz, using HYDE's song... But i disagreed wif e grp and insisted they use both Gackt and HYDE...

Later on, Gackt went to haf a photo shoot, organised by our mandai zoo... He was cross-dressed... Gosh, i still remember his look in his red gown...

The dream went on... But not impt to continue... So basically tts it.. A day in sch wif HYDE & Gackt... Hiak hiak...

Saturday, May 13, 2006

So Creepy

From my son's weird strange behavior, it seems like "something" had just entered my house and is near my rm...

OH MY GAWD!!! Y isnt my sis here sleeping wif me?

Arrgghh...

Friday, May 12, 2006

Not Thinking Properly

I think i had overdose of medi... I couldnt think properly the whole day and i feel drowsy when none of the medi i took haf drowsy effects...

Not thinking properly i ate another cold medi just a moment ago, by the time i thot of it, it had already gone swimming in my tummy...

I am eating 3 kinds of cold medi... I just thot of it... I should stop it... Coz my condition isnt becuming better and i lost all appetite... I thot i was only taking 2 types, but i just realised i took 3 types today...

I was eating one type till one day my sis asked me to take another type coz i dun seem to get better... And then without knowing i took another type on my own... So i just realised i am killin myself... Haha...

I am not getting better... It somehow just stuck here...

But i believe the overdosage is not serious enuff of coz to kill me... Think i shd be better tmr wifout the medi, since i am going out...

Ive watched Hostel and bought many things yest... I walked so much till my feet hurts till now... Tmr i am not going to wear heels... In fact, we walked so much yest and our feet hurts so much till we couldnt even complete our shopping, and thus its part 2 tmr... Am gonna wear track shoes so tt i could walk more n rest my feet... More about these when i feel better...

Tmr i would be out wif SZ, and she would be staying overnight at my place... Coz my sis is at Thailand now...

Wanted to bath but i think i go sleep soon le... Coz tmr i need to wake in e morning to vacuum, mop floor, clean house, wash toilet... Sigh... Bath tmr morning bah...

Nightz.

But then i wan to finish watching Survivor 1st... Lol

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Overrated

I overestimated my own body... I thot i sort of recovered today liao... So I intended to do some stuffs n chores today... But then the illness hit me back and i felt giddy whole day, might be coz i switched medi... So i ended up doing nothing again... Urgh, and i refused to sleep coz i wanted to sleep early tonight...

Am gonna take more medi and get a good sleep now... Coz tmr i am going out... To shop for presents!!!! I hope i dun end up buying more for myself... Haha...

Hope i feel better tmr... But hack, i am going out anyways...

And i am going to watch Hostel!!! Finally found a companion... Heh, hope e boobies dun turn me off too much... But then only left one place and 2 slots left for e movie... So duno will get to watch or not... Tmr see how... If not then watch Poiseidon... Like Titanic lidat...

I am so excited... I hope i can walk... I would be walking alot in Orchard tmr...

No HYDE

I seriously thot i would dream of HYDE yest... Well coz i was day n night dreaming about him, and i had been dealing wif my illness for the past 3 days wif repeat playing of songs from his 3 solo albums, day n night... Till my mp3player abit crazy liao... Might be time to change... But it still can last an other 1 and half yr i believe...

Do u noe i can fall asleep listening to HYDE's rock music? Somehow his songs are lullaby to me... I cant sleep wif Gackt's rock songs though, coz his songs are too noisy... And he sing too loudly, lol... If i managed to fall asleep, he would no doubt wake me up wif his next song... Hahahah... Dun even mention Miyavi... Heavy metal rock music are annoying when u r sick, and his hyperactiveness makes me dizzy... But all would be well when i recover...

I compiled HYDE's 3 solo albums coz i wanna hear the difference, and his improvements... I'll leave tt to another entry another day... Also i wanna review his latest album, Faith, which was released early May... Hes going Taiwan soon for a solo concert i predict... I am so jealous... I wish i can teleport myself there...

Anyways, I thot to myself, i would definately see him in my dreams last night as a matter of factly... But then hor... I dreamt about everything, our conversations (we speak in english in my dreamings), the things in our conversations, his wife, his kid... Just dun haf him lor!!! I am so angry!!!

Y cant u appear in my dream as arranged? Urgh... Haha... Anyways not ur fault lah...

I just watched his old singles, Horizon PV coz i read alot of his fans kept saying its creepy and sort... But then hor, where got creepy? Wats so creepy about it? I dun get it at all... So disappointing, i was expecting creepy special effects but there were none except to hint tt he is dead... But he still look like him mah, so wats creepy about it?

Micheal Jackson's ghost look creepy i agree... Oh btw, they kinda look alike u noe... I haf the pictures...

My mum just said she wans to share the prata... I told her to eat all if she wans and she grumbled... Duh...

Back

I feel much better now...

Well at least my fever had gone down... I need not sleep on my bed whole day.... I can breathe thru my nose some times... & I can move my body ard... Well at least i can wake up 7 am in the morning and download stuffs... Coz i slept too much... Even wif drowsy pills, i couldnt sleep last night...

My flu and cough are still there though... And my cough is very bad tis time...

I told my sis last night in a very weird voice, "Ur virus is so poisonous! I haf not been so sick for so long liao!"...

True i haf been sick often, but not like tis time...

I couldnt even move, lucky i no need see doc, coz i am sure i couldnt even walk downstairs... And i cant even tok...

I cannot speak properly... And it is damn frustrating when my family knoe i am sick and yet they still wan to chit chat... And coz i cannot exert energy, whenever i reply, they go, "HUH?", "HUH?", "HUH?"... Which annoyed me even more...

It takes great pain to try to speak ok? Luckily nobody calls me lately... Except SZ who called when i was sleeping on my very 1st day of illness...

I hate to be seriously sick... Coz it makes me feel very lonely... I can deal wif being alone... Just tt when i am sick or when i am buying my groceries (heavy bags!), i feel lonely... I think these are e only times when i feel i dun wan to be alone...

Then again, ironically, when i am attached and sick, i felt lonely... So i would rather feel lonely when im single than attached... Becoz u feel even more lonely when u r attached n sick and plus heartaches...



No matter, i am glad i went thru it...

Being seriously sick always makes me feel like dying in the process... I wonder how ppl can go thru e sufferings of cancer n other sorts for yrs...

My mum bought me roti prata!!! Does anyone noe i am still sick? Even though i speak wif a horrible scratchy coarse voice, she said, "Aiya, recover liao lah!"... "Eat spicy food confirm cure faster!"...

She said the prata is for my lunch today, coz she wan to go out, lazy to cook porridge... But duno i wake up so early so change to my beakfast, so relunctantly shes cooking my porridge for lunch and dinner now be4 she go shopping... -_-"

Ive been eating plain porridge for lunch and dinner for e past 3 days... SZ, ur fav!!! And i am so sick of it... No more teochew porridge for e rest of the yr...

I hope i am back, stronger! Lol...

Monday, May 08, 2006

Bull's Eyes!

There is a flu virus going ard my house aka my sis, who brought the virus from her bank... It stayed floating minding its own business for 2 weeks, and finally, decided to hit me yest evening... Bull's Eyes! Perfect landin!

For 2 weeks, i wasnt infected, i thot to myself my health has come back and i am strong...

I duno isit coz of the 3 bowls of strong herbal tea i drank day be4, which might be e culprit who somehow screwed up my inner immune system...

Sigh... Tis is bad...

I kept eating medicine n sleep... Tis morning i woke up feeling worst than ever (fever, blocked nose, sorethroat cough, etc)... But now i felt slightly better... I did not see doc, i simple ate the medicine my sis took fr her doc (free one, company pay)...

I hope i can recover tmr... So many things for me to do...

Luckily i went KTV last week... Coz my cold usually wun go away for weeks...

My dear gal had finished her exams, but then she now everyday got tution coz her students having exams soon... Sigh, how to meet lidat?

My sis is going overseas tis week to Thailand...

Oh, i seriously hate those ppl who duno anything bout politics and still claim like they noe n wan to tok about it as if its so cool...

One female said, "Wow, though its pathetic, but the opposition managed to win 2 seats tis time, but its a START! I hope they can make some changes!"

Its like i duno whether to laugh or wat... I merely rolled my eye balls... Wat u mean its a START? U dun even noe about the prev elections even though u r so much older than me meh? *tsk tsk*

For those who duno wat i am toking about and are brave enuff to admit u duno, well, the opposition had been holding on to these 2 seats for the past 3 or 4 elections... They haf been there for about 15 - 20 yrs... More about these in another posts after ive recovered....

Seriously it only makes u look stupid when u make a comment lidat... Even so, i doubt the others found it stupid, for they themselves are also idiots who duno anything about sg politics but pretended to be smart alecs...

Wa, sick still can get angry...

I shall go rest my soul now...

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Naruto 2nd Movie

Oh my god!!!!!!!

I tell u ar, the 2nd Naruto movie is good... Its almost great... At least a hundred times better than e never-moving anime series...

The backgrds paintings are very good... I love the backgrds... Also, the characters look way better... In the anime series, the characters all look kinda distorted after they grew bigger... But the movie was gd... The story is interesting as well though nothing special... But at least the flow of the story catches ur attention...

I thot the 1st one was ok, so i never expected the second one to be better... I was glued fr beginning to end when i saw the second one...

But of coz, i am alittle biased... Just a little...

Becoz...

GAARA is in it!!!!

Finally i see Gaara again, like after so long... FInally they decided to incorperate Gaara into e movie, which they shd haf done it so long ago...

I always dun understand y they created such an interesting character (even more than e lead), and then just made it a side kick and then worst made him disappear totally... -_-"

He played such a big part in the manga and then u just make him disappear in the anime... Wat a joke!

Although i am quite disappointed at the limited scenes where Gaara appeared in the movie... But i seriously felt his impact whenever he appears... He is tt strong!!! I was kinda hoping tt Gaara would be involved in the final battle in e end... But then, i believe they wanted e focus to be on Naruto, so they didnt do it... So disappointing...

Nevertheless, seeing Gaara is so exciting and refreshing...

He opened the movie and got me so excited... Didnt think tt i would see him... Hahah... He grew bigger as well, and his voice has changed too...

The music and sounds effects were better on tis one too... Although i kinda felt the theme song's title Ding Dong Dang kinda irritating...

But in general, its worth watching... Much more than e 1st... Its a leap in improvement...

I hope tis movie is not e reason behind y they never move on the anime series... If it is then its like -_______-"!!! But i heard its moving on soon, then again, i heard it so long ago liao... But then at least they cleared e movie, i am sure they haf more time now to move on...

Gaara is da bomb!!! You are so cool...

Saturday, May 06, 2006

2nd Yr Death Anniversary

I headed to YCK Sec Sch in the noon for e voting...

My sis initially wanted to vote for a particular party, she gave her reasons and asked which side i was voting... I told her and then gave her my reasons... In the end, she followed me... Hhahahah...

Anyways, got serial number one lor... -_-"

I am rather excited about the results... Just 15 mins more...

Watched The Parent Trap a moment ago, so heart warming, and my fav Lindsay Lohan is just so cute when shes small... So young and yet acting 2 roles, so amazing... And last night i watched the famous old old blockbuster, Indecent Proposal... Aww, it was a bittersweet movie... I like it... So touching at the end...

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I found out today is the actual date for my Baby's 2nd yr death anniversary... My eldest sis smsed me yest, telling me about it... Now tt i remembered, she did tis last yr 2...

I had to console her even though i dun feel very gd about it... Its not impt to let her noe how i really think about the incident since its already been history... So wats impt is for her to feel better and move on...

Now, i am sure i would remember tis date... Urgh... But no matter, i hope Baby is happy where ever he is now... I do not believe tt all pets go heaven... Even though i told my eldest sis tt i believe Baby is happy now in heaven... I haf to say things according to ppl's religious beliefs...

I do not believe tt there is heaven... Even if there is, i do not think tt every one would be very happy... I do not believe a place where there is ever flowing milk, honey, grass and equal feelings to be happy... But i do believe in the spiritual world and hell so to speak...

I believe he had been reborn and is somewhere now... At least i feel closer to him tt way...

Although its been 2 yrs, i still miss ya, Baby... Hope u'll live ur new life to the fullest again...

PS: My mum came back early today... Coz she lost money lor... My son is very moody today, duno y... He didnt wan wan to eat his dinner... Duno isit coz my mum came back, coz u see, he dun like her...

Friday, May 05, 2006

Wonderful Night

I was totally shagged n knocked out e moment i got on my bed tis morning... I didnt realised how tired i was until i felt my body giving way n sleeping 1st even be4 my brain...

I did not even respond to my hp alarm... I slept very deep... Cant remember wat i dreamt though... Luckily not fillet o fish again... Lol... Its gd tt i dun haf work or date today, if not i confirm miss it one...

My sis bf bought me food today... So i ate late lunch early dinner? Dun think i'll cook later, lazy...

Yest while on e train, i smsed my date saying, "We eat sushi? I very long no eat le!"... And the reply was, "Me also! I was already thinking of tt! Already envisioned myself eating tt later! Haha!"... Something along tt line...

Very happy tt we ate sushi (my fav), 1 and 1/2 hrs of dinner time is never enuff for us... Kinda rush for me, coz i haf too many things to say... Either i got no time to taste my food properly or no time to tok... Haha... But food was especially good yest, duno y...

Then we headed for KTV... I had a great time... It was more enjoyable than my last one, though at the same place, wif e same person... The last time we came out feeling so sian, tis time we were both excited n happy...

I sang all the songs i wanted to except two songs... But nvm, next time sure haf one...

I sang alot of newer songs tis time... I made the effort to go learn one lor... I usually sing old songs haha... And then i sang alot of female songs n duets tis time... I usually sing alot of male songs, coz somehow i like male songs better... There are more gd males songs than female songs...

I was singing and at some pts i couldnt recognise my voice... Lol... I realised coz i wasnt used to me singing female songs... Haha, forgot tt i sounded like tt... And my date laughed at me when i said tt... Coz i was singing e verse and suddenly i paused n said, "Eh? i sing one ar?" ( i tok it was e female singer) and my date said, "Ya lah!"...

And then the room we got was so romantic... Got view somemore lor... If u stand or sit high up on the sofa, u can sing n enjoy e view (though view wasnt very appealin but it was very romantic)... The room is huge somemore... I think i got medium room instead... No more kbox... Lol... Tis has got to be my fav ktv outlet...

Then i went to my date's neighbourhood and we sat and tok for hrs... I interrupted our conversation to sms Jul, Happy Birthday wor... Heh... Hope she haf a good bday tis yr!

After i sent my date back (how nostalgic), i walked past tis cheers outlet, and e cheers person said "Morning" to me when i walk past... So sweet...

I was walking further coz i wan to save alittle on my midnight cab fare... I was walking walking then suddenly one cab just pulled over for me... So i hopped on... And then meanwhile, the driver and i chatted... He tried to use english to chat me up so i appreciated it coz i can tell he cant really speak e language...

We had quite abit of laughs toking about the speeding cameras, summons, etc... Oh i got a surpise when i got on the cab, coz the uncle was actually listening to Jap pop songs... Haha, so stylo!!! I like!!! He was listening to Smap songs...

The journey was extremely smooth (of coz lah 4+ am in the morning leh)... I reached my place very soon and at a incredible low rate... I only paid 7 bucks including midnight fare... So amazing... Its e lowest ive gotten so far (fr tt place lah)...

In fact, its even lower than the ride from there in the day... Amazing...

Anyways, i went home pleased... I hope the sunflower i gave can last though... Didnt take pic though i had my cam wif me... Lol... Told u i dun use my cam outside, which is y i shd get e new one... Hhaha..

Then i saw rm sent Jul white roses wor, nice right? Told u white roses very nice liao... Sigh, i am so jealous, i also wan!!!!!

Wrong One

Urgh... I bought the wrong lip balm...

Due to the contractors surveying my house, i couldnt get to the meeting place sooner... Coz u see, i wanted to get flower for my date, it was meant to be a surprise... So i hurried the flower, then rushed to watsons, grabbed e things i wanted to get and hurried to the restaurant entrance... All the time, hiding the flower...

So in the midst of e messiness, i bought e wrong lip balm... Correct brand but wrong how u say? I duno how to say, aiyah supposed to get e blue one, i took e red one... Sigh... Lucky didnt cost me much...

I bought my body scrub and also e foundation... I think i got the right shade tis time... I used eye judgement instead, coz e shade i bought ran out of tester... I dropped 2 shades lighter... Lol... Just tested it on my hand and it seemed gd, but hand not accurate one, dun do tt... But then i am still wearing my makeup, so cannot test it yet...

Yes, i just got home 45 mins ago... Sent my date home, so sweet of me, its been awhile...

We had a great time... More tmr... I am so tired... My eyes are so red...

Thursday, May 04, 2006

Killings, And More

The contractors just left... They were very surprised landlord not ard, coz they need some decisions about e upgrading... Lol... The only decision i made was to tell them to tear down e kitchen cabinet, coz too old liao... I think we would be getting own contractor to do new cabinets after e upgrading... I think...

These few nights hor, i haf been having nightmares leh... Manslaughter every night... Killing ppl and getting killed every night... Massarce... So much blood, so much death... So much fear... In order to protect my own life and others, i got to start killing too... Too damn sick... Sick to my stomach...

Sometimes its like game, but when we r in e game we can really die like Battle Royale lidat... Survivor game... Sometimes its war, or reality killings...

Urgh...

The MP came knocking on doors tis morning but i was sleeping so i ignored... No, actually they were the impatient one, when i went to the door, they already went next door... So bloody impatient!!! I overheard a guy saying, "Im ur district's nominee..." Or something lidat in mandarin... So i dun even noe hes PAP MP or the opposition...
-_________-"

Then half an hr later, someone knocked my door extremely loud... I went to the door, same thing again... Tt person disappeared... Disturb my sleep only... Now i am so tired...

Ok not toking more, coz i haf a date... Going for dinner and KTV, woohoo~

Gonna go prepare now...

Kagen No Tsuki Final Thots

I haf said countless times tt I am a idealistic (or naive as to wat some called) person... Too idealistic for my own good... Becoz in reality, there is no such things as idealism, becoz human nature eventually evolves according to times and situations...

The more idealistic u r, the more u would get hurt... Becoz u believe in everything...

So whenever i see idealistic situations, i get pretty emotional... Which is one of the reasons y i cry at movies, anime, manga so much... Becoz unfortunately, these are the only places i see my own idealogy reflected back to me...

In a century where i thot my theories are weird, i never thot tt some ppl still use these kind of idealogy in their creations (though artificial), becoz i thot the audiences now are so practical tt nobody would follow or comprehend those kind of ideas anymore...

Look at movies nowadays, it is ok to haf mulitple partners, it is ok to haf flings becoz tts wat everybody is doing, it is ok to try relationships coz at most break lor, married then divorce lor, find another one, piss me off...

But every now and then, some would appear...

Kagen No Tsuki is a pretty dark world... While in tt story, the world is filled wif betrayal... Ur husband, bf, best fren, etc... Anyone can betray u, no matter how close or impt they r to u... There is no such thing as becoz i am ur husband, i would be loyal, becoz i am ur fren, i would help u... No such thing...

Its rather saddening also to find out Adam isnt as endearing as in the movie... He did not commit suicide so to speak, it wasnt a decision, he confessed tt he simply wasted his life away, sank into ultimate depression and so happened he had an overdose in drugs and died...

But it is also sad to see that in e manga, Adam's spirit would never be put to rest... Although its his punishment which he had accepted in the end, but then ending a story lidat is heavy for e heart u noe? At least the movie had the happy sweet ending ya?

Reading the manga, i understood y exactly he said to Mizuki, "Tis is ur fault, u died!" wif RAGE...

I saw something in the manga which e movie totally decided to differ, it might be unintentional... They might haf made the changes according to realism of reality...

The resolution of Mizuki, her stand wif Adam, their love were totally on 2 different grounds i thot...

In e manga, Mizuki returned to her body becoz she realised she wasnt alone anymore... She claimed tt she was lonely in e real world, which was y she had wanted to give up... It wasnt love tt bind her to follow Adam... But later Adam also said he lost to the strong hold in reality which was Tomoki...

Tis is not really how i like to see the story though... It made everything seemed too lightly n not worth fighting for...

In the movie, she knew everything, but chose to give her new life and e ppl ard her another chance and she wans to live her life to e fullest...

But in the manga, her memory is wiped clean after she returned... Tt to me, is unfair... It is more respectable if u make a decision when e noe e full picture...

I do not believe in reincarnation when ur memories are wiped clean... But of coz, if u do remember tts creepy also but tts another side of e story... But ideally, it is unfair to not noe wat u had gone thru when u r given another chance...

When u fall, u bleed, learn the lesson and try again... But if u can try again, but u forgot e lesson learnt, then there is no pt... It jus goes in a vicious cycle...

And also, it is sad tt becoz she couldnt remember anything, Hotaru lost her as a fren... How can lidat...

I thot there is something bout the manga which had a great impact... But the author used idealogy in tt case...

The idealogy in tis story lies in e character Hotaru... Hotaru helped Mizuki selflessly, and went all out for a person out of true genuine affection for another being... But of coz, she is idealistic becoz she is a child... It wouldnt be convincing if the author used a older character...

She mentioned something near e end of e manga, which is something i had been saying all along...

She said,

"U said earlier tt no matter wat we do, we couldnt help Eve (Mizuki) as long as she herself, doesnt wan to live... Ive always thot like tt... But now i wan to believe tt we haf the power to move Eve's heart with our wishes... I wan to believe that our wishes would be Eve's hope of living..."

And she tried her best, believing... And therefore, she saved her... Although she lost a fren afterwards, but its ok to her, as long as Eve is alive...

Tt is strong idealism which moved me...

I always say suicides in most cases, could be avoided if everyone pays attention to the ppl ard them... She tried to persuade her, but Eve was set on giving up n pushed her away many times, but she did not give up... She tried again and again, even though she knew she is not strong enuff...

Its exactly wat i haf been saying...

Ppl told me, tt it is all up to the individual, we cannot help, tis n tt... When i tell ppl some things, e 1st thing they tell me is always "I cant help u, only u can help urself!"... These are all bullshits and excuses... Never underestimate wat mere words can do... It can reach and save the most unimaginable... Wat do u think therapists are for?

Idealism doesnt exist anymore... Human nature had already changed...

Some frenz told me tt their best fren had suicided and they only found out days, weeks or mths after their deaths... I can only feel pity tt they even used the words, "best frens"...

Human values change... I guess thats how we haf to live wif it...

Btw, the movie Queen of the Damn is great... I love vampire movies... Although the movie is so long ago, it doesnt really feel so... Except tat they censored off so many parts till i dun even noe wat happened... Lol...

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

HYDE Madness

I was browsing thru my photo collections and i seriously just cant take my eyes off HYDE's 2006 photos...

His 2006 photos are just simply amazing, especially his "Faith" album set...

Comparing his photos of his past, this is his best set... His hairstyle totally complemented and enhanced his boyish features and made him look so much younger...

Although i haf a fetish for blonde/white hair and his lovely hair extensions for Cape Of Storm Single... I really love white hair and extensions... He also had his extensions for one L'arc En Ciel Album, very rock punk hairstyle, but i forgot which one liao... Lol... Ive always loved his long hair... But then, his current hair cut is as endearing as well... Though not very short, but short in my preference...

Although i kinda miss his make up and all... But then its always gd to see the natural side of him... He did haf one photo wif heavy makeup... So tt did satisfy me, haha...


How can you still look so great? Your 2006 photos really blew me away when i 1st saw them mths ago...


Although i love him alot, but i haf to be honest... I am not a big fan of his solo works... While they are good, they are not the best... I still prefered Laruku's songs... Somehow, i agree wif their fans tt their solo works all lack certain elements (n tts e work of each other)... Good but not great...

L'arc En Ciel songs are classics... I can listen to them over and over for so many yrs already... Especially their last Awake album, which totally showcased their growth... Maybe not as rock anymore but the songs fully matured...

I duno whether is it the trend for movies... While HYDE & Gackt's Orenji No Taiyou (Orange Sun) for moon child and his Cape Of Storm for Last Quarter matches the movie brilliantly, but as solo music, they r just not there... Strange... Especially Orenji No Taiyou... Cape Of Storm is much better though but only if u caught e movie...

When i was reading e manga, Cape of Storm didnt matches i thot... Maybe becoz e characters n plots a little different i guess...

Eh? I just realised both his movies' about Moon... Lol...

But nevertheless i appreciate his solo works, its another side of him... And his determination to showcase his under rated vocal strength... All artists wan to do their own music someday... Wif complete freedom and all... And wif his own record company, it is natural tt he continued tis path... And sticking together as a band for about 12 yrs since e underground live houses days is something tts both amazing n admirable... Most bands dun last (especially wif e same band members) and yet they do... Except Sakura who was busted for drugs and they had to recruit a new drummer... But tts all donkey yrs ago, when i was like wat? In pri sch?

And ending off wif one of my fav photos...







Lol, he is just sooooooo cute... How can u not smile?

Last Quarter Thots Part 1

*Spoiler warnings*

Okay i am done wif e movie and manga of Last Quarter Kagen No Tsuki... I doubt anyone would be watching e 2 yr old movie so i think i would tok about it...

Hmm... How shd i put it?

The storylines are somewat different, especially the ending... No, actually the endings are totally different and sets off 2 different moods...

The movie somewat gives u a weird feeling due to e ending twist tt they added (which i cannot understand y they did tt, will cum to it later *spoiler*), but they also resolved the story and gives u a somewat pleasant, sweet n happy ending to the main story...

Oh the real ending to e main story line (movie) is at the end of the looooonnnnnngggg credits, so if u r going to watch, make sure u scroll to the end...

The manga leaves you feeling sad... And i think it makes ppl feel a little lost too... Not so gd for emotional ppl like me...

I am not into plain happy perfect sweet lovey love stories tt much, so in order to intrigue me, its got to haf some different elements...

The different element about Last Quarter is tt its somewat a ghost story, reincarnation (spoiler), world between reality n dream... Of coz, i am not going to deny HYDE is e main trigger of interest... Lol... He resembles his character in the manga as well...

Be4 i caught e movie, i already noe e story... But tt doesnt stop me from getting emotional...

I think if u watch it plainly, u won't be feeling much... But i did shed quite abit of tears coz it was sooooo sad... The manga was worst... Sigh... If u start to imagine wat some characters went thru all these 20 yrs, etc... U would feel very sad for them... So for e non chalant audience, u most probably dun feel a thing... Coz the movie doesnt really show u wat they went thru, u got to think it thru urself...

As of all Japanese movies, i think u haf to tolerate their sllloooowww pacing and slllooowww speeches... To be frank, i wasnt comfortable initially... It was so slow, it was barely tolerable... But then after awhile i started getting chills, spooks, n all, i forgot about e pacing, and it moved a little faster in the middle...

The movie in summary is based on the novel by Ai Yazawa, "Kagen no Tsuki" is about a girl named Mizuki (Chiaki Kuriyama) who meets a mysterious guy named Adam (HYDE of L'Arc~En~Ciel). Although Mizuki had never seen Adam before, she realised he knows her... The moment she met him, she was drawn into him... One day he called telling her he's leaving and if she wants to go on e condition tt she would haf to find him before the moon disappears that night. She got hit by a car and her soul lost its memory and finds herself trapped in an old mansion. She met a girl named Hotaru, who had an accident on the same night as Mizuki while she was out looking for her cat, and therefore was e only one who could can see her. Mizuki does not remember her own name or anything except Adam. Hotaru and her friend Mura decide to figure out what happened to Mizuki and they gave her the nickname "Eve". They found out about the family that once lived in the mansion and what happened to their daughter, Sayaka, but it doesn't add up. . .

(Er hem, i copied e above summary, coz i just cant summarise... But i edited it though, too many spoilers... Lol)

If u wan to catch it then stop here... If u wan to find out more then read on...

On Mizuki's 19th bday (manga is 17th, maybe they found it too young), she broke off wif her bf, who slept wif her best fren... Then she ran away from home coz she hate her new step mum and small step sis... Her own mother suicided coz of e affair, and the father married e mistress later...

Anyways, she had known a haunting melody since she was born but she could never complete e tune... When she was running away, she heard tis melody coming from tis old abandoned mansion (huge but old n creepy) and she went inside (brave girl)... The mansion is spooky, the doors open themselves and the lights on themselves too... She did not find it strange, i believed she must haf thot they were sensors... Lol... Anyways, its supposed to be spooky, so only i would side track when i was watching e scenes...

There in one of the rooms, she saw tis gorgeous handsome guitarist playing the tune... That man is Adam, he claimed tt hes renting the mansion for a week... Hes from London, half english, half jap (manga is English wif blonde hair n blue eyes)... He said he noes her etc... And where ever he walks, the lights on themselves... Creepy... Hes a man of few words as well...

She in the end stayed wif e guy in e mansion, confided in him etc... Adam disappears in the day and only returned at night... She did not go to sch nor her part time job, and refused to contact everyone... Everybody is lookin for her... Her bf Tomoki kept calling her but she refused to pick up...

One night, Adam held her and shouted, "Tis is all ur fault, u died!"... And tried to strangle her ( i couldnt really see coz e movie was so dark tt moment, i found out fr e manga, haha)... His hands were icy cold... He let go and Mizuki tried to leave e mansion... But Adam stopped her, hugged her, weeped and said, "Dun leave me, i cannot go on without u, pls stay by my side."...

She obliged and then one week ended... On e last day, Adam disappeared and called her hp (her phone batt was already flat)... He told her hes leaving and Mizuki asked him to take her... So he said if she could reach a place before sunrise, he would take her...

She went home to take her passport and ran to tt place... She saw Adam at the other side of the road, and crosses e traffic crossing... While shes in e middle (e lights had becum red), her bf Tomoki saw her and shouted at her... She stopped, turned back, saw Tomoki and then she was knocked down by a coming car...

She came to tis place wif a gate... But e gate is locked, she could not cross over... She saw a girl and e girl is looking for her cat... She helped her, and e cat crawled out from behind e gate and ran off... The girl then ran after her cat and disappeared...

Mizuki saw behind the gates a figure tt looks like Adam, and e haunting tune... She shouted Adam!

Oh my god e way i type, i am going to take ages...

Next is e funny part, i cant stop laughing, no idea y e author drew it tis way... Maybe to ease e tension? Its e same as movie n manga... E next scene u see Adam suddenly singing and then zoom out, hes standing on a cliff and then zoom out, its a MTV!!! And then e TV was offed... Lol... Adam is HYDE anyways, so u can imagine how funny it was...

Hes singing tt haunting tune... Sing as in a full song...

The MTV was shown on e TV at the hospital, the small girl (whom Mizuki saw jus a moment ago) offed the tv then.... She had an accident while looking for her cat... And she was being discharged tt day...

Anyways, e small girl, Hotaru, kept on looking for her cat... And one fine day, she walked past tis old mansion and saw a cat entering the mansion door... She sneaked in and heard e haunting tune... Someone's playing the piano...

She saw Mizuki in the room, and tt cat... But the cat isnt her cat though...

They recognised each other... But Hotaru thot it was just a dream... Hotaru asked who Mizuki is, and she said she doesnt remember anything... She cant remember anything, except tt she is looking for her bf, Adam... She named e cat Adam too...

Mizuki told Hotaru tt she is trapped in e mansion... She couldnt leave... Hotaru decided to help her... Meanwhile, a schmate of Hotaru called Mura followed her... Hotaru introduces Mizuki to him and Mizuki greeted him... Mura then exclaimed, "Who r u toking to? Theres nobody here!"...

He thot Hotaru was crazy until he saw e floating handkerchief... Mizuki returned Hotaru her napkin... Mura could not see her, but realised "something" is there...

So at tis pt, u would realised, Mizuki is a ghost! Mizuki was shocked too... She broke down and felt tt if she had died she wouldnt be able to see Adam anymore...

Mura and Hotaru both decided to help Mizuki return to heaven... And they thot tt by helping her find Adam, she would be able to rest in peace...

So who is Adam exactly? Where is he now? Y is Mizuki trapped in the mansion? Who is Mizuki truly? How are they going to solve the mystery? Who is the true love of Mizuki? Who exactly is Tomoki? Mizuki is wearing a necklace bearing the initials of S.K., who is S.K.? How is S.K. related to Mizuki?

Heh heh, not telling u leh... Go and watch the movie lor!!! Lots of twists n turns... I however, shudder at the ending twist... Its weird... How can you date your brother? Eh? Wat brother? Oops...

Hahhah... Aiyah, entry too long liao, to be continued...

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Back Early

My mum went back M'sia earlier today (1 day early) coz shes angry over bf for drinking till so late last night and returning in the middle of e night...

She initially only intended to go in tmr... Tis morning while i was still sleeping, she came in and said shes so sick of seeing his face, so shes going back earlier...

Then few hrs ago, her bf came back, then i realised hes not working today... No wonder my mum left...

It wasnt comfortable with him and me alone in the house at all... And its worst tt i moved my computer to e living room... Otherwise i can just lock myself in my room like usual... At least i feel safer... No matter, i tolerated the pressence wif my manga (i am finishing the last few chapters) and loud jap music...

No mood for other things at all...

We dun tok coz he cannot communicate in english or mandarin... He only speak hokkien, which i dun really understand... It is so hard to communicate in simple chinese words... Even so, most of the time, he doesnt understand...

Anyways, i just realised he doesnt noe my mum left... He still thot its tmr, and was waiting for my mum to come back... He just asked me, "Mum go out arh?"... I then told him tt she went back M'sia liao...

He had a shock on his face, i didnt really wan to look at him but he was really surprised... I wonder wat were e thots tt ran thru his mind? Was he thinking y she left earlier without telling him? Or was he thinking great, he can go drinking till very late tonight then?

I wonder whether he even noe tt my mum is angry wif him...

I wanted to tell him "She left coz she angry wif u mah!"... But of coz i didnt, i doubt he understands anyways...

Hes out now... Hope he doesnt come back too drunk later in the night...

Earlier in the day while i was still sleeping, i received a call (eldest sis) to go downstairs to pick up some stuffs... And when she realised i was sleeping, she asked if i would be at home e rest of e day n said she'll pass them to me later and tt i can go back to sleep...

Then hor, 20 mins later... She called again and asked if i was awake... -______-" So relunctantly i said i was and went down to get the stuffs immediately... (ok lah, i am lazy, can?)Well, i didnt even haf enuff time to get back to sleep... And it was so sudden i didnt even manage to wash up...

My flat is going thru upgrading soon (sigh nightmare!!! gotta move out for 8 days, duno where to stay then)... The contractors would be coming on thurs to take photos n measurements... So i would be stuck at home... Anyways, i would be stuck at home for quite some time coz of my son... Cant be out for the whole day... Nobody's home...

Sigh...