Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Maths!!!! >_<"

I am still undergoing training... And then today we were doing maths the whole day!!! Calculations!!! Can die i tell u...

E 6 of us nearly died, wif e exception of a guy whos although sick but still got to come work coz they say sick also mus come coz cannot miss training. Anyways, hes such a maths person, he suddenly got so enthusiastic over e maths probs... Hes so happy today... Lol. He said its so exciting n challenging whereas e rest of us were like brain dead.

Killed alot of brain cells u noe... And they all thot of leaving, too scary n stressful... Lol.

Hes not gd wif pc though, but hes damn gd n fast wif maths. Kudos man! E rest of us were jus swimming ard. Although i did well initially, being e 1st to solve e 1st qns. But when it came to e actual exam ar, 5 of us failed... Muahahaha, including me... And guess who passed?

He passed wif 90 over percent lor!!! Siao one...

We didnt exactly fail, jus tt if u fall under 80%, my trainer considers us fail. Theres a girl who scored 49% though... Very hard one lor, how to score 80%? I didnt even bring back e paper for revision, muahahaha...

Our 1st day, besides all e orientation n stuffs, we jus had lectures, e whole day... Can sleep ar... I so long no listen to lectures liao... And then my eye sight bad mah, cant really see e board somemore... Muahahahah... Especially when it comes to numbers...

Then 2nd and 3rd day is learning their software systems etc...

4th day maths >_< Then tmr more theory lectures then thurs exam again... Urgh...

Im very tired now... Shall tok about e interviews n e job soon.

Monday, August 21, 2006

Tis is an angry post, no pt reading it.

I am feeling so miserable. I am so miserable i wan to bitch about everything (or at least wats going on). But i cant. Coz i am the stupid one who used my real name for my site ( i am vain, i like to use my name every where).

I dun lie to strangers tt i dun blog. So any idiot can google my name and *poof*, u can see my blog in e 1st 3 links.

Urgh.

I haven been updating coz ive started working (my sis's been hoggin e pc for her assignments as well). Today is my 3rd day.

I am bonded for e next 3 mths. My job is a 3 yr contract but i am not bonded though. I am a 3 yr contract staff, which is crap coz i lost out on e benefits. I thot it was a PERMANENT position. I am not a freshie bumping ard. I wan to find a long term stable job ok!

I made a wish on my bday tt i wish for a full time job. But i forgot to say wat kind of job.

I am so sick of ppl telling me, "U will find an ideal job!", "Ur next job will be better!", crap.

They told me those when i was schlin, and my 1st job? Fucked up. Then they tell me e same thing, and my 2nd job? Fucked up. Then they told me e same thing. My 3rd job? Super fucked up. Then comes e fourth job and ppl said im lucky and all tt crap. Wat happened in e end? Super super fucked up. It fucked up even more when i complained out of frustration and ppl told me its not e end of e world.

Since when did i say it was e end of the world? U rich brats haf no idea how tough it is to survive in e real world ok!!!

And then my 5th job? Fucked up. Then wat happened? Ppl told me e same thing, "U will find a gd job one, dun worry!"...

How fucked up can these ppl get?

Its like saying u will win lottery and every time u lose i will tell u, confirm win next time... Of coz one bloody day, u will eventually win due to probability. And then i am supposed to say, "See, i told u, ur life is not so suay. U will win someday."

WTFFFFFFFF!!!!! Yah, one bloody day.

Y cant u jus see tt, even if u haf e same qualifications, same skills, same human, same everything, tt ur life, fate, destiny can go totally different? How some can jus be so blessed wif great 1st jobs, and some never ever finding somewhere they can settle down contentedly...

It has nothing to do wif expectations. U think those blessed ppl expect very little, tts y they r rich, tts y they found gd jobs wif great bosses, colleagues, tts y they haf happy family?

Pls lah, when ur environment is blessed, it is blessed. Its out straight one mah, ur boss so gd to u, ur pay so high, e other one's boss like shit, pay very low etc. Its got nothing to do wif expectations, asking too much, too demanding or watever shit.

Although i haf to admit some really asked too much for their own gd, and never finding one and always complaining. But im not toking about those ignorant ppl.

Only 3 days, and i already realised i am so suay. U can be ignorant, blur, new, fresh but lucky, so u get ur way wif it. I am seasoned, hardworking and well balanced but i get all e dirty shit.

I took up tis job to shut everyone ard me. To shut all e crap and also to prove to everyone tt my next job isnt something happily ever after as long as u dun give up.

But of coz, i wun deny deep down i am hoping things would change for e better as well. I am always prepared to apologise and say i am wrong, things haf indeed became better.

But reality slaps hard in my face ok. -_______-"

U can tell someone patronisingly tt things will becum better, but u will not be able to comprehend how much more tt person yearns for it than jus ur mere word of politically correct statements.

I wanted to take my time to find a gd job. But all the pressure made me bit it out of spite. I took it realising theres no future at e last min.

Wat crap about aiyah, jus work and then find a job meanwhile.

Do u noe i cannot jus take mc or leave in my job? Unless u wan me to be fired or get lesser money. If i can jus take leave or mc, i wouldnt mind hogging e job and look for greener pastures.

U guys say until like its so easy lidat. Wat no stress, u hearsay only, u noe nuts.

My mum is e worst, she said i am a useless, slow, incapable person. So i shd jus stick to a lowly, simple job and jus live day by day. She said i shd stop looking for better jobs (coz they wouldnt wan me coz i am e worst) and jus stick wif tis (e kind tt nobody wans). And then when she realised i am not happy, she is pissed off tt i myself am e one who agreed and yet i am so unhappy about it.

Yah yah, serves me right. Serves me right for anyhowly taking a job tt i feel very unhappy about jus so tt i can give u money coz u kept complaining no money when i can jolly well see u suffer and jus bump ard till i used my last dropped of self-earned savings.

I am not like those freshies liao leh. I dun wan to work 3 mths, quit, look for jobs again, knowing how bloody tough its for me. I told u i cannot work tis job and look at the same time. My leave's got to be balloted a few rounds. And if we anyhow take mc its going to affect my work conduct, which leads to many other things.

I heard things like "if i noe ur job like tis, i would haf adviced u not to take it". Bloody hell, if u really mean it, when i initially told u, u would haf BOTHERED to find out more from me when i told u about it. If u r a true fren or family, u would haf bothered. U would haf been concerned.

Rather than saying, "up to u, u decide lor.", "after 3 mths then see how", "flip coin", "its ur life, so u decide urself, i am not saying anything", "wow, tts cool, got job gd! take! take! gd start!".

And then after i took it, come telling me, "aiyah ur job no gd", "aiyah y u so stupid go take", tis n tt.

I am so tired but i cant sleep. And tis is driving me even more crazy. And plus i think i am pmsing. I got to wake up at 6+ am every morning and yet i jus cant sleep before 3am. Its frustrating.

My insomia seems to be getting worst. I haf no idea wat e hell's going on. And my backache had worsened lately as well. I think my whole body/system/mind's jus starting to crash n breakdown.

At tis rate, i will burn out very soon.

I think i may need medical help very soon. Or at least do a x-tray on my spine.

But i will only get my pay next mth. Urgh.

Aiyah, watever. I am alone. So i jus haf to suck everything in.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Updates, Sort Of

I finally haf e time to sit down and blog. I haf so many drafts i haf no idea whether to write them or not. Usually i will jus put a title and save as draft then cum back later to write it during my free time and publish it.

But then coz i haf lagged so much, i haf no mood to write those anymore. lol. I haf one "Wat Fast Wat Furious", but since its been like wat, 2 weeks... Theres not much pt in toking about e show. I also watched Click, but i haf no mood to write about tt. Go watch Click though.

Finally i haf done everything, all e errands...

I am so tired. Been out everyday (multiple times) for the past 2 weeks, travelling to so many unfamiliar places, doing so many errands. I jus finished e last errand i had to do. Although i still haf clothes to pack, clothes to iron and floor to vacuum... Urgh. Can dun do or not?

Yest i spent the whole morning doing medical checkup (I had to move back and forth 3 buildings in orchard! Becoz of tt, i got darker, sigh, again. Dun ask me how is my report, i also duno.) and then went TPY to meet my mum to do her errands. I closed our joint account, coz she complained no money. Then I went to do more errands.

Initially we were planning to go gym. But when i got home, i was beat. And my son was so happy i didnt wan to disappoint him by going out again. But of coz, tts jus an excuse. I was so tired how to go gym, so in e end, my mum went wif them.

I stayed at home to clear my son's mess. Wanted to sleep but i still had many more things to do... And when i was done, its already near dinner, so i went to make dinner etc.

Had a chat wif SZ tis morning. Lol, her alarm got prob so she missed work and lost half a day's of money.

I had terrible dreams lately. I had another dream where i was trapped in tis house wif a whole grp of ppl. And then we started to kill one another much like e horror movies. But it wasnt our own evilness tis time. We were possessed by "things"... But e spirit/spirits... Oh my son jus pooped, wait ar...

Ok, back. I also jus made my lunch btw, oat cereal. lol.

Now where was i? Oh ok, but e spirit/spirits dun simply possess one fixed person, it moves fr one to one or multiple ppl. So it was hard to predict whos been possessed. Or were they or some of them really possesed? Aiya, my sis jus called. Wait ar.

Alamak, cant i blog n eat in peace?

So anyways, we were hiding n all tt. Frenz were being killed one by one, etc. It was gorey n gruesome then. I wasnt possessed, was more focused on how to not get killed...

Last night, i also dreamt of horrible stuffs though i cant really remember most of it. But theres tis part where Ru mei (Renne) saw me near my neighbourhood (my old yishun hdb), she stayed e next BLK, which mus be a joke if she read tis, since she dun stay anywhere near there n hdb somemore.

Anyways, she saw me, and told me e scariest thing. She said she can see ghosts. And tt i haf one following me... Then she went on n on to describe "him", i was going mad then n i kept telling her i dun wan to noe... And then she continued theres another one, a female one and they r jus right behind me...

It was so creepy can!

Last week, SZ told me she dreamt my face was covered by a mist of dark veil or something... So scary. Cant see my face coz of e dark shadow... Damn creepy.

So anyways, tt 2 ghosts followed me and eventually wanted to kill me etc... I am so sick of dealing wif death, y dun i jus get killed instead.

I write more later. Finish my oat 1st, very soft liao.

Monday, August 14, 2006

Happy Birthday! Erm... To me!

Theres still less than an hr left, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

I absolutely haf no time to blog proper.

Oh, my poor fren SZ kena food poisoning. Get well soon.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Coincidence

Jus came back fr one interview. So tired, waited there for more than an hr be4 e actual interview start. Had a grp interview. I was e only idiot who came so early, e rest were like late. So i waited e longest. But e interview was very nostalgic. Im sure u wonder y.

It was e same as my sales job interview 2 yrs back. Same thing, grp of 4. Same thing, 3 gals, 1 guy. Same thing, i was the corner one and e last to speak. Same thing i was at the right corner. Same thing, e guy was e 2nd one.

And then same thing, there was a retail person in e grp, last time one was a waitress (i consider f & b retail as well), tis time one was a gal selling clothes, shall not say e brand here. But its a mid range boutique brand. Same thing, e retail person was e 3rd.

But tt gal not friendly one, e 3 of us were chatting wif each other, maybe she was waiting for us to make e move. She must be feeling so sian we left her out.

Im not sure if its better to be in a grp for interviews or alone. I kinda resented it for a start, but i gotta admit tt there is definately pressure tt makes me speak well and speak better.

After e interview, we left to go to e station. One gal called Priya left to meet her fren, shes e experienced one and shes very frendly. We chatted e moment she stepped into e reception area. While e other 2 were scattered elsewhere.

I like gals lidat.

So anways, e retail gal called Teng Teng walked off 1st and left alone. And then nearing e station, e guy caught up wif me to g back together. I dun remember his name though. Lol. Eng something or something Eng.

Coincidentally, we stay at the same area. Both of us alighted at YCK. Before tt, while we were in e train, my agent called me and said im shortlisted for paper test tmr morning. Same thing, my sales one he also called me immediately and told me to go back office e next day, except tt e job was offered. Tis one after paper test, still got another interview if u score well.

STRESSED leh!!! I no exams since secondary, everything returned to old sch liao lor.

Anyways, we were chatting and my agent called. I told him e news and his face immediately dropped. And he kept quiet. It was rather awkard. Then after 4 mins, his agent called and hes shortlisted as well, so hes happy again n resumed conversation.

Im sure Priya is shortlisted as well coz of her experience.

So i will be seeing them tmr morning again.

E guy very cute, he said he cant sleep last night coz he kept thinking of wat to say during e interview. I guess i am indeed more experienced in interviews. I had passed tt stage. He said he duno and wore jeans n t shirt to some interviews... Tts so strange, considering he is in his late twenties. *shrug*

E retail gal wore slippers too. But then i think it didnt really matter for tis one. I saw e staffs wearing denim skirts.

One thing though, I think its e way u project ur words. While during some ppl's speech, u dun see any responses or worst see ppl in a daze. When it was my turn, i had them nodding (interviewees included, im surprised they listened, lol) and then some even smiled over some things i said.

Like i said, i am experienced in interviews. But tts nothing wonderful to tok about. Wats worst? Knowing ur interview went smoothly and very well and not getting e job, or having a bad interview jittering, stumbling, poor answers but got e job?

Although i felt i didnt do anything wrong, but i gave eye contacts to e interviewees as well during my speech. Hmm, its working habit mah, they r listening/looking/reacting at me, i cant jus ignore them and only concentrate on e interviewers. Lol. But of coz, like i said, i am e only idiot who do tis kind of things.

Busy day tmr. Morning a 2 hr paper test, then later afternoon another interview at another company.

I hope it turns out well. Cant wait to start working again. If i still dun get tis 2 jobs, or 3 including e mon one, then i think i can go die liao.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Middle Earth Inhabited NDP or the other way round?

I hoped u enjoyed ur ND hol, well-smacked in the middle of boring working week, no?

I was at home e whole day, everyday is holiday for a jobless person, not tt i haf nothing to do n slacking ok? Looking for jobs is even more stressful than completing a job. But tts me. Coz its never easy for me.

Oh, i had a dreary dream, 2 nights be4. E grp of us were being chased by dinosaurs. So we were constantly running, hiding, running and hiding. Well, since we cant really fight dinosaurs wif no weapons, we just haf to keep running. And for some reasons e particular grp of dinosaurs were jus bent on killing all of us.

Dun ask me y they r bent, i guess u dun qns y e monsters only target e main leads in movies. I think perhaps there were other dinosaurs killing the rest of e world, jus tt i didnt noe. To eliminate e world of humans! Lol. Just tt my point of view obviously only follow me n my grp.

E dream got very dreary although it was nerve wrecking n tiring. It got dreary coz e grp of us started out protecting each other, saving/hiding/helping one another. We wanted to survive tis together. But then reality sunk, when u r on e run for days. Ppl started to change.

We found out if we wanted to survive, we haf to make sacrifices. And tt means, u got to sacrifice ur frenz along e way in order to lose track of the creatures, one by one.

So it comes to a pt when u see some characters who were not so well-liked by e majority being sabotaged. And they ended up being eaten. Some who were more popular or PRETTY, were still being protected. Blind followers!

I was pretty much on my own then coz i was extremely disgusted at how e dream turned out. Ppl were trying to make me die too. But WTF, tt was my dream, i dun wan to die inside ok? Definately not by e likes of those selfish stupids assholes.

I most certainly decided not to help those idiots when they were being eaten, i meant those evil ones, not those tt were sabotaged.

How to not feel dreary lidat? Wat a evil dream, seeing ppl turn against one another, seeing innocent ppl being eaten alive. And having no solutions to the prob, except to keep on running n move on ahead. I cant even turn/stop or look back. No time to cry, no time to feel guilty. Just anger, pure anger.

Anger at those ard me who r still sticking wif me to watch me die. DAMN!!!

I dreamt of dinos coz of a earlier trip in the mrt tt day. E guy sitting next next to me was watching King Kong on his video gadget. Just a few scenes to spark off my dream, tts crazy. I was peeping jus tt it was rather awkard coz theres another person between us. Took me awhile be4 i gave up. Lol.

It jus got to e exciting part, e part where Naomi was being chased by e t-rexes and then king kong rescuing her n all tt. It was still interesting for a small screened mute movie. I bet e owner's enjoyin it. I wouldnt mind watching LOTR.

Speaking of LOTR, Did u watch e NDP jus now?I duno how many of u noticed this but there is tis video thingy which recapped our history since independence which was shown be4 e actual show.

Wats so special u ask?

Well, if u listened carefully, they actually used e MUSIC SOUNDTRACK of LOTR!!!!!!!!!! If im not wrong it shd be from fellowship. I was so shocked i shouted to my mum about it and she laughed. Although she said she dun think im e only one who knew.

Somehow i do feel tt i might be one of e few. Coz who e hell notices tis kind of things? My mum went on to say tt maybe LKY is a fan of LOTR. Tts crap n nonsense. I confirm he dun like. Anyways, its not his decision anyways, its e editor. I haf no idea wat e editor was thinking. Perhaps he love LOTR? No idea. But tts was so strange.

I noe LOTR music scores r gd n inspiring. And the magnitude carries n lifts ur spirits which was somewat appropriate to e video coz its supposed to make u feel uplifted, proud and patriotic. But most certainly strange to be used on a national video, no? Although they did use a more modern version of it (re-recorded in mediacorp studio? but an EXTREMELY BAD VERSION though), but it was still weird. But maybe tts coz i noe e source so it was strange. Instead of seeing Frodo/Gollum, u see e young Lee Kuan Yew when he was our PM.

I wondered if they paid e copyrights, but i doubt so though. If they claimed its not from LOTR, they can go kiss my ass. I am LOTR freak ok, and every single piece of music score fr e trilogy was written originally by Howard Shore.

I noe them when i hear it. U cannot bluff me one, coz i even remember e lines ok! Since i haf already watched LOTR more than 50 times. *Er hem*

Anyways, i continue tmr. Wan to go watch Bleach now. I haf officially stopped watchin Naruto, took me so long to finally let it go. They r both crap after they strayed off from their manga to do their never-ending side story. But then when i start on something, i hardly give up, even if they r crappy. I did finished Tsubasa Chronicles to e latest then, so wats Bleach and Naruto.

Okok, enuff crap.

(oooooooooo....... jus read fr other blogs, me not e only one who complained about e LOTR music! muahahahah... no idea y i am so happy)

Choco Milk

I thot i would try out e choco milk thingy since it jus so happened my mum bought a can of cocoa powder thinking its so healthy coz theres no milk or sugar. Until i tell her its fattening coz it contains butter something which is 9% fat. Lol.

Anyways, i thot i would make myself a nice warm cup of choco milk, while reading blogs n enjoying photos of others be4 i attempt to sleep. I am drooling at e thot of tt. Ive not drank choco milk for e longest time.

But then i couldnt find e can of cocoa! Damn it!!!

And then double DAMN DAMN, i saw a huge ass cockroach on the cabinet.

Sigh, there goes e mood for my warm cocoa. I think i shd go count sheeps.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Ichiban Boshi

My sis very lucky lor. She switched to a different job department in her company. Got a raise in pay and now shes working 5 day week. She got degree mah, cant complain.

Btw, yest very disgusting. My blk downstairs got one water pipe burst or leak i duno. So got alot of foaming water flooding. Then while i thot e water was harmless and had to walk thru it, i saw maggots!!! -_-" A massive swarm of live maggots swimming/crawling outwards. Its not everyday thing tt i see maggots, i did consider staying back longer to observe them but i was running off for an interview.

They were interesting though disgusting and im imagining them burrowing through my flesh/corpse when i die, but of coz, tt wouldnt happen since i wouldnt be buried. The way they crawl is somewat captivating if not for their disgusting linkage wif anything rotten n smelly. I cant imagine how those ppl at fear factor could swallow these things.

Ok, enuff about maggoty stuffs.

Lets tok about food. Lol. Sorry for ruining ur appetite.

I finally went Ichiban Boshi to eat, it was early dinner late lunch for us as usual. Heard so much raving about it. So finally went wif SZ on last sat to try it out. We were going to catch a movie at MS. So we headed to e Esplanade branch. SZ heard tt e customer service is very bad here. But it turned out normal, so u guys can head out there. I did find e seat they chose for us rather weird n awkard however.


It was very nice view though only one person can see it, stupid. But i didnt bring my cam tt day so i had to use my hp. I only brought a very small makeup pouch to put everything. I wanted to be burden free tt sat, which didnt really work coz i bought a new aviator shade ($19, original $40+) from Miss Selfridge (sigh, i found out one crystal missing today though. Duno its lidat be4 hand or dropped. Had to manually remove another one at other end to balance e look) and SZ bought me a turquoise cardigan ($19, original $40+ too, lol) fr G2000, love it! My bday gift.

G2000 was havin a crazy sale. Finally u see guys going crazy over clothes. The Q was so damn long. It was reaching e entrance.


Ichiban Boshi literally means the First Star. Its a place to enjoy good quality food with modernize presentation in cool ambience, and at affordable price. Menu covers from real authentic Japanese items to the popular items such as sushi on conveyor belt.


I ordered Tenzaru Chasoba (which includes mixed vege n ebi tempura, $13.80 i think) and potato croquette ($1.90).

I tell u ar, its very nice. The chasoba is very springy. Not e very machine kind or supermarket one like Sakae. I like it. I wan to try e famous soba restaurant at Paragon though, heard its e best.

And e potato croquette is simply AMAZING. I am missing it already. I wan to eat e food again. Craving liao. SZ had some sushi plates (same price as Sakae), e lobster thingy in e middle she said its very nice.


I was more interested in her tofu though. Cant show u how appetizing it looks unfortunately. I'll bring my cam again e next time i go eat.

Gosh, i am missing their food already. Theres still so many things i wan to try. But i only haf one stomach.

Their prices are generally similar to Sakae. But their drinks are $2.20 instead of Sakae's $1.50, canned drinks i meant.

But then after eating there, its like Sakae? Wat Sakae? I suddenly haf no reason to go back Sakae. Maybe for their one n only vitamin E enriched sushi rice? Lol. Like i care.

But Salmon is most impt to me for jap food, haf not tried Ichiban Boshi's salmon yet though.

We then went shopping... Luckily i purposefully wore track shoes, we walked sooooooo much... We always walk alooottt when we go City Hall. We caught e Tokyo Drift movie as well. Sigh, i will tok about it another time. But then if u wan to watch go watch lor...

It was nearing midnight. So we headed for supper, actually dinner to be precise. Went to Esplanade's Makansutra Gluttons Bay. Ive not eaten there yet too.




I drank coconut. So happy. So long never drink it liao... 2nd last one. But i need ice next time.


We had e osyter egg. Not nice one. They put e oyster at the side lidat somemore. But oyster quite big though.


See e stalls, tts how glaring it was. I was going blind coz i was facing them. SZ was facing e sea.


Chicken wings... I actually dun like bbq wings, or rather i dun like tis kind. Too dry. I like spicy or honey glazed wings/drumlets.

We also had fried kuay tiao. But i didnt take pic, think i was too hungry. It was very oily. We wanted to hokkien prawn mee, but then sold out jus be4 us... Urgh.

Overall, i dun really like e food there. Too substandard. But then if u r in town and had a craving for hawker food n seafood and Newton is too far, then its a gd place to satisfy ur taste buds. At least i heard e tourists said e food is nice.

Plus, u can enjoy e sea breeze n e view. It was also cooler than Newton. Newton is a giant microwave. I wouldnt mind going there to eat again though coz i like tt place (as in e surrounding, not e hawker), and esplanade is my fav hangout.

Ah, im hungry.

We then strolled for awhile, headed to e creepy Merlion. Stood there for abit then sat for abit, constantly avoiding e blind bats... E whole area from esplanade to e Merlion are infested wif bats. They kept circling round n round and they fly so low, luckily their sonic waves were working, if not im sure they would hit my head e whole night.

Nearing 3 am, we left to take e night rider. Only to haf waited for more than 1 1/2 hrs for tt stupid NR1. We were both so frustrated, tired. An hr more, we could haf boarded e mrt. Stupid drivers.

If tts not all, e driver even went e wrong route and did a U turn. He said to someone on his hp while driving tt there wasnt anyone who wans to drive e bus so he took e last bus. So irresponsible. Somemore, he kept telling e ppl not to complain. He told them theres only 3 bus tt night, bluff one lor. Its not tt theres only 3 bus, how can tt be? U think e bus company so stupid? He already said no one wans to take e bus but he lied n said theres only 3 buses allocated tt night.

FUCKING irresponsible. I hope someone complained though. How can they be lidat. So bek cek. And seeing n hearing e angry passengers complaining, and yet gives up so easily and kept quiet in e end, jus pisses me off even more. But tts jus us, typical singaporeans. Wan to complain but keep quiet in the end, loud mouth no guts.

But i cant complain too, coz i am sitting n waiting for others to complain as well, another kind of typical singaporeans. And complaining when others decided not to pursue. Cannot lidat, I need to be more gutsy since ppl ard me r not.

I reached home ard 535 am and SZ ard 6am. It was so stupid, a disappointing night. I had quite a bad time i felt. I wished i had stayed at home to watch e finals of Superband. I hope i dun miss e 2nd telecast.

My son cried e whole night when i was out. Tis is e 1st time. So i had to officially go home earlier from now on. Early as in before 2+am. Well, tts if i dun really enjoy e company though.

Monday, August 07, 2006

Exhausted

I am so beat.

So tired.

I haf no time or rather no energy to blog.

I haf been sleeping only 3 hrs plus per night for the past 1 week or so. My insomia prob is getting worst. I wonder how i survived my poly days sleeping only 1 hr per night. No wonder i can fall asleep easily when catching movies wif my bf even though its my fav past time.

But i am 17 no more. I haf succumbed to the aging process.

True enuff, i can still survive sleeping only 5-6 hrs per night for a long period of time now. But 3-4 hrs is over e board for my poor miserable aging body. & spending 6 hrs lying on ur bed trying to sleep but cant is not a funny thing.

I am exhausted, but my mind refused to sleep. So forcing tt, i haf headaches. So i haf been downing panadols again. Till i finished all my panadols, so now my house no more.

My head is throbbing now, but tts coz i travelled too much today. So much so tt i haf motion sickness on the mrt. Can u believe tt? Oh yea, it seems my motion sickness had gotten worst lately as well. Not even e plasters can work, but maybe coz i need to renew them.

I haf been very busy looking for jobs. Busy searching, busy choosing, busy editing, busy sending, busy waiting, busy scheduling and busy interviewing. Not tt i am complaining though. Jus tt i noe i cant travel multiple times a day coz of my motion sickness prob.

I went for a interview tis morning. I went to another recruitment agency jus now. I came back and almost collapsed. Was extremely giddy. My mum said I travel more always lidat, useless... Lol. So u shd be thkful if u got no motion sickness prob, no low blood glucose prob n no blood pressure prob.

My blood pressures been pretty low lately, duno y. So maybe tts y i feel giddy. Its been ard 104/64 on average. The lower one is very low, not gd.

Anyways, i haf no idea wat im typing.

I think i will go haf an eye shut. I am going to hack my makeup and waxed hair for now. Later then clean myself.

Will blog tmr. If no agencies call me though.

I dun even haf e strength to bath my son (supposedly on sun). So i am going to postpone till tmr.

Anyways, yea, stay healthy.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Embarrassed

My gawd, i was so embarrassed. I used to laugh at those who tell me their real floor when i asked them which floor in e lift. Now i kena retribution!!!

I was walking fast and i saw tis good looking chap leaning at the lift lobby. One glance and i knew hes handsome, so i avoided looking at him... Lol. Then in e lift, he asked me which floor which caught me off guard. Coz he abit ah beng young tt kind, i didnt noe hes so well-mannered (ya i noe, cannot judge by looks)... And i actually said, "Eleven" in mandarin...

He was stunned for a moment and then he pressed 12th.

I was so embarrassed i wished i could disappear.

And the worst thing is, tts not even e floor i am staying!!!

I went to visit my Dad tis evening. And e lift buttons are e old kind, 1, 9, 11... So i guessed tts where e "11" came from... My Dad stay at the 11 storey. My lift is 1, 5, 9, 12... I stay at 12th.

Gah. But he wun noe mah, he would think i stayed at 11th. I am sure he would make a joke out of it like i did those many times... I am so useless, lost myself jus becoz hes gd looking... Mus haf composure next time!!! Urgh!!! So paiseh~ Arh!!!!

Karma karma~~~~

Another incident today but tis time in e lift at my Dad's place. U noe when u listen to loud music from ur player. And when u enter e lift, basically its becums stereo surround? U wun realise tt but others in e lift can hear ur music clearly.

So i was blasting Gackt's songs in my player. I got in e lift wif a uncle. I made a mistake of staying at the back of e lift. So tis uncle was standing sideways, staring/looking at me e whole time. I shd haf stood at the door so tt i would back face him but tts not wat i wan to say.

Then coz i reaching mah, so i took off my ear piece and offed my music. The moment i took off my ear piece, i realised tt Uncle is humming/whistling to my song!!!

Imagine tt! A uncle whistling/humming to Gackt's jap rock song!!! It was so funny, i almost laughed out loud literally.

It happened within seconds and then when he realised i offed my music, he tried to stop immediately. But it takes time to react so i still caught him humming to my music... Lol.

I tell u arh, tt moment was priceless...

Lady In The Dome

Watched Lady In The Water last sat wif SZ.

Oh be4 tt, we went Din Tai Fung to eat. Yum, my fav Xiao Long Bao ! & Chicken Soup! & Fried Egg Rice! I think next time mus try their noodles. But silly me was so excited i forgot to take pics of e food.

Lady in the Water. Hmm, where shd i begin? I wouldnt say its a gd movie nor isit a bad one. It did got me teary in the end but i didnt cry. But then lets jus say its isnt worth your 9.50 bucks.

I saw alot of reviews tt totally trashed tis movie. However, i did also see many who loved it, but these ppl r those who loved The Village which i dun like at all unfortunately. Its not tt The Village wasnt a gd movie, it was gd, better than many, its got e right suspense, horror and twist but e reason i am against it was e meaning/message tt e director concluded in tt movie.

I dun agree wif their way of dealing wif their disgust wif money which ultimately brought evil or harm to human kind. I understand ppl like to say money bring evil tis n tt, without money, we would be leaving in peace etc etc. Something which has been used n implied over n over in many films. But then wat i disliked was e route/solution they came up to counter tt. I thot it was despicable coz it was a bunch of lies n deceits to e ignorant innocent. It should be a choice not a forced environment. Ah nvm, tts a whole other story.

Back to e Lady.

I did missed a whole chunk of the movie, coz Nezumi was smsing me about meeting up e next day. But i ultimately couldnt go in the end. Anyways, i think it is better to watch it without knowing e story. But then e animation they do in e beginning of e film also told u e story somewat.

I thot it would be more interesting to find out who or wat she is meanwhile through out e film than to already know everything from e beginning. It kills e suspense and is dead on film. Ive no idea y he did tis, coz in his other movies, he would only tell u who/wat they r in the middle or end of film.

I also like e idea to haf doubts whether shes really a sea nymph from e fairy tale or tt shes lying, maybe not so much as lyin but in real shes actually a human but haf her reasons for believing not so. Or it could be like e movie Kpax, where it becums ambigious. Tt would add more depths to e film. But like i said e prologue already told u shes real (not human i meant). After all, trusts n beliefs are things not easily earned by 1st encounters wif a stranger. I feel tt its quite strange for e main lead to believe wats she says out straight. It is perfectly normal for anyone to haf doubts but u can tell he went on to find out more coz he believed in her and tt he wans to help.

But maybe we r not toking normal here.

Coz in tis movie, everyone is not tt normal in tis mansion. No, i shdnt say they r not normal, they would be jus rude. I shd jus put it as they r troubled ppl, either they haf problems cooped up in their brains, or they r inferior, or they lost hope n will to live or simply weird like only training n building e muscles of only half ur body and enjoying it.

So maybe it is gratifying to wanting to believe in something supernatural coz u feel ur life has been so fucked up anyways. Maybe. But i doubt so.

I read tt his movie, "Invicible" (spelt tis way) was very bad as well, but i googled it and no results turned out for tis. Maybe it jus wasnt shown. Or are they toking about Unbreakable? But Unbreakable was a great movie tt took everyone by storm.

They say he is predictable. I agree wif tt, coz he stood by his style. His movies would mainly deal wif supernatural/creatures, (except The Village) etc. And then there would always be a ending twist to e person/creature identities. Also, it would also haf a moral message embedded in his films.

It was similar in tis except tt they told u e whole fairy tale in e prologue. So u noe who she is, but u find out more details about her world throughout e film which isnt very interesting though.

I guess its easier to relate to aliens than sea nymps. Somehow ppl can believe in aliens/orcs/monsters/mutants but trying to picture the fairy tale as reality is no easy feat. I found it hard to bring myself into e story. If its anime/animation then its fine, but in real live action, its tough.

The story is just not realistic. But i think his focus were supposed to be on e humans and how they each overcame themselves.

The director's cameo turned out to be not a cameo but a cast character. Hes e 2nd main character and it was rather surprising. I think hes working out on his acting career as well.

The sea nymphs tasks were to come out onto land to see e chosen human (they do not noe who though) and then upon seeing them, something will be awaken in e human's heart/mind which will somehow change e world one way or another though indirectly.

I was expecting more or something even more supernatural. But e nymphs jus need to see u and within seconds it would happen and then they completed their tasks and they can go back to their world. To me tts quite strange. But e character did found out more about himself coz she can see his future. It was delayed while they were trying to get her back.

Supposedly the main lead was in love wif e nymph, but i couldnt see tt. I can tell he was desperately trying to save/help her. But tt doesnt equals to love. I mean in an ideal world, u would help unconditionally, no? Besides they had a connection, she came to him, so of coz u would help her within ur means. Also, i read tt he doesnt really wan her to leave but i didnt see tt at all in e film.

So i think some parts e writer screwed up big time. He thot he was showing tt but i totally never see those tt he intended.

E green dog creature/monster (whose task was to eat/kill e nymphs on land, no idea y) did made my fren cringed to e edge of her seat though.

Amongst all his films, tis one is e lowest budget i thot. It was entirely set in tis mansion envirnoment n a pool n e lawn which leads to alittle of e forest entrance. But nothing else, there wasnt even any wide shots to show e whole environment.

The casts werent interesting or big in tis one too. To me, it looked like a budget film so i was kinda disappointed. I expected big things from him along wif his fame. But he somewat buried himself. Maybe its jus difficult to live up to expectations.

I can accept e same predictable style tt he adores. But it needs to be backed up wif a solid good script. While tis movie wasnt one of his best, im still ok wif it. I noe i said lots of not so gd things about it. But its different. A different movie as compared to e commercialised way of doing films.

His is very raw and down to earth. Its gd to see tis kid of films coming up every now n then. Though its rare. It was like movies in the past. Very simple and true, wif less effects n gimmicks. Tis movis is all about dialogues. They tok n tok n tok and in a very slow fashion. So u might find it extremely slow in the beginning, and i believed those who dun understand his films would simply doze off.

Strangely, tis movie was rather funny at parts. And i was kinda surprised hearing SZ laughing more than usual. Most of the times she doesnt react. Or her laughter jus falls short. Even when shes watching a comedy. So it must haf worked in some ways. So i guess as much as ppl would hate tis film, i believed there r also more ppl than expected who love it as well.

I love e end where e main lead told e Lady, "Thank you for saving my life". It was very moving. In actual, he was e one who saved her life, but in return she saved him as well (although she didnt do anything), she saved him emotionally. He could let go of his past, come to terms wif it and carry on living without e guilt n all.

But their scene was quite muffled, he said it in e rain so if u r not paying attention. You would haf thot its e nymph who said it. If its so, u would haf lost e impact of tt moment. But i doubt ppl are so stupid, or maybe they r?

SZ said she didnt feel much about e film whereas i did teared and many girls did cried. So i said she was detached. As wat her own horoscope always say. She is emotional and detached. It must be such a difficult mental world to live in. Lol.

We headed to Dome afterwards. Its been so long since i last went there.


I had Gourmet Pie (Beef). Its so gd or maybe coz i sua ku. But i did enjoy it. E beef tastes like mutton strangely. She ate Cheese Crackers. E sausages were so salty, dun ever eat tis dish. Its saltiness were beyond tolerance, and e stupid waitress can tell us, "Its lidat one." So rude. I was thinking WTF.

I hope i can haf frenz who stand up and speak up (for themselves and others), but i jus dun haf tis kind of social luck. So whenever i see or hear one, i would be so impressed wif them and e way they put themselves across. Both of my sis are lidat, but i am somehow different. Lol.

Dome's service is one of e best ard, ignore tt stupid waitress though. It used to be great and it still is, I still love tt place. Wanna go there to chill again. Gonna order coffee tis time.

I hope i can catch The fast & The furious: Tokyo Drift tis week. But gotta see SZ how. Tis sequel has no link to 2 1st two at all. Kinda disappointing. But it means anyone could go catch it.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

All Broken

I wan to say something about the fruits basket manga latest update.

THE 12 ZODIACS' CURSES ARE ALL NOW OFFICIALLY BROKEN!
(Damn it, so now Yuki can be wif his new gf!!! :~~~( SZ, lidat i think no way back liao... Somehow i still wish some where in the story tt Yuki can be wif Tohru... Lol. Though i noe its impossible coz e main lead is still Kyo. But I still think e "mother" thingy is a crappy excuse to separate Yuki from Tohru to remove e amibigous relationship they had in the 1st half of e manga.)

I duno about Kyo though, i doubt his is so easily broken coz he is not controlled by the main thing anyways. Im not interested in tt though. Never liked Kyo although hes like e main lead. Not even interested in his love thingy wif Tohru or his future anymore.

Sigh, i said be4 le, i seldom like main lead one. I sometimes like e villains more, depending on their stories.

Bleach = I like Renji instead of Ichigo. Though i like Byakuya most.
Naruto = I like Sasuke instead of Naruto. Though i like Gaara (hes not a villain, he became Naruto's best fren in e manga) most.
Inuyasha = I like Sesshomaru instead of Inuyasha. I like many of e villains.
Shaman King = I like Ren instead of Yoh. I also like e villain, Hao. Lol. Hes looks exactly like e main lead but i actually like e bad guy more.
Hunter X Hunter = I like Killua instead of Gon. Though i also like Kaito who became... :~~~( Sigh, living dead... Still waiting for e never completing manga...
Battle Royale = I like Mimura instead of Shuuya (u haf no reason to like him if u read e manga). Though i also like e villain, Kiriyama or something. Refering to manga.
Hikaru No Go = I like Akira instead of Hikaru. Though i like Sai most! He died! Again! :~~(
Advent Children or e FF 7 = I like Vincent more than Cloud. (Actually if u noe e game story, u wouldnt like Cloud except maybe his looks?) But strangely i like Sephiroth most.
Gravitation = I like Yuki instead of wats his name? Oh ya, Shuuichi.
Initial D = I like Ryosuke Takahashi instead of Takumi.
Full Metal Panic = I like Kurtz instead of Sousuke (wats there to like about him?). But i also like Tessa's Bro. So pretty!
Fruits Basket = I like Yuki instead of Kyo. Though i also like e crazy Ayame (he makes me laugh and hes so pretty) and Momiji.
Etc, etc. Aiyah u get e drift.

Back to e breaking of curse.

Somehow, i dun feel happy for them at all. I was moved to tears when i saw e moments after Momiji and Hiro's breaking of curse. But then now tt i saw everyones broken their curse, i actually feel kinda sad.

Maybe i empathised wif Akito too much. I totally understand her more than anything else. And e way she said Farewell to each one silently, so cold n lonely. But i do not like e way they put Akito n Tohru together. Just not really e way i like to see it. But then u r supposed to feel sad. It was a very sad and empty chapter. If u feel otherwise, i think u haf not read e manga properly or simply u do not really understand e story.

I think i tok about fruits basket another time when i can think better.