Retrenched, 2 Weeks After Confirmation & A Pay Rise!

Finally, i can blog about it... Couldnt blog since Thursday. Extremely long entry ahead... Long story...

Shocking News: I HAD BEEN RETRENCHED!

Just when everything had been going so well, the shocking news came... Everything happened on last Thurday.

My company went into serious prob. One of our manufacturer screwed up and made our biggest client, who stands about 70-80% of our revenue, extremely unhappy. Thus, that client decided to pull out from us.

My Bosses are going to the US to sue the manufacturer, which of coz, u noe lawsuits will take an extremely long time.

It is not so much about the lawsuit, Im not sure whether will they be able to win back the most impt customer. If they dun, then its hard to continue.

My Bosses assured me again n again that e decision wasnt due to me... They really tried but they cant... Otherwise, they wouldnt give me my confirmation as well... Coz tis issue is not sudden, and it was a long and painful decision.

My female Boss said, it took her so long to finally find someone she like, someone capable and someone who can click with her mentally, after changing so many... It was a pity...

My male Boss said, if there is anything he can do for me, he will... Coz he is sincerely sorry for the unfortunate situation that drove them to desperation... If in the long future, they managed to climb back up, he will call me again... He hope... But of coz, it will take a long time to settle this issue.

My projects had been put on hold, due to the budget... So i called to cancel the appointment i made with the company then. All my mths of efforts just vanished at that moment... I even shredded all my notes, research and proposal before i left...

It was so god damn hard to stay composed then, during the meeting... I jus kept my smile and said, "Well, no worries, things happen, and sometimes we just have to take them in our stride." "Not a problem"

My Bosses were very sad, and i told them "Its ok"...

They said its up to me, i can leave on thurs or fri... I told them fri then, to round the things off... And my Boss said, "tts y we like u so much"... Which made the whole situation even more depressing...

I messaged my colleague behind me, and told him tmr my last day... He thot i was joking... And i told him i was sacked... He said his heart nearly stopped... He cant believe it, it was too sudden...

U noe we lunched in everyday, so my Boss told me that my lunch is on him tt day... But i didnt noe wat to eat... So he brought us out to Crystal Jade restaurant to eat... It was a good meal, though i wasnt in the mood... But everyone was trying to act like nothing happened...

I couldnt even see half of my colleagues coz they were on medical leave... Which was even more sad... I couldnt even see them one last time, in the company...

But of coz, my Bosses did watever they can for me... Instead of retrenchment letter, they let me do up a resignation... It reflects better for me... They wrote me a letter of reccomendation... And they also gave me one mth compensation, when they are actually not obligated to... Coz i was there for only a short time...

They could have easily gotten rid of me during my probation... But they didnt. So i noe they tried... But unfortunately, things happen...

My colleague was very sad, coz we really worked very well together...

The night before, my 2nd sis even told me before i slept that i dun noe how lucky i was to find such a gd company... And then this happened the next day...

I dun particularly like my job, but i love my company, my Bosses and my colleagues... They were so understanding, selfless... There was no politics, no rumours, no nothing... Just pure working relationships and frenships... I was prepared to stay long... But... Sigh...

I called up my each family member and they were so shocked, coz it was so sudden...

They consoled me and said, its ok, i will find another job, this is very common, market is really bad...

I finished all my work, handed over all my stuffs... And realised i haf nothing on hand anymore... So i told my Boss, my last day can be tt day unless they still need my help...

And thus, my last day was on thurs...

Before i left, my Boss came over and said, "Im missing u already"... I said, "Me also, how arh?" Sigh...

They saw me to the lift... And then my colleague drove me back... My colleague cant understand after so many, finally we got someone, and we worked so well... He cant understand y they haf to let me go... Is it tt bad? But it also made him realised how vulnerable he felt in the company now... He said hes going to be extremely lonely from now on... Especially the next day since hes alone...

I called up my other colleague who was on medical leave... I said, "U next monday come back arh? U come back not going to see me liao wor.. I got retrenched..." He was so shocked, and he said it was so unfair to me... He told me, before i came, the company was really quiet... But after i came, the situation changed, and i was the one, whom he tok to the most... He was very sad... He said that hes going to be lonely... He said he really cant bear... He also felt that he was on the chopping board next... But i told him wun one lah...

Coincidentally, my 1st sis asked me out for movie, coz it was complimentary... But she asked me i got mood or not... I said ok... We went to watch The Myth, i wanted to watch Tim Burton's Corpse Bride though coz i noe the Myth story already, but nvm lah... Then they brought me to eat the most delicious Bak Chow Mee and then to petshops...

Then i reached home ard 10 + pm, and i was all alone... Very sad n depressed... But i jus haf to get over it...

I really love the company... Never have i found a company that i really love... I wanted a company where i can stay long term... And now, i found myself back to sq1, i got to find numerous ads and send my resume, go for grueling interviews, start all the mignling, socialising, settling down process all over again... The thought of it already made me so sian...

I never regretted choosing this company, even though i had been offered other jobs then... Coz they were really such wonderful colleagues... I wrote them a farewell email, and their replies were very sweet...

I really duno how man...

I went for a slight retail therapy but it didnt work... Then i sent my hp for software upgrade... Upon which i realised after i left, tt my data which was going to be lost, had my photos of my company... I guess its really not meant to be...

Just when i thought for the 1st time, i haf some luck in my life and that my life is rather peaceful and became slightly better and this happened...

I told some ppl i really think i am a jinx leh... The 1st 2 companies i worked in went bankrupt... 3rd company didnt do well when i went in and picked up immediately after i left... And now this 4th one...

4 liao leh... Got so qiao one meh...

Jul said i think too much... My Dad said my life is always so suay wat, no choice...

Maybe e next one will be much better? I duno but i certainly hope so... Though i doubt it will be...

Jul asked me to rest 1st, but my mum wan me to quickly find, coz she wan the money...

Sigh... Sianz...