All THings COme TOgether

Duno y things always when one thing come, all things come together...

Jus when i got the freelance tt will take up 1 mth plus... My 2nd sis bf ask me do some shoe designs for his business pitch, then my big sis wan me do some animation for their child care centre...

Funny...

But these kind always say say one lah...

They say i sit at home do nothing might as well...

Got these kind of ppl one... Sigh...

I Bought MOI Printer!!!

I bought a printer liao!!!!!!

No more finding ppl to help me print... No more facing awkward situations to smuggle myself to NYP for printing... No more printing auntie ask me, "eh, u grad liao mah, still come here print!"... No more paying so much money for a small colored portion... No more walking long distances to photocopy...

No more no more... All these yrs enuff is enuff...

Only thing about own printer is maintainin the expensive cartridges... But its ok... I can handle it... Hopefully... Hahaha...

I already spent huge bucks yrs ago to buy the best scanner (in my opionion), so i was only willing to buy a normal printer...

I asked my sis to share she dun wan... I said 100+... Then she still say, how cum so ex, all-in-one printers only 190 at PC fair...

I said, its like tt one wat, where got under 100 printers one...

The thing is i got scanner liao wat, i spent so much on it then u wan me to keep arh...

She said might as well...

She continued rattling on me stupid get fr computer fair etc... I said, so heavy u wan me to carry from town back home... And she said, i drive u back lor... LIKE REAL!!! Like she no need work, like her bf gave her his car to drive...

I told her, "Aiyah, anyways, i am buying myself wat!"...

Anyways, hacking her... I went to COURTS which is like 10 mins walk away...

I did my research and was already set on buying a canon or epson... Canon costs 10 bucks more and got direct link to digital cam for printing... But u shd noe canon no gd, pay for the brand only... Also, coz my scanner is Epson, i wanna get epson back...

HP is best but very ex... Then lemark or Lemax? Dunoe wat brand lai de... Very cheap... Brothers also..

So i set on buying Epson after walkin round n round... 149, borderless... Then i turned to HP and saw their all-in-one same price wor... And duno y, i jus fell in love with it somewat... I see liao got feelin wor... Epson abit ugly... Its not borderless though... But i dun need borderless anyways... And the black printing quality is lower than Epson one, but black printing no diff one lah... Impt is color quality same...

And its not huge somemore...

SO i chose tt instead, coz i seriously prefer HP jus tt it always costs so much more... Since same price, ok lah, ONZ!

I carried tt heavy ass home, SO DAMN HEAVY!!!!

SOmemore when i reached home, Pappy ran out to jump at me, i pushed him inside then carry the box, then he ran out again... In the end, i one arm carry him (8KG), the other the box go inside... Scary!!!

I sadly put my scanner and film adapter into the storeroom... So sad... But i got to admit, while it is the fastest scanner ard, it is huge and outdated... Software cannot update and im having quite abit of prob wif it... Maybe its jus time... Technology is like tt... I got to accept it...

But i also very happy...

I like my printer...

My sis thought its only a printer. Later she found out its all-in-one she said its so cheap... I was thinking, u noe so much cannot tell meh... But she said alot of things tt made me pissed... Said i never ask printing head got sell separately or not, etc... If spoil can change tis n tt... In e 1st place, she was the one who said all-in-one very durable... Now haven use only crap about being spoilt... Damn!!!

Still happy though...

Totally Forgotten About U!

I totally forgot about my blog... Hahahha...

I got my freelance project btw... So i will be busy till the end of this yr... I went to speak to the Boss already... And got sent home by one of them... Hehehehe...

Jus tt everything's so slow... I am waiting for them to send the materials to my place...

I had been mugging...

Arh, hate mugging... Never did for a long time... Poly no need to mug mah...

Going off tis fri le...

I dreamt tt somebody bought the mickey mouse phone for me leh!!! So sweet, becoz of tt i got attached to him, coz he did so many sweet things... I got attached to him not becoz he bought e phone for me... But coz he was blind, and yet he somehow managed to interpret my blog and then bought it for me...

So touched leh... Cannot meh? U cannot look down on blind ppl u noe...

SO we were together for some time, and i even thot ahead of the various probs i would face dating a blind and try to work it out wif him...

But its sweet, very sweet...

But then hor, the phone he bought me the silver one, coz white one island white sold out le... Btw, the ruby is here in sg liao...

SO touched*

LOL!

Rhinoplasty For FREAKING $300!!!

Do u noe it only costs a freaking $300 to do rhinoplasty in Bangkok?

So damn cheap...

Now u noe y there r so many trans there... Hmm...

I have been telling ppl ard me about tis, coz i find it so unbelievable...

I told my mum... And she said, "Y? U wan to do arh?"...

Crazy, not like my nose's got any prob... Or does it?

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Nothing related to the above... Jus thot of it...

Its not easy growing up when everybody ard me kept telling me i am ugly...

Jus the other day, my mum was toking about it again... Saying tt when i was born and very small, everyone kept saying i am the prettiest of all 3... Tis n tt... Coz i got big eyes with double eye lids... But my lids disappeared when i was growing...

Then she said "Sigh, u young time everyone say u prettiest, now duno y becum like tt!"

Aiyo, sibei demoralising leh... I am tt ugly meh??? I thot i at least look normal wat... Hmph... Blah...

Shuzhen still say i pretty wor tt day... Hhahaah, mus be patronising as usual... She too nice a person liao...

I went wif her to KTV e other day... Thurs night is ladies night at kbox... So its alot cheaper...

The recent debate about Dawn Yang/Yeo is so irritating... So wat if shes got plastic surgery, she look like a goddess anyways, i dun even mind having her looks... Hahahaha...

Ppl are weird, if u ugly ppl ask u go do surgery, if u becum pretty n famous, ppl say u went to do plastic surgery...

It doesnt matter whether she did or not... The truth is she looks so pretty now, which is y she was spotted and signed on as a celebrity...

Ppl do look different from their sch days...

I look freaking uglier during my primary days... And i look different now as compared to secondary... Does tt mean i did plastic surgery?

Ppl do change, especially females as they grow... Believe it or not, features will continue to change even when they get old for females...

U dun expect her to look like 20+ when she was in primary 6 right?

Ppl are so crazy nowadays...

Jus mere photos of the past n now to determine the changes is jus simply too narrow-minded...

Though i haf to admit some parts of ur face will never change, example e shape of ur nose n nose bridge... ANd ur Jawline, and the position of ur eye lids...

Even if we found out she did, and tt she lies to the public, so wat? Every public figure lies wat? Even politicians lies to the camera, let alone artistes who haf to protect their reputation in order to survive in their industry... U think all the media corp artistes so honest meh... U think all never do surgery meh... Most of the male artistes also did double eye lids surgery, also nobody say...

Even the so called perfect figure n looks (according to SHuzhen's standards) Zheng Siew Zhen, also did surgery wat... Also nobody put her down...

Sexy diva Angelina Jolie also did surgery wat... So?

Wats e big fuss? It aint like anything new... So dun be so harsh on the new n upcoming star...

I NEED HELP! Web!

Anyones noes how to input timestamp on a website?

Like on a main page then got tis virtual time and date tat updates automatically to local time...

Please do let me know...

Thanks.

Poor Fella, He Must Be So Frustrated!

I made everyone ard me (ok, e ladies i meant), all excited about the M900 phone...

I am so angry tt so many r getting the phone knowing tt i am still considering... Bek cek!!!!!!!!

I got my sis crazy about it...

She today off... So she decided to disturb her working colleagues... So she emailed them the pictures I saved and made them go over to Hello Singtel...

They saw the phone, totally love it, specially took a Q number n waited in line so tt they can jus look at it... Haha...

Currently, the silver n white are available... The limited edition (ruby) will come in later...

So tis was wat happened!

Sis's Colleague: So when is the limited edition coming in? When will i be able to get it?

Sales Guy: We are not very sure yet.

Sis's Colleague: Can i place a reservation on it and you give me a call when the stock arrives?

Sales Guy: -______-" Sigh... IT'S JUST A MICKEY MOUSE PHONE!!!!

Tis was wat really happened!!! Hahahah, though i felt tt he shdnt react tis way though... But its really funny...

Lol... When my sis told me wat happened, i kept laughing... Apparently, i believe the sales guy mus haf encountered tonnes of crazy ladies saying e same thing after e official launch... He must be so frustrated and i am sure he wouldnt understand wats e big deal about a childish cartoony phone!

Jus like how I didnt find Austin Powers any bit funny, likewise, guys will never get it...

Hahahah...

I am going bonkers...

I am even telling myself tt my current phone look like a mickey mouse phone...

My sis's bf is going Hong Kong on the 6th... The only place selling the multi colored version... 3000 HK dollars... Sigh...

How how...

She ask me i wan to buy or not...

I duno leh...

IM IN LOVE AGAIN !!!

Tell u all something...

I am in love again!!!

But u all dun laugh at me hor?

I like the Dmobo M900 Disney mobile phone!!!!

















Very cute mah!!!

No meh?

My sis like...

Shuzhen also said its nice...

I like leh!!!

I jus found out Sg haf liao... But only at Singtel wor!!! 500+ for 2-yr plan... I wonder retail how much... Coz i M1!!! Jus launched on 17 Nov!!!

Sg only got 3 colors...



Silver & Pearl White



Tis is ruby, limited edition... But i dun like...



I like Pearl white and also e multicolored one...

But multicolored one think Sg dun haf... And multi color one only 3,888 sets available ard e world!!!

How how???

I very excited and sad lei... *sob sob*...

I almost decided to sell my current phone... But i dun wanna downgrade, sure regret one... Coz tis phone is jus a cosmetic phone tt i really hope to own one, jus like my Samsung T500!

I mus be faithful to my current phone...

But i really like tis one lor...

I love the packaging too!!!







Soo nice!!! I like!!!

Can i change the LOTR book wish to tis instead?

Sigh, even more impossible right? I noe... Fairy tales shdnt even be put into reality! Damn those business ppl!!!

Hate u!!!

I wan the phone!!!

Die liao lah... SHuzhen, how????????????

Not Recovering

I am still not recovering very well... I am happy tt I can still move about n still do abit of things... Its jus a very bad cold n i am going into second stage for the coughin part...

The cold affected moi concentration, hearing, smell, taste...

Definately made my life very boring now... Coz i cannot do my usual things, i will feel worst, and i am still not able to sleep...

Whenever i do some self study, i will get more sick... So i think i better dun...

I am worried about some things constantly, so it makes e whole thing more sian...

But i think i need another 3 days... Then shd be more or less can breathe normally liao bah...

My mum borrowed the blood pressure test kit, and i kept using it... Haha... Mine is lowest in my family though... My low one is very low.... 106/63... Scary leh!!! So low... Normal is below 120/80...

Coz sick mah, so shd pick up when i recover...

My blood glucose hor, even more scary, its 70 before food and 84 after food... Alamak... Tis is my usual, so much lower than when i was in poly... Normal is usually 70-130 be4 food, and less than 170 after food... I used to be in the 102-109 range, the lowest in my family... On e borderline low then... Unlike cholesterol level, blood glucose is better to be in e middle...

Btw, eating sweets before taking do not affect ur measurement if u do not haf diabetes... It is ur diet tt matters... Wat u ate overall... Sweets/soft drink will drastically affect ur results if u r suffering from diabetes...

My sis said i better carry some sweets when im out... But i dun usually eat sweets leh, even if i do buy, i buy sugarless one... No diff mah lidat... Hahahah...

I think it was Jul who told me tt sometimes motion sickness is cozed due to low sugar... So tt was when i started testing myself periodically... And somehow, i realised i am on the border low line then... I was kind of surprised then...

My mum hor, shes 400+ before sleep leh, e last time i measured, which is like few hrs ago... Normal before bedtime shd be less than 144!!!

Very scary number, a level which normally doctor will admit u to hospital liao... Duno how leh, with medication, supposed to be in the 100+ range...

Sigh... How to recover like tt?

So Typical

So many ppl haf been giving me all kinds of stupid smart questions, reactions, opinions (though i didnt ask for any) to wats happening to me lately...

For example, with regards to my retrenchment.

Typical of young ppl to ask, "So wat job u working now?"... Especially for those who haf a job n those who r studyin their degrees... For those who r jobless, they will never ask u tis qns unless they in some way hope to come into ur company...

In the event if i decided to review my retrenchment truth, which i usually do, these are some of e typical interesting things tt they said...

"Wat? So weird!"

"Got tis kind of thing one meh?"

"So young where got retrenchment one, u bluff one lah!"

1st n foremost, with regards to moi retrenchment, tis is e real truth.. But on record n reality, its a resignation... But to me, e truth was tt I was retrenched... Wat should i lie about it?

Before i go on, there is one thing tt pisses me off...

Sometimes when ppl heard i am unemployed or something, some will try to act nice n say things like, "Well, if u need help (monetary), then let me noe, im be glad to help!"... And be4 i can say anything, they go on to say, "But theres a limit / I cannot always help u / Dun treat me like ATM though!"...

As much as i "genuinely" appreciate e "SUPPOSED" concern, in e 1st place, i NEVER SAID i need HELP!

Never in my life haf i gotten into debts with anyone... When i say debts i meant really borrow, not those i didnt haf cash at tt moment borrow few bucks tt kind... I meant really borrow...

Tis is one of my life principles... Which i stood very firmly by it... Coz i believe bad debts bring about bad kharma, and i also do not like to be in debt favours of others... I am e kind of idiots who always lend ppl money and got cheated even till today but never will I go ask for monetary help...

Believe it or not, i got cheated by my colleagues from my 2nd last company... Not one person but 2!!! Tats how trusting i thot ppl are... Even though i always say otherwise...

But i do haf one exception... I was hospitalised during secondary n i got no money to pay and my family members refused to pay and so i begged my ex bf to help after receiving mulitple near lawsuit warning letters... But I managed to solve it in e end... So i didnt owe him e debt...

I am not saying i die die will never borrow in my entire life, coz some things are hard to say... I may seriously encounter things i cannot predict n haf to resort to killing my own principles...

But as much as i try, i try not to do it...

So, y shd anyone even think i need money help? If i shd need, of coz, i will ask! But when i didnt even say anything except to inform u tt i am jobless (coz u asked me in e 1st place), y shd u judge? It is so bek cek to hear those assumptions n tt hearin tt they continue saying things like u got to help urself ultimately etc... WTF?

I am not e kind of typical young individuals whereby they haf support fr their family members... It is NOT OK for me to stay at home n rot, it is OK only coz i never use anyone's money... I live on my own savings! My own earned money! Even so, it is still not ok, coz currently i am not paying for household bills temporary n im already hearing grumbles!!!

If i am penniless, do u think i would be at home? No, coz i haf to feed myself! Where do u think i get money to buy groceries? From sky arh? From my mum arh?

Nvm, i cant blame ppl for being ignorant about my situation... Anyways, tts not wat i wan to tok about...

Back to being shocked about retrenchment...

Unless u never go out, unless u dun communicate wif others at all, unless u haf rich parents n a family business going, unless u r still studying n noe nuts about our sg economy, unless u r still in NS, unless ur free time is only spent accompanyin ur gf/bfs, unless u r not local, unless u believe mainstream media for every word they say...

Then y shd u be so shocked?

DO u think tt our market is so gd, till every graduates can find a job within 3 mths? Do u seriously think so?

I haf degree holders frenz who couldnt find any job at all (related) for like 2 yrs!

I haf dip holders frenz who couldnt find jobs (related or not) for like 3 yrs!

Do u noe how many companies haf closed down over e yrs... Dun even mention about others, for animation firms, e top 2 had gone, and one more is facing serious probs!

I am not even e 1st to be retrenched... I noe of some who themselves were retrenched last yr...

Of coz, i cannot blame ppl for believing e beautiful picture tt lecturers/teachers paint in sg... I also cannot blame guys who are still in NS, still very confident tt they will surely find a related job after they ORD... I cannot blame ppl who never open their eyes...

But dun blame me when i couldnt be bothered to reply ur reactions... Coz u dun expect me to repeat all the holy crap to everyone who is so typical... And besides, being in e comfort zone they r, do u truly believe tt they will believe if i tell them the market is terrible now?

I noe for sure, one day when they r ready, they'll see it... Y waste my time now, they wun even remember or register wat ive jus said anyways...

Jus common sense will tell u... Our country is not growing... We are not getting more new companies... Alot of ppl haf lost their jobs, even those experienced gd workers... And yet, every yr, we are churning out tens of thousands of degree grads, dip grads...

Do u seriously think tt, when 120 design students grad fr a course, there are 60 positions popping out magically for them to be employed, and another 60 after e guys completed their NS?

We are losing alot of advertising agencies in sg... Coz there arent enuff projects anymore... And becoz of tt, almost most of them do not quit... So do u think tt the managing director will add on 5 new positions every yr jus to cater to all e 500 ad design graduates in sg? Do u think e director will say, "Oh, we got to help e grads!"...

I mean, face it, u can do e maths urself...

Jus about 5 yrs ago, general degree holders average income is about 3K, now? Its only 1.5K, i noe of some who grad from some hoo-ha unis ard e world, and their starting pay offered was 1.2k! Funny thing about tis fact was i told some peers who r still studyin local unis some time ago, n they cannot believed e numbers i gave... I even increase e rate to avoid disappointment... I said 1.8K!

Guess wat they said?

"Wat? Cannot be one lah, my lecturer said our coz is e best in sg, and average income is 2.5K!"

(Yah, my lecturer also said its 1.8K for our starting pay leh, u go find out my peers who got tis rate lor! So familiar hor, my lecturers also said my coz is da best here leh! Though i heard SP also said their coz is da best leh! How arh? Believe who? My lecturer even said, if u r da best hor, u get like above 3K leh! U ask our best grad lor! Or better still ask those who had been workin for 8 yrs n find out their pay...)

"Aiyo, tts for those from NTU, we NUS students different one... Our certs more valuable!"

(Hope i dun get into trouble quoting tis...)

"1.8K is like poly holders leh! U siao!"

(U r such a inconsiderate bastard! Ok kidding, i didnt say tt of coz...)

Believe it or not, market is very bad... So be thankful if u managed to get a job... I seriously hope tt after i settled all my family stuffs n myself n my directions, i get a full time job soon... *cross fingers*

Occasionally i get calls from various ppl complaining tt they cant find any... Some even got so depressed tt they felt like giving up... Some had so much financial burdens tt they felt tt they jus cant make a living here...

I noe its sad... But no matter, we jus haf to keep trying...

Can find one! Dun give up!

If u seriously ask me, i usually will not tell ppl tt market is bad, n very tough to find jobs... I usually will say, if u keep lookin, u'll find one eventually, jus be realistic.

Its not gd to lose hope u noe... Can one lah, can...

Award-Winning Local Film

Titled "I'll Live A Day For You!"

While i nurse myself from my illness... Meanwhile, share wif u guys tis clip...

It won the Judge's Choice and Audience Choice Awards...

Though seriously, i duno y... It only makes me wonder wat the other participating clips involves... Gosh...

Hmm, not being bad or judgemental here, but seriously, i haf no idea wat e hell its about or wats e pt of the whole clip...

Watch it if u r those who watched Stephen Chow's Kungfu be4... If u didnt, then dun even click the link, u wont even noe wat e hell they r doing...

http://caffeine.com.sg/originasian/

At times like tis, i would usually tell myself...

Well, it mus be a guy thing!

LOL~ ENJOY~

They won tis competition btw, maybe u guys can give it a shot while u r free next yr... Since its only $20 for registration anyways... Fly By Night Challenge 2005

Jus treat me to drinks if u won... Hehe...

Very XING KU~

My cold is very bad... I am feeling miserable but cant get to sleep... Keep waking up...

STUPID JUL SPAM MY BLOG!!! HAOLIAN!!!

I had been rewatching e LOTR documentaries again n again... Hmm, think very soon, e long hrs of documentaries i can memorise liao...

Only the Fellowship one i cannot remember properly, coz i cannot understand chinese subtitles... And their British English is so muffled...

I can even say out wats e diff between e book n movie, hahahah... Even though i haf not read it...

Very xing ku leh... Head very giddy... Wan to collapse but cannot sleep... Damn...

I Am Down With Cold~ Argh~

I guessed i tired myself out... I am sick again...

I cannot breathe properly and my right ear is stuck, so i cannot hear properly...

Still no news about my freelance... Like i mentioned, dun be happy too early... Always wait for the final call...

In fact, i am little worried if i was to get the project... Coz i am not in the healthiest state to do it now... Still trying to hold everything together...

Living is a pain in the ass man... It sucks...

Had a bad arguement wif my mum last night again... Over wat? Money lor... Wat else? Sigh... Nvm, get used to it... At least she had recovered her energy to squabble...

Jus the other day, there was tis ad on new local reality TV show which gives away 10K for the winner... Probably the highest ive seen so far... And my sis was like saying, "Not tt i look down on local media, but 10K? Who the hell would join for a mere 10K? 10K only leh, so little..."

She then expected me to agree somewat... Which i then spurted out tt, "Well, for most whose pay is only 1K plus, 10K is something they can never save in a yr..."

She then continued saying, well, tts for stupid ppl... For the smart ones, they will be earning so much more... And it is these smart ppl who will win... But they will not join such miserable shows which give aways only 10K!

The rich are always the smart ppl... Those who are poor are usually the stupid ones... Or honest ones... If u wan to be nice n good n honest, then resign to a fate of eternal poverty...

I almost forgotten how much she had been earning...

Well, cannot blame her right... With frenz of hers who earn like 15K a mth, who cares about a mere 10K?

Arh well... People... Jus a different league... Different species...

Pappy's Bday

I cooked longevity noodles for him wor... The idea was my Mum's... She biased one leh, my bday over the past 21 yrs also dun haf...

I cooked it myself, thinking tt she would cook the dish to be very salty... Even though i never try be4... But i noe it sure will turn out gd... Hahaha... And it sure did!!!

We specially dyed the bird eggs red somemore...

It is amazingly delicious, i couldnt help it but took a second plate... Yum!!! My mum ate her usual rice, and then she tried my noodles and ended up stuffing herself with another 2 bowls coz its so nice... Scary... Her dinner everyday now is brown rice cooked with green apples... So we eat separately everyday now...

She said tmr she cooking... Sigh, not looking forward to it... Hope it doesnt gross me out...

I am too used to my own dishes... I ate her dishes once like last week i think... Its so salty tt it freaked me out... I scared liao...

Even outside food to me is so salty... Sigh, think i am too used to my own food...

I told SHuzhen and she said, then she better dun eat my dishes... If not like me lidat, go outside eat very miserable...

Anyways, back to the bday...

I am sure he enjoyed it as much as i did... Of coz lah, everyday eat dog food, today special wor...

I kept telling him Happy Birthday! And i think he knew its a special day... Coz he behaved very differently... He was a super good boy...

Wats a bday without a cake?

Nice eh?


He kept moving about so cant take a gd pic... He scared of fire...

I think my mum really biased... My bday also no cake... He so gd life arh... Jealous! Even though i wack him when hes noti...

The cake is nice, i gave my son 1/3, coz of the choc content... The rest i eat coz my sis dun wan to eat... Not bad...

Very lonely bday... But nonetheless, already so much better than mine liao...

IMPT! LOTR BOOK!!! I WISH WISH!!!

I wan the LOTR BOOK leh! Can somebody generously buy for me? Coz i cannot decide which version to buy... So if its a gift, i dun haf to decide... I dun mind as long as its authentic, i dun wan movie versions though, coz i can memorise the 3 movies and e extendeds, i wan the original Tolkien version...

Compiled or not compiled is ok... I like it in 3 or 1... No prob...

Old versions or new versions by Tolkien's son Christopher are fine too... Coz i like both... The new n old...

I saw the white, red and black sets... Very nice but if i didnt forget, i think they are between 120 - 200... Very ex... So its ok, can buy me the cheaper compiled book... Though i am seriously hoping to own the hard covers set one day...

Surprise or no surprise is ok also... Can bring me go see also...

How how? Pleasssssssssseeeeeeee...

Christmas is coming...

Or a little gift to make me very happy?

I promise to cherish it like my DVDs n crystals...

I promise to read n read over n over... Money is well spent!

I will be very happy!!!

*wish wish*

How i wish when i go genting, suffering from all the motion sickness, boreness (due to waiting for hrs to check in), tireness, then when i check in, i saw a welcome parcel on the bed... The parcel is wrapped with nice flowy bluish green wrapper and a lovely big fluffy greenish blue ribbon on top! Then when i opened it, its LOTR BOOK!!! And my fav chocs...

And theres a card, written on it, are these words of appreciation n encouragement...

THERE ARE SOME GOOD IN THIS WORLD, AND IT'S WORTH FIGHTING FOR!"
~ SAM (LOTR)

Your wish has been granted!
I know life has been very tough for you and i also know that you are trying your very best to hold on to your journey...
I have seen what you have done for others and you deserve the same treatment.
Jus a little token for an amazing person. I hope it makes your day.

PS: You will receive something else for X'mas! The surprise doesnt end here! Sweet things do not only happen to others!

Sigh... Who in Genting would noe my wish? Santa Claus? He dropped by early to make me very happy arh? I somemore stay in cheapo hotel leh, where there tis no door for bathroom one...

And then during X'mas, i received a small black box, with a small white ribbon... And inside contained Arwen's Evenstar (e small one can liao)(Movie shop @ Esplanade) ...

& a little card with a lovely message,

"Despair is only for those whom have no doubts, know absolutely what is going to happen in the future. There is always Hope" ~

Sometimes, dreams do come true.
Coz you are someone worth doing it for!
Even though i burnt my pocket!!!

So meng huan... But very touching lor... Nobody nice nice to me... Sob... I knoe the Evenstar is quite ex, about 100 bucks... Arh well, its ok... Nvm... Not a greedy person, i jus wan the book!

I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really wanted tis man...

Oh Shit!

Went wif my mum to courts today and bought a blender...

FINALLY!!!

I blended celery, carrots and orange juice... Drank till i nearly puke... Next time, mus share... Very full after tt... Machiam i ate all the veges... Which is true anyways, i did drank all the pulp... Hmm... No wonder...

I wonder wat to blend tmr... Milkshake? Vanilla? Chocolate?

But cannot lah, tmr i eat "zai" again... Decided not to include dairy products tis time...

I screwed up!!!

I dyed my hair (DIY) again... Coz i cheapo, saw one dye very very cheap... Then i also wanted to lighten my top part of head...

But i cheapo chose tt cheap one, and kena bluff by the color...

Instead of lightening the top, i ended up darkening my whole head...

Bloody hell... I lost all my 2 tone colors at my lower half...

I am seriously comptemplating whether to DIY again to a diff color n use back the one i usually buy... Or to go salon to do...

But i cant decided to do 1 or 2 colors... Light brown or ash...

Headache...

See how lah, if got time, i go dye before i go Gentin... Depend on my workload bah...

WTF

Some ppl arh, duno how to say...

I was on msn then tis fren he was toknig about the icons he saved, about 100-200 of them, etc...

I told him i dun bother, i jus save in automatically... Coz he still go n organise, add, modify, tis n tt...

Then he said, Gd things cum n go easily if u treat them easily"...

WTF?

Good News!

Jus when i thot no more liao, i received a insider news tt i got the freelance job...

Heh, dateline is 2nd week of dec. Hmm, abit the tight and im going to Genting for 4 days somemore... Nvm lah, i can do it!!!

Hopefully i can get everything done before i go genting... Then at least nothing to worry about... Then come back make some changes or something... Hopefully lah...

But one thing ive learnt, never be too sure yet... He said he will contact me with the requirements after a meeting on Thurs... So i better dun be too happy yet... But mus be prepared mentally as well...

Woohoo...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPPY!!!

Isnt it incredible? My bday is 14th Aug, and my bro in law who chose Pappy and bought him, his bday is 14th Dec... Pappy's bday on his birthcert is 14th Nov...

So cool eh?

I celebrated his bday... So called celebrate lah...

Will continue tis entry...

Its Been Confirmed!!! & Gaara Gaara!!!

Yup, we bought our tickets...

I will be leaving on 2nd Dec and back on the 5th... Each person 219RM, very ex compared to my last trip... My last one for non hols period was only 119RM... Never mind lah, Dec mah, expected... We go on weekends somemore... Definately, in sg cannot get tis price... So a gd consolation liao lah...

Shop less lor, eat less lor...

Shuzhen very ke lian... Now she cannot get too excited, coz she still haf her exams to deal wif...

JB very hot leh, i nearly fainted... And i bloody hell became darker... SIgh...

I one day only cannot tahan liao... KUDOS to those who transit JB SG every day... SO amazing... Aka moi lecturer also... Duno how he do it and reach sch by 7am sometimes somemore...

In less than a yr, i haf gone to Genting twice, and now coming 3rd... Scary...

I applied for the Genting Worldcard liao lor, going to be mailed to me in 2 wks time... But quite a useless card also... Unless i gamble...

Moi 2 new episodes of Naruto cannot watch... Damn... Mus wait again...

I very happy leh... Coz hor, Gaara had been revived!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Moi Gaara lives!!!!!!!

So happy... His soul had been revived... So gd...

He now became best frenz wif Naruto liao...

Though i find tt kind of weird... Naruto n Sasuke used to be best frenz, then now Gaara becum Naruto's best fren... Cannot imagine... Sasuke still missing leh... Duno wat he doing over at the dark side... So long liao, no news or updates... Wonder how evil is he...

I seriously dun think the anime will follow the manga... Too far fetched liao lah, the anime drifted too far and i dun think it will cum back...

Sian hor... I follow until so sian...

I see Rock Lee's drunken fist till sianz liao also... All the same old things... Very draggy...

TOld Shuzhen i wan to watch Bleach coz she said i will like... But i also scared to start leh... Coz its same like Naruto, haven finish, never ending... See liao will bek cek one lor...

Going JB

I am going JB later to get my Genting tickets... Meeting Shuzhen late morning...

Wonder got tickets or not...

Intending to get Dec 2, 3, 4 (Fri to Sun), abit crazy right go weekend... But we abit like cant wait and Shuzhen's last paper is on the 1st!!! But scared jam when come back on sun... See how bah...

I checked their KTV up there how much liao, its about 30RM per person, plus 7RM peanutes charge, 3 Hrs in the day... Ok mah, normal... Very cheap liao lor considering e location...

Duno tis time goin lounge or not, duno got band or not leh...

I wan to get drunk think also cannot... Hahahaa... But i wan to drink till drunk leh...

Think we will eat a big feast again... Provided we get a room with table like last time... But i so suay dun think will get... Dun think tis time so heng...

I wan to buy a small whole cake to blow candles n cut in the room leh, like celebrate my own bday like tt... Hahhaah, but we lost all appetite after eating double scoop ice cream cone tt time...

I wan to buy lots of chocs to eat during the coach ride...

I wan to take alot of nice pics of myself... But then i look ugly now wif big small eyes... Nah, nvm, besides, she dun haf camera, and i dun haf a big SD card...

We will eat the buffet breakfast again, she loves it...

Tis time the buffet dinner, duno go which restaurant eat liao...

Tis time, the arcade we not stupid go change coins and play kids machines and exchange kids erasers, which i still kept, with the kiddy tickets won...

Tis time i not stupid kena cheated few bucks coz the coins stuck in the Daytona machines and never call e service man...

Tis time i not stupid go buy candy floss to eat in tt kind of weather jus becoz i wan to rekindle childhood... (It melted faster than i eat, and the sweetness level is too much for my tolerance, i mus remember i am not a kid anymore...)

Tis time i wan to do more shopping!!! She beat me last time... But very hard to find things i like...

Tis time i mus make sure i die die sleep in the coach... (Though i never did unless i am wif someone who can take care of me, so i mus make sure i sleep night be4, if not all gone to waste)

Tis time i will not bring sling bag, i will use haversack, coz my shoulder ached like mad the last time carrying the heavy sling bag, especially wif all e shopping gds...

Tis time i no need wear my black pants, coz i got my JEANS liao... Wahahaha...

I wonder to bring short skirts or not, coz the ppl there like never see girls before...

I wonder how its feels to stay 3 nights, never try before... But dun think Shuzhen will wan lah, she budget one...

I wonder to bring my cap (which i bought fr there last time) or not since sg no chance to wear...

I wonder to wear my sunglass or not... Like artists like tt... Hahaha... Hide my face...

Ooooooo, mus eat Kenny Rogers there, they r so gd, better than Sg one... *drools*

Mus drink Star Buck's Hot Chocolate there in the cold cold weather, it tastes so much better...

Mus disappear in the fog there and play hide n seek...

Mus breathe out smoke whenever we speak...

Mus make sure i not lazy and leave the hotel room...

Mus make sure i wake up earlier to put on make up...

Mus mus... Aiyah, duno liao...

So excited...

Oh, mus bath clean clean before go there...

Mus make sure i dun get scalded by the hot water during showering and screamed for her to save me, coz i cant off the shower head no matter how many times i turn in both directions...

Mus make sure i bring more plastic bags for my motion sickness...

Okok, crappy entry...

May Not

I may not be getting the freelance project after all... My 1st quotation got thru, but the second quotation is still pending...

Boss told me got other offers... But he felt tt shd let me do it...

Perhaps the others quoted him an incredibly low price for the whole package? I am not sure... Well, shall see bah...

Told him to take his time and let me know. Shall leave it to him le...

I Look Different... I Know...

Hey ppl, i knoe i look different (ok lah, abit only mah), but then i didnt go for surgery wor... So many asked liao... Bek cek...

U think i got money arh? Me no job now leh...

Here are the reasons y i look different (For those who never see me for a long time) :

Hair: I did not go thru 5 1/2 hrs at the salon for nothing... So it better look better, though my dye already off liao, i desperately wan to dye them again... But got to watch my budget leh...

Eye Brow: I changed my eye brow shape, even though no one would notice the diff except me, but its a big answer as to how it change a person's features... To me, i look less fierce...

Double Eye Lids: Ok, tis is the headache one... I did not go for DOUBLE EYE LID SURGERY! Believe it or not, only after 21 YRS, MY DOUBLE EYE LIDS POPPED OUT RECENTLY!!! Or at least only my right eye...

My left eye is not tt prominent, unless i tilt my head down n look up, then u will see my 2 eyes got lids... Which is a big prob... It means tt during most of the times, at a normal eye level, my eyes now one eye big one eye small... Ugly leh... But if i put make up like i usually do, i can try to balance out the difference...

Double eye lid is like wrinkle, now tt i am older liao, it is easier for lids to appear...

Make-Up: I put on make up everyday when i work. And becoz of my stupid eye lids prob, i tend to not go out without make up anymore, unless im wif my mum or alone... Poly i also got put mah, but only when i need to go out straight after classes...

Main reason is still of coz, i realised i look like shit coz of my big small eyes when no make up on... So bo bian...

Skin: I am fairer as compared to when i was in poly... I was chartao black in secondary, dark brown in poly... Now i am in med yellow brown, well, when u work u never see sun one... Though i am still not fair, but most ppl regconised me as chinese liao...

But i think i got abit darker abit again, coz i haf been catching some sun... Oh well...

Dressing: I am wearing jeans, coz i bought my only one piece of $10 jeans some mths ago... So wear lor... Jus note tt every time u see me in jeans, its always tt bloody $10 piece... Hahaha... I am also wearing t-shirts at times, coz i wan to look younger!!! Hahaha... No lah, actually depends on where i go, though i wun deny the former reason... Wahahah...

Alright ppl, other than these, i am still fat and ugly, basically same lah... So i duno y some ppl saw me outside find me weird... Haha... Wat to do...

I didnt do double eye lid surgery though... Didnt... Can show u... Can tell one... If got do, i wun be poor until do one side only right? Hahahah...

I Am Back!

I am back, hopefully...

Ok jus a quick one, will blog more again...

I feel quite gd to blog tonight... After such a long while of disturbance i had...

For one, i may be getting a freelance project, i jus sent out the quotation, so hopefully i can get a reply soon...

For two, i am hearing very gd things fr some ppl and they made me very happy...

For three, Shuzhen asked me to go Genting this coming dec... Haha, i noe i noe... AGAIN RIGHT??? Wat to do, i only noe tt place inside out and tt place no hot sun mah... Budget lah, budget... But not sure yet though, will haf to go in JB to get tickets... Only then can confirm...

For four, my son is turning one yr old next monday... Time flies eh?

Anyways, my mum is back... I am taking care of her everyday now, and i haf to take care of the house, my son and my sis as well... I am becoming like a housewife... Will tok about tis again...

So tentatively, i will only go look for a full time job after my mum becums fully well... Coz theres no one at home to take care of her now... And seriously, i haf no idea how long its going to be... But she seems to be getting better, though slowly...

Alright...

More another time...

Attempted Suicide

Somebody i used to noe (fr secondary) attempted suicide think last fri... She downed 50 tablets of sleeping pills...

Hmm...

Shes fine now...

I wondered whether there was a police record, given that shes 21 already... She could be charged, but usually they will let u off on the 1st time... But its a permanent record in ur life record... Coz i noe i sure did... Opps... Nvm... Then again, she was diagnosed to haf the condition, Depression, some yrs back, perhaps tt solves the issue?

Anyways, if wat she said was true... I am glad she is ok now... And i also hope tt she will get over her gloomy days soon...

The longer the condition lingers, the more difficult it will be for her to climb back up...

SOmetimes i think not even her best fren can help (if she even has one), coz best frenz may not be best frenz... U get wat i mean?

Nonetheless, it was shocking to see another fella (poly dmd), who noes her, and wrote, "invite me on ur death campaign next time"... !!!!

Well, apparently, shes not alone... Hope she feels better knowing tis...

As far as i noe, tis fella has been helping her, to wat extend n how much effort i do not noe... But wat i knew was, tt fella gave up on her some time ago, claiming tt shes hopeless... Coz she doesnt help himself, etc...

Who is to judge eh? How do u judge a person to be hopeless? How do u measure tt u shd give up, when u judged someone as hopeless according to ur own standards, using ur duno wat methods to try to salvage the situation...

Most ppl told me... When they see someone sad, usually they chose to be indifferent, coz they were afraid n worried tt, if they start wif the consoling n concerns, it will be a never ending cycle... Thus, their own lives will be so affected...

Becoz they haf alot of things in their own lives to deal wif and they haf better things to do then to deal wif other ppl's lives, especially when it doesnt involves them...

All i can say, theres nothing wrong thinking tis way... Well, if u put urself in e shoes of this grp of "busy" ppl, it makes sense... Coz they live for themselves, and ultimately, y shd they invest their time n effort on jus another human being who is neither their gf/bf/hubby/wifey/family?

Which is y we r all categorised into different personalities... Some ppl are good, some r not, some go the extra mile, some dun unless its for their own self...

I think tis way, it makes urself feel better...

Instead of questioning y is so n so, heartless, evil, indifferent, selfish, biased, unreasonable, etc... Acknowledge tt they r like tt, and they belong to those grps of ppl...

Which is something like species... Different human species... U cant expect a cat's temperament to be like a dog, can u ? U cannot blame ur cat for not understand u unlike a dog does right?

So same thing, u cannot expect a selfish person to becum selfless... Of coz, unless they themselves haf e intentions to switch to another human personality species...

Tts y we click wif some and we dun wif some... Same concept...

Anyways, toking about the above grp of these... Funny thing is, these grp of ppl are usually the ones, who will call the suiciders selfish, childish, irresponsible, etc... Giving names seem to be their forte...

Anyone without understanding the whole situation cannot judge someone like tt... Like alone dead ppl...

Of coz i am not saying u shd commit suicide due to valids reasons... But i am saying tt dun be too hasty to judge or condemn a life, or a dead one...

If a man gambled all his money away, owned several loansharks tonnes of money, suicided and left his not-working wife and small children behind... Then i will say he is selfish n irresponsible...

But if the same senario, and wife is working 18 hrs a day, 2 jobs, to pay off the debts and to feed e family, and husband drinks and abuses the wife, and she suicided... Wat u think?

Of coz, i am not saying tt she shd suicide and leave e shit to her husband... Instead of calling her irresponsible mother for leaving her children to fend for themselves, i will say its a pity... For i am sure there is a way out...

However, ways out do not sprang out from a crisis itself... Ppl who are in crisis seldom see any light, coz their heart is burdened wif agony n sorrow... If u haf never been thru rock bottom, u probably duno wat im toking about or wat hack sense i am making...

An analogy...

A person who is drunk will seldom say they r drunk... Even when their frenz attempted mulitple times to tell them to stop and go home... But never once will they listen... However, by right, frenz do not jus give up and leave them lying on the streets... They make sure they send them back home even if stink like hell, tok nonsensical rubbish, scoldings even, vomit...

1) Some ppl will leave e fella behind

2) Some will leave them behind but call up his family and leave

3) Some will leave them behind but call up his family and leave after e family arrives

4) Some will put him in a cab and go home themselves

5) Some will bring e fella to his doorstep

6) Some will take care if e fella until he fall asleep before making their way home

Different species, different measures... No right, no wrong...

But if e fella had an accident and died... Some grps will say he deserved it, coz he got himself so drunk, even though they told him multiple times not to... Some grps will say its none of their concern since they dun really noe e fella well anyways...

A really drunk person will never register watever u say in his drunken state...

Likewise, a person in depression or misery will never get over it jus simply over sentences...

Life is much more complicated than most think... However, if u r able to live a simple life, well, congrats... Coz i myself, seriously wish for tt...