Had a stressful monday, duno y though every mon was bz as usual, but the supervisors made it worst by creating a pressurizing n irritating mood. The whole ambience for tt day was tensed n awful. Wasnt easy for everyone.
Went for dinner at Village afterwards. Then to ktv. Wanted to keep it non alcohol, coz ive been drinking too much lately. I told my frenz i will not drink for the next 18 days till my next pay and every laughed. And i so happened to already drink on the 1st day. Lol.
But i didnt exactly go drinking though we did drank, but it was like jus a few bottles. And we had no mood, didnt even bother to finish the last drink and left. We also left early for e ktv. Decided to take mc today wif my colleague though we didnt reach home too late, was still ard 12+am. But lazed ard till 2am.
Wanted to keep e mc till tis thurs coz i had plans. But i was feelin quite sian. And my colleague shared e same sentiments.
Got test tmr as well, sian. Supposed to be today but i mc so got to take it tmr. Got 2 tests tis week, duno y they decided to torture us recently. But i organised a dinner trip to newton after work. Thinking of tt also sian. Grp of 9. Sian. But i cannot dun go, coz if i dun go, it will be cancelled as usual. I dun go some others will drop out also. I had to hold them together. Lol.
Abit wasteful today's mc. Coz i seriously prefer thurs de. But sian to go today also.
3 mcs tis mth le, $240. Urgh, nvm.
16 days more to payday. Hope i dun get fired. Lol.
My sis is downloading naruto from epi 1 to watch. My gawd.
Fruits basket is coming to a end, the last chapter. And i hate the ending.
I got over the deathnote anime coz its exactly e same anyways, and i dun like to wait one epi after one epi after one epi.
Recently no gd movies to watch also. Sian.
Inuyasha manga shd also end soon, its nv ending.
Hunter X Hunter duno will continue or not. Duno wat will happen to the characters.
Bleach, sigh. Nvm.
Tired leh. Though i slpt quite abit, but i got a feeling i wun be able to slp tonight. Haha. C how lor. Sian. Gotta work tmr. Sobz. Who will save me???
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Rain Of Glass
I guess i will not quit end of tis yr at the end of e day, might even be able to pull thru my confirmation, but tts if im strong enuff, otherwise it will be byebye jan07.
Not like its so easy anyways, dec n jan r 2 crucial mths for e company to ask u 2 leave. We wouldnt get any bonus if they ask us to leave any day next mth, n u would jus wonder y e hell u tolerated all e crap n shit for.
Unless i noe e exact kind of jobs to look for next n actually make myself do it, i will jus bump ard in tis job 1st though its going to be super lonely coz they r all leaving...
I am rather close wif some of them, and though im trying not to get attached to them, things jus happened. And i noe becoz of tt i will feel sad when they leave but hey, tts life. Nothin is forever. I kinda like some of them though we didnt spend alot of time together. Some r nice n sweet at times, while some r... nvm...
I also need to noe whether will i be able to survive without them after they left. I wan to noe how far i can tolerate in tt circumstance. If i cant i'll jus leave as well. But at least a few will still be ard though, so its not tt bad i guess.
They hired another batch of newbies. Its kinda strange n amazing at the same time how many ppl came n left. Its like u will wonder how many ppl actually worked in tis co. be4. Lol
Coz of my work location, it jus so happened one day me n colleague hopped to acid bar on a sudden decision and ive been hangin ard there ever since. I did try to stop going there last week, lol, coz its drying my bank. But i went there again twice tis week.
And every time i go there, i will definately bring a new person there.
Yest i brought SZ there, then saw Kenneth who i reprimanded for not contacting me for 1.5 yrs. Lol. He was wif a grp of frenz, Jiayi, Sheena, Salley, Meiyue.
Oh and then something happened also. The customers above me knocked the glass off the table, shattered and rained directly on me. I was shock and the bar froze. Everyone working there was very worried but fortunately i wasnt injured.
It was all within a split second, i heard glass shattering and the next moment i realised i was showered by the glass pieces. I touched my hair and dropped the pieces. Its not the bar's fault. And they haf been very nice to me as well. It jus e dumb customers who didnt even apologise sincerely.
I was still very nice n polite n i did not pursue at all. I was in a gd mood. So i jus let it be.
Will be meeting Kenneth wif SZ again tis comin thurs coz hes leaving for India in dec for half a yr.
Start of a new week again. 6 days of ... Sigh, nvm i will not think abt it.
Not like its so easy anyways, dec n jan r 2 crucial mths for e company to ask u 2 leave. We wouldnt get any bonus if they ask us to leave any day next mth, n u would jus wonder y e hell u tolerated all e crap n shit for.
Unless i noe e exact kind of jobs to look for next n actually make myself do it, i will jus bump ard in tis job 1st though its going to be super lonely coz they r all leaving...
I am rather close wif some of them, and though im trying not to get attached to them, things jus happened. And i noe becoz of tt i will feel sad when they leave but hey, tts life. Nothin is forever. I kinda like some of them though we didnt spend alot of time together. Some r nice n sweet at times, while some r... nvm...
I also need to noe whether will i be able to survive without them after they left. I wan to noe how far i can tolerate in tt circumstance. If i cant i'll jus leave as well. But at least a few will still be ard though, so its not tt bad i guess.
They hired another batch of newbies. Its kinda strange n amazing at the same time how many ppl came n left. Its like u will wonder how many ppl actually worked in tis co. be4. Lol
Coz of my work location, it jus so happened one day me n colleague hopped to acid bar on a sudden decision and ive been hangin ard there ever since. I did try to stop going there last week, lol, coz its drying my bank. But i went there again twice tis week.
And every time i go there, i will definately bring a new person there.
Yest i brought SZ there, then saw Kenneth who i reprimanded for not contacting me for 1.5 yrs. Lol. He was wif a grp of frenz, Jiayi, Sheena, Salley, Meiyue.
Oh and then something happened also. The customers above me knocked the glass off the table, shattered and rained directly on me. I was shock and the bar froze. Everyone working there was very worried but fortunately i wasnt injured.
It was all within a split second, i heard glass shattering and the next moment i realised i was showered by the glass pieces. I touched my hair and dropped the pieces. Its not the bar's fault. And they haf been very nice to me as well. It jus e dumb customers who didnt even apologise sincerely.
I was still very nice n polite n i did not pursue at all. I was in a gd mood. So i jus let it be.
Will be meeting Kenneth wif SZ again tis comin thurs coz hes leaving for India in dec for half a yr.
Start of a new week again. 6 days of ... Sigh, nvm i will not think abt it.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Tuesday Bluez
Yo yoz. Surprise surprise...
I am so tired but i dun feel like slpin. Duno y leh. I noe if i now jus rest myself alittle i would fall aslp immediately... But i dun wan to. Dun wan my night to jus go lidat. I am mad i noe.
Strangely, i developed tuesday bluez after tis job. Somehow tues seemed to be so much more miserable than mons which of coz doesnt seem to be tt way for the rest. Perhaps like one of my colleagues who mentioned, its due to my retardation. lol.
But really mah, mon still ok de lor, but tues is like shit lor. Mon i very hyper de though lack of slp. But tues i am like dead fish.
Today, forgetting tt it was tues and i was in gd mood. I went wif a very goofy mood. Actually i noe where tt goofiness came fr lah, jus tt i wun say it here...
I was happy and filled wif energy. But then hor, when it came to lunch time, my energy suddenly all drained away. Lol. I found it very hard to concentrate and time crawled. I told tt colleague who said i am retarded tt i no mood, and he said, of coz mah, its tues for u...
YA HOR~ Hahahahah...
I feel like mc-ing again, but then last week i jus took one leh... 80 bucks leh... Sigh...
But cannot take it liao...
So sian sian sian... I went to eat outside jus now and bought some things too. Tok abt saving money, sigh. But i didnt drink hor, though i did alittle on sat. But it was jus a harmless bottle.
I tried to organise another grp outin for my colleagues. Bringing 11 ppl together is so tiring lor... If not for others i wun do it de. Though tentatively its set on next wed or thurs, and 4 haven replied me yet.
U may ask y i so urgent, coz if i ask them tmr, cfm no replies de. I noe their dead patterns inside out. Took me whole night to at least get some answers lor. But it was abt 65% so i am happy.
I still haf not thot of where to eat though. Lazy to think now. And they also no ideas de.
One new guy (Daniel) smsed me, asking if i was leaving soon then wan to gather up coz it was so sudden. I told him i did think of leaving but trying hard to hold back. I think i can tolerate bah... U think?
Ok lah, think i go sleep le... Gotta wake at 5am... Sian...
Can i mc?
Sigh...
I am so tired but i dun feel like slpin. Duno y leh. I noe if i now jus rest myself alittle i would fall aslp immediately... But i dun wan to. Dun wan my night to jus go lidat. I am mad i noe.
Strangely, i developed tuesday bluez after tis job. Somehow tues seemed to be so much more miserable than mons which of coz doesnt seem to be tt way for the rest. Perhaps like one of my colleagues who mentioned, its due to my retardation. lol.
But really mah, mon still ok de lor, but tues is like shit lor. Mon i very hyper de though lack of slp. But tues i am like dead fish.
Today, forgetting tt it was tues and i was in gd mood. I went wif a very goofy mood. Actually i noe where tt goofiness came fr lah, jus tt i wun say it here...
I was happy and filled wif energy. But then hor, when it came to lunch time, my energy suddenly all drained away. Lol. I found it very hard to concentrate and time crawled. I told tt colleague who said i am retarded tt i no mood, and he said, of coz mah, its tues for u...
YA HOR~ Hahahahah...
I feel like mc-ing again, but then last week i jus took one leh... 80 bucks leh... Sigh...
But cannot take it liao...
So sian sian sian... I went to eat outside jus now and bought some things too. Tok abt saving money, sigh. But i didnt drink hor, though i did alittle on sat. But it was jus a harmless bottle.
I tried to organise another grp outin for my colleagues. Bringing 11 ppl together is so tiring lor... If not for others i wun do it de. Though tentatively its set on next wed or thurs, and 4 haven replied me yet.
U may ask y i so urgent, coz if i ask them tmr, cfm no replies de. I noe their dead patterns inside out. Took me whole night to at least get some answers lor. But it was abt 65% so i am happy.
I still haf not thot of where to eat though. Lazy to think now. And they also no ideas de.
One new guy (Daniel) smsed me, asking if i was leaving soon then wan to gather up coz it was so sudden. I told him i did think of leaving but trying hard to hold back. I think i can tolerate bah... U think?
Ok lah, think i go sleep le... Gotta wake at 5am... Sian...
Can i mc?
Sigh...
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Congrats! Congrats!
Congrats to me~~~ *throws confetti all ard* But tis is no happy post.
Ive finally survived the 3 mths agency bond in my current job. 18 Nov was my official 3 mth, and i cancelled my OT on tt sat coz i knew i couldnt take it anymore.
It might haf been a very short time for most of u, but not so for me. Its been a long haul. It felt more like 6 mths.
Nevertheless, i am proud to haf endured through tis 3 mths of torment. *GIVES MYSELF A BIG PAT ON MY BACK (LUCKY I CAN STILL REACH.)*
I had on so many occasions when i just wanted to disappear from work, reach home, type my resignation and throw it on my manager's desk. Though its nothing to do wif her. But the frustration made me lost my mind on so many occasions.
I became more n more nasty. Having to deal with horrible and nasty ppl every day... If i continue in tis job for any longer. I would most prob becum cold, sian and heartless. Which in a way is wat i wan and dun wan to becum. Dun get it? Nvm. Tts jus me.
I intended to quit end of tis mth, coz i already had advanced pay, if i leave now i haf to retn them alot of money. But it would be quite silly at tis pt coz to endure another mth, i would get pro-rated bonus, which is like abt 300+... I dun really care abt e money, wats 300+ for another mth of mental torture, but its jus dumb to leave now...
I noe i haf not blogged for so long, blogger prompted me for my user id and i forgot wats tt. Lol.
Cross my heart, I had really genuinely wanted to stay in tis job for 1-2 yrs. At least to make it more stable coz none of my jobs ive held previously for the past 3 yrs lasted more than 3 mths... Sounds like a useless, spoilt person toking, but who cares. If i explained in details which i wun, u noe its not my fault and i am not procrastinating nor am i in self denial mode.
Being in the job itself got tougher each day. Recently, it became so boring. I narrowed from 2 yrs plan to 1 yr, to jus cross my confirmation which is 6 mths, to after dec, to tis mth.
It wasnt easy.
I am abit stubborn though, i wan to leave, but i feel fucked up to pay them back my mcs. Coz our mcs are unpaid leave. I took one in oct, and i paid back. Tis mth though they changed the system, i took 2 mcs which is like 160 bucks. So if i leave before 6 mths, i would haf to pay alot of money back... And in a way, i am not willing to do so.
However, its not easy to survive till 18 feb 07 which happen to my chinese new yr which also happened to be my gd fren, SZ's bday.
But watever, they might even jus fire me before the end. And hire a bunch of newbies. Its already 12 new ppl after my batch, and abt the same no. of ppl left & fired as well during tis period of time.
If i strangely, magically managed to survive till feb, i would most prob jus stay till end of next yr. Though its going to be very lonely coz everyone i knew will be gone by jan. But i highly doubt so as well, since the last time they cfm someone is like 2 yrs back. And unless i stumbled upon some numbing potion, its unimaginable to even think tt i will stay till then.
Sigh. But i am trying my best u noe. I gave my best le. It took me alot of strength to tahan tis 3 mths u noe.
My prev company wanted me back, but its hard for me to retn u noe. But tts even harder to start everything all over again. And seriously i haf no idea wat to look for or rather i haf lost the confidence in looking for another one, fearing all the jobs would end up like the ones ive had for the past yrs again.
I of coz understand tt jobs r jobs, most of the time, they r fucked up and we had to endure it and we at the end of the day still haf to earn a living, especially when we all haf so much commitmts.
But if i forever think tis way, and stick to watever shit im facing. I will nv be able to break away fr tis.
Though i haf no idea how much time ive left in tis world, but i noe i shdnt jus stop here. At least its still easier for me to continue searching in hope of finding where i wan to go then to do it 10 yrs later.
I wan to leave le. But i mus tahan. Must ren till jan... But if i can ren till next jan i might as well cross my confirmation right, or wait till they fire me (fire u = ask u to leave = no compensatn btw).
I very scared to go work tmr... I haf 1 big shitty case, caused by one dumb counter staff who screwed tis cust. And now i got to clear tt stupid girl's shit. I hope she gets wat she deserved. Coz i am so going to complain abt her after hopefully i managed to resolve e case tmr.
I haf 2 small shit cases to follow up also.
Sian sian sian sian...
Oh and i am kinda broke until the next pay which is 4 weeks away. Urgh.
See how lor, maybe for next 2 weeks or so, i go supermarket buy bread and make sandwich everyday to eat.
And i shall not go drinking nor eat at fancy restaurants. But see how lah. Lol.
I plan to come back straight after work for next 2 weeks, to save money and eat maggie mee. But 1st i would need to go and buy maggie mee 1st... Lol.
But if i dun go out haf fun hor, i would feel even worst lor. Hmmmmmmmmm...
Ok lah, i blog another time le. Soon, i hope.
Ive finally survived the 3 mths agency bond in my current job. 18 Nov was my official 3 mth, and i cancelled my OT on tt sat coz i knew i couldnt take it anymore.
It might haf been a very short time for most of u, but not so for me. Its been a long haul. It felt more like 6 mths.
Nevertheless, i am proud to haf endured through tis 3 mths of torment. *GIVES MYSELF A BIG PAT ON MY BACK (LUCKY I CAN STILL REACH.)*
I had on so many occasions when i just wanted to disappear from work, reach home, type my resignation and throw it on my manager's desk. Though its nothing to do wif her. But the frustration made me lost my mind on so many occasions.
I became more n more nasty. Having to deal with horrible and nasty ppl every day... If i continue in tis job for any longer. I would most prob becum cold, sian and heartless. Which in a way is wat i wan and dun wan to becum. Dun get it? Nvm. Tts jus me.
I intended to quit end of tis mth, coz i already had advanced pay, if i leave now i haf to retn them alot of money. But it would be quite silly at tis pt coz to endure another mth, i would get pro-rated bonus, which is like abt 300+... I dun really care abt e money, wats 300+ for another mth of mental torture, but its jus dumb to leave now...
I noe i haf not blogged for so long, blogger prompted me for my user id and i forgot wats tt. Lol.
Cross my heart, I had really genuinely wanted to stay in tis job for 1-2 yrs. At least to make it more stable coz none of my jobs ive held previously for the past 3 yrs lasted more than 3 mths... Sounds like a useless, spoilt person toking, but who cares. If i explained in details which i wun, u noe its not my fault and i am not procrastinating nor am i in self denial mode.
Being in the job itself got tougher each day. Recently, it became so boring. I narrowed from 2 yrs plan to 1 yr, to jus cross my confirmation which is 6 mths, to after dec, to tis mth.
It wasnt easy.
I am abit stubborn though, i wan to leave, but i feel fucked up to pay them back my mcs. Coz our mcs are unpaid leave. I took one in oct, and i paid back. Tis mth though they changed the system, i took 2 mcs which is like 160 bucks. So if i leave before 6 mths, i would haf to pay alot of money back... And in a way, i am not willing to do so.
However, its not easy to survive till 18 feb 07 which happen to my chinese new yr which also happened to be my gd fren, SZ's bday.
But watever, they might even jus fire me before the end. And hire a bunch of newbies. Its already 12 new ppl after my batch, and abt the same no. of ppl left & fired as well during tis period of time.
If i strangely, magically managed to survive till feb, i would most prob jus stay till end of next yr. Though its going to be very lonely coz everyone i knew will be gone by jan. But i highly doubt so as well, since the last time they cfm someone is like 2 yrs back. And unless i stumbled upon some numbing potion, its unimaginable to even think tt i will stay till then.
Sigh. But i am trying my best u noe. I gave my best le. It took me alot of strength to tahan tis 3 mths u noe.
My prev company wanted me back, but its hard for me to retn u noe. But tts even harder to start everything all over again. And seriously i haf no idea wat to look for or rather i haf lost the confidence in looking for another one, fearing all the jobs would end up like the ones ive had for the past yrs again.
I of coz understand tt jobs r jobs, most of the time, they r fucked up and we had to endure it and we at the end of the day still haf to earn a living, especially when we all haf so much commitmts.
But if i forever think tis way, and stick to watever shit im facing. I will nv be able to break away fr tis.
Though i haf no idea how much time ive left in tis world, but i noe i shdnt jus stop here. At least its still easier for me to continue searching in hope of finding where i wan to go then to do it 10 yrs later.
I wan to leave le. But i mus tahan. Must ren till jan... But if i can ren till next jan i might as well cross my confirmation right, or wait till they fire me (fire u = ask u to leave = no compensatn btw).
I very scared to go work tmr... I haf 1 big shitty case, caused by one dumb counter staff who screwed tis cust. And now i got to clear tt stupid girl's shit. I hope she gets wat she deserved. Coz i am so going to complain abt her after hopefully i managed to resolve e case tmr.
I haf 2 small shit cases to follow up also.
Sian sian sian sian...
Oh and i am kinda broke until the next pay which is 4 weeks away. Urgh.
See how lor, maybe for next 2 weeks or so, i go supermarket buy bread and make sandwich everyday to eat.
And i shall not go drinking nor eat at fancy restaurants. But see how lah. Lol.
I plan to come back straight after work for next 2 weeks, to save money and eat maggie mee. But 1st i would need to go and buy maggie mee 1st... Lol.
But if i dun go out haf fun hor, i would feel even worst lor. Hmmmmmmmmm...
Ok lah, i blog another time le. Soon, i hope.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Sank The Movie
Do not watch Sinking Of Japan, no matter wat u are enticed wif... I wasnt interested but still went wif my fren. It barely made it, i tolerated and did wanted to leave the cinema... I am amazed i managed to stay thru out the movie.
But of coz to add on top of tt, i went to the worst cinema (bugis) and the seats still sucks and i left wif motion sickness and a big giddiness and headache...
Wat abt the movie topping the charts in Japan, Korea and Hong Kong? Did the audience all went becoz of Kou Shibasaki and Shinji Higuchi?
I got a feeling the movie was jus a try out platform to showcase Japan's special effects... And i dare say the effects are pretty gd, pretty impressive, pretty real... Its interesting to see some parts of Japan underwater... Somehow reminds me of sharks tale.
But they spent so much time n effort on the CG, they forgot about the pacing and plot. I noe its from a famous novel, but they shd haf adapted the story better right...
Editing sucks in tis movie, often emotional scenes got cut off abruptly... And i was like WTF? Try to save screen time ar? Then cut down the effects shots lah... They all look the same wat...
And the sound hor, aiyo... Sucks as hell... No impact, the surround is like shit... Imagine natural disasters leh, the greatest opportunity to showcase sound effects skills but they failed miserably... I did not feel the impact at all...
I didnt even cry in tis movie... Coz the pacin is so slow till u wouldnt be able to follow the movie and all the emo scenes became so cheesy...
Imagine, when e couple knew they r going to separate the next day (forever), the girl actually ask e guy, "Can you make love to me?"... Then e guy bursts into tears for like 5 mins and replied, "I cant do it now..." Wa biangz...
I actually laughed out lor...
Sigh...
Duno isit i changed le or not... I seldom cry at movies anymore...
The guy beside me was so fed up he started smsing...
Even he cannot take it... Lol...
Anyways, i think some will still cry over e movie... But for the rest, dun waste ur time lah... Go watch Prestige... I wanna catch Flushed Away... Open next week, i am so excited...
Did i mentioned abt The Guardian? Watched it on mon night... The movie was alright, still watchable... Although the movie is very predictable. But during the bootcamp training damn funny, think guys will relish in it... I left feeling depressed too... Sad lor... But tis kind of movie like tis de lah.... Cfm got main characters die de...
But of coz to add on top of tt, i went to the worst cinema (bugis) and the seats still sucks and i left wif motion sickness and a big giddiness and headache...
Wat abt the movie topping the charts in Japan, Korea and Hong Kong? Did the audience all went becoz of Kou Shibasaki and Shinji Higuchi?
I got a feeling the movie was jus a try out platform to showcase Japan's special effects... And i dare say the effects are pretty gd, pretty impressive, pretty real... Its interesting to see some parts of Japan underwater... Somehow reminds me of sharks tale.
But they spent so much time n effort on the CG, they forgot about the pacing and plot. I noe its from a famous novel, but they shd haf adapted the story better right...
Editing sucks in tis movie, often emotional scenes got cut off abruptly... And i was like WTF? Try to save screen time ar? Then cut down the effects shots lah... They all look the same wat...
And the sound hor, aiyo... Sucks as hell... No impact, the surround is like shit... Imagine natural disasters leh, the greatest opportunity to showcase sound effects skills but they failed miserably... I did not feel the impact at all...
I didnt even cry in tis movie... Coz the pacin is so slow till u wouldnt be able to follow the movie and all the emo scenes became so cheesy...
Imagine, when e couple knew they r going to separate the next day (forever), the girl actually ask e guy, "Can you make love to me?"... Then e guy bursts into tears for like 5 mins and replied, "I cant do it now..." Wa biangz...
I actually laughed out lor...
Sigh...
Duno isit i changed le or not... I seldom cry at movies anymore...
The guy beside me was so fed up he started smsing...
Even he cannot take it... Lol...
Anyways, i think some will still cry over e movie... But for the rest, dun waste ur time lah... Go watch Prestige... I wanna catch Flushed Away... Open next week, i am so excited...
Did i mentioned abt The Guardian? Watched it on mon night... The movie was alright, still watchable... Although the movie is very predictable. But during the bootcamp training damn funny, think guys will relish in it... I left feeling depressed too... Sad lor... But tis kind of movie like tis de lah.... Cfm got main characters die de...
Sunday, October 22, 2006
OT Queen
I watched The Prestige last night and gawd, i love tt show. The plot is interesting and exciting. Alot of depth and i love the ways the script writer and editor overlap the story. Back and forth from the past and present. It makes me stay glued to the end... And not to mention the twists and turns of the truth...
Though the twists n turns werent something as original as Sixth Sense or The Others, but it certainly made its impact nonetheless... Although it didnt WOWed us, it certainly made the audience gasped...
The movie was so grey, it left me feeling heavy and unjustifiable... Pls dun watch it if u already noe the story, its very ptless tt way... The whole suspense of the movie is the truth... If u already noe the plot, u would sleep ur way thru e movie...
I just thot it was a simple rivalry battle between 2 magicians, i didnt expect there was so much more to the story... I am glad i insisted on watching tis instead of The Departed.
However, the movie certainly isnt for the less educated/intellectual or those who prefered comedies... Coz most probably you would haf fallen asleep within the 1st 30 mins... I wasnt expected it to be a heavy movie, so i went wif a tired body n mind and i was struggling keeping my eyes open...
But i had to, if you missed wat they said, it meaningless to stay on... Those who are more intelligent would haf also gotten more out of the movie and it would make a good discussion topic as it opened up alot of thots... Coz of all the subtleties of the underlaying messages... But for normal audience, it would jus be another quite interesting movie...
Its been quite some time since ive watched a movie of tis calibre. It felt more than 3 hrs instead of 2 hrs... Tts how much they made my brain work...
I am so not used to tis weekend, coz i didnt work yest... And the silly thing was, i didnt noe it was hol. If it wasnt for my colleagues, i would haf came to work yest 7+am... lol... And my ignornace became a joke the past week...
I work alt sats, but for the past 1 mth, i came back every OFF sat to do OT. On my own accord of coz, and obviously for the money... But also coz i jus wan to keep myself occupied although i am so drained wif all the over time...
I requested OT for tmr, wed and next sat (my off day) for next week... Coz tats the only 3 days they opened up for OT. I am now officially named the OT QUEEN in my office... Lol... Although i dun mind doing OT, but tt doesnt mean i enjoy it... I am certainly not looking forward to working 11.5 hrs tmr...
I am not sure how long would i be able to carry in tis job, so might as well make the most out of it... Besides, i haf to be happy tt my OT is being paid for as compared to the prev jobs i did... My HR knowing me, will always ask me if i can help wif OT whenever they needed more manpower...
Most of the time i would always give a green light, but i told them jus make sure the company pays me... Hahahaha...
I guess i shd be able to clear most of my things very soon... And then i would blog as usual... Besides, we just hired 7 new ppl, i doubt i will haf any chance to do OT after tis...
Tmr the malays in my office would be having half day offs... So we can all already predict its going to be a hell day tmr, since we also noe alot of ppl will be taking "mc" tmr...
I jus hope ppl dun call up coz its holidays for gawd sake. Pls be nice...
And envy those of u whos offing tmr also...
Alright, shall end here. Back to my chores...
Though the twists n turns werent something as original as Sixth Sense or The Others, but it certainly made its impact nonetheless... Although it didnt WOWed us, it certainly made the audience gasped...
The movie was so grey, it left me feeling heavy and unjustifiable... Pls dun watch it if u already noe the story, its very ptless tt way... The whole suspense of the movie is the truth... If u already noe the plot, u would sleep ur way thru e movie...
I just thot it was a simple rivalry battle between 2 magicians, i didnt expect there was so much more to the story... I am glad i insisted on watching tis instead of The Departed.
However, the movie certainly isnt for the less educated/intellectual or those who prefered comedies... Coz most probably you would haf fallen asleep within the 1st 30 mins... I wasnt expected it to be a heavy movie, so i went wif a tired body n mind and i was struggling keeping my eyes open...
But i had to, if you missed wat they said, it meaningless to stay on... Those who are more intelligent would haf also gotten more out of the movie and it would make a good discussion topic as it opened up alot of thots... Coz of all the subtleties of the underlaying messages... But for normal audience, it would jus be another quite interesting movie...
Its been quite some time since ive watched a movie of tis calibre. It felt more than 3 hrs instead of 2 hrs... Tts how much they made my brain work...
I am so not used to tis weekend, coz i didnt work yest... And the silly thing was, i didnt noe it was hol. If it wasnt for my colleagues, i would haf came to work yest 7+am... lol... And my ignornace became a joke the past week...
I work alt sats, but for the past 1 mth, i came back every OFF sat to do OT. On my own accord of coz, and obviously for the money... But also coz i jus wan to keep myself occupied although i am so drained wif all the over time...
I requested OT for tmr, wed and next sat (my off day) for next week... Coz tats the only 3 days they opened up for OT. I am now officially named the OT QUEEN in my office... Lol... Although i dun mind doing OT, but tt doesnt mean i enjoy it... I am certainly not looking forward to working 11.5 hrs tmr...
I am not sure how long would i be able to carry in tis job, so might as well make the most out of it... Besides, i haf to be happy tt my OT is being paid for as compared to the prev jobs i did... My HR knowing me, will always ask me if i can help wif OT whenever they needed more manpower...
Most of the time i would always give a green light, but i told them jus make sure the company pays me... Hahahaha...
I guess i shd be able to clear most of my things very soon... And then i would blog as usual... Besides, we just hired 7 new ppl, i doubt i will haf any chance to do OT after tis...
Tmr the malays in my office would be having half day offs... So we can all already predict its going to be a hell day tmr, since we also noe alot of ppl will be taking "mc" tmr...
I jus hope ppl dun call up coz its holidays for gawd sake. Pls be nice...
And envy those of u whos offing tmr also...
Alright, shall end here. Back to my chores...
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
DEATH NOTE ANIME
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG...
DEATH NOTE ANIME OUT ALREADY!!!
Just watched e 1st 2 epi... OMG OMG OMG...
SZ, go watch, the real KIRA... Not e movie one... The original one...
OMG OMG OMG...
My heart was pounding, was so excited seeing the manga story come alive...
My new colleague told me de, i didnt even noe came out liao...
OMG OMG OMG OMG...
Okok, enuff of my excitement... E rest of u can catch the movie though... Tok about tis another time...
Seriously they shd haf done tis many yrs back...
DEATH NOTE ANIME OUT ALREADY!!!
Just watched e 1st 2 epi... OMG OMG OMG...
SZ, go watch, the real KIRA... Not e movie one... The original one...
OMG OMG OMG...
My heart was pounding, was so excited seeing the manga story come alive...
My new colleague told me de, i didnt even noe came out liao...
OMG OMG OMG OMG...
Okok, enuff of my excitement... E rest of u can catch the movie though... Tok about tis another time...
Seriously they shd haf done tis many yrs back...
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Updates
I am still sick, and ive not recovered... It may be due to the haze, or it may be just myself.
I haf not used my pc for the past week, coz my house's going thru the upgrading and u cant imagine e mess, dust, dust, dust and more dust. Sent my dog to pet hotel and burnt a hole in my pocket... It was very sad when hes not ard... Took him back yest and its hard not to get him stepping onto the dusty forbidden areas which formed e majority of the house.
My fish had comitted suicide. She paralysed herself, and couldnt get up to eat. And thus, after 6 days, she finally starved herself to death. Rest in peace, wu fu... She had been wif us for many yrs, exceeding her own lifespan. And i am glad shes gone to a better place.
Im online today, coz no choice i got to type a small report coz i got no time to do in the office. But im kinda lazy and unfit to do it now also u see. Alright lazy is the main reason.
Watever, next week the upgrading still continues... After i forced myself to start my report, and cover my pc wif dirty n dusty blankets, i am going to say byebye for another week. Hopefully the project finishes on time. Coz i miss my air con, normal toilets, warm water shower and my usual life...
Cya next week.
I haf not used my pc for the past week, coz my house's going thru the upgrading and u cant imagine e mess, dust, dust, dust and more dust. Sent my dog to pet hotel and burnt a hole in my pocket... It was very sad when hes not ard... Took him back yest and its hard not to get him stepping onto the dusty forbidden areas which formed e majority of the house.
My fish had comitted suicide. She paralysed herself, and couldnt get up to eat. And thus, after 6 days, she finally starved herself to death. Rest in peace, wu fu... She had been wif us for many yrs, exceeding her own lifespan. And i am glad shes gone to a better place.
Im online today, coz no choice i got to type a small report coz i got no time to do in the office. But im kinda lazy and unfit to do it now also u see. Alright lazy is the main reason.
Watever, next week the upgrading still continues... After i forced myself to start my report, and cover my pc wif dirty n dusty blankets, i am going to say byebye for another week. Hopefully the project finishes on time. Coz i miss my air con, normal toilets, warm water shower and my usual life...
Cya next week.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Ill >>> iLL
I have fallen ill again... Like, wats new right.
Anyways, its saddening to see my blog abandoned. But i really haf either no time or no energy. Yest was supposed to be my off day. But due to shortage of manpower now, i went back to do 5 hrs of OT. i would have done another 3 hrs if i have not arranged to meet up wif SZ.
Ive been clocking OT alot lately, now got chance then do lor... After they hired more ppl, wan to do also dun haf le. And i better earn more while i can be4 they fire me.
Tmr i will be working from 730am-7pm... Sigh... I dun even wan to think about it.
My job has been on the rocks lately. But tts all im going to say for now. It only makes me feel yet again, tt all my efforts n e hard work i put in, though more than anyone else, is jus me being plain stupid. Then again, when was it justisfiable or appreciated anyways.
I will be changing seats tmr. Hopefully at a new place, things will turn for the better, i hope.
My mum said ive been too tired, tts y i kept falling sick, and not recovering...
Oh, did i mentioned i went to play tennis wif my colleague and i fell on tues? I fell and grazed and bruised myself during the 1st ball. Then i realised i was playing too serious... Lol. I only realised how painful it was after i went back...
Showering was a big challenge. Not to mention climbin stairs and walking...
My house from tues till next next fri, 10 days, will be going thru e upgrading... Sigh, no toilets to use... Duno how... And not yet finished somemore, think next yr they come back do the kitchen additional room or something... So meanwhile cant cook too. They will be tearing down our kitchen cabinet, up till the stove area... Its gonna be very messy. Not to even mention the reconstruction of the 2 toilets...
My family had a big quarrel today. Resulted in my mum display her unhappiness living here and my sis asking my mum to leave. So e conclusion was to sell away tis house 2 yrs later, money split between them both and everyone separate their own ways...
Sigh... Looks like i am really going to carry on renting rooms for a long time. If tts e case, most prob i will give up my degree. I dun think i can earn enuff to cover all the commitments... Then again, when we separate, how am i going to bring my son wif me. Ive not encountered any landlords who allow their tenant to cook pets...
Besides, hes goin to be trapped in e room for his whole lifetime. Its gonna be very miserable and i dun wan him to go thru the kind of life tt i am going to.
See how lah... Theres still some time... Shall see.
Anyways, its saddening to see my blog abandoned. But i really haf either no time or no energy. Yest was supposed to be my off day. But due to shortage of manpower now, i went back to do 5 hrs of OT. i would have done another 3 hrs if i have not arranged to meet up wif SZ.
Ive been clocking OT alot lately, now got chance then do lor... After they hired more ppl, wan to do also dun haf le. And i better earn more while i can be4 they fire me.
Tmr i will be working from 730am-7pm... Sigh... I dun even wan to think about it.
My job has been on the rocks lately. But tts all im going to say for now. It only makes me feel yet again, tt all my efforts n e hard work i put in, though more than anyone else, is jus me being plain stupid. Then again, when was it justisfiable or appreciated anyways.
I will be changing seats tmr. Hopefully at a new place, things will turn for the better, i hope.
My mum said ive been too tired, tts y i kept falling sick, and not recovering...
Oh, did i mentioned i went to play tennis wif my colleague and i fell on tues? I fell and grazed and bruised myself during the 1st ball. Then i realised i was playing too serious... Lol. I only realised how painful it was after i went back...
Showering was a big challenge. Not to mention climbin stairs and walking...
My house from tues till next next fri, 10 days, will be going thru e upgrading... Sigh, no toilets to use... Duno how... And not yet finished somemore, think next yr they come back do the kitchen additional room or something... So meanwhile cant cook too. They will be tearing down our kitchen cabinet, up till the stove area... Its gonna be very messy. Not to even mention the reconstruction of the 2 toilets...
My family had a big quarrel today. Resulted in my mum display her unhappiness living here and my sis asking my mum to leave. So e conclusion was to sell away tis house 2 yrs later, money split between them both and everyone separate their own ways...
Sigh... Looks like i am really going to carry on renting rooms for a long time. If tts e case, most prob i will give up my degree. I dun think i can earn enuff to cover all the commitments... Then again, when we separate, how am i going to bring my son wif me. Ive not encountered any landlords who allow their tenant to cook pets...
Besides, hes goin to be trapped in e room for his whole lifetime. Its gonna be very miserable and i dun wan him to go thru the kind of life tt i am going to.
See how lah... Theres still some time... Shall see.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
A Quick One
Thot i shd blog abit, while waiting for my turn to shower...
I could haf blogged last weekend, coz sat i off, and SZ didnt date me... But then silly thing was, jus when i wanted to blog, my sis started to hog the pc to do her assignments... Oh well...
My beloved lunch buddy (colleague) had resigned... I am so sad... I haf no idea how to feel when the rest of them resigned... Sigh, but we r meeting for tennis after work tis coming tues, tts if nothing crops up... Gonna book it tmr.
I cant see very well today... Think i am too tired... Everything is so hazy and my eyes are closing, even if i am typing all these...
Last fri was my lunch buddy's last day... So i organised a farewell gathering after work, 9 of us went for dinner at mushroom pot and then ktv till 12 after tt... I was beat, still gotta work tmr u noe...
Yest i went for John Tucker Must Die movie... I bought 2 lipgloss, and got 2 voucher to exchange for 2 pearls in retn at Isetan. The guy will open the oysters in front of u, the whole place stinks, imagine it in e midst of Isetan... But its pretty amazing seeing him digging e pearl wif a knife out of e poor oyster's tummy... I haf not seen tis in real life be4...
I also bought a tennis skirt. Lol... I like 2, but only bought 1. Sad. Then we headed to Country Mana and then to esplanade. Managed to catch Juz B's performance at waterfront... Juz B's e malay grp from superband which i raved about... They sang a mixture of malay, chinese and english songs...
I still like one of the lead, so handsome...
We then headed to Marina Mandarin (my fav lounging area). Drank my fav drink Lycheetini or Lychee Martini so to speak... I only had a glass, budget u noe, budget... I haf tis thing tt i drink alcohol very fast, so u can imagine how tough it is for me to sip my drink for hrs... No idea how ppl can sip it slowly...
Ive always wanted to just gulp it in one go... Lol... Tts y i still drink beer, coz beer is something i can drink like water and yet u wun get drunk... I haf no idea y ppl always tell me, "I drink hard liquor one, i dun drink beer"... I mean like, yah, obviously u choose hard liquor over beer, but thing is tts not a reason to say u dun drink beer wat... Its jus like water wat... Something like tonic water... Lol...
As much as i love lounging there and observing all the rich/atas ppl... The drinks there r still very ex, not tt i mind though...
Sigh, i go shower le... My sis wan to use the pc... Till next time...
I could haf blogged last weekend, coz sat i off, and SZ didnt date me... But then silly thing was, jus when i wanted to blog, my sis started to hog the pc to do her assignments... Oh well...
My beloved lunch buddy (colleague) had resigned... I am so sad... I haf no idea how to feel when the rest of them resigned... Sigh, but we r meeting for tennis after work tis coming tues, tts if nothing crops up... Gonna book it tmr.
I cant see very well today... Think i am too tired... Everything is so hazy and my eyes are closing, even if i am typing all these...
Last fri was my lunch buddy's last day... So i organised a farewell gathering after work, 9 of us went for dinner at mushroom pot and then ktv till 12 after tt... I was beat, still gotta work tmr u noe...
Yest i went for John Tucker Must Die movie... I bought 2 lipgloss, and got 2 voucher to exchange for 2 pearls in retn at Isetan. The guy will open the oysters in front of u, the whole place stinks, imagine it in e midst of Isetan... But its pretty amazing seeing him digging e pearl wif a knife out of e poor oyster's tummy... I haf not seen tis in real life be4...
I also bought a tennis skirt. Lol... I like 2, but only bought 1. Sad. Then we headed to Country Mana and then to esplanade. Managed to catch Juz B's performance at waterfront... Juz B's e malay grp from superband which i raved about... They sang a mixture of malay, chinese and english songs...
I still like one of the lead, so handsome...
We then headed to Marina Mandarin (my fav lounging area). Drank my fav drink Lycheetini or Lychee Martini so to speak... I only had a glass, budget u noe, budget... I haf tis thing tt i drink alcohol very fast, so u can imagine how tough it is for me to sip my drink for hrs... No idea how ppl can sip it slowly...
Ive always wanted to just gulp it in one go... Lol... Tts y i still drink beer, coz beer is something i can drink like water and yet u wun get drunk... I haf no idea y ppl always tell me, "I drink hard liquor one, i dun drink beer"... I mean like, yah, obviously u choose hard liquor over beer, but thing is tts not a reason to say u dun drink beer wat... Its jus like water wat... Something like tonic water... Lol...
As much as i love lounging there and observing all the rich/atas ppl... The drinks there r still very ex, not tt i mind though...
Sigh, i go shower le... My sis wan to use the pc... Till next time...
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
RIP
I cant believe Steve Irwin is died. Sigh.............. Killed due to a sting ray somemore... How can it be... So sad... May u rest in peace...
I noe i noe... I will blog...
But then i wake up at 5+ am every morning to go work leh... Where got energy to blog... Soon lah... Soon ok! Promise!!!
I noe i noe... I will blog...
But then i wake up at 5+ am every morning to go work leh... Where got energy to blog... Soon lah... Soon ok! Promise!!!
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Maths!!!! >_<"
I am still undergoing training... And then today we were doing maths the whole day!!! Calculations!!! Can die i tell u...
E 6 of us nearly died, wif e exception of a guy whos although sick but still got to come work coz they say sick also mus come coz cannot miss training. Anyways, hes such a maths person, he suddenly got so enthusiastic over e maths probs... Hes so happy today... Lol. He said its so exciting n challenging whereas e rest of us were like brain dead.
Killed alot of brain cells u noe... And they all thot of leaving, too scary n stressful... Lol.
Hes not gd wif pc though, but hes damn gd n fast wif maths. Kudos man! E rest of us were jus swimming ard. Although i did well initially, being e 1st to solve e 1st qns. But when it came to e actual exam ar, 5 of us failed... Muahahaha, including me... And guess who passed?
He passed wif 90 over percent lor!!! Siao one...
We didnt exactly fail, jus tt if u fall under 80%, my trainer considers us fail. Theres a girl who scored 49% though... Very hard one lor, how to score 80%? I didnt even bring back e paper for revision, muahahaha...
Our 1st day, besides all e orientation n stuffs, we jus had lectures, e whole day... Can sleep ar... I so long no listen to lectures liao... And then my eye sight bad mah, cant really see e board somemore... Muahahahah... Especially when it comes to numbers...
Then 2nd and 3rd day is learning their software systems etc...
4th day maths >_< Then tmr more theory lectures then thurs exam again... Urgh...
Im very tired now... Shall tok about e interviews n e job soon.
E 6 of us nearly died, wif e exception of a guy whos although sick but still got to come work coz they say sick also mus come coz cannot miss training. Anyways, hes such a maths person, he suddenly got so enthusiastic over e maths probs... Hes so happy today... Lol. He said its so exciting n challenging whereas e rest of us were like brain dead.
Killed alot of brain cells u noe... And they all thot of leaving, too scary n stressful... Lol.
Hes not gd wif pc though, but hes damn gd n fast wif maths. Kudos man! E rest of us were jus swimming ard. Although i did well initially, being e 1st to solve e 1st qns. But when it came to e actual exam ar, 5 of us failed... Muahahaha, including me... And guess who passed?
He passed wif 90 over percent lor!!! Siao one...
We didnt exactly fail, jus tt if u fall under 80%, my trainer considers us fail. Theres a girl who scored 49% though... Very hard one lor, how to score 80%? I didnt even bring back e paper for revision, muahahaha...
Our 1st day, besides all e orientation n stuffs, we jus had lectures, e whole day... Can sleep ar... I so long no listen to lectures liao... And then my eye sight bad mah, cant really see e board somemore... Muahahahah... Especially when it comes to numbers...
Then 2nd and 3rd day is learning their software systems etc...
4th day maths >_< Then tmr more theory lectures then thurs exam again... Urgh...
Im very tired now... Shall tok about e interviews n e job soon.
Monday, August 21, 2006
Tis is an angry post, no pt reading it.
I am feeling so miserable. I am so miserable i wan to bitch about everything (or at least wats going on). But i cant. Coz i am the stupid one who used my real name for my site ( i am vain, i like to use my name every where).
I dun lie to strangers tt i dun blog. So any idiot can google my name and *poof*, u can see my blog in e 1st 3 links.
Urgh.
I haven been updating coz ive started working (my sis's been hoggin e pc for her assignments as well). Today is my 3rd day.
I am bonded for e next 3 mths. My job is a 3 yr contract but i am not bonded though. I am a 3 yr contract staff, which is crap coz i lost out on e benefits. I thot it was a PERMANENT position. I am not a freshie bumping ard. I wan to find a long term stable job ok!
I made a wish on my bday tt i wish for a full time job. But i forgot to say wat kind of job.
I am so sick of ppl telling me, "U will find an ideal job!", "Ur next job will be better!", crap.
They told me those when i was schlin, and my 1st job? Fucked up. Then they tell me e same thing, and my 2nd job? Fucked up. Then they told me e same thing. My 3rd job? Super fucked up. Then comes e fourth job and ppl said im lucky and all tt crap. Wat happened in e end? Super super fucked up. It fucked up even more when i complained out of frustration and ppl told me its not e end of e world.
Since when did i say it was e end of the world? U rich brats haf no idea how tough it is to survive in e real world ok!!!
And then my 5th job? Fucked up. Then wat happened? Ppl told me e same thing, "U will find a gd job one, dun worry!"...
How fucked up can these ppl get?
Its like saying u will win lottery and every time u lose i will tell u, confirm win next time... Of coz one bloody day, u will eventually win due to probability. And then i am supposed to say, "See, i told u, ur life is not so suay. U will win someday."
WTFFFFFFFF!!!!! Yah, one bloody day.
Y cant u jus see tt, even if u haf e same qualifications, same skills, same human, same everything, tt ur life, fate, destiny can go totally different? How some can jus be so blessed wif great 1st jobs, and some never ever finding somewhere they can settle down contentedly...
It has nothing to do wif expectations. U think those blessed ppl expect very little, tts y they r rich, tts y they found gd jobs wif great bosses, colleagues, tts y they haf happy family?
Pls lah, when ur environment is blessed, it is blessed. Its out straight one mah, ur boss so gd to u, ur pay so high, e other one's boss like shit, pay very low etc. Its got nothing to do wif expectations, asking too much, too demanding or watever shit.
Although i haf to admit some really asked too much for their own gd, and never finding one and always complaining. But im not toking about those ignorant ppl.
Only 3 days, and i already realised i am so suay. U can be ignorant, blur, new, fresh but lucky, so u get ur way wif it. I am seasoned, hardworking and well balanced but i get all e dirty shit.
I took up tis job to shut everyone ard me. To shut all e crap and also to prove to everyone tt my next job isnt something happily ever after as long as u dun give up.
But of coz, i wun deny deep down i am hoping things would change for e better as well. I am always prepared to apologise and say i am wrong, things haf indeed became better.
But reality slaps hard in my face ok. -_______-"
U can tell someone patronisingly tt things will becum better, but u will not be able to comprehend how much more tt person yearns for it than jus ur mere word of politically correct statements.
I wanted to take my time to find a gd job. But all the pressure made me bit it out of spite. I took it realising theres no future at e last min.
Wat crap about aiyah, jus work and then find a job meanwhile.
Do u noe i cannot jus take mc or leave in my job? Unless u wan me to be fired or get lesser money. If i can jus take leave or mc, i wouldnt mind hogging e job and look for greener pastures.
U guys say until like its so easy lidat. Wat no stress, u hearsay only, u noe nuts.
My mum is e worst, she said i am a useless, slow, incapable person. So i shd jus stick to a lowly, simple job and jus live day by day. She said i shd stop looking for better jobs (coz they wouldnt wan me coz i am e worst) and jus stick wif tis (e kind tt nobody wans). And then when she realised i am not happy, she is pissed off tt i myself am e one who agreed and yet i am so unhappy about it.
Yah yah, serves me right. Serves me right for anyhowly taking a job tt i feel very unhappy about jus so tt i can give u money coz u kept complaining no money when i can jolly well see u suffer and jus bump ard till i used my last dropped of self-earned savings.
I am not like those freshies liao leh. I dun wan to work 3 mths, quit, look for jobs again, knowing how bloody tough its for me. I told u i cannot work tis job and look at the same time. My leave's got to be balloted a few rounds. And if we anyhow take mc its going to affect my work conduct, which leads to many other things.
I heard things like "if i noe ur job like tis, i would haf adviced u not to take it". Bloody hell, if u really mean it, when i initially told u, u would haf BOTHERED to find out more from me when i told u about it. If u r a true fren or family, u would haf bothered. U would haf been concerned.
Rather than saying, "up to u, u decide lor.", "after 3 mths then see how", "flip coin", "its ur life, so u decide urself, i am not saying anything", "wow, tts cool, got job gd! take! take! gd start!".
And then after i took it, come telling me, "aiyah ur job no gd", "aiyah y u so stupid go take", tis n tt.
I am so tired but i cant sleep. And tis is driving me even more crazy. And plus i think i am pmsing. I got to wake up at 6+ am every morning and yet i jus cant sleep before 3am. Its frustrating.
My insomia seems to be getting worst. I haf no idea wat e hell's going on. And my backache had worsened lately as well. I think my whole body/system/mind's jus starting to crash n breakdown.
At tis rate, i will burn out very soon.
I think i may need medical help very soon. Or at least do a x-tray on my spine.
But i will only get my pay next mth. Urgh.
Aiyah, watever. I am alone. So i jus haf to suck everything in.
I dun lie to strangers tt i dun blog. So any idiot can google my name and *poof*, u can see my blog in e 1st 3 links.
Urgh.
I haven been updating coz ive started working (my sis's been hoggin e pc for her assignments as well). Today is my 3rd day.
I am bonded for e next 3 mths. My job is a 3 yr contract but i am not bonded though. I am a 3 yr contract staff, which is crap coz i lost out on e benefits. I thot it was a PERMANENT position. I am not a freshie bumping ard. I wan to find a long term stable job ok!
I made a wish on my bday tt i wish for a full time job. But i forgot to say wat kind of job.
I am so sick of ppl telling me, "U will find an ideal job!", "Ur next job will be better!", crap.
They told me those when i was schlin, and my 1st job? Fucked up. Then they tell me e same thing, and my 2nd job? Fucked up. Then they told me e same thing. My 3rd job? Super fucked up. Then comes e fourth job and ppl said im lucky and all tt crap. Wat happened in e end? Super super fucked up. It fucked up even more when i complained out of frustration and ppl told me its not e end of e world.
Since when did i say it was e end of the world? U rich brats haf no idea how tough it is to survive in e real world ok!!!
And then my 5th job? Fucked up. Then wat happened? Ppl told me e same thing, "U will find a gd job one, dun worry!"...
How fucked up can these ppl get?
Its like saying u will win lottery and every time u lose i will tell u, confirm win next time... Of coz one bloody day, u will eventually win due to probability. And then i am supposed to say, "See, i told u, ur life is not so suay. U will win someday."
WTFFFFFFFF!!!!! Yah, one bloody day.
Y cant u jus see tt, even if u haf e same qualifications, same skills, same human, same everything, tt ur life, fate, destiny can go totally different? How some can jus be so blessed wif great 1st jobs, and some never ever finding somewhere they can settle down contentedly...
It has nothing to do wif expectations. U think those blessed ppl expect very little, tts y they r rich, tts y they found gd jobs wif great bosses, colleagues, tts y they haf happy family?
Pls lah, when ur environment is blessed, it is blessed. Its out straight one mah, ur boss so gd to u, ur pay so high, e other one's boss like shit, pay very low etc. Its got nothing to do wif expectations, asking too much, too demanding or watever shit.
Although i haf to admit some really asked too much for their own gd, and never finding one and always complaining. But im not toking about those ignorant ppl.
Only 3 days, and i already realised i am so suay. U can be ignorant, blur, new, fresh but lucky, so u get ur way wif it. I am seasoned, hardworking and well balanced but i get all e dirty shit.
I took up tis job to shut everyone ard me. To shut all e crap and also to prove to everyone tt my next job isnt something happily ever after as long as u dun give up.
But of coz, i wun deny deep down i am hoping things would change for e better as well. I am always prepared to apologise and say i am wrong, things haf indeed became better.
But reality slaps hard in my face ok. -_______-"
U can tell someone patronisingly tt things will becum better, but u will not be able to comprehend how much more tt person yearns for it than jus ur mere word of politically correct statements.
I wanted to take my time to find a gd job. But all the pressure made me bit it out of spite. I took it realising theres no future at e last min.
Wat crap about aiyah, jus work and then find a job meanwhile.
Do u noe i cannot jus take mc or leave in my job? Unless u wan me to be fired or get lesser money. If i can jus take leave or mc, i wouldnt mind hogging e job and look for greener pastures.
U guys say until like its so easy lidat. Wat no stress, u hearsay only, u noe nuts.
My mum is e worst, she said i am a useless, slow, incapable person. So i shd jus stick to a lowly, simple job and jus live day by day. She said i shd stop looking for better jobs (coz they wouldnt wan me coz i am e worst) and jus stick wif tis (e kind tt nobody wans). And then when she realised i am not happy, she is pissed off tt i myself am e one who agreed and yet i am so unhappy about it.
Yah yah, serves me right. Serves me right for anyhowly taking a job tt i feel very unhappy about jus so tt i can give u money coz u kept complaining no money when i can jolly well see u suffer and jus bump ard till i used my last dropped of self-earned savings.
I am not like those freshies liao leh. I dun wan to work 3 mths, quit, look for jobs again, knowing how bloody tough its for me. I told u i cannot work tis job and look at the same time. My leave's got to be balloted a few rounds. And if we anyhow take mc its going to affect my work conduct, which leads to many other things.
I heard things like "if i noe ur job like tis, i would haf adviced u not to take it". Bloody hell, if u really mean it, when i initially told u, u would haf BOTHERED to find out more from me when i told u about it. If u r a true fren or family, u would haf bothered. U would haf been concerned.
Rather than saying, "up to u, u decide lor.", "after 3 mths then see how", "flip coin", "its ur life, so u decide urself, i am not saying anything", "wow, tts cool, got job gd! take! take! gd start!".
And then after i took it, come telling me, "aiyah ur job no gd", "aiyah y u so stupid go take", tis n tt.
I am so tired but i cant sleep. And tis is driving me even more crazy. And plus i think i am pmsing. I got to wake up at 6+ am every morning and yet i jus cant sleep before 3am. Its frustrating.
My insomia seems to be getting worst. I haf no idea wat e hell's going on. And my backache had worsened lately as well. I think my whole body/system/mind's jus starting to crash n breakdown.
At tis rate, i will burn out very soon.
I think i may need medical help very soon. Or at least do a x-tray on my spine.
But i will only get my pay next mth. Urgh.
Aiyah, watever. I am alone. So i jus haf to suck everything in.
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Updates, Sort Of
I finally haf e time to sit down and blog. I haf so many drafts i haf no idea whether to write them or not. Usually i will jus put a title and save as draft then cum back later to write it during my free time and publish it.
But then coz i haf lagged so much, i haf no mood to write those anymore. lol. I haf one "Wat Fast Wat Furious", but since its been like wat, 2 weeks... Theres not much pt in toking about e show. I also watched Click, but i haf no mood to write about tt. Go watch Click though.
Finally i haf done everything, all e errands...
I am so tired. Been out everyday (multiple times) for the past 2 weeks, travelling to so many unfamiliar places, doing so many errands. I jus finished e last errand i had to do. Although i still haf clothes to pack, clothes to iron and floor to vacuum... Urgh. Can dun do or not?
Yest i spent the whole morning doing medical checkup (I had to move back and forth 3 buildings in orchard! Becoz of tt, i got darker, sigh, again. Dun ask me how is my report, i also duno.) and then went TPY to meet my mum to do her errands. I closed our joint account, coz she complained no money. Then I went to do more errands.
Initially we were planning to go gym. But when i got home, i was beat. And my son was so happy i didnt wan to disappoint him by going out again. But of coz, tts jus an excuse. I was so tired how to go gym, so in e end, my mum went wif them.
I stayed at home to clear my son's mess. Wanted to sleep but i still had many more things to do... And when i was done, its already near dinner, so i went to make dinner etc.
Had a chat wif SZ tis morning. Lol, her alarm got prob so she missed work and lost half a day's of money.
I had terrible dreams lately. I had another dream where i was trapped in tis house wif a whole grp of ppl. And then we started to kill one another much like e horror movies. But it wasnt our own evilness tis time. We were possessed by "things"... But e spirit/spirits... Oh my son jus pooped, wait ar...
Ok, back. I also jus made my lunch btw, oat cereal. lol.
Now where was i? Oh ok, but e spirit/spirits dun simply possess one fixed person, it moves fr one to one or multiple ppl. So it was hard to predict whos been possessed. Or were they or some of them really possesed? Aiya, my sis jus called. Wait ar.
Alamak, cant i blog n eat in peace?
So anyways, we were hiding n all tt. Frenz were being killed one by one, etc. It was gorey n gruesome then. I wasnt possessed, was more focused on how to not get killed...
Last night, i also dreamt of horrible stuffs though i cant really remember most of it. But theres tis part where Ru mei (Renne) saw me near my neighbourhood (my old yishun hdb), she stayed e next BLK, which mus be a joke if she read tis, since she dun stay anywhere near there n hdb somemore.
Anyways, she saw me, and told me e scariest thing. She said she can see ghosts. And tt i haf one following me... Then she went on n on to describe "him", i was going mad then n i kept telling her i dun wan to noe... And then she continued theres another one, a female one and they r jus right behind me...
It was so creepy can!
Last week, SZ told me she dreamt my face was covered by a mist of dark veil or something... So scary. Cant see my face coz of e dark shadow... Damn creepy.
So anyways, tt 2 ghosts followed me and eventually wanted to kill me etc... I am so sick of dealing wif death, y dun i jus get killed instead.
I write more later. Finish my oat 1st, very soft liao.
But then coz i haf lagged so much, i haf no mood to write those anymore. lol. I haf one "Wat Fast Wat Furious", but since its been like wat, 2 weeks... Theres not much pt in toking about e show. I also watched Click, but i haf no mood to write about tt. Go watch Click though.
Finally i haf done everything, all e errands...
I am so tired. Been out everyday (multiple times) for the past 2 weeks, travelling to so many unfamiliar places, doing so many errands. I jus finished e last errand i had to do. Although i still haf clothes to pack, clothes to iron and floor to vacuum... Urgh. Can dun do or not?
Yest i spent the whole morning doing medical checkup (I had to move back and forth 3 buildings in orchard! Becoz of tt, i got darker, sigh, again. Dun ask me how is my report, i also duno.) and then went TPY to meet my mum to do her errands. I closed our joint account, coz she complained no money. Then I went to do more errands.
Initially we were planning to go gym. But when i got home, i was beat. And my son was so happy i didnt wan to disappoint him by going out again. But of coz, tts jus an excuse. I was so tired how to go gym, so in e end, my mum went wif them.
I stayed at home to clear my son's mess. Wanted to sleep but i still had many more things to do... And when i was done, its already near dinner, so i went to make dinner etc.
Had a chat wif SZ tis morning. Lol, her alarm got prob so she missed work and lost half a day's of money.
I had terrible dreams lately. I had another dream where i was trapped in tis house wif a whole grp of ppl. And then we started to kill one another much like e horror movies. But it wasnt our own evilness tis time. We were possessed by "things"... But e spirit/spirits... Oh my son jus pooped, wait ar...
Ok, back. I also jus made my lunch btw, oat cereal. lol.
Now where was i? Oh ok, but e spirit/spirits dun simply possess one fixed person, it moves fr one to one or multiple ppl. So it was hard to predict whos been possessed. Or were they or some of them really possesed? Aiya, my sis jus called. Wait ar.
Alamak, cant i blog n eat in peace?
So anyways, we were hiding n all tt. Frenz were being killed one by one, etc. It was gorey n gruesome then. I wasnt possessed, was more focused on how to not get killed...
Last night, i also dreamt of horrible stuffs though i cant really remember most of it. But theres tis part where Ru mei (Renne) saw me near my neighbourhood (my old yishun hdb), she stayed e next BLK, which mus be a joke if she read tis, since she dun stay anywhere near there n hdb somemore.
Anyways, she saw me, and told me e scariest thing. She said she can see ghosts. And tt i haf one following me... Then she went on n on to describe "him", i was going mad then n i kept telling her i dun wan to noe... And then she continued theres another one, a female one and they r jus right behind me...
It was so creepy can!
Last week, SZ told me she dreamt my face was covered by a mist of dark veil or something... So scary. Cant see my face coz of e dark shadow... Damn creepy.
So anyways, tt 2 ghosts followed me and eventually wanted to kill me etc... I am so sick of dealing wif death, y dun i jus get killed instead.
I write more later. Finish my oat 1st, very soft liao.
Monday, August 14, 2006
Happy Birthday! Erm... To me!
Theres still less than an hr left, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!
I absolutely haf no time to blog proper.
Oh, my poor fren SZ kena food poisoning. Get well soon.
I absolutely haf no time to blog proper.
Oh, my poor fren SZ kena food poisoning. Get well soon.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Coincidence
Jus came back fr one interview. So tired, waited there for more than an hr be4 e actual interview start. Had a grp interview. I was e only idiot who came so early, e rest were like late. So i waited e longest. But e interview was very nostalgic. Im sure u wonder y.
It was e same as my sales job interview 2 yrs back. Same thing, grp of 4. Same thing, 3 gals, 1 guy. Same thing, i was the corner one and e last to speak. Same thing i was at the right corner. Same thing, e guy was e 2nd one.
And then same thing, there was a retail person in e grp, last time one was a waitress (i consider f & b retail as well), tis time one was a gal selling clothes, shall not say e brand here. But its a mid range boutique brand. Same thing, e retail person was e 3rd.
But tt gal not friendly one, e 3 of us were chatting wif each other, maybe she was waiting for us to make e move. She must be feeling so sian we left her out.
Im not sure if its better to be in a grp for interviews or alone. I kinda resented it for a start, but i gotta admit tt there is definately pressure tt makes me speak well and speak better.
After e interview, we left to go to e station. One gal called Priya left to meet her fren, shes e experienced one and shes very frendly. We chatted e moment she stepped into e reception area. While e other 2 were scattered elsewhere.
I like gals lidat.
So anways, e retail gal called Teng Teng walked off 1st and left alone. And then nearing e station, e guy caught up wif me to g back together. I dun remember his name though. Lol. Eng something or something Eng.
Coincidentally, we stay at the same area. Both of us alighted at YCK. Before tt, while we were in e train, my agent called me and said im shortlisted for paper test tmr morning. Same thing, my sales one he also called me immediately and told me to go back office e next day, except tt e job was offered. Tis one after paper test, still got another interview if u score well.
STRESSED leh!!! I no exams since secondary, everything returned to old sch liao lor.
Anyways, we were chatting and my agent called. I told him e news and his face immediately dropped. And he kept quiet. It was rather awkard. Then after 4 mins, his agent called and hes shortlisted as well, so hes happy again n resumed conversation.
Im sure Priya is shortlisted as well coz of her experience.
So i will be seeing them tmr morning again.
E guy very cute, he said he cant sleep last night coz he kept thinking of wat to say during e interview. I guess i am indeed more experienced in interviews. I had passed tt stage. He said he duno and wore jeans n t shirt to some interviews... Tts so strange, considering he is in his late twenties. *shrug*
E retail gal wore slippers too. But then i think it didnt really matter for tis one. I saw e staffs wearing denim skirts.
One thing though, I think its e way u project ur words. While during some ppl's speech, u dun see any responses or worst see ppl in a daze. When it was my turn, i had them nodding (interviewees included, im surprised they listened, lol) and then some even smiled over some things i said.
Like i said, i am experienced in interviews. But tts nothing wonderful to tok about. Wats worst? Knowing ur interview went smoothly and very well and not getting e job, or having a bad interview jittering, stumbling, poor answers but got e job?
Although i felt i didnt do anything wrong, but i gave eye contacts to e interviewees as well during my speech. Hmm, its working habit mah, they r listening/looking/reacting at me, i cant jus ignore them and only concentrate on e interviewers. Lol. But of coz, like i said, i am e only idiot who do tis kind of things.
Busy day tmr. Morning a 2 hr paper test, then later afternoon another interview at another company.
I hope it turns out well. Cant wait to start working again. If i still dun get tis 2 jobs, or 3 including e mon one, then i think i can go die liao.
It was e same as my sales job interview 2 yrs back. Same thing, grp of 4. Same thing, 3 gals, 1 guy. Same thing, i was the corner one and e last to speak. Same thing i was at the right corner. Same thing, e guy was e 2nd one.
And then same thing, there was a retail person in e grp, last time one was a waitress (i consider f & b retail as well), tis time one was a gal selling clothes, shall not say e brand here. But its a mid range boutique brand. Same thing, e retail person was e 3rd.
But tt gal not friendly one, e 3 of us were chatting wif each other, maybe she was waiting for us to make e move. She must be feeling so sian we left her out.
Im not sure if its better to be in a grp for interviews or alone. I kinda resented it for a start, but i gotta admit tt there is definately pressure tt makes me speak well and speak better.
After e interview, we left to go to e station. One gal called Priya left to meet her fren, shes e experienced one and shes very frendly. We chatted e moment she stepped into e reception area. While e other 2 were scattered elsewhere.
I like gals lidat.
So anways, e retail gal called Teng Teng walked off 1st and left alone. And then nearing e station, e guy caught up wif me to g back together. I dun remember his name though. Lol. Eng something or something Eng.
Coincidentally, we stay at the same area. Both of us alighted at YCK. Before tt, while we were in e train, my agent called me and said im shortlisted for paper test tmr morning. Same thing, my sales one he also called me immediately and told me to go back office e next day, except tt e job was offered. Tis one after paper test, still got another interview if u score well.
STRESSED leh!!! I no exams since secondary, everything returned to old sch liao lor.
Anyways, we were chatting and my agent called. I told him e news and his face immediately dropped. And he kept quiet. It was rather awkard. Then after 4 mins, his agent called and hes shortlisted as well, so hes happy again n resumed conversation.
Im sure Priya is shortlisted as well coz of her experience.
So i will be seeing them tmr morning again.
E guy very cute, he said he cant sleep last night coz he kept thinking of wat to say during e interview. I guess i am indeed more experienced in interviews. I had passed tt stage. He said he duno and wore jeans n t shirt to some interviews... Tts so strange, considering he is in his late twenties. *shrug*
E retail gal wore slippers too. But then i think it didnt really matter for tis one. I saw e staffs wearing denim skirts.
One thing though, I think its e way u project ur words. While during some ppl's speech, u dun see any responses or worst see ppl in a daze. When it was my turn, i had them nodding (interviewees included, im surprised they listened, lol) and then some even smiled over some things i said.
Like i said, i am experienced in interviews. But tts nothing wonderful to tok about. Wats worst? Knowing ur interview went smoothly and very well and not getting e job, or having a bad interview jittering, stumbling, poor answers but got e job?
Although i felt i didnt do anything wrong, but i gave eye contacts to e interviewees as well during my speech. Hmm, its working habit mah, they r listening/looking/reacting at me, i cant jus ignore them and only concentrate on e interviewers. Lol. But of coz, like i said, i am e only idiot who do tis kind of things.
Busy day tmr. Morning a 2 hr paper test, then later afternoon another interview at another company.
I hope it turns out well. Cant wait to start working again. If i still dun get tis 2 jobs, or 3 including e mon one, then i think i can go die liao.
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Middle Earth Inhabited NDP or the other way round?
I hoped u enjoyed ur ND hol, well-smacked in the middle of boring working week, no?
I was at home e whole day, everyday is holiday for a jobless person, not tt i haf nothing to do n slacking ok? Looking for jobs is even more stressful than completing a job. But tts me. Coz its never easy for me.
Oh, i had a dreary dream, 2 nights be4. E grp of us were being chased by dinosaurs. So we were constantly running, hiding, running and hiding. Well, since we cant really fight dinosaurs wif no weapons, we just haf to keep running. And for some reasons e particular grp of dinosaurs were jus bent on killing all of us.
Dun ask me y they r bent, i guess u dun qns y e monsters only target e main leads in movies. I think perhaps there were other dinosaurs killing the rest of e world, jus tt i didnt noe. To eliminate e world of humans! Lol. Just tt my point of view obviously only follow me n my grp.
E dream got very dreary although it was nerve wrecking n tiring. It got dreary coz e grp of us started out protecting each other, saving/hiding/helping one another. We wanted to survive tis together. But then reality sunk, when u r on e run for days. Ppl started to change.
We found out if we wanted to survive, we haf to make sacrifices. And tt means, u got to sacrifice ur frenz along e way in order to lose track of the creatures, one by one.
So it comes to a pt when u see some characters who were not so well-liked by e majority being sabotaged. And they ended up being eaten. Some who were more popular or PRETTY, were still being protected. Blind followers!
I was pretty much on my own then coz i was extremely disgusted at how e dream turned out. Ppl were trying to make me die too. But WTF, tt was my dream, i dun wan to die inside ok? Definately not by e likes of those selfish stupids assholes.
I most certainly decided not to help those idiots when they were being eaten, i meant those evil ones, not those tt were sabotaged.
How to not feel dreary lidat? Wat a evil dream, seeing ppl turn against one another, seeing innocent ppl being eaten alive. And having no solutions to the prob, except to keep on running n move on ahead. I cant even turn/stop or look back. No time to cry, no time to feel guilty. Just anger, pure anger.
Anger at those ard me who r still sticking wif me to watch me die. DAMN!!!
I dreamt of dinos coz of a earlier trip in the mrt tt day. E guy sitting next next to me was watching King Kong on his video gadget. Just a few scenes to spark off my dream, tts crazy. I was peeping jus tt it was rather awkard coz theres another person between us. Took me awhile be4 i gave up. Lol.
It jus got to e exciting part, e part where Naomi was being chased by e t-rexes and then king kong rescuing her n all tt. It was still interesting for a small screened mute movie. I bet e owner's enjoyin it. I wouldnt mind watching LOTR.
Speaking of LOTR, Did u watch e NDP jus now?I duno how many of u noticed this but there is tis video thingy which recapped our history since independence which was shown be4 e actual show.
Wats so special u ask?
Well, if u listened carefully, they actually used e MUSIC SOUNDTRACK of LOTR!!!!!!!!!! If im not wrong it shd be from fellowship. I was so shocked i shouted to my mum about it and she laughed. Although she said she dun think im e only one who knew.
Somehow i do feel tt i might be one of e few. Coz who e hell notices tis kind of things? My mum went on to say tt maybe LKY is a fan of LOTR. Tts crap n nonsense. I confirm he dun like. Anyways, its not his decision anyways, its e editor. I haf no idea wat e editor was thinking. Perhaps he love LOTR? No idea. But tts was so strange.
I noe LOTR music scores r gd n inspiring. And the magnitude carries n lifts ur spirits which was somewat appropriate to e video coz its supposed to make u feel uplifted, proud and patriotic. But most certainly strange to be used on a national video, no? Although they did use a more modern version of it (re-recorded in mediacorp studio? but an EXTREMELY BAD VERSION though), but it was still weird. But maybe tts coz i noe e source so it was strange. Instead of seeing Frodo/Gollum, u see e young Lee Kuan Yew when he was our PM.
I wondered if they paid e copyrights, but i doubt so though. If they claimed its not from LOTR, they can go kiss my ass. I am LOTR freak ok, and every single piece of music score fr e trilogy was written originally by Howard Shore.
I noe them when i hear it. U cannot bluff me one, coz i even remember e lines ok! Since i haf already watched LOTR more than 50 times. *Er hem*
Anyways, i continue tmr. Wan to go watch Bleach now. I haf officially stopped watchin Naruto, took me so long to finally let it go. They r both crap after they strayed off from their manga to do their never-ending side story. But then when i start on something, i hardly give up, even if they r crappy. I did finished Tsubasa Chronicles to e latest then, so wats Bleach and Naruto.
Okok, enuff crap.
(oooooooooo....... jus read fr other blogs, me not e only one who complained about e LOTR music! muahahahah... no idea y i am so happy)
I was at home e whole day, everyday is holiday for a jobless person, not tt i haf nothing to do n slacking ok? Looking for jobs is even more stressful than completing a job. But tts me. Coz its never easy for me.
Oh, i had a dreary dream, 2 nights be4. E grp of us were being chased by dinosaurs. So we were constantly running, hiding, running and hiding. Well, since we cant really fight dinosaurs wif no weapons, we just haf to keep running. And for some reasons e particular grp of dinosaurs were jus bent on killing all of us.
Dun ask me y they r bent, i guess u dun qns y e monsters only target e main leads in movies. I think perhaps there were other dinosaurs killing the rest of e world, jus tt i didnt noe. To eliminate e world of humans! Lol. Just tt my point of view obviously only follow me n my grp.
E dream got very dreary although it was nerve wrecking n tiring. It got dreary coz e grp of us started out protecting each other, saving/hiding/helping one another. We wanted to survive tis together. But then reality sunk, when u r on e run for days. Ppl started to change.
We found out if we wanted to survive, we haf to make sacrifices. And tt means, u got to sacrifice ur frenz along e way in order to lose track of the creatures, one by one.
So it comes to a pt when u see some characters who were not so well-liked by e majority being sabotaged. And they ended up being eaten. Some who were more popular or PRETTY, were still being protected. Blind followers!
I was pretty much on my own then coz i was extremely disgusted at how e dream turned out. Ppl were trying to make me die too. But WTF, tt was my dream, i dun wan to die inside ok? Definately not by e likes of those selfish stupids assholes.
I most certainly decided not to help those idiots when they were being eaten, i meant those evil ones, not those tt were sabotaged.
How to not feel dreary lidat? Wat a evil dream, seeing ppl turn against one another, seeing innocent ppl being eaten alive. And having no solutions to the prob, except to keep on running n move on ahead. I cant even turn/stop or look back. No time to cry, no time to feel guilty. Just anger, pure anger.
Anger at those ard me who r still sticking wif me to watch me die. DAMN!!!
I dreamt of dinos coz of a earlier trip in the mrt tt day. E guy sitting next next to me was watching King Kong on his video gadget. Just a few scenes to spark off my dream, tts crazy. I was peeping jus tt it was rather awkard coz theres another person between us. Took me awhile be4 i gave up. Lol.
It jus got to e exciting part, e part where Naomi was being chased by e t-rexes and then king kong rescuing her n all tt. It was still interesting for a small screened mute movie. I bet e owner's enjoyin it. I wouldnt mind watching LOTR.
Speaking of LOTR, Did u watch e NDP jus now?I duno how many of u noticed this but there is tis video thingy which recapped our history since independence which was shown be4 e actual show.
Wats so special u ask?
Well, if u listened carefully, they actually used e MUSIC SOUNDTRACK of LOTR!!!!!!!!!! If im not wrong it shd be from fellowship. I was so shocked i shouted to my mum about it and she laughed. Although she said she dun think im e only one who knew.
Somehow i do feel tt i might be one of e few. Coz who e hell notices tis kind of things? My mum went on to say tt maybe LKY is a fan of LOTR. Tts crap n nonsense. I confirm he dun like. Anyways, its not his decision anyways, its e editor. I haf no idea wat e editor was thinking. Perhaps he love LOTR? No idea. But tts was so strange.
I noe LOTR music scores r gd n inspiring. And the magnitude carries n lifts ur spirits which was somewat appropriate to e video coz its supposed to make u feel uplifted, proud and patriotic. But most certainly strange to be used on a national video, no? Although they did use a more modern version of it (re-recorded in mediacorp studio? but an EXTREMELY BAD VERSION though), but it was still weird. But maybe tts coz i noe e source so it was strange. Instead of seeing Frodo/Gollum, u see e young Lee Kuan Yew when he was our PM.
I wondered if they paid e copyrights, but i doubt so though. If they claimed its not from LOTR, they can go kiss my ass. I am LOTR freak ok, and every single piece of music score fr e trilogy was written originally by Howard Shore.
I noe them when i hear it. U cannot bluff me one, coz i even remember e lines ok! Since i haf already watched LOTR more than 50 times. *Er hem*
Anyways, i continue tmr. Wan to go watch Bleach now. I haf officially stopped watchin Naruto, took me so long to finally let it go. They r both crap after they strayed off from their manga to do their never-ending side story. But then when i start on something, i hardly give up, even if they r crappy. I did finished Tsubasa Chronicles to e latest then, so wats Bleach and Naruto.
Okok, enuff crap.
(oooooooooo....... jus read fr other blogs, me not e only one who complained about e LOTR music! muahahahah... no idea y i am so happy)
Choco Milk
I thot i would try out e choco milk thingy since it jus so happened my mum bought a can of cocoa powder thinking its so healthy coz theres no milk or sugar. Until i tell her its fattening coz it contains butter something which is 9% fat. Lol.
Anyways, i thot i would make myself a nice warm cup of choco milk, while reading blogs n enjoying photos of others be4 i attempt to sleep. I am drooling at e thot of tt. Ive not drank choco milk for e longest time.
But then i couldnt find e can of cocoa! Damn it!!!
And then double DAMN DAMN, i saw a huge ass cockroach on the cabinet.
Sigh, there goes e mood for my warm cocoa. I think i shd go count sheeps.
Anyways, i thot i would make myself a nice warm cup of choco milk, while reading blogs n enjoying photos of others be4 i attempt to sleep. I am drooling at e thot of tt. Ive not drank choco milk for e longest time.
But then i couldnt find e can of cocoa! Damn it!!!
And then double DAMN DAMN, i saw a huge ass cockroach on the cabinet.
Sigh, there goes e mood for my warm cocoa. I think i shd go count sheeps.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Ichiban Boshi
My sis very lucky lor. She switched to a different job department in her company. Got a raise in pay and now shes working 5 day week. She got degree mah, cant complain.
Btw, yest very disgusting. My blk downstairs got one water pipe burst or leak i duno. So got alot of foaming water flooding. Then while i thot e water was harmless and had to walk thru it, i saw maggots!!! -_-" A massive swarm of live maggots swimming/crawling outwards. Its not everyday thing tt i see maggots, i did consider staying back longer to observe them but i was running off for an interview.
They were interesting though disgusting and im imagining them burrowing through my flesh/corpse when i die, but of coz, tt wouldnt happen since i wouldnt be buried. The way they crawl is somewat captivating if not for their disgusting linkage wif anything rotten n smelly. I cant imagine how those ppl at fear factor could swallow these things.
Ok, enuff about maggoty stuffs.
Lets tok about food. Lol. Sorry for ruining ur appetite.
I finally went Ichiban Boshi to eat, it was early dinner late lunch for us as usual. Heard so much raving about it. So finally went wif SZ on last sat to try it out. We were going to catch a movie at MS. So we headed to e Esplanade branch. SZ heard tt e customer service is very bad here. But it turned out normal, so u guys can head out there. I did find e seat they chose for us rather weird n awkard however.
It was very nice view though only one person can see it, stupid. But i didnt bring my cam tt day so i had to use my hp. I only brought a very small makeup pouch to put everything. I wanted to be burden free tt sat, which didnt really work coz i bought a new aviator shade ($19, original $40+) from Miss Selfridge (sigh, i found out one crystal missing today though. Duno its lidat be4 hand or dropped. Had to manually remove another one at other end to balance e look) and SZ bought me a turquoise cardigan ($19, original $40+ too, lol) fr G2000, love it! My bday gift.
G2000 was havin a crazy sale. Finally u see guys going crazy over clothes. The Q was so damn long. It was reaching e entrance.
Ichiban Boshi literally means the First Star. Its a place to enjoy good quality food with modernize presentation in cool ambience, and at affordable price. Menu covers from real authentic Japanese items to the popular items such as sushi on conveyor belt.
I ordered Tenzaru Chasoba (which includes mixed vege n ebi tempura, $13.80 i think) and potato croquette ($1.90).
I tell u ar, its very nice. The chasoba is very springy. Not e very machine kind or supermarket one like Sakae. I like it. I wan to try e famous soba restaurant at Paragon though, heard its e best.
And e potato croquette is simply AMAZING. I am missing it already. I wan to eat e food again. Craving liao. SZ had some sushi plates (same price as Sakae), e lobster thingy in e middle she said its very nice.
I was more interested in her tofu though. Cant show u how appetizing it looks unfortunately. I'll bring my cam again e next time i go eat.
Gosh, i am missing their food already. Theres still so many things i wan to try. But i only haf one stomach.
Their prices are generally similar to Sakae. But their drinks are $2.20 instead of Sakae's $1.50, canned drinks i meant.
But then after eating there, its like Sakae? Wat Sakae? I suddenly haf no reason to go back Sakae. Maybe for their one n only vitamin E enriched sushi rice? Lol. Like i care.
But Salmon is most impt to me for jap food, haf not tried Ichiban Boshi's salmon yet though.
We then went shopping... Luckily i purposefully wore track shoes, we walked sooooooo much... We always walk alooottt when we go City Hall. We caught e Tokyo Drift movie as well. Sigh, i will tok about it another time. But then if u wan to watch go watch lor...
It was nearing midnight. So we headed for supper, actually dinner to be precise. Went to Esplanade's Makansutra Gluttons Bay. Ive not eaten there yet too.
I drank coconut. So happy. So long never drink it liao... 2nd last one. But i need ice next time.
We had e osyter egg. Not nice one. They put e oyster at the side lidat somemore. But oyster quite big though.
See e stalls, tts how glaring it was. I was going blind coz i was facing them. SZ was facing e sea.
Chicken wings... I actually dun like bbq wings, or rather i dun like tis kind. Too dry. I like spicy or honey glazed wings/drumlets.
We also had fried kuay tiao. But i didnt take pic, think i was too hungry. It was very oily. We wanted to hokkien prawn mee, but then sold out jus be4 us... Urgh.
Overall, i dun really like e food there. Too substandard. But then if u r in town and had a craving for hawker food n seafood and Newton is too far, then its a gd place to satisfy ur taste buds. At least i heard e tourists said e food is nice.
Plus, u can enjoy e sea breeze n e view. It was also cooler than Newton. Newton is a giant microwave. I wouldnt mind going there to eat again though coz i like tt place (as in e surrounding, not e hawker), and esplanade is my fav hangout.
Ah, im hungry.
We then strolled for awhile, headed to e creepy Merlion. Stood there for abit then sat for abit, constantly avoiding e blind bats... E whole area from esplanade to e Merlion are infested wif bats. They kept circling round n round and they fly so low, luckily their sonic waves were working, if not im sure they would hit my head e whole night.
Nearing 3 am, we left to take e night rider. Only to haf waited for more than 1 1/2 hrs for tt stupid NR1. We were both so frustrated, tired. An hr more, we could haf boarded e mrt. Stupid drivers.
If tts not all, e driver even went e wrong route and did a U turn. He said to someone on his hp while driving tt there wasnt anyone who wans to drive e bus so he took e last bus. So irresponsible. Somemore, he kept telling e ppl not to complain. He told them theres only 3 bus tt night, bluff one lor. Its not tt theres only 3 bus, how can tt be? U think e bus company so stupid? He already said no one wans to take e bus but he lied n said theres only 3 buses allocated tt night.
FUCKING irresponsible. I hope someone complained though. How can they be lidat. So bek cek. And seeing n hearing e angry passengers complaining, and yet gives up so easily and kept quiet in e end, jus pisses me off even more. But tts jus us, typical singaporeans. Wan to complain but keep quiet in the end, loud mouth no guts.
But i cant complain too, coz i am sitting n waiting for others to complain as well, another kind of typical singaporeans. And complaining when others decided not to pursue. Cannot lidat, I need to be more gutsy since ppl ard me r not.
I reached home ard 535 am and SZ ard 6am. It was so stupid, a disappointing night. I had quite a bad time i felt. I wished i had stayed at home to watch e finals of Superband. I hope i dun miss e 2nd telecast.
My son cried e whole night when i was out. Tis is e 1st time. So i had to officially go home earlier from now on. Early as in before 2+am. Well, tts if i dun really enjoy e company though.
Btw, yest very disgusting. My blk downstairs got one water pipe burst or leak i duno. So got alot of foaming water flooding. Then while i thot e water was harmless and had to walk thru it, i saw maggots!!! -_-" A massive swarm of live maggots swimming/crawling outwards. Its not everyday thing tt i see maggots, i did consider staying back longer to observe them but i was running off for an interview.
They were interesting though disgusting and im imagining them burrowing through my flesh/corpse when i die, but of coz, tt wouldnt happen since i wouldnt be buried. The way they crawl is somewat captivating if not for their disgusting linkage wif anything rotten n smelly. I cant imagine how those ppl at fear factor could swallow these things.
Ok, enuff about maggoty stuffs.
Lets tok about food. Lol. Sorry for ruining ur appetite.
I finally went Ichiban Boshi to eat, it was early dinner late lunch for us as usual. Heard so much raving about it. So finally went wif SZ on last sat to try it out. We were going to catch a movie at MS. So we headed to e Esplanade branch. SZ heard tt e customer service is very bad here. But it turned out normal, so u guys can head out there. I did find e seat they chose for us rather weird n awkard however.
It was very nice view though only one person can see it, stupid. But i didnt bring my cam tt day so i had to use my hp. I only brought a very small makeup pouch to put everything. I wanted to be burden free tt sat, which didnt really work coz i bought a new aviator shade ($19, original $40+) from Miss Selfridge (sigh, i found out one crystal missing today though. Duno its lidat be4 hand or dropped. Had to manually remove another one at other end to balance e look) and SZ bought me a turquoise cardigan ($19, original $40+ too, lol) fr G2000, love it! My bday gift.
G2000 was havin a crazy sale. Finally u see guys going crazy over clothes. The Q was so damn long. It was reaching e entrance.
Ichiban Boshi literally means the First Star. Its a place to enjoy good quality food with modernize presentation in cool ambience, and at affordable price. Menu covers from real authentic Japanese items to the popular items such as sushi on conveyor belt.
I ordered Tenzaru Chasoba (which includes mixed vege n ebi tempura, $13.80 i think) and potato croquette ($1.90).
I tell u ar, its very nice. The chasoba is very springy. Not e very machine kind or supermarket one like Sakae. I like it. I wan to try e famous soba restaurant at Paragon though, heard its e best.
And e potato croquette is simply AMAZING. I am missing it already. I wan to eat e food again. Craving liao. SZ had some sushi plates (same price as Sakae), e lobster thingy in e middle she said its very nice.
I was more interested in her tofu though. Cant show u how appetizing it looks unfortunately. I'll bring my cam again e next time i go eat.
Gosh, i am missing their food already. Theres still so many things i wan to try. But i only haf one stomach.
Their prices are generally similar to Sakae. But their drinks are $2.20 instead of Sakae's $1.50, canned drinks i meant.
But then after eating there, its like Sakae? Wat Sakae? I suddenly haf no reason to go back Sakae. Maybe for their one n only vitamin E enriched sushi rice? Lol. Like i care.
But Salmon is most impt to me for jap food, haf not tried Ichiban Boshi's salmon yet though.
We then went shopping... Luckily i purposefully wore track shoes, we walked sooooooo much... We always walk alooottt when we go City Hall. We caught e Tokyo Drift movie as well. Sigh, i will tok about it another time. But then if u wan to watch go watch lor...
It was nearing midnight. So we headed for supper, actually dinner to be precise. Went to Esplanade's Makansutra Gluttons Bay. Ive not eaten there yet too.
I drank coconut. So happy. So long never drink it liao... 2nd last one. But i need ice next time.
We had e osyter egg. Not nice one. They put e oyster at the side lidat somemore. But oyster quite big though.
See e stalls, tts how glaring it was. I was going blind coz i was facing them. SZ was facing e sea.
Chicken wings... I actually dun like bbq wings, or rather i dun like tis kind. Too dry. I like spicy or honey glazed wings/drumlets.
We also had fried kuay tiao. But i didnt take pic, think i was too hungry. It was very oily. We wanted to hokkien prawn mee, but then sold out jus be4 us... Urgh.
Overall, i dun really like e food there. Too substandard. But then if u r in town and had a craving for hawker food n seafood and Newton is too far, then its a gd place to satisfy ur taste buds. At least i heard e tourists said e food is nice.
Plus, u can enjoy e sea breeze n e view. It was also cooler than Newton. Newton is a giant microwave. I wouldnt mind going there to eat again though coz i like tt place (as in e surrounding, not e hawker), and esplanade is my fav hangout.
Ah, im hungry.
We then strolled for awhile, headed to e creepy Merlion. Stood there for abit then sat for abit, constantly avoiding e blind bats... E whole area from esplanade to e Merlion are infested wif bats. They kept circling round n round and they fly so low, luckily their sonic waves were working, if not im sure they would hit my head e whole night.
Nearing 3 am, we left to take e night rider. Only to haf waited for more than 1 1/2 hrs for tt stupid NR1. We were both so frustrated, tired. An hr more, we could haf boarded e mrt. Stupid drivers.
If tts not all, e driver even went e wrong route and did a U turn. He said to someone on his hp while driving tt there wasnt anyone who wans to drive e bus so he took e last bus. So irresponsible. Somemore, he kept telling e ppl not to complain. He told them theres only 3 bus tt night, bluff one lor. Its not tt theres only 3 bus, how can tt be? U think e bus company so stupid? He already said no one wans to take e bus but he lied n said theres only 3 buses allocated tt night.
FUCKING irresponsible. I hope someone complained though. How can they be lidat. So bek cek. And seeing n hearing e angry passengers complaining, and yet gives up so easily and kept quiet in e end, jus pisses me off even more. But tts jus us, typical singaporeans. Wan to complain but keep quiet in the end, loud mouth no guts.
But i cant complain too, coz i am sitting n waiting for others to complain as well, another kind of typical singaporeans. And complaining when others decided not to pursue. Cannot lidat, I need to be more gutsy since ppl ard me r not.
I reached home ard 535 am and SZ ard 6am. It was so stupid, a disappointing night. I had quite a bad time i felt. I wished i had stayed at home to watch e finals of Superband. I hope i dun miss e 2nd telecast.
My son cried e whole night when i was out. Tis is e 1st time. So i had to officially go home earlier from now on. Early as in before 2+am. Well, tts if i dun really enjoy e company though.
Monday, August 07, 2006
Exhausted
I am so beat.
So tired.
I haf no time or rather no energy to blog.
I haf been sleeping only 3 hrs plus per night for the past 1 week or so. My insomia prob is getting worst. I wonder how i survived my poly days sleeping only 1 hr per night. No wonder i can fall asleep easily when catching movies wif my bf even though its my fav past time.
But i am 17 no more. I haf succumbed to the aging process.
True enuff, i can still survive sleeping only 5-6 hrs per night for a long period of time now. But 3-4 hrs is over e board for my poor miserable aging body. & spending 6 hrs lying on ur bed trying to sleep but cant is not a funny thing.
I am exhausted, but my mind refused to sleep. So forcing tt, i haf headaches. So i haf been downing panadols again. Till i finished all my panadols, so now my house no more.
My head is throbbing now, but tts coz i travelled too much today. So much so tt i haf motion sickness on the mrt. Can u believe tt? Oh yea, it seems my motion sickness had gotten worst lately as well. Not even e plasters can work, but maybe coz i need to renew them.
I haf been very busy looking for jobs. Busy searching, busy choosing, busy editing, busy sending, busy waiting, busy scheduling and busy interviewing. Not tt i am complaining though. Jus tt i noe i cant travel multiple times a day coz of my motion sickness prob.
I went for a interview tis morning. I went to another recruitment agency jus now. I came back and almost collapsed. Was extremely giddy. My mum said I travel more always lidat, useless... Lol. So u shd be thkful if u got no motion sickness prob, no low blood glucose prob n no blood pressure prob.
My blood pressures been pretty low lately, duno y. So maybe tts y i feel giddy. Its been ard 104/64 on average. The lower one is very low, not gd.
Anyways, i haf no idea wat im typing.
I think i will go haf an eye shut. I am going to hack my makeup and waxed hair for now. Later then clean myself.
Will blog tmr. If no agencies call me though.
I dun even haf e strength to bath my son (supposedly on sun). So i am going to postpone till tmr.
Anyways, yea, stay healthy.
So tired.
I haf no time or rather no energy to blog.
I haf been sleeping only 3 hrs plus per night for the past 1 week or so. My insomia prob is getting worst. I wonder how i survived my poly days sleeping only 1 hr per night. No wonder i can fall asleep easily when catching movies wif my bf even though its my fav past time.
But i am 17 no more. I haf succumbed to the aging process.
True enuff, i can still survive sleeping only 5-6 hrs per night for a long period of time now. But 3-4 hrs is over e board for my poor miserable aging body. & spending 6 hrs lying on ur bed trying to sleep but cant is not a funny thing.
I am exhausted, but my mind refused to sleep. So forcing tt, i haf headaches. So i haf been downing panadols again. Till i finished all my panadols, so now my house no more.
My head is throbbing now, but tts coz i travelled too much today. So much so tt i haf motion sickness on the mrt. Can u believe tt? Oh yea, it seems my motion sickness had gotten worst lately as well. Not even e plasters can work, but maybe coz i need to renew them.
I haf been very busy looking for jobs. Busy searching, busy choosing, busy editing, busy sending, busy waiting, busy scheduling and busy interviewing. Not tt i am complaining though. Jus tt i noe i cant travel multiple times a day coz of my motion sickness prob.
I went for a interview tis morning. I went to another recruitment agency jus now. I came back and almost collapsed. Was extremely giddy. My mum said I travel more always lidat, useless... Lol. So u shd be thkful if u got no motion sickness prob, no low blood glucose prob n no blood pressure prob.
My blood pressures been pretty low lately, duno y. So maybe tts y i feel giddy. Its been ard 104/64 on average. The lower one is very low, not gd.
Anyways, i haf no idea wat im typing.
I think i will go haf an eye shut. I am going to hack my makeup and waxed hair for now. Later then clean myself.
Will blog tmr. If no agencies call me though.
I dun even haf e strength to bath my son (supposedly on sun). So i am going to postpone till tmr.
Anyways, yea, stay healthy.
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