Shuzhen's 21st Birthday Celebration Part 1

Alright, im a soft hearted person, gotten over it liao. Now i shall blog tis for the benefit of the majority.

Thurs night, i mentioned tat i need to go Amk central buy stuffs right? And thus ended my blog suddenly. Well, i went to get balloons, i went popular to buy them coz i cant find cheap mama shop buy cheap balloons(10cents each). So no choice went popular buy gd quality ones, and then i saw the "poppers", got 10 inside, bought tat too, thinking it'll be fun. Then i went to get one small cake also fr emicakes.

I love emicakes, branded but then so much better than bengawan solo and jack's place. I bought one mini black forest cup. Actually intended to get strawberry, but i recalled we jus ate strawberry cake during Vday. I would love to buy double choc cup for myself but i didnt. Guess wat, after i left the cake shop, i realised tat the cake he gave me is no. 18. Same day as her bday. Haha.

Then i reached home 740pm. I quickly ate my dinner, and meanwhile watching tat crappy, Channel 8 show, I Love Zhong Wu Yan(horrible show). Then at 8, i took out the balloons and blow one by one, got 20, i blew like hell, the skin is so tough. But then one prob, i duno how to tie balloon knots. Never tried be4.

I usually pass to someone else to tie after blowing. But tis time, i decided i mus try. So i did, and i managed to tie the 1st balloon, 1st time in my life. Haha. Then finally done wif balloons, which were scattered all over my living room. I hugged them into my room and again it got scattered everywhere coz my fan was on.

Then i off my fan, and then went to search for strings. I tied up the balloons and hang them all over my room. And i wrote messages on the balloons as well. I brought in a table(ha, one tat i painted when i was painting my house during Jan). I placed 20 key candles on the table forming a heart. Then i tied 3 balloons to the table.

I love balloons and parties. Used to haf balloons during my pri sch bday parties. Got once duno during P5 or 6, Zhenlong came so early to help me blow balloons, but we bought the supper gd ones, so the skin is tough like snake. Haha, we were so exhausted and our cheeks hurt like hell after tat. I fantasizes balloon parties, so i decided to make one simple one too, it brough so much child like memories.

Oh, i pushed one mattress up to the wall be4 tat, coz my room got 2 mattress, no empty space. Then my mum scolded me said its not safe, kept saying it'll fall on her head, break her neck and she'll die in my room. Choi! Siao! Crazy!

Then i sprayed the whole room and my toilet wif lavender spray. Then my mum said again, im like proposing(same thing said during vday). I sprayed so much tat i choked. Haha. I ran of out time, coz i wan to watch American Idol at 10pm. Then i quickly plugged in my mp3 player to the PC, selected 44 CL and EL songs to play for her later.

Then jus nice, 10pm liao. I inspected the room and then went out to watch the show. Then 11pm liao, i continued to watch the Bachelor, wif the bitchy elimated Trish coming back to ask the bachelor to sleep wif her, yucks.

During commercial, i went in the room, and realised smell no more le. So i sprayed and choked myself again. Then i brought in the cake and placed it in the middle of the heart. Then i wan to test run the program, i lit the candles but the stupid lighter's plastic melted, and i scalded one finger, PAIN!!!!

Then 1120pm, she called and told me she left her house liao. I told her to give me a call when shes downstairs. Then during 1145pm, she reached, i hurried to my room to light up the candles, and then being so flustered, i scalded 3 more fingers. PAIN PAIN PAIN !!!

Btw, the end of the key chain i lost had been found and left on my table but its damn late, i threw away the key chain le. Always lidat, sad! Not fated.

I opened the door, gave her one balloon, and then she sat down to watch finish Bachelor wif me. I tok about the balloon, to make her think tat its only one, and then i tok about the Bachelor to make her distracted fr my rm. On her way to my house, she told me she didnt bring notes to study and i told her i will play for songs for her, to haf excuse to enter my rm beforehand.

Then 2 mins to 12am, i told her to wait while i on the music. Actually i went to light up the cake candle lah. On music also. Then i went out, off TV, then told her to go into my room lor. Then she opened the door, and saw the heart and cake in darkness, wif balloons. Music playing is Boyzone's Everyday I Love You, damn romantic leh.

Told her Happy Birthday but the spoilers came. So many Happy Birthday msges came in and spoilt the whole atmosphere. She then busily replied them, then Johnson called, she yelled at him and then slammed the phone. My whole house heard. Then she decided to leave her phone and dun bother about it 1st.

Then i took pics, then told her tat i placed magic tat night, she'll make one main wish on the cake candle, and then my sorcery granted her 20 more wishes(coz shes 21), she can make one wish and blow off one candle each at a time. Meanwhile she was doing tat, i took pics, and they turned out so beautifully, im so proud of myself! Haha.

When she blew off the final candle, i on my green lamp(my bday gift fr her last yr). And then i popped 3 poppers for gd luck. Alright, then she continued to rely her msges. Afterwards, i showed her my wardrobe door, showing pics of me and her and our ticket to the Zoo last dec. Then i took out my gift liao.

Ok, now for the atrociuos reveal. I wrapped it like a bouquet(inspired fr my sis's vday bouquet). She liked the idea. So im happy.

Dun think i will tok in details of wat i gave. Too long winded. To summarise, i bought 8 items, 1 i gave her on vday, yes the lovely bracelet. Basically its stuffs i bought over the coz of 1 mth, and been to whole of SG, which explains y i was so busy then. I bought the stuffs she liked, or came across, and some to my understanding of her, like wallet, shoes, etc. The gift is to show her my understanding of her over the past yrs.

She told me shes overwhelmed and feel like crying but she controlled it. Shes surprised and happy. Also told me tat i am romantic, but too bad im not a guy. Haha.

She returned me 2 box of Inuyasha. But got few episodes she didnt catch it. So we watched it, and then soon, its 3+am liao. She got a shock coz she didnt realise it was tt late, she gave a loud scream. I took cough syrup so im damn drowsy. Wow, tat syrup is so strong, my 1st time taking it. So we decided to turn in, and we slept wif the balloons above us. I indulged in the scenario, tok awhile wif her, then fall asleep.

But i didnt sleep well, wif the balloons floating, i nearly got scared to death coz they look like ghostly images floating. Haha.

To be continued...

Current Balance : 4,255,202 NP
(PS:I sold one stupid looking cookie for 60, 000 NP, can u believe tat?)
Amt left to reach 5 Million: 744,798 NP (3/4 more, i can do it! Left 2 mths)

Shuzhen's 21st Birthday Celebration Error

DAMN IT......................

Is it not meant to be or wat? Finally, i calmed myself down to write tis entry and theres error when i tried to published it??? I typed for one n half hrs, and all wiped out.

I AM SO PISSED.....................

My Neopets!

I had been playing neopets everyday for the past scary 42 mths. Coz i only haf ONE reason, i wan to haf 5 mil in the acc. I am 4/5 of a mil away. I wan to be the richest person in neopia. I intend to reach tis goal in 2 mths time.

I haf 4 cute happy pets now. I had stocked up thousands of different food in my safety deposit box. And now i haf decided to sell all of them to reach my goal sooner. Coz i realised as long as i keep playing, my pets will never starve to death, they haf ample amt of food to eat.

Yeah, i noe its stupid and u'll ask me to grow up. Haha, but i dun care, i jus wan to haf 5 mil. I will now at the bottom of my every daily entry, show my neopet acc balance and how much more to 5 mil, to update myself.

In fact, i am damn sick of playing the games, i had played them over and over. But i still force myself to do it everyday, even when i was studying or workin. Haha, yeah, im crazy. 5 Million!

Current Balance : 4,181,432 NP
Amt left to reach 5 Million: 818,568 NP

U Waiting?

Waiting for my entry on her personality? On her overnight experience? On her bday? Well, im not going to blog it now. Im tired, drained, depressed.

If i feel better, i'll blog. But not now, no mood.

However, her reaction to her bday? "Happy happy happy!" was wat she said. Gd. Wats impt is tat she's happy right? Shes the bday girl anyway. Think tats all u all wan to noe anyways.


Its over finally, guess nothin for me anymore. Shall return to normal life. I'll pop the balloons 1st thing when i wake up next morning. Gd things dun lasts. Didnt bear to before i left the house, but now i cant wait to throw them away. Fickle? Yeah, Im always the bad person, curse me then. My life's cursed anyway.

Learnt something, 2 situations:
1) Food wif person A
2) Same food wif person B

Food in 1) tastes like diamonds.
Food in 2) tastes like shit.

Why?


I lost my sense of taste, somebody save me. I lost myself, find me? How?


Inuyasha total 166 episodes, ask u ah, so many how to find? I've only 1/3. By the time complete whole set few yrs later liao, wats the pt then. Sigh... Dun ask me wat happened, dun ask me how i feel, i'll say, "Nah, the blog was a joke, Im so happy, i jus wanted to haf some fun!".

My Friend, Shuzhen

Ok, here goes her small introduction. Hmm, wondering how shd i do it...

Before tat, digress abit, tis is the link to show u whole series of my love, Inuyasha
http://www.hobbycube.com/anime-dvd--g---i--inuyasha.html

Alright. Back.

She's same age as me, 21 tis yr(21 tmr for her, Aquarius). But she still look 18 while i look like 25, even though technically shes older, Urrggghhhh... Nvm, now i look 22, better liao. Haha, closing closing.

We met 1st time during 1997, at Ang Mo Kio Secondary, class 1/1. She was the 1st monitress. A temp one. She was chosen coz she was a prefect during pri yrs and she got leader look, accordin to our form teacher, Mdm Teresa Lim(hmm, wondering how is she liao). I was a prefect too, haha, but i didnt raise my hands coz i noe sure nothin gd one. Haha.

Schs? She was from Keppel Pri(which i always tease say Apple Pri then she'll get angry, but sch tore down liao, no more le), then went to PeiYing Pri, aiyo, where they had the national champion for mini tennis for yrs, i was in the mini tennis sch team for my pri too, playing doubles. Second in north division. I always wanted to play against her sch to see how far were my standards, but then the only chance i had was ruined by my partner, who played a fool, and was punished and removed my opportunity to play. Damn it. They sent the reserve team and lost miserably, damn, i was so confident to at least win the doubles match u noe. Then after tat day, tat gal was replaced by another junior, who i love, shes very pretty(acted in children drama be4 then) and our chemistry is excellent. I won every god damn match except the one i didnt get to play and happened to be the game i wanted to play the most. I cried then, didnt understand y my sch dun mind losing, not my fault somemore, so unfair.

Wa, digressed again. But very bek cek, no chance liao. Then Amkss no tennis, went to play netball, horrible mistake. Nvm.

Then she went Amkss with PSLE score 248. Class 1/1, 2/1 wif me as well. She did very well, then went into pure triple science + history class wif me for sec 3 + 4. Yes, we were in the same class for 4 yrs, and she sat beside me, in pairs for closing 3 yrs. Same CCA wif me, Netball and IT Club. I didnt even realise she was in netball be4 we got closer. Netball was the most popular female CCA, and therefore, had to audition to get in. Stupid. My 2 stupid frenz ask me try wif them, and they didnt get in and i got in blurblurly. Think Shuzhen also same thing.

After "O"s, she went Yishun JC for 1st 3 mths, and then Anderson JC(her dream choice). She joined CCA choir, and since then her singing skills haf gotten remarkable. It was great be4, now remarkable. Then now she's in NUS, Science fauculy, major in wat im not sure, coz its damn confusing, thinks its computin science or somethin. Shes very bz now, coz she studyin and doing part time tuition and retail assistant at the same time. Hardworkin? Definately, no doubt.

Relationships? Yes, a few, but im not saying much. Too personal. Dun bother her, shes married now, to me. Wahahahaha... "Dun u lay a finger on my woman!" quoted from Koga, from Inuyahsa.

Her interests? Ok, she love comics, novels, storybooks. She love to read. She's used to be extremely studious, but these yrs, she balanced out her life very well. She like to go bookshop and libraries(places i banned her fr entering when shes out wif me, coz i hate them, she can spend hrs in a library when she clearly tell me 30mins... haha). She likes to sing, frequents ktv, especially kbox nowadays.

Her love? Besides me? Haha, ok la, crapping again. She used to be crazy over Slamdunk, i cannot understand y. I saw the animation yrs later. I like but im not crazy over it. Her fav character is either #6. Yasuharu Yasuda (165cm playmaker) or #7. Ryota Miyagi (168cm, 59 kilograms Point guard / playmaker), will confirm wif her later. Haha. Cant remember, coz me not fan. She like the coach, too. Mitsuyoshi Anzay, very cute coach. Now, she still like it but not as obssessed liao, she used to flare up and hit me back when i merely slapped the cover of her comic. Haha. Now dun think she will liao.

- Confirmed liao, her fav character is #7. Ryota Miyagi.

Personlity?

Ok, tis gets interesting, but im running out of time, i need to go amk central buy some stuffs back, will be back to blog more if i haf time later. Its 6 plus now, Adios!

Shuzhen's 1st Step Into Moi Life

Alrightz here goes. I will use tis blog site to document our journey of friendship as well. But before tat, i shall do a introduction about her. Introduction about myself? i may blog it some other times. I wan to tok about her today also coz her 21st bday is tmr.

Its really heart-warming looking back and seeing the things we had gone thru to reach tis day.

I remember when i was in secondary 2, there was tis gal(whose name i shall not disclose, so as to save her reputation since now ppl feel tat shes an angel), who threatened me. Everyone, including teachers, knew we were close frenz then. So tis "Ah Lian", duno y, hated me(maybe coz i was attached to someone who she liked then), tried to steal "my only fren", Shuzhen.

So every recess or something, she would come and pull Shuzhen away and they will eat together. Well, since i dun mix wif her, i jus let them be. Im ok wif it, i was eating wif another gal at tat time, too. And since they stay ard the same area, there was one period of time, when they go sch and go home together. So i stopped joining Shuzhen. But it was jus a very short period of time, later i'll tell u y.

Until, one recess period, she came over and said

Ah Lian: Eh! You be cautious of me, Im going to snatch Shuzhen away from u. Jus wait and see!(translated fr Ah Lian language)

The original version is below, for those who understand mandarin.
- Ma de, ni gei wo xiao xing yi dian wo gen ni jiang. Wo hui ba Shu Zhen chong ni shou zhong qiang zhou. Ni deng ze kan!

Then she walked away.

Haha, i didnt even rebutt back, coz one thing it was so sudden and i was shocked at such childish acts. To me it was lame and stupid, and i cannot comprehend wat she wans. I wanted to tell her, "Sure, go ahead, it up to her in the end, if end up, u 2 become gd frenz, gd for u, but u dun deserve it. And u noe something, i dun even care. Coz i cant be bothered wif u!". But noeing myself, i didnt say all those of coz. Haha.

The lian very funny one leh, there was once i saw her on the streets, and coz she everytime "diao" me, so i cant be bothered and didnt look at her. Then next day in sch, she came over and tell me, "Eh, next time u see me, dun need so scared one!". Haha, wat the??? Saved her the embarassment, i didnt say anythin again, coz im too sick to rebutt lame ppl. Coz they will never get it.

I didnt tell Shuzhen about the snatching incident until few yrs back when she was in jc. Haha, she laughed and told me she cant even remember being wif her. Haha. Then she said, tat gal was so immature. The reason they didnt last long is coz i really couldnt be bothered and i continued spending time wif another gal whom i was closer wif then.

I believed puttin in so much efforts but not affecting me abit, she finally gave up, haha, i didnt even noe when she gave up coz i didnt bother. Not tat Shuzhen's not a gd fren to be wif for her, its jus Shuzhen is not a Ah Lian, Lians cannot mix wif studious ppl one. Not meant to be, haha.

Tell u how me and Shuzhen got to noe each other(as in closer) the 1st day.

I had been wif a few individuals before finally getting closer wif her, and then eventually become gd frenz. I remembered got Siew Lian, Tay Ning(but she cant remember anythin, though i went to her place everyday for some time), Pei Zhen, Xinxian, these r as far as i remember.

Btw, Peizhen is a very smart gal, matured also, tats y we clicked. We shared some things in common, but certains things we cant work out, so in the end ended up as jus classmates. I remembered she had a wish and wanted to prove herself to be Top in class. She fulfilled it during sec 3 i think. And i was happy 4 her.

Those close to me one, i will bring them to the field where we tok and i'll compete wif them over the fitness obstacles. So one day before sch, while me and Pei Zhen were at the field, sitting at the stone table. Shu Zhen came over. And she asked if she can join us. I said sure of coz. Then i took out my phone book(i got the habit of taking down numbers and birth dates wif new ppl), and asked for her number and bday.

Then she saw my phonebook, my phonebook got 8 different colored hearts, and i think a few dropped out. Coz i didnt paste them on anyway, i jus placed them there only. Self made wif smearing of water color powder. She said its very nice and asked me how i made them. I didnt share the secret then. And then so we played together, until gradually, become me and her only.

And there it goes, the beginning journey of our beloved friendship. I taught her to sing some old songs. Coz i was into late 80s, early 90s Cl pop. 1st song i taught her was Jeff Chang n Liu Jia Ling's You Yi Dian Dong Xing. I taught her the lyrics verbally. So can imagine how long it takes. Last i remembered is Wan Fang's Fang Zu, but tat song till today shes not very familiar, somehow she cant get the lyrics at certain parts, she said it was confusing, and sometimes, i was confused by her till i got mixed up too. Haha.

I 1st taught her the song while we were walking towards my fav place. I was singing then she said it was a nice song(not my singin nice, nice song) and wanted to learn. So i taught her but tis one is super hard to teach, compared to You Yi Dian Dong Xing. I even taught her while we were in the hall for assembly during silent reading, i got to keep turning ard to tell her, n she will sing silently. Damn frustratin. But dun laugh, tat time no computer, so cannot get lyrics unless u got cd, and the only way to hear it is to wait for radio to broadcast and record it into casette, i dun even haf tat song tat time, coz it was a old song.

OK, i continue on next entry.

Before I Sleep...

Alright, i will blog one before i sleep and after i wake up today. Since Shuzhen'll be sleepin over, i wun be bloggin tonight. I will blog about Shuzhen also whenever i can, due to one conversation we shared just now.

Duno i can sleep or not, since i slept late last night(after spending 6 hrs of wrappin!).

I did all the things i wanted to do le. Im obedient yesterday. I finished going thru the 3 recruits, nothin much. Then i went to clean up and tidied my room. Then went to spray insecticide and then lavender fragrance . And then before i took my bath to clean up myself, i cleaned the toilet. Man, i hate cleaning the toilet. If there's one hatelist, Cleaning Toilet will be on top. All these yrs, i had never grown to accept tis chore, i still hate it and wish i never haf to do it again. Pui!

Then as usual, did my masque facial, oiled my hair. Chatted wif some plp over msn. Tok to Johnson and after tat, wif Shuzhen. Played minesweeper wif her but lost. She so heng one leh, buay tahan. No wonder she never lose. Nvm, i wun suay forever, next time compete again. Ah, i finished painting my nails, added the stickers and the top coat. Loved it, tmr will do on her.

Some time ago, Shuzhen has a new found fren, Marcel(think its spelled tis way), fr NUS. Got to know each other from one module class and then got to know each other better after a meal. He's a Malaysian by the way, from Penang. Tats far. My relatives(Grandma, Uncle, Cousins, my Grandpa passed away last yr, so did my dog, Baby...Sad) are at Kluang, far also. But my dog is in sg of coz.

Anyway, Marcel asked her how come she doesn't haf a blog site. Then she replied tat she dun wan and also she got a fren(best fren, mind u, n tats me FYI) who blogs about some of her activites as well. And so Marcel shd be looking at my blog as well liao. So i thot to myself, why not make it more "meaty" by including more about her in my blog also.

Initially i was thinking, to make things easier for her, perhaps i'll add one more user(which is her) to my site so tat she can blog too. But then again, i think i'll blog about her instead, since i noe her well and meet her up often enough. She's a very busy person u noe. But i wun be blogging about her past, i shall from now on update about her and me here. =)

Even if i didnt say all tis, she already appeared everywhere in my blog, if u had been reading. Haha. Will share some nice memories of us every now and then, too. To refresh her memory as well, she dun remember much. But dun expect me to blog about NUS or sch wk though, i'll bore u and myself to tears, haha.

Stupid Me!

Im going to blog some unhappy things later. But before tat, i start some lighter things 1st.

My illness? Yeah, flu is better, less sneezing, but still blocked 50%. Unfortunately, i had very bad dry coughs last night. Headaches had reduced to mild state. So its bearable now. I tried to sing(now still while im bloggin), but sounded horrible. Ok, think i will keep quiet during the ktv on fri as much as i can.

Silly me, i wrapped her gift for whole 6 hrs!!! Can u believe tat? Its either im too sick or too stupid. Initially, i had an idea but i failed miserably after trying for 2 hrs. 1st hr plus is to prepare the gifts and write cards, stuffs like tat. Then after tat, is to proceed wif my idea. But im a stubborn lioness(me leo btw), i didnt wan to give up so i try and try and in the end after hrs, i realised, its either done extreme miserably, or give up. So i finally gave in. It cannot be done.

So i sat there, with the whole mess. And tried to force my sicked brain to generate more ideas. Then i sat there staring at the mess for whole 15mins, i looked around the room for inspirations, and then, ah huh! I saw something, and it triggered my creative juice(dun ask me wat, canot say yet).

So i tried again on the new idea, and after some refining, finally, things are coming in one piece. But its damn ugly to my standards, no choice, my materials werent bought to materialise tis new concept, i jus haf to make do coz i really wan to get it done yest night. But its still ok lah, jus tat not the usual packaging i do. I do feel quite pity though for the 1st idea, coz ended up i threw those stuffs away, sad...

Paiseh, very paiseh to her. After she open and see on fri, i intend to throw the packaging and put the stuffs in a bag for her. I do feel bad, coz im the kind who treasure gifts even the packaging. Till today, i still keep the cards, ribbons, strings, bags, wrappers u noe(the nice ones of coz). But shes not as crazy as me, so its ok.

Then after tat, while i was doing masque treatment, i went online. Saw a job ad from CreativeAsia where James, WeiQiang and Charlene is there. Gabriel also, but i duno is it the same Gabriel. But im closer to WeiQiang(my ex colleague) and Charlene(my poly classmate, who acted in our winnning clip, laughter, too). WeiQiang got ask me work there be4, but coz i was wif the singnet job, i didnt lor. Duno how are they liao, shall msg them during the weekend. I applied for the job, see if they'll call me bah.

I didnt sleep well after tat, kept dreaming about them. Maybe coz i miss them bah. Also, i finally received a friendster msg from my pri sch fren, Jack(found him in friendster last wk). Very happy, was so excited i couldnt sleep. I thot he had forgotten, thus didnt reply me but i guess hes bz, since now hes in NS. Im always very happy contacting pri sch frenz. I haf so many things to tell them and catch up after so many yrs(about 10 yrs le).

And i really appreciate it if they feel the same way, too. But it seldom happen, most would haf forgotten, or some will say last time is last time, different liao. True, however, nothing is impossible, its always possible to pick up the old pieces, it only depends on whether both parties wish to put in the effort or not. It all boils down to whether u wan or not. Got "heart" or not.

Especially when were once acquainted during pri sch times. We were so young and many of us do not really noe how to keep frenships unless u go to the next sec sch together and learn together. I still remember all the events tat happened during pri sch years. Ha, i'll tok about them when i go gatherings but usually none of them remember, so they find it amusing. Though i laugh wif them, sometimes i feel sad at tat, too. =)

OK, too solemn liao, back to the present. I usually get very emotional when i tok about my pri sch days and those of tat i spent staying at Yishun 400+ and my fav place. Think i jus miss them too much, and therefore im holding on to them too tightly. Sometimes i get hurt also knowin tat they dun feel the same way liao. So thus sometimes i tell myself to let it go, if not i may never be really happy since my happiest days were then. Maybe, but i cant do it, a part of me deep inside really wishes to go back till then. Coz those memories were the ones tat keep me alive, happy and moving on.

Okok, back back. Haha.

I left 3 weeks of sat recruits on my table, never touch them. Too lazy... Haha. Told u im lazy. So i brought them into my room, and i swear i'll force myself read them later. Lots of things to do tonight. I asked Seow Wei along for Shuzhen's dinner jus now. But she haven really confirm, and so is Mingsheng. So its either 5 or 7 person.

Oh i had decided not to buy the wallet in my wishlist, coz since now on fri we not going orchard liao. Wanted to buy it on fri since we r there anyway, but since changed liao, i decided to save money and forgo the idea. So its minus one. Gd gd.

Later i'll read the papers, search for more jobs. And then clean and tidy my room since she's coming over tmr. Swept and mopped the floor liao, now left some wipping and tidying and cleaning my toilet. Always do it on sun, but since she's coming, then i do it tonight. And cleaning myself also, haven bath today. Then later in the night, i'll paint my nails! Yeah, so tat can paint hers tmr, no need rush.

Tis is the 1st time fpr the past 8 yrs, tat she's sleeping over. Hah, coz i dun haf a house of our own after sec 1, so not convenient. Thus, im so excited. There was once though, after sch she came my place(rented room) to chat in the noon, but both of us had fallen asleep after awhile. My room always haf the sleepin effect, duno y. Then i woke up and realised she's gone. She went home liao. Haha. Tat was the 1st time she saw me sleepin, coz im an extreme light sleeper and i dun sleep easily. Guess i didnt wake up coz i was extremly comfortable wif her bah.

Then she told me tat she had never seen me lookin so peaceful be4(coz i was constantly being troubled). I said to myself, "Gd lor, i hope at least im happy when im asleep."

I had decided not to blog about the unhappy things le, coz i got over it after bloggin these. Tats gd, i feel better.

Sick Again!

Sigh... think im sick again. Damn it, i jus recovered last week but now seems like im having a relaspe. My head's spinning like mad, and i haf no medi at home.

Yesterday night before i fell asleep, i was already feeling soft headaches. But woke up today wif a bang, im very stone now. No, its not hangover, i didnt drink last night. And my flu's back again, filled my whole bin wif tissues again, hope they will go away by tmr. Think my immune system is still weak, perhaps coz i took antibiotics tis time. Its not gd to take them anyway.

Maybe coz i caught a cold last night at the jetty. Oh man, wat sheer luck. It was windy, remember? Nvm, jus hope i recover by thurs, i finally got shuzhen to come my place sleepover. Then fri noon we'll leave together for her bday celebration. I seriously hope i can sing again by fri. Been such a long time since i can sing(my bad throat n blocked nose).

I hope i feel better tonight, i dun wan to rest in bed, dun wish to keep sleeping. Later, i'll be wrapping her gift, hope i haf the strength to do it. Initially planned to go yishun today, but given my condition, i'll give it a miss. Mum's cooking my fav curry tonight, but then seems like i cant enjoy now.

Will blog more tonight if i feel better. ")

Valentine's Date Wif Shuzhen

Yeah, jus came back from our picnic. She still haf sch in the morning the following day(Yes, she's still studying, at NUS, grad next yr). Funny, we were at yishun, but i reached home earlier(me stay amk, she stay in yishun), of coz lah, me direct bus mah. She waited for her feeder for a long time.

Alright, tokin about my date jus now. Ok, now for the reveal, the location was at Seletar Reservoir, the Khatib side, not my secret place. I chose tis instead of my fav place coz i wanted to sit at the jetty. Been years since i last went there. Lesser ppl as well.

My bags were so heavy. So i took a cab instead. Damn it, waste money. Reached northpoint, had to photocopy something, so went topfloor to Evergreen, but either close down liao or still holiday. Damn it again. So i went to 900+ there, fujifilm shop to photocopy. SO ex, 20cents each. I didnt check coz my bags were so heavy, cant wait to leave, but later at the end of my trip, realised printed badly, lots of words cannot be seen. Damn it, 3rd time.

Waited for her, coz shes late, coming back from sch. Then i decided to take a cab down again to the reservoir, coz very heavy, i scared my paperbag torn, coz its somewat wet due to the cold drinks i put inside. Ok, waste money again. Damn it, 4th.

Reached there. It was great, not many ppl, we picked a spot, spreaded my ugly mat. And then i took out the gifts i had hidden, didnt wan her to see them before tis. Gave her a pink bouquent of Ferrero Roche, one precious moments heart-shaped box wif ribbons and sweets inside. The outside of the box had a message, "Love cant be measured", so cute, wif a girl wearing apron in the kitchen, holding a measuring cup. She gave me 3 sweets from the box, pink, yellow and GREEN!

Then she gave me my gift, which is a waist pouch. I wanted it some time ago, coz somehow i got lazy of carrying bags and was obssessed wif waist pouches. But i had only one ugly waist pouch(tat looked like coffeeshop drinks stall auntie who pick her coins inside to give u change one, black and fugly). Thanks, dear. I really need tat. She gave me a dark brown one. Love the wrapper too, brown and purple. Nice.

Then, me excitedly, i pulled out one by one, the food from my charles and keith paper bag. Ooo, btw, i bought a purple slipper from charles and keith on impulse. They got crystals on the purple furry strap!!! Fur! Diamonds! Wat else would i ask for! But then i know i dun haf much money and the strap in purple, though i love it, but the color is not practical and i dun wear slippers(those tat go inbtw ur big n index toes.). But i jus couldnt sleep wifout having it. Thus, i commited the sin.

Anyway, back to the food, i took out the cheese and chocs, the sandwiches, my mash potato, and my surprise! A Valentine's Cake!!! Bought from breadtalk, forgotten the name of the cake though, its a strawberry cake, cost $13.14(symbolises forever in our lifetime). Cool, i took one big candle too. Then happily, we ate, talked, opened our gifts, and then managed to light up the candle on the cake(its a windy jetty mind u), coz we managed to steal few seconds of no wind, made our frenship wish, toasted our soft drinks, and blew the candle. Haha.

Johnson came over to pass her her Vday gift(told u shes attractive), i treated him to one slice of the cake. I ordered from him 2 bottles of ice mountain mineral water also. Then he left, leaving her wif the gift, and wishing "Happy Chinese New Year!" Haha. Guess wat, my mum said i feed pig, but then, we finished everything!!! Ok wat, not alot mah, wats left was our mineral water and 2 lemon tea packets.

We sat there and tok and tok, then most of the ppl left liao. Got one couple, The gal went to step on the jetty railing and the guy is behind her, i told Shuzhen,"Look! Titanic!" And guess wat, the gal suddenly spout water from her mouth, like merlion. Haha, think her bf made her laugh or something. Then i turned to Shuzhen again, "Ah, titanic again, she spat!". After demonstrating titanic and merlion, they left.

Now only left us and one couple sitting far away on one bench. Then tis grp of uncle on bicycles came, spreaded out their mat, on their radio and played poker cards in front of us. At 1st they were listening to old man songs, i asked if she wan to move. Then suddenly they switched to techno and EL pop, haha, damn solid! After awhile, I told her, "I just realised my mat is very pretty, haha!"

Then came tis indian couple, smooching in the middle of the jetty like nobody's business. Shuzhen said, "Aiyo, kiss until like tt!" Then i said, "Ah, dun disturb, the guy mus be telling her all the promises now."

- On tis special day, i jus want to tell u, having to know u is the most fortunate part of my life. I had never felt any happier being wif u. You are the only one for me. I promise to love u till the end of time, and i'll take care of u for the rest of ur life. Remember tis place forever, as i sealed my deepest love for u at tis very moment, wif tis kiss. (translated from tamil)

And then sealed wif a kiss.

After i had finished crapping, they left, see im right. Now shes off to his place.

Anyway, back to the uncles, they started to smoke, and Shuzhen hated smoke. So we shifted places, to the titanic and merlion corner, she asked me clean or not, haha. Anyway, before tat, i was looking thru the wooden planks into the water, and i was telling her, if the whole thing collapsed, then we'll be submerged in water. But i cannot swim wor, nvm, i can float, i'll float to the shore, haha.

Then we sat at our new corner, i moved to sit closer to her, she always leave one big gap btw us, duno y, maybe me smelly. Then i was looking at her hands and toking about palm reading, and sneakily i took something out fr my pockets(she got no idea of coz, my shawl was my blanket, covering everythin), then i said, "Anyway, something for u"(Damn, i wanted to say, "Ur wrists looked empty, dun u think? or "I feel tat u need some colors on ur wrist"), then i put on the bracelet for her.

Its a silver bracelet, wif real pink stones. Looks very sleek wif knots and 3 layers chain. Heh, i bought it fr orchard yesterday. It looked damn gd on her wrist, im jealous. The color dun suit me coz i very tanned. I will ruin it totally if i wear it. But i loved it, it was love at 1st sight, when i saw it, i told myself, "This is it!", surprisingly, its the last piece anyway, so dun think will find another one. Dun worry, Shuzhen, its not expensive. Before tis, i tested the bracelet on my sis wrist coz shes fairer, "Lend me ur wrist!", "Wat lend? u put on me means mine liao... Waaaa, very nice leh!!!" Haha, tat was my beautiful sis. So sad to part wif tat bracelet, but i'll pass the gdness to Shuzhen. =)

Yupz, i had a lovely and very sweet time today, though it was short, but its damn enjoyable and relaxing lor. I took some pics of her wif my gifts. No, no pics of myself coz me fugly. Haf to wait till i get over my fuglyness. Im excited and happy, now looking forward to her bday tis fri. She'll be coming over my place to sleep on thurs night. Coz my sis is away. So excited, so excited. I feel gd today!!! Yeah...

Happy Valentine's Day To All!!!

Yoz everyone, happy happy. Cant wait to blog while waiting for time to pass. Haha, will blog more later when i come back after my date(wif shuzhen). Now for jus appettizers...

Yupz, tis yr's Valentine's is the 1st time tat im single(had been attached for the past 8 years). And guess wat, im so excited about it. Haha, someone sms me, "Gd, hack care all the 'CHOU NAN RENs'!"... Yeah, ok, now dun scold me, not i say one(even though i nodded and agreed, heh). But it feels damn great to be out wif my best fren!

We'll be out for a picnic!!! At where? Not saying 1st, in case ppl stalk her. Haha, coz she's pretty, get it? But dun ask me for her no, u'll haf to pass my 18 levels of tests to get it. So if u wan, get it from her straight...

Anyway, picnic is my idea. Coz u shd noe, like all the past ones i had spent, everywhere will be swarmed wif couples and restaurants will be packed. Not tat i mind seeing couples, i jus didnt like to wait for my food and "siam" ppl's shoulders(since their shoulders will widen on tis day due to e fact they'll be carry flowers!).

Also, reflect on urself, GUYS! If u only bought her one rose! Now dun give me the "its the thot tat counts" crap. Come on, tis is only once in a yr, pamper ur gf for once for goodness sake. Unless u r damn broke like me now, then nvm, but make sure u give something ok? U can always make things urself, doesn't cost much one, only see whether u got the 'heart' and 'brain' or not. Its not tough, trust me.

My sis's bf sent flowers over, bouquent of it, mind u! Aww, so sweet, hes overseas now, so cannot celebrate wif her. Ha, she initially stay at home eat, coz tonight she's going overseas as well, sat then return. Then last min, her boss of ex company called her to join their new year dinner. And off she cancelled dinner order fr mum and off she went. How cool is tat? Seafood!!!

But then funny leh, the roses he sent are peachy in color. My sis like red ones. Then she said, "Well, guys' senses always weird weird one". True, but nvm la, her bf mah, she like can liao. Maybe no more red and pink liao lor, since online flowers always like tat one, very limited stocks.

I prepared Egg Mayo Sandwiches!!! Mine taste so much better than delifrance man. Yeah, u all will agree after tasting. Im a great cook. And i made mash potato, too. After eating mine, u'll hate KFC and western food's side dishes. Haha, my family tasted and said very nice wor. :P But then i bloody impatient, i completed everythin at 4.30pm. Then my sis said will spoil since i only meeting her at 8pm. Damn! Shuzhen ask me put fridge, but i dun eat cold sandwiches -_-"

Anyway see how la, shd be ok. I also will be bringing 1 coke, 1 green tea, 2 packets of ice lemon tea, mat, 2 chocs, 2 chunks of cheese and one more surprise. Not saying yet, in case she reads tis(which is impossible, shes in sch, but to play safe in case someone play me out). I also brought the gifts too as well, ok ok, will tell u all about it later. My mum asked me, "U feeding pigs ah! She eat so little!" Coz i made alot. Nvm wat, later bring back lor.

Alright, i go pack the things liao, its 630pm already. Heh, "I'll be back!"

My Wishlist for Year 2005! (Revised)

I wan to blog tis, i dun care. Haha, since its the start of the year anyway.

- Im reposting tis entry in a revised version, coz i went to check out the stuffs today and their actual prices. Did not receive any gd news at all.


1) Long Silver Chain wif a 4-Leaf Clover Pendant($15+$35)

The one i saw at cineleisure. I wan the one tat the clover is in a transparent square on a long rectange piece of flat silver pendant. The others i dun like. But now dunno la, maybe got new designs i also dunno. The clover is real one, embedded on it. I wan it as my lucky charm. 4-Leaf clover is said to symbolise, faith, love, luck, and one more i forgot liao. I love 4-leaf clover, been always crazy about it. One thing is its green(my fav color). The common one is 3-leaf clover which u will see everywhere on the grass patch, especially east coast park. But 4-leaf clover is very rare. If anyone saw the real plant in sg, let me noe ok? i go pluck and keep. Haa, oops. Its special coz its the only plant tat grows out of a crack, roadside, under the harshest environment. So if u see one 4-leaf clover, consider urself damn lucky man.

I wan a longer chain but not too long, best if it rests nicely between neck and 2 fingers above the breasts. I cant wear short chain or choker coz i very sensitive to my neckline, will haf suffocating feeling even though its not tight, but near it i will feel breathless le(dun ask me y, since young one, i'll blog about tis topic another day, something to do wif my birth).

- Today went to cineleisure to see. No more rectangle silver flat pendant le, so i'll jus settle for the slant silver heart wif the smallest clover. *sob sob*, may try to make a charm bracelet instead of a necklace tis case.

2) One butterfly printed wallet($15.90)

Tis one i will buy soon, cheap wif my dis card. I like butterfly, flower prints. I'll buy it next week. Last time i only buy wallets tat cost about $100, then now i found one shop, the wallets are so nice and cheap, $100 i can buy 7. Great. Realised how stupid i was. Last time i always buy piere cardin wallets, especially those wif crystals. I love crystals. Then later i got hooked to Hiroshima's wallets. Limited additions. I haf 2. One sg only got 3, the other one sg only 5 i think.
But stupid, its nice but damn ex. Now tat im broke, not tat i haf lots of choices anyway liaoz.

3) Jap Drama Serial - Overtime(less than $20)

Yoz, no more liao leh, last time i cheapskate dun wan to buy 1st, now no more le... Anyone haf lend me or sell me can? I loved tat show.

4)Lord of the Rings Trilogy (Extended Versions - DVD)($189)

Haha, ok, dun scold me. U shd noe im crazy over LOTR. I haven seen the extended version of return of the king yet. Maybe can buy tat one 1st... But now broke.

5) Qi Ling Wang's Dvd($89.90)

Shuzhen's fault. I like. But her vcds no jap dialogue from box 2-6.

6) Hp

Dunno which one, wanted the samsung SGH-E800C last time, but now no urge liao. Now dunno, still love my samsung T500(crystals!!!), but bought at retail price, my line no contract very long, wasteful.

7) Nikon SLR Camera

Film camera, not digital... Hate digicams...Think together wif hp push to 2006 nah... No money...

8) Arwen's Necklace (Lord of the Ring)($190, haha, same price as the dvd)

The one i mentioned in my Movies! entry. Loved it.

9) Hair

I wan to dye my hair two color again, ash and blonde. And rebond or perm also.

10) New Wardrobe

Me still crazy over iora, mango, now i love forever21!!!, so happened i tis yr 21 too. After wearing their clothes, i'll really be forever 21 liao, then ppl wun say i look old le.. haha

Went Temple "Bai Tai Sui"

Tis late morning went to temple "Bai Tai Sui". Coz tis yr "rat" ppl "fan tai sui". Nearly cannot wake up, very tired... Went to the one near my place, the one in front of the hawker, beside YCK Community Centre, heard tis temple is very gd.

I have never in my entire life went to a temple myself. Very young time, maybe mum got pull me in. But me myself never been there. Tis can say the 1st time. Met up wif Shuzhen 11+am, but shes not praying coz her mum dun allow, but since she promised to go wif me, coz i dunno anythin, she accompanied me there.

I was very lost there, duno wat to do. Then look ard for ppl who "bai tai sui" also, coz today is "chu 4", the day to pray to "tai sui ye". Then went to the counter, stationing 2 uncles writing names, i went over, ppl cut my Q, nvm. Then went over to buy the incense and stuff for $3.5o, then very blur. Wif instructions given by Shuzhen(who had tissue covering her nose coz too smoky and sittin on the bench outside), i prayed to all the gods then finally to "tai sui ye" where the uncle took my paper and chanted for me. Then i went out to burn my incense paper where something happened.

2 things upset me today.

1st thing. When i went over to the stove to burn my paper, got one guy already there, he threw in the paper near the opening, coz its sort of stacked up already, then i did the same lor. Just after i threw in a few sheets, one auntie came over and threw thick stacks of papers near the opening. And then the caretaker came over and ask her qns in hokkien.

I duno how to speak hokkien, but can sort of understand in general. He asked her y throw the paper near the opening, shd throw further in, tis n tat. And then, shockingly, she pointed her finger at me, n told the caretaker tat its not her, its me. WTF??????? I was so shocked when she did tat. I think she also assume i cant understand hokkien so she pushed the blame to me. Y would anyone, in a temple somemore, do tis kind of thing??? Im so shocked and at the same time, disgusted wif ppl like her. She looked like a pretty decent el-speaking auntie, cant believe she did tat.

Then after few seconds, the auntie threw her whole stack of incense paper inside and left. Before the issue started, the 1st guy left already anyway. Then now me there alone, throwing in my paper slowly(dun ask me y i so slow, i jus wanted to take my time). Then the caretaker came back wif his charred shover, ask me to "siam", then while shoving in the ashes deeper in the stove, started to lecture me in hokkien.

He was saying something like cannot like tis, mus throw in deeper tis n tat. And u noe hokkien sounds very loud n rude, and so i felt like i was being scolded. Wat was tat? I feel so accused. I mean, yah, i noe i did throw some sheets near the opening, tats coz i didnt haf a choice and it wasnt intentional. There's a hugh stack at the opening burning, and i dun expect to burn my hand to show my sincerity. I was taking it very seriously u noe. Further more, she was the one doing it but pointed her finger at me.

Ah, tis reminded me of the saying,
"When u point a finger at someone, u r actually pointing 3 fingers at urself"

Ok nvm.

Then i jus look at him let him say lor, coz i cant converse back in hokkien anyway and i thot he doesnt understand cl as well. So jialat, jus finished praying only, kena tis kind of thing. I never expected to encounter "xiao ren" in temples somemore, even though my life got alot of them ard. Nvm, its her not gd, not me. Hope she reflects on her behaviour. But im sure she wun feel anything. Then i went to donate "xiang you" money(not much, u shd noe y), the uncle asked for my name and and chanted for my well-being and gd job.

Then we left for lunch. I like tat temple, somehow i felt tat its very cosy. My past years hadnt been smooth so i thot perhaps i shd go to the temple to pray for blessings. My ex colleagues, frenz, family, told me i shd go temple pray, coz they said my life alot of "xiao ren" and i very "suay" also. Told my sis the story, then she said maybe i shd go and pray to white tiger coz the white tiger will suppress my "xiao ren" life. But she said mus buy fat pork belly meat and put in the tiger's mouth. But i always quite scared of animal statues, dunno y. Real animals ok, but statue i scared. Ha, im so weird. I told one guy i scared of the white tiger statue, he can still shoot me, "Wun move one lah, scared wat?" -_-"

Btw, im not trying to be superstitious or wat here. Coz my life really screwed up, and i really hope it will change alittle. Those who noe me will understand. Then after i reached home, my main clock's time slowed down by one and a hr, then i was mistaken it was still early. Coz i told my dad i would go his house in the evening to pass him something.

Oh, btw, i felt rather drained after praying even though it wasnt long. If anyone got any idea y, then let me noe ya? Even Shuzhen who didnt pray said she very drained and tired.

Ok, back on track. Then dunno y, i received many calls together, at the same time somemore, weird. Whole week nobody call, one call all call together. Funny... Then my dad called and scolded me, asked me how come i not there yet. I told him i said evening(it was 4+ then), then he said now wat time liao so late tis n tat. Then i hurried over.

While we were toking, he toked about the past again as usual(btw, if u r interested to noe about my lifestory on the part tat my dad was a millionaire 17yrs ago, let me noe, i'll blog it, yes my family was very very rich long long time ago, but many things happened since then.). He was tokin about my mum poisoning my sis's mind saying tat he nearly killed her. Therefore, as a result, my sis dun visit him anymore. Tell u the story 1st.

My mum was in hard labour tat time having my sis, and Doc said mus perform surgery if not my sis will die. But they need husband's signature, so they called up my dad, who was very drunk after coming back from his heavy social entertainment, and told him to come down and sign the papers. He said ok and then fallen asleep coz he was too drunk. Worst thing is he didnt even place back the house phone(btw, no hp then yet), and therefore, he couldnt be located for the rest of the night. My mum was tormented in pain. Doc and nurses were cursing my dad. Yes, Docs and nurses do curse. But they cant do anything. And then the Doc went to his room to pray, then magically, my sis poped out. Not literally of coz. Lucky sis!

Ok, tats was wat happened. Therefore my mum told us tat he nearly killed my sis, which is kind of true anyway, even though i know tat its not intentional. Blog about my birth another time, quite interesting also. Well, since he was toking about accusation, i asked him something for verifications. Ok tis is the 2nd thing tat upset me.

me: mummy told me u hated me last me. Coz u said i was ur jinx, few yrs after i was born, u went bankrupt and lost everything. U loved Sis coz when she was born, it was the peak of ur career.

Guess wat he said. He looked at me, paused awhile and said.

dad: Well, tat was last time. Last time is last time, now is now. Now its different.

WAT???? How can he say tat? i wasnt expecting it to be true u noe, stupid me i shdnt haf asked. I thot it was one of my mum's many lies. I felt so depressed after tat.

dad: last time u like a doll lidat, small small, very weak(i was a premature baby btw). Then now u 180 degrees totally changed.

Where got ppl compare grown ups wif babies one? I dun even remember wat i did or how was my character then. Changed wat? Sigh... So sad. I was hoping he will lie, the truth hurts. After i left, i called shuzhen to tell her about it. Then while i was questioning y he can say these kind of things, i weeped awhile. So sad...

Well, there u haf it, my 2 very upsetting incidents today. Bleah....

My Yishun Pri Sch Friends

Aww, i miss them so much... Been a long time since i last organised pri sch outings. Tell u how it all got started. After my "O" levels, we haf a long break before poly starts right, then i was extremely bored one day i decided to rampage thru my storeroom for my pri sch autography book(i only haf one autography bk btw). Then after scanning thru it wif tonnes of memories overflowing in my brain, i decided to give all of them a call.

But then, like super weird if i suddenly call them after so many years. And so i said,

Me: Hello, XXX. Im ur pri sch friend, Huiwen(tats my cl name), remember?

Some does, some pretend to know, some honest chap will say,

Honest Chap: Who the hell are u???

With efforts trying to paint the picture of the scenario of me in their lives, some ultimately remember, some still say they dun recall anything. Anyway to break the silence, i cooked up an immediate excuse.

Me: Oh, ok la even if u dun remember me. Anyway, im thinking of having one pri sch gathering, when will u be free?

....

And so it goes on. Many couldnt be found, got ppl slamming my phone, telling me wrong no. Some thot tat i will stalk them and didnt even leave their no. in my book or label it as "secret". Hmm... Some i didnt bother to call as well. Anyway, i managed to get the group and the outing really took place. The grp was from class 5F/6F.

The outings were interesting, it took 2 outings to see all of them(those i called), of coz some will never turn up as usual wif their "busy" excuses. But i understand, i do skip secondary outings as well. Its so funny to see them again, especially the guys. Wif the same face but their body elongated(toking about the whole body, nothin else), they all grew very tall and surprisingly gd looking as well. Most of them haf turned into gorgeous babes and yandaos. Haha, on average, the guys are even taller than my sec mates.

And then, came the part i was tired of organising, coz nobody will haf opinions or ideas on wat to do, where to go, and its tough trying to bring a big grp together. And i realised not many really bother to keep in touch anyway. Some are so unappreciative of my efforts in trying to bring everyone together and build up the bond again. And thus, i got quite sian and i decided to leave it and only met up wif the closer sincere ones.

To add a comment, i haf one particular gal i wan to tok about. She's Ho Lijun. We sort of gotten closer during pri 6 and we go to the field to tok everyday. Where we share our problems. And before i leave the sch, we made a promise tat no matter where we are and wat happens. We will meet up four years later to celebrate X'mas. Which is after our "O" levels. But of coz, kids r kids, we never kept our promise. But i wan to tell her tat i remembered, and i tried calling her house, only realising she either moved house or changed her no. But its my fault of not calling earlier.

I heard many things about her. She went to Ahmad Ibrahim Sec, best class and did very well. But then i heard many negative things about her as well. But rest assured, i dun buy into their stories. I do haf many ppl saying negative things about myself too. And therefore, i keep an open mind to these kind of things. She used to be misunderstood alot during the pri years as well.

Ah, and tis chap, Neo Zhenlong, my last god-brother. An ultimate ah beng, but he grew up to look like my idol, Jeff Chang. Haha, i influenced him into liking him last time. My class ppl are rather less associated to bengs and lians. And so i remembered the 1st time they saw him. They didnt like him and sort of shun him, leaving only me sitting beside him. But hes my close fren, so i dun care.

And then every now and then, ppl starting asking me, "So when is the next outing" or "Organise one leh, very long never meet liao". Then i will tell them, "Well, if u wan, u can organise it, i can help u." But usually they kept quiet after tat. I dun understand, if u r so keen into meeting up, why cant u be the one who organise it? Oh, u mean it difficult? Well, then who the hell managed to do it so many times anyway? I admit its tough, however, it can still be done. U dun need a fantastic outing, jus a simple gathering will do. But nobody bothered, and tat cooled my heart.

I haf one class tat i really wanted to meet up. Its class 4/6(1994), do leave me a msg if u see tis. Tis class is the best of my primary years. Wif Mrs Suresh as our form teacher, she's simply great. I remember during children's day she will always buy me a gift and i will too, on teacher's day. And even after sch, sometimes she treat me to lunch as well(im famous on not going home after sch).

I haf one grp of closer playmates. Haha, i still remember all of u. Closest are Jack Zhan and Guo Wei. The main grp got XueYun, LiLian, Kang Xiang, Chin Hui, Xiao Mei, HuiYun. Sometimes Tianhe got join also. But hes the ultimate villian in my sch. I Pri 1 he bullied me and kicked me in my stomach at the foyer before sch starts. So ke lian, i still remember, then later on we got play together in upper pri. I will bring all of them come my house(old yishun house, now i stay at amk) play sega saturn, the sand playgrd (now become plastic liao)under my blk, go the big longang, accompany the guys catch spiders, then go mac(the one tat got playgrd inside one).

My blk downstairs got the traddional ice cream uncle every evening tat time, then we big grp wan to eat the ice cream but not enough money so we say share, in the end we pull out all coins and managed to haf 30cents, then we bought one 30cent cone and share among all... Ah, so loving. Tat uncle very nice one, u pay 10 cent give one scoop, 20cent 2 scoops. Not like now only $1 per cone, cannot negotiate. Then next to my blk got one malay family sell self-made "sembao", those ice packs, but tis one is huge version, only 20cents. Very cheap, those mama shop one thin thin one already 10cent. But got to go knock on ppl's door, me and jack every time go and buy one. Loved it when its green(again, my fav color), hate it when its white coz its barley flavor.

Anyway, i really haf lots of beautiful memories wif u all, it's the happiest part of my life, and ever since, unfortunately, i had never felt any happier. I noe u all may not remember tis, but jus wan u all to noe tat it meant alot to me. I noe after tis many yrs, things haf changed. And sometimes i thot to myself tat i shall jus keep things tis way and preserve the beautiful memory. But deep down in me, i really hope perhaps at least some of u felt the same way like me and hope to find all of u and the moments back.

I searched thru friendster(btw, can add me in frenster as well celes_seow@hotmail.com) for hrs and found some of u, including LiJun. Now moi name is Celestine, which means heavenly in french, hahaha. Can call me Celes in short too. Anyway i really miss ya ~~.. *sob sob, tears rolling down my chubby cheeks*

Movie - Constantine

Start of a new year, start of a new and better me hopefully. Ok, think I better dun digress.

"Chu 2" I met up wif shuzhen after she go "bai nian" to her relatives. In the day, my mum play mahjong, i hate gambling and worst sound of noisy mahjong. So i woke up later ard 1pm, then i went to living room watch "The Core", on loudly to cover the noise in vain. While waiting for Shuzhen. I wanted to go reservoir alone one, but noon is super hot and she told me meet me earlier so didnt lor.

Then 3+pm, she came over, "bai nian" to my mahjonging mum. Then watch the ending of The Core with me by my side. Then coz she forgotten liao and missed a whole deal of the front and middle, she bombarded me wif hell lots of qns... haha, but Shuzhen, i will always gladly ans them all, only to u okie?

Last time when i was younger, im super impatient wif "slow" ppl, not to be offensive, tats was bad of me last time, but now im ok. So i came up wif tis theory of "I will not repeat things twice, if u didnt catch it then too bad", then if ppl ask me repeat, i will get angry.

Then becoz of tat, even when sometimes shuzhen cannot catch wat im saying, i'll ask her,

Me:Understand? Ting de dong ma?

Her, joyfully:Yes

but i noe sometimes she lying then i will ask her,

Me:Ok, then wat did i say?"

then she will give me a guilty look and look down. Then i angry liao told her,

Me:U duno say duno mah, still can bluff me!

Her, getting worried: I noe u dun like to repeat mah, so i dun wan to make u angry.

Me quiet but still pissed.

Awww, she's so sweet. U must be thinkin she so nice then i still bully her like me a meany. But then i didnt bully her, though ppl used to mistaken me as tt big bad bully, always make use of her but i didn't. Ask her urself if u dun believe. Then later some time after tat, i told her, "Next time u cannot catch let me noe, i can repeat for u, only for u. But not 5,6 times la." Heh, me nice mah... But she's a very pleasant and nice gal, and dun u ever let me find out u bully her, i'll rip off ur skin and lick ur bones!!! EEEE....

But then also her fault lah, she's a very fast speaker, some classmates used to call her "Ji Guan Qiang(Machine Gun)". Hah, some guys always complain cannot catch. But i wif her everyday, didnt even realised tat we 2 tok very fast until ppl pointed out. So now u noe lah, she spoilt me wan, tok fast, i think fast... so cant stand slow ppl... Oops, heheheh, me not pushing the blame... heh

Aiyoz, i digress too m uch liao, no choice, talkative.

Back to my house, we watch finish the movie then we headed out to amk central haf a drink as promised. We went Mos coz i wan to drink milkshake. Then she ask wan to watch movie or not. Being a movie maniac, i immediately light up and gave an astounding YES!!! I sneaked in my milkshake, put in the bag containing my inuyasha vcds tat i lent her and bough a hot dog, coz i didnt eat breakfast and lunch. We chose CONSTANTINE, 5pm, 3rd row wor, but gd cinema, not near screen. Constantine reminds me of Celestine. Haha, ok im crapping.

The show is not bad, not a blockbuster category but again for medium budget, it's worth seeing, and he's so gd looking. Very sexy voice. Gals, u noe who im toking about. Even Belinda Lee wans to marry him by proposing. Hahaha. Anyway, the 1st half of the show is good, fantastic actually, i was drawn to it. Very interesting flow of the story and effects are creepy and visual effects' great. Even though it's jus one of the many heaven, hell, creatures movie, but i didn't haf the "it's jus one of the many" feeling for the initial part. Even though the possessions kept reminding me of thai and chinese horror films(they had chinese acting in those parts anyway) and the creatures reminded me of "They". Flow of the story is very different, though abit slow. However, 2nd half was disappointing for me, especially the ending. There's tonnes of loopholes in the film. Dun wish to be a spoiler, go catch it and find out urself, u'll noe wat im toking about. The story is religious too.

But then I caught shuzhen screaming at some parts of the show. Though initially she did tell me she scared she will scream and i told her not to worry, just scream. But its still kind of funny when she did. For me, i will freek out on ghostly films tat deals wif spirits like Ring(which coz me sleepless nights for 7 whole days, ok now u can laugh at me), so i swear not to watch these kind of shows anymore, dun need to freek my soul out and hallucinate in my room every night. But then creatures, monsters i like to watch. I like western horror films, add a touch of violence is gd as well. But i prefer meaningful and adventurous films best like LOTR, ok, shall not tok about it.

There was once she freeked me out wif her screams when we watched American Werewolf in Paris. I can swear tat she scared me more than the movie. Tat was the movie she screamed the most. Before Constantine, believe it, she screamed at Lord of the Rings, Return of the King(which i watched 4 times at the theatre, sure, call me crazy). She was very scared of the spider monster tat frodo encountered in the cave, haha. I saw her scrawling in her seat.

Aiyah, but u dun laugh at her, i did the same when i went to watch Dark Waters. I watched the earliest time slot 10am sunday wif my sis, coz we both were scared and thot tat it's better if we go the earliest timeslot so tat we can forget about the show by nightfall. Wrong Move! The cinema is still as dark(not tat im thinkin tat it'll be brighter in the day, jus thot tat it will be less creepy), worst is, there's not a single soul in the cinema!!! Only 2 of us in the whole big big area... Of coz, who the hell wake up 9am and go watch horror movie besides the 2 gundos.

We looked at each other and realised it's too late to back out. And so we plucked up our courage and finished the movie. Gosh, im having goose pimples while im typing these. Thing is i still dunno how the small girl ghost look like except tat she's greeny and bloated(so i heard), coz i covered my eyes. Haha, i only peeped at the subtitles and saw her greeny hand. Ok, laugh all u wan, im a chicken on tis ok? =P

Oops, i realised Constantine only formed a small part in my entry. So sorry for the disappointment. I dun wish to be a spoiler.

Movies!

No, not about lord of the rings, though i had intended to actually watch part 1 tonight. But since the lazy me had finally done my blog site(which had been the top in my agenda list for mths), i decided to blog instead. Ppl close to me will noe about my craze over LOTR. I watched them over and over for a million times liao, i can even memorise the whole script for Return of the Kings, haha. I pissed many off for tis, including my sis, who always shake her head when she see me hugging my movies case.

Additional note, i really wan to buy the Arwen's necklace!!! the Even Star!!! but cost $190 wor, so nice, crystal pendant, (i love crystals, diamonds, sparkles FYI). Can anyone buy for me??? Can be found at the movie shop at the esplanade. My bday's in aug, but can give me earlier also can. Ok, i noe im dreaming.

My latest love is Inuyasha. I got box 1-5, dun borrow fr me, i lent it to shuzhen liao. But i saw like got 170 episodes from the internet. While box 5 only ends at 60+... Oh man, means wun finish watching the story liao, damn it. But i wan to see the story end, i wan to see kagome and inuyasha together instead of kikyo and naraku killed or repent. I saw also, internet got sell whole bundle, whole tv series plus 3 or 4 movies, US 400+, siao, means sing 700+, 800... Oh man, when will i get it??? Ok, can buy tis bundle for me as well. Tis 2 requests only... Simple right, i prefer inuyasha to the necklace though. Okok, before u start wacking me wif ur keyboard, i noe anime has nothing to do wif movies(but i did mention im talkative, ok nvm), ok back to the topic.

"Chu 1" night i watched Armagedon, man, i cried again... haha, i watch so many times liao, but every time sure cry one, especially the part when bruce willis tok to liv tyler her daughter over the monitor as his last words, i sure weep like hell... Its tis gd. Then wanted to continue watch The Core, another end of world movie, but too tired so went to sleep. But the way, i wan Deep Impact, Volcano, Dante's Peak, Day after Tmr also, anyone haf lend me ok? Vcd can liao, i wan to burn... haha, oops. I like end of world films.

Then "chu 2" i woke up liao, watched The Core, nice though not as gd as Armagedon, but for medium budget movie is gd liao. Ok, i noe i noe. Tis movie suck u will tell me, i noe got many bad reviews, but personally i appreciate the effort of showing the core of the earth, though its made up. I watched it like as in fr documentary point of view, and thus its interesting. How many times ppl will show u how it looks like for the core? Though i noe it may not be real but who cares, its still interesting to look visually how it looks like. Best part i like is the part when Rat(the hacker) tried to help them stall the destiny project and hack to their system, failing so many times, he weeped. Oh my god, tat came as a surprise the 1st time i saw it. Im surprised the scriptwriter actually let a so confident person, guy somemore, weep at the moment of desperation. Brilliant, though i noe u all will kp on me like "wats the big deal", but if u sink into the movie like i did, u'll understand wat im toking about, at least shuzhen did.

But actually i fell asleep tat time when i was in the theatre watching tat show wif Victor(my ex). But dun get me wrong, haha, not tat the show's not gd, but coz we always watch fri mid night, and me having to go thru hectic sleepless nights of drawing animation tat time, i was too tired. But i woke up at the right time, the part when the 1st guy(captain) died. I woke up and saw the lava hit him...

I also fallen asleep on another movie before, so far only 2 experiences of sleepin, the other one is shanghai knight... hmm...or shanghai noon? aiyah, the part 2, starring fann wong one. Tis time i fallen asleep coz, yes im tired on a fri night, but imptly, the show suck. Guess when i woke up?

At the ending! hahah, when they were all in the carriage, ready to leave, leave where i also duno, till today i duno wat the story is about... and then credits come out, haha, cant wait to get home, was wif victor also, we watch movie every week when we were together last time, our couple routine.

Got one more show, the only movie i watched halfway and i walked out of the cinema, haha. Tis one is wif shuzhen during secondary, Analyse This. Ok, i noe u'll tell me its nice. But then i hate it! I dun like tis kind of show, so boring. Wats up wif sleesy bed scenes and police and thieve games? I dun need to pay to watch tat, i can imagine it well enough.

But im immature tat time, i got fed up, then stood up and ask shuzhen,

me: u still wan to watch ah?

(she was complaining about the crappy show also), then she said
shuzhen: yah, since pay liao watch finish lor, maybe in the end ok leh?

me: ok, u watch lor, i go home liao, buay tahan.

and then i went home, leaving the poor shuzhen alone to the misery. Haha.

Ok, dun say i bad, i apologised to her before liao. Tat time i didnt think so much. Oh, and now after so many years when i sometimes tok about tis incident, she told me, "actually ok la, in the end ok lah", haha

Me, Myself, Face

U noe ah, ive got the worst complexion among my frenz, haha... Then after i cut my stupid fringe i realised the older i get the fuglier i get. Sigh... Now, no minimal make-up cannot go out, if not i'll be caught for flashing unsightly images to public. Haha.

But thanks to my bodyshop concealer, now i can jus leave house wif jus concealer and lip gloss... sometimes wif light eye liner also, coz i single eyelid, always advised to put. Single eyelid ppl either look unfrendly n "dao", if not lazy and dopey sleepy. Im the former, so older ppl always tell me to draw for better "ren yuan" which i always wonder y i dun haf though im a nice person, hahahaha. But i lazy to draw, then hack, haha, now more cautious liao, finally. But not my priority.

Just now my mum very funny, she came over and look at my face. She said.

mum: your face recover liao ah?

me: no lah, i put make up.

mum(give me the "wat the crap" look and walk off)

Haha, she dun believe me wor... so funny. But means gd also lah, natural mah... But i seriously didn't expect tat. Then earlier shuzhen came over to "bai nian", she see me and said "ok wat, different look, u look younger"(refering to my stupid fringe) Younger!!! tats the word, haha. But maybe she trying to be nice la. Coz i had been kping over msn how fugly i look and she told me ownself is worst critic, so real life shd be not bad... Haha, but i dun agree, i do noe alot of ppl always say they very gd looking one leh.. haha

Me, Myself, Hair

Yea, think now u noe im very talkative, i haf tonnes i wan to blog. I haf alot to say but no where to, so blog lor. I haf a very complicated background, and a long story about my life, family and love life as well. But i'll take my time, slowly slowly. Some things if u wan to noe just ask me straight.

Anyway, talking about myself. Im a very emotional person, always cry one.. haha, watch movies also can cry many times. Cant help it. Tears are the only things tat made me realise tat im still human. I break down very easily, though i look strong but actually i super vunerable, not gd.. Got to change... But tough, anyway will still try my best.

I wan to talk about my appearance coz tis week kept looking at myself, haha. I itchy fingers, went to cut my fringe, and became shit. Forgotten tat half my hair(top half) is natural liao, means got natural curl, then cut short then the fringe curl like siao... Sigh... cant help it, really itchy fingers. Then now cant hide my fugly face wif my hair liao. My hair is 2-color dyed 8 mths ago, rebonded half yr ago, so now can imagine the condition. But no money go salon, and im comtemplating on holding it longer. But tis week i tried something for my hair, i bought another brand of moisturizing olive oil. So now every night after my bath, i apply the oil to my dyed and rebonded parts to my half dried hair. Next week, wow, look conditioned, not frizzy or dry due to air con. Appear neat. Great, i'll do tat from now on. Prolong my delay to the salon as well. But then u mus choose the right oil, last time i got try one oil, then super oily, gave me pimples. Tis one is not, it's great.

Ha, but i look younger alot alot. Duno y, i always get funny critic fr ppl. "U look super old(or matured to be nice) but u got a baby face" WTF??? wat the hell is tt? old + baby face = dun make sense... But i always get tat... I 20 years old ppl say i 25, sian. But recently i went to watch "Seed of Chucky" wif Shuzhen, NC 16, then the counter person check my IC leh(and hers too)!!! wahahaha, i so happy, so excited, haha, but then my fren told me mus be coz i wif her. -_-"... poured cold water over Celes's baby face. (Shuzhen is one who looks very young, though same age as me, but many still think she's in JC) By the way, next fri her 21st bday, i'll be celebrating for her, hehe, so excited and looking forward to it. Will be going to ktv, then seoul garden at taka, and then some activities. Me still preparing the gift, but stupid kena CNY, so lots of shops closed got to wait. Cant reveal much in case she come here and read. Will blog about it after next fri.

Happy Lunar New Year 2005!!!

Hi all, tis is moi 1st posting here. Even though i had been writing digital journal for some time, but i never thought of blogging until recently(inspired somewat by xiaxue and fellow frenz). Wishing all a fantastic Happy Lunar New Year, 2005, the cock year.

Tis cock yr is not a gd year, or so i heard and read. Ha, however, i believe there's still individual cases. And for me, i read from somewhere tat my year will be rather well, wif gd wealth and gd career(though now im jobless), however, no gd in family ties(which is ok, i never had them anyway), and cannot get into unwanted romance. If not i will lose everything.

I haf lots of things to blog, however, i think will just do it part by part, if not the entry will never end. 1st and foremost, i love GREEN! In case most of u duno, my fav color is GREEN. Not the dirty or mud or "biang" green though. I fell in love wif tis template immediately when i saw tis at someone's blog site. Hehheh, and told myself i wan the same. Yah, i know, some of u will say "green??? wat the???" etc etc... But who cares right? As long as i like. My family told me i love green since young, i've always chose green colored stuffs when im old enough to point, while my sis is a very pinky person. Still amazes me every time when they told me the stories. Somebody once told me tat ladies who haf green as their fav color, are very unique and sophisticated. Haha, think he's just patronising me la.

My new year's been rather ok, though i dun like the idea of many people coming my place to visit. And funny thing is my family doesnt go visiting, and so im not used to tat kind of culture. Like last times, when i followed my ex-bfs blindly go visit their big big family tree, speaking in hokkien tat i cannot understand and sitting there, putting on a fake smile, while pretending im listening. Im a hokkien, but i stay wif my mum who is a cantonese. Therefore i can understand canto, but i dun speak.

I had less than 10 ang baos. Ok lah, me not fussy n calculative person, plus i dun go "bai nian". Eve dinner ate steamboat, and same for "Chu 1" lunch and dinner, yucks. So turn off by steamboat now. I practically forced the food down my throat instead of enjoying it. "Chu 1" evening i went visit my dad, spent a long time there talking and helping him wif his financial matters. He's half-paralysed due to stroke for 17 yrs liao. Surviving through room rentals. So i try to help him within my means though im a lazy person.

Yes, my parents divorced when i was little. Didnt even haf any memory of my Dad. Only started visiting him when i reached upper secondary. Ever since, monthly. But it's supposed to be a secret coz my family hate him, my mum especially. But they wun read my blog so it doesnt matter. I now live wif my mum, her bf and my real sis. Sleep wif my sis in master room coz she bought the house, under a low financial scheme for poor ppl. Yes, i am poor, im always under financial assitance since sec 2 after things happened in my family. She's 4 yrs older than me. Now jobless wif me also, haha, but her CPF haf lots of $$$, gotten from her sales job last time.

"Chu 2" many came, including 2 doggies, my sis's and her fren's, so nice. One pomeranian, one shit tzu(anyhow spell, something like tis). Pom is Bondie, other one is "Ki Ki" (i think). Played wif "Ki Ki" for a long time(she's my fav breed by the way, when i haf a landed in far future, i wan 2 shit tzu, 2 golden retreiver), got my hands moisturised by her saliva and bitten marks all over -_-" Dinner is ok, wif many dishes whipped up by my mum(who's always in a bad mood). But unfortunately, the dinner leftovers will be my lunch and dinner today.

Pretty much tats it for my lunar year entry. Will continue next one.