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Saturday, October 15, 2005
Didnt Managed...
Hmm, yest didnt managed to meet Shuzhen wor...
Wanted to return her Da Vinci and also get the new epis of Naruto...
But she messaged me said she forgot... Haha, so next tues liao...
I even bath earlier and also got dressed decently...
Nvm lah, ppl very busy one, not like the lazy me... Shes very hardworking one u noe... Her last yr in NUS liao, mus bia the last 2 sems... And she work and study at the same time somemore... Very xin ku...
I cant imagine jus half a yr more, her study yrs can say finished liao... But mine still duno where yet... I wonder how it feels like to find tt u had finished ur studying curve... Hmm, nvm, i will find out hopefully before 28?
My mum had been asking me, wats going between her n me... I am so frustrated to even start explaining... I only tell her, "Aiyah, she exams lah, Aiyah, she working lah!"...
Not 1st time lidat wat... Duno y she still ask...
Doesnt matter lah... So dun ask...
Wanted to return her Da Vinci and also get the new epis of Naruto...
But she messaged me said she forgot... Haha, so next tues liao...
I even bath earlier and also got dressed decently...
Nvm lah, ppl very busy one, not like the lazy me... Shes very hardworking one u noe... Her last yr in NUS liao, mus bia the last 2 sems... And she work and study at the same time somemore... Very xin ku...
I cant imagine jus half a yr more, her study yrs can say finished liao... But mine still duno where yet... I wonder how it feels like to find tt u had finished ur studying curve... Hmm, nvm, i will find out hopefully before 28?
My mum had been asking me, wats going between her n me... I am so frustrated to even start explaining... I only tell her, "Aiyah, she exams lah, Aiyah, she working lah!"...
Not 1st time lidat wat... Duno y she still ask...
Doesnt matter lah... So dun ask...
14-Day Lacto Vegetarian: Day 6
I didnt wan to eat blindly... So i jus did some research... And found out i am a LACTO-VEGETARIAN... It includes dairy products but exclude eggs...
My groceries running out liao, tmr may go down to supermarket to stock up... I need to buy some food... Coz i ran through wat i ate and realised i am getting too little protein...
Besides tofu, i will get soya milk...
Being a lacto-vegetarian, u can take dairy products... Which is better for me, coz i still wan to eat bread u noe... I dun wanna trouble myself to get non-dairy bread, non-dairy beverage, non-dairy noodles, pasta, etc... Plus, i wan to drink MILK!!! And i cook wif margarine... And cheese sometimes, for pasta...
There is another category called LACTO-OVO-VEGETARIAN, the diet includes eggs... But somehow, i am happy enuff wif the inclusive of dairy products... So i can live without eggs (though i like) for 2 weeks...
Also, there is SEMI-VEGETARIAN as well...
Aiyah, summarise lah...
I like seafood also... Not to mention my fav food is sushi, salmon sushi! Mus eat!
But of coz, i also like beef... Hmm, occasionally...
Ooo... I jus learnt how to cook black pepper udon leh... Heh, very nice u noe... But not vegetarian one lah of coz... I wan to try black pepper beef udon after im over wif this phrase... But warning hor, very spicy... Those who cant take hot food, too bad...
My sis arh, today bought bread again... I see see look look, mostly all meat one... Cannot eat, only left one choc one and one raisins one... So i took the choc one, she asked me y... I said i CHI ZAI MAH, and she exclaimed, "YAHOR! Aiyah, i even chose the usual bread u like, and i chose the choc one for myself!"... Dun care, i ate half of the choc one anyways, who ask her forget... Muahahahah...
My groceries running out liao, tmr may go down to supermarket to stock up... I need to buy some food... Coz i ran through wat i ate and realised i am getting too little protein...
Besides tofu, i will get soya milk...
Being a lacto-vegetarian, u can take dairy products... Which is better for me, coz i still wan to eat bread u noe... I dun wanna trouble myself to get non-dairy bread, non-dairy beverage, non-dairy noodles, pasta, etc... Plus, i wan to drink MILK!!! And i cook wif margarine... And cheese sometimes, for pasta...
There is another category called LACTO-OVO-VEGETARIAN, the diet includes eggs... But somehow, i am happy enuff wif the inclusive of dairy products... So i can live without eggs (though i like) for 2 weeks...
Also, there is SEMI-VEGETARIAN as well...
Aiyah, summarise lah...
- LACTO-VEGETARIAN - Includes dairy products
- LACTO-OVO-VEGETARIAN - Includes dairy products and eggs
- SEMI-VEGETARIAN- Includes dairy products and eggs, fish and poultry, no red meat
- VEGAN OR TOTAL VEGETARIAN - Minus dairy products, eggs, and all meat
It is seriously very ex to be a healthy vegan... Coz u need to buy YOUR KIND of food... Like i said, bread cannot anyhow eat... Go coffeeshop cannot even buy coffee or milo... Can lah, black coffee lor... Milk cannot drink also... Cannot use butter also... So all the nutrients need substitutions... Stress arh...
Semi seems gd... Coz i luv to eat fish... Seriously, i cannot wait for day 15, coz i already thot of cooking fish soup... Hahaha, so many dishes of fishes already crossed my tiny brain... See arh, my fav curry fish head and stingray all fish leh...I like seafood also... Not to mention my fav food is sushi, salmon sushi! Mus eat!
But of coz, i also like beef... Hmm, occasionally...
Ooo... I jus learnt how to cook black pepper udon leh... Heh, very nice u noe... But not vegetarian one lah of coz... I wan to try black pepper beef udon after im over wif this phrase... But warning hor, very spicy... Those who cant take hot food, too bad...
My sis arh, today bought bread again... I see see look look, mostly all meat one... Cannot eat, only left one choc one and one raisins one... So i took the choc one, she asked me y... I said i CHI ZAI MAH, and she exclaimed, "YAHOR! Aiyah, i even chose the usual bread u like, and i chose the choc one for myself!"... Dun care, i ate half of the choc one anyways, who ask her forget... Muahahahah...
Friday, October 14, 2005
Have U Ever?
Hmm, title reminds me of e song i used to sing leh... Haha... Now ppl cheenafied liao, hard to sing el songs at ktv eh?
Haf u ever dreamt of the same person multiple times throughout ur life? And every time in the dream, u always tell the person the same thing...
I had been dreaming about this guy who was a very gd fren of mine during pri 4... But of coz, time n distance soon drew us apart after we were streamed to our new classes... I never see him again after we graduated except to see him twice outside...
And each time in the dreams, i tell him the same things over and over again...
The conversation will always start as this, "Ive been trying to tell u this for so long... xxxxx"
I noe at the bottom of my heart i haf so many things to tell him, i haf things to say, things to apologise, things to confess, things to clarify, things to ask... It has always been a knot in my heart... And always at the back of my mind...
In fact, i may even tok more about him than my ex bfs...
Actually i mentioned tis person before in my older entries... Cut things short, i did tried to find tt person n try to do it in real life... Coz i knew it was something my heart didnt wan to let go... I found him but his attitude made me gave up the idea in the end...
I gave him benefit of the doubts so as to maintain the perfect picture in my heart...
I thot i told myself to let it go...
But jus the other day, i dreamt of the same thing again...
It came back...
I am used to having repetitive dreams throughout my life, but i noe tis one is different... Coz i noe deep in me, it meant something and i noe i was wishing it to happen... So i dreamt it so as to fulfil the wish but only to wake up wif greater disappointments...
I guess my subconciousness will never get it...
Dun ask me to do it, coz all i can tell u is, in most things it take 2 hands to clap... I tried but things arent so simple... If it was meant to be, i believe it will happen one day...
Speaking of dreams, i had a funny one the other day... I duno how many of u dreamt urself writing something, but i can say its hard... I tried to write in my dreams, and the words ended up in hard-to-read scribbles... Its very funny...
I was focusing so hard on the paper and yet i couldnt write properly... I even laughed at myself in my dreams...
Oh well, dreams are so fascinating, arent they?
Haf u ever dreamt of the same person multiple times throughout ur life? And every time in the dream, u always tell the person the same thing...
I had been dreaming about this guy who was a very gd fren of mine during pri 4... But of coz, time n distance soon drew us apart after we were streamed to our new classes... I never see him again after we graduated except to see him twice outside...
And each time in the dreams, i tell him the same things over and over again...
The conversation will always start as this, "Ive been trying to tell u this for so long... xxxxx"
I noe at the bottom of my heart i haf so many things to tell him, i haf things to say, things to apologise, things to confess, things to clarify, things to ask... It has always been a knot in my heart... And always at the back of my mind...
In fact, i may even tok more about him than my ex bfs...
Actually i mentioned tis person before in my older entries... Cut things short, i did tried to find tt person n try to do it in real life... Coz i knew it was something my heart didnt wan to let go... I found him but his attitude made me gave up the idea in the end...
I gave him benefit of the doubts so as to maintain the perfect picture in my heart...
I thot i told myself to let it go...
But jus the other day, i dreamt of the same thing again...
It came back...
I am used to having repetitive dreams throughout my life, but i noe tis one is different... Coz i noe deep in me, it meant something and i noe i was wishing it to happen... So i dreamt it so as to fulfil the wish but only to wake up wif greater disappointments...
I guess my subconciousness will never get it...
Dun ask me to do it, coz all i can tell u is, in most things it take 2 hands to clap... I tried but things arent so simple... If it was meant to be, i believe it will happen one day...
Speaking of dreams, i had a funny one the other day... I duno how many of u dreamt urself writing something, but i can say its hard... I tried to write in my dreams, and the words ended up in hard-to-read scribbles... Its very funny...
I was focusing so hard on the paper and yet i couldnt write properly... I even laughed at myself in my dreams...
Oh well, dreams are so fascinating, arent they?
Their choices...
Was looking thru new photos tt my frenz put up on friendster... Wah, i got one fren, she was slim with abit fleshy cute face... But now, she is stick thin like her other close frenz... Really extremely skinny...
Im sure my fren will say her figure very gd... Coz she stick thin...
Her face totally changed somemore...
With a new body, apparently she changed her whole set of photos... She even added so much more than her usual... So it implied its the confidence thingy... Now tt shes stick thin, she flaunt her skinny "gd-figured" body...
Which makes me wonder... She was already slim so i dun understand y she did tt... Nvm lah, ppl happy can liao... If ppl need to be stick thin to feel confident and beautiful then so be it lor... To me, she is pretty no matter before or after... And best of all, shes smart too... Got the brains wor...
Which reminded me of another one...
I dun understand how some ppl can put up photos of her n bf smooching, wif tongue somemore... Its a bit revoking... Especially when u noe she dumped her bf of many yrs for the current one, who dumped his gf for her as well...
I never can accept breach of faith n trust between couples... Never will... Then again, who am i to judge... Its so common right...
Received my hp bill today, now poorer abit... Haha...
I was thinking of buying more groceries later, coz i thot of a new receipe and i needed 2 more stuffs... Maybe save money or something... Will see...
Im sure my fren will say her figure very gd... Coz she stick thin...
Her face totally changed somemore...
With a new body, apparently she changed her whole set of photos... She even added so much more than her usual... So it implied its the confidence thingy... Now tt shes stick thin, she flaunt her skinny "gd-figured" body...
Which makes me wonder... She was already slim so i dun understand y she did tt... Nvm lah, ppl happy can liao... If ppl need to be stick thin to feel confident and beautiful then so be it lor... To me, she is pretty no matter before or after... And best of all, shes smart too... Got the brains wor...
Which reminded me of another one...
I dun understand how some ppl can put up photos of her n bf smooching, wif tongue somemore... Its a bit revoking... Especially when u noe she dumped her bf of many yrs for the current one, who dumped his gf for her as well...
I never can accept breach of faith n trust between couples... Never will... Then again, who am i to judge... Its so common right...
Received my hp bill today, now poorer abit... Haha...
I was thinking of buying more groceries later, coz i thot of a new receipe and i needed 2 more stuffs... Maybe save money or something... Will see...
Thursday, October 13, 2005
14-Day Vegetarian: Day 4
Hmm, tonight i will be cooking corn soup with vegeroni... Wonder how it tastes like... Hahaha, i haf no idea...
I ate bread with potato salad jus now... Of coz, all home made by yours truly...
My bittergourd soup yest night very nice... I like... Haha...
I think i will need to stock up again next week... See how bah...
The thing i abit cant stand is, cannot eat garlic... Which those who noes me, noe i will put a truckload of them on my every dish... But no choice lah... Dun eat lor... I now put truckload of onions instead... Hahaha... Which scares me abit...
I ate bread with potato salad jus now... Of coz, all home made by yours truly...
My bittergourd soup yest night very nice... I like... Haha...
I think i will need to stock up again next week... See how bah...
The thing i abit cant stand is, cannot eat garlic... Which those who noes me, noe i will put a truckload of them on my every dish... But no choice lah... Dun eat lor... I now put truckload of onions instead... Hahaha... Which scares me abit...
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
14-Day Vegetarian: Day 3
Forgot to blog about tis entry...
Last sun, i cooked dinner for my family, coz my mum wan to eat some dishes tt i cooked...
Then, after tt, i suddenly had the urge to cook my own food, since im at home anyways... But real reason was actually, coz i dun like to eat her food...
On one, her food is super unhealthy, oily and salty...
On two, she gets very frustrated cooking and will complain n complain...
On three, becoz of her temperament, her food is starting to taste different...
On four, she started to be calculative tt i eat her food, money etc...
On five, becoz of all these reasons, i had started to lose interest in food... And i feel so sick during dinner... So much so tt i feel like puking...
I am very particular when i cook... I refused to use salt, oil, msg, sugar, etc... Of coz, depend on who i cook for, if its for others, i will do it according to their preferences... But for myself, its a BIG NONO...
My food doesnt taste bland coz i noe how to create the taste without using additional chemicals... But i use alot of wine though... So the money goes over there... Haha... For the oil part, either i use the meat's natural oil, if not i will use the healthiest oil in e oil in e world, as u noe, OLIVE OIL, but ex leh... The real one... Cheap ones no gd one... So currently i still use margarine, non fat and no cholesterol... Taste better than oil and so much more healthier and doesnt make e kitchen oily...
But the only prob was, how the hell am i supposed to let her noe tt i wan to cook my own dishes from now on...
Obviously, if u noe her, she would never allow me to...
She doesnt like ppl to intrude her territory (kitchen), she will grumble n grumble n grumble... Whenever i cook, she will start toking about the gas, the oil, etc tt i use... Sigh, so i tell u its hard... Even the lights tt i on she will start complaining...
Actually, if she wans to eat my food, i dun mind cooking from now on... Jus tt, she wans her food to be oily n salty... Thus, compromising cannot be done... No pt if i cook two sets...
Anyways, i thot of trying out to embark on a 14 days vegetarian journey... No, i wun be buying vegetarian food outside... Coz i dun like... I only like my own food...
I wan to see how it turns out... Then after tt, i hope to continue to cook... Will see how it goes...
I told my sis, and she said i would sure get a ranting from her...
Anyways, i did...
She did grumble n grumble everyday... But hacked anyways...
Today is my 3rd day... I started on Mon, and i went to NTUC and bought like 4 bags of food which weighed like scary 20 kg... Costs me about $40...
I came back and she screamed, she said i am preparing for war... Haha... And of coz, complained our fridge is small, i will spoil the fridge etc... Hack hack...
I cooked luo song soup aka ABC soup on the 1st day... Oh, i didnt eat lunch coz i forgot... Haha... The soup is so nice... Even my family agreed... Wahahaha...
2nd day lunch i ate bread, then dinner i cooked mushroom vege pasta... Very nice...
Tonight i will be cooking bittergourd soup... Sure damn nice one... Whaahahah... Looking forward to it...
My 1st night, i also got fry a plate of shrooms n veges... Then my mum was saying "So Siang" in the living room... Which meant smells nice... Then i said, my food always smell nice one mah, hahaha... Then she asked how come her vege dun smell nice... I said, coz i didnt use oil...
Tis part i duno how to explain, if got chance u see me cook then u will noe y mine smells good...
Im surprised im not tempted by meat... Only felt funny when i realised i cannot eat so many things.... Like my mum bought one bag of o-tah... I looked at them and wanted to ask can i eat one, only to realise the next moment o-tah is fish, stupid... Haha...
THen i saw my fav nasi lemak, then i was thinking if i was to eat... Then i need to take out e fish, e egg, the ikan bilis... Means only left peanuts n chili, hahaha...
Then my sis bought bread and kept commenting about one heart shaped curry chicken bread... Then i said i cannot eat... She asked y then i said "Wo Chi Zai!"... I think i duno say this phrase how times a day...
My mum said later her bf buy rojak... I even had to think can eat or not... Then concluded can... But while im writing this, i realised the sauce is prawn paste mah... SO cannot, i jus shouted to her tt i cant eat... Hahhaaha... She said eat abit nvm, but i said cannot, later not counted...
Actually i eat Zai got reason one, it has something to do wif my ill luck lately... But dun think i will elaborate...
Anyways, will most prob document this 14 day thingy, though ive missed out the 1st 2 days... Nvm lah... Hahah...
Ok, i go see wat to eat for my lunch...
Last sun, i cooked dinner for my family, coz my mum wan to eat some dishes tt i cooked...
Then, after tt, i suddenly had the urge to cook my own food, since im at home anyways... But real reason was actually, coz i dun like to eat her food...
On one, her food is super unhealthy, oily and salty...
On two, she gets very frustrated cooking and will complain n complain...
On three, becoz of her temperament, her food is starting to taste different...
On four, she started to be calculative tt i eat her food, money etc...
On five, becoz of all these reasons, i had started to lose interest in food... And i feel so sick during dinner... So much so tt i feel like puking...
I am very particular when i cook... I refused to use salt, oil, msg, sugar, etc... Of coz, depend on who i cook for, if its for others, i will do it according to their preferences... But for myself, its a BIG NONO...
My food doesnt taste bland coz i noe how to create the taste without using additional chemicals... But i use alot of wine though... So the money goes over there... Haha... For the oil part, either i use the meat's natural oil, if not i will use the healthiest oil in e oil in e world, as u noe, OLIVE OIL, but ex leh... The real one... Cheap ones no gd one... So currently i still use margarine, non fat and no cholesterol... Taste better than oil and so much more healthier and doesnt make e kitchen oily...
But the only prob was, how the hell am i supposed to let her noe tt i wan to cook my own dishes from now on...
Obviously, if u noe her, she would never allow me to...
She doesnt like ppl to intrude her territory (kitchen), she will grumble n grumble n grumble... Whenever i cook, she will start toking about the gas, the oil, etc tt i use... Sigh, so i tell u its hard... Even the lights tt i on she will start complaining...
Actually, if she wans to eat my food, i dun mind cooking from now on... Jus tt, she wans her food to be oily n salty... Thus, compromising cannot be done... No pt if i cook two sets...
Anyways, i thot of trying out to embark on a 14 days vegetarian journey... No, i wun be buying vegetarian food outside... Coz i dun like... I only like my own food...
I wan to see how it turns out... Then after tt, i hope to continue to cook... Will see how it goes...
I told my sis, and she said i would sure get a ranting from her...
Anyways, i did...
She did grumble n grumble everyday... But hacked anyways...
Today is my 3rd day... I started on Mon, and i went to NTUC and bought like 4 bags of food which weighed like scary 20 kg... Costs me about $40...
I came back and she screamed, she said i am preparing for war... Haha... And of coz, complained our fridge is small, i will spoil the fridge etc... Hack hack...
I cooked luo song soup aka ABC soup on the 1st day... Oh, i didnt eat lunch coz i forgot... Haha... The soup is so nice... Even my family agreed... Wahahaha...
2nd day lunch i ate bread, then dinner i cooked mushroom vege pasta... Very nice...
Tonight i will be cooking bittergourd soup... Sure damn nice one... Whaahahah... Looking forward to it...
My 1st night, i also got fry a plate of shrooms n veges... Then my mum was saying "So Siang" in the living room... Which meant smells nice... Then i said, my food always smell nice one mah, hahaha... Then she asked how come her vege dun smell nice... I said, coz i didnt use oil...
Tis part i duno how to explain, if got chance u see me cook then u will noe y mine smells good...
Im surprised im not tempted by meat... Only felt funny when i realised i cannot eat so many things.... Like my mum bought one bag of o-tah... I looked at them and wanted to ask can i eat one, only to realise the next moment o-tah is fish, stupid... Haha...
THen i saw my fav nasi lemak, then i was thinking if i was to eat... Then i need to take out e fish, e egg, the ikan bilis... Means only left peanuts n chili, hahaha...
Then my sis bought bread and kept commenting about one heart shaped curry chicken bread... Then i said i cannot eat... She asked y then i said "Wo Chi Zai!"... I think i duno say this phrase how times a day...
My mum said later her bf buy rojak... I even had to think can eat or not... Then concluded can... But while im writing this, i realised the sauce is prawn paste mah... SO cannot, i jus shouted to her tt i cant eat... Hahhaaha... She said eat abit nvm, but i said cannot, later not counted...
Actually i eat Zai got reason one, it has something to do wif my ill luck lately... But dun think i will elaborate...
Anyways, will most prob document this 14 day thingy, though ive missed out the 1st 2 days... Nvm lah... Hahah...
Ok, i go see wat to eat for my lunch...
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Pics Pics!!!
Alright... Pics pics ahead...
I bought Qi Ling Wang aka Qi Hun figurines... Saw many times le... Tis time then buy... Tis set costs $7.50 but then i took the display set coz no more le... The guy asked me ok or not... I thot for a moment and said ok lor, then he kept apologising...
Got another set is this 4 characters standing then cost $6.90 but i prefer tis one... More interaction n got the chess table somemore...
This is Akira & Hikaru... Akira's hair green color one, i like... Muahahahah... But this pictures very dark so think u all cannot see properly... But nvm lah... Hor?
Tis is tong jing n tt one i forgot his name... Thot it was San Gu, but seems like another character coz of e fan... Hmm...
Duno their jap names, coz the later boxes only in mandarin... I wan the DVD!!! Duno when then buy...
Arh, this is the ghost lor, Sai or Zuo Wei in mandarin... Love him so much but he die leh in the end... So sad... I cried n cried... Yalah, i noe he ghost means dead... I meant he disappeared forever tt kind...
Wa, the classic moment... See liao very sad... But like Sai though disappear liao will still watch over Hikaru like tis forever...
I wan to buy the DVD leh... Full set only $90, very cheap... Hmm... Then in Jap somemore... Sigh... DUno when i can get leh... Now no job somemore...
Anyways, i bought something else...
Quite ex leh... $10!
U guess...
Eh? Wats tis?
Wats tis?
Can guess or not?
Still duno arh?
Wan to cry liao...
*Yawns* Tired of waiting...
Dozing off...
Head heavy...
"BOOM"... zzZZZZzzzzZZzzzzzzzZZZZZZ
Hehe, for those who noe... Yup, its Naruto's sleeping hat!!!! Muahahahah... So cute right... I thot its kids size one, didnt noe i can wear somemore, especially when i got a big head...
It got magical powers somemore, i dozed off after wearing it for 3 mins... No wonder Naruto always carry it with him even when hes on mission... Its a magical sleeping hat...
I noe its bo liao lah, and not worth the money but i like leh...
I even had to lie to my mum that my fren gave it to me... Coz she was scolding me... She jumped when she open the box, coz black black she thot its a wig... Haha... My sister was so shocked when she saw me posing to camera wif tt hat, she asked me wat is tt disgusting black thingy... Then i told her my fren gave me one but cost $10...
She then screamed $10!!!! Crazy arh!!!
Aiyah, they never watch e anime mah... I like leh, cannot arh???
Ok lah, it came with something else too...
One Konoha Sweet...
Stingy hor? One only...
Tt black black thing is my Pappy lor, he come KPO when the camera click... Then got him inside... But cute leh, i like... He thot i was eating so he also wan to eat... He very self service one...
Mmmm... Not bad leh, i like the sweet...
This is everything i bought at the treasure hunting shop...
My hat very sad leh... Mus be he dun like Pappy coz both same colors one...
I bought Qi Ling Wang aka Qi Hun figurines... Saw many times le... Tis time then buy... Tis set costs $7.50 but then i took the display set coz no more le... The guy asked me ok or not... I thot for a moment and said ok lor, then he kept apologising...
Got another set is this 4 characters standing then cost $6.90 but i prefer tis one... More interaction n got the chess table somemore...
This is Akira & Hikaru... Akira's hair green color one, i like... Muahahahah... But this pictures very dark so think u all cannot see properly... But nvm lah... Hor?
Tis is tong jing n tt one i forgot his name... Thot it was San Gu, but seems like another character coz of e fan... Hmm...
Duno their jap names, coz the later boxes only in mandarin... I wan the DVD!!! Duno when then buy...
Arh, this is the ghost lor, Sai or Zuo Wei in mandarin... Love him so much but he die leh in the end... So sad... I cried n cried... Yalah, i noe he ghost means dead... I meant he disappeared forever tt kind...
Wa, the classic moment... See liao very sad... But like Sai though disappear liao will still watch over Hikaru like tis forever...
I wan to buy the DVD leh... Full set only $90, very cheap... Hmm... Then in Jap somemore... Sigh... DUno when i can get leh... Now no job somemore...
Anyways, i bought something else...
Quite ex leh... $10!
U guess...
Eh? Wats tis?
Wats tis?
Can guess or not?
Still duno arh?
Wan to cry liao...
*Yawns* Tired of waiting...
Dozing off...
Head heavy...
"BOOM"... zzZZZZzzzzZZzzzzzzzZZZZZZ
Hehe, for those who noe... Yup, its Naruto's sleeping hat!!!! Muahahahah... So cute right... I thot its kids size one, didnt noe i can wear somemore, especially when i got a big head...
It got magical powers somemore, i dozed off after wearing it for 3 mins... No wonder Naruto always carry it with him even when hes on mission... Its a magical sleeping hat...
I noe its bo liao lah, and not worth the money but i like leh...
I even had to lie to my mum that my fren gave it to me... Coz she was scolding me... She jumped when she open the box, coz black black she thot its a wig... Haha... My sister was so shocked when she saw me posing to camera wif tt hat, she asked me wat is tt disgusting black thingy... Then i told her my fren gave me one but cost $10...
She then screamed $10!!!! Crazy arh!!!
Aiyah, they never watch e anime mah... I like leh, cannot arh???
Ok lah, it came with something else too...
One Konoha Sweet...
Stingy hor? One only...
Tt black black thing is my Pappy lor, he come KPO when the camera click... Then got him inside... But cute leh, i like... He thot i was eating so he also wan to eat... He very self service one...
Mmmm... Not bad leh, i like the sweet...
This is everything i bought at the treasure hunting shop...
My hat very sad leh... Mus be he dun like Pappy coz both same colors one...
Ragnarok
Im done wif Ragnarok le... But like wat Shuzhen said, the later episodes picked up...
Later part of the show actually not bad, can watch... But i watched them miserably... Coz most got errors one... SO i had to view them tediously...
Becoz the later part, this is a main story line... Not one episode kill demons in a quest... So its more watchable...
But got one part very funny leh...
Got one handsome chap he injured badly... Then e girl who liked him and travelled wif him, took off all her clothes and said i wan to do something for you, be of help to you for once... Then of coz black out no more liao...
I thot she transferred her life to him or something...
Then, after tt, the remaining episodes they weird weird one, i cannot understand...
One episode the guy said to her, Your life is burning in me, so i wun die yet... Something like tt... So i thot she really transfered her life to him and tt she was going to die soon...
Coz he every now n then, tell her tt hes sorry tt he got her into tis stage...
Then of coz, tis chap died heroically coz he wanted to save his best fren who had fallen to the dark side... So the villain (his best fren) and him died together...
Then u noe wat?
End credits showed the gal pregnant wor!!! And gave birth to a baby boy who looked exactly like e chap... Be4 tt, after he died, the gal said she now wan to protect the Iruga in her... I didnt noe shes refering to their baby...
In fact, i didnt even noe, tt night meant tt they had SEX!!!!
Unbelievable... Sooo weird... Makes no sense... He injured so badly like in coma wan to die tt kind still can haf sex... Somemore haf sex liao allow him to live longer... So crappy...
Which meant one thing, hes sorry tt he chose his best fren instead of her n their baby... Which is like even more sad right...
Ragnarok hor, alot of ppl die... I dun like... Ending left only 4 characters, the rest be it good or evil or died along their way...
To me, the show nailed it on 2 episodes... Episodes 19 and 20... I cried n cried on epi 20... Very sad... And their acting and flow is excellent... The way the story writer depicted how the character's reaction to e horrible thing she did was simply brilliant...
He didnt jus make her break down n cry...
She was in shock after she saw the truth... It took her a long time for the reality to sink in and she totally lost it...
She wanted to give in to her enemy, and said Enuff Already... She asked, if she died will she be able to be with Alice... So sad, like e story in Naruto... The haku story... Isit Haku? Cannot remember lah, the 1st mission of Naruto...
(Oh my god, my mum jus told me i had been using the same rice bowl as her bf... Wa lao... So disgusting, now she then tell me... Nvm, she bought another bowl for me liao... Eeeee... )
Imagine in a world of demons n humans, u befriended a monster (who disguised as a human), and soon became very close very close wif her... Both of u became best frenz, coz both of u haf no families...
Everyone said monsters n human will never become frenz... Ppl laugh at u, cursed u... But u never once falter... Coz u noe the frenship u've wif her was genuine n strong...
Upon travelling quests to earn money in trading, all u can think of is her hiding in ur hometown everyday... One day, your journey turned back to ur hometown and u went to look for her... U asked her to travel wif u and she agreed... Both always together...
U made a pact wif her to meet her the next morning in their usual meeting place, which is a park on top of a hill...
But night before, the evil villain casted a spell on her... She mutated...
Next morning, the city was in detruction, coz the monster, gigantic and super ugly had destroyed the place...
U waited at the park and wonder y is she late... U started to hum both ur fav tune...
The monster heard it, and headed to the park...
The monster stood before u... U then saw smoke n fire in ur hometown... U cursed n yelled at the monster, for destroying the home town of urs n ur best fren...
U started to hack n slash at the monster, all the while, the monster never fought back... U cursed and slashed, cursed and slashed... U called the monster evil, u called the monster UGLY!!! Almost enjoying the process of killing such a huge demon... U were drenched, totallly drenched with the monster's blood... U threw the monster off the hill...
U started to think of ur best fren... Where is she? Y is she late? U started to hum...
The monster who was half conscious, heard the song, and climbed back up the hill... The monster crawled, desperately crawling behind u... The monster tried to reach for u but couldnt... The monster died, and laid motionless...
U knew u heard ur best fren behind u... U shouted her name and turned...
U saw the monster, lying there... Half of the mutated monster's face was ur best fren...
U stood there...
Wat haf u done?
How could u not tell?
The ever 1st great monster u killed, was?
Later part of the show actually not bad, can watch... But i watched them miserably... Coz most got errors one... SO i had to view them tediously...
Becoz the later part, this is a main story line... Not one episode kill demons in a quest... So its more watchable...
But got one part very funny leh...
Got one handsome chap he injured badly... Then e girl who liked him and travelled wif him, took off all her clothes and said i wan to do something for you, be of help to you for once... Then of coz black out no more liao...
I thot she transferred her life to him or something...
Then, after tt, the remaining episodes they weird weird one, i cannot understand...
One episode the guy said to her, Your life is burning in me, so i wun die yet... Something like tt... So i thot she really transfered her life to him and tt she was going to die soon...
Coz he every now n then, tell her tt hes sorry tt he got her into tis stage...
Then of coz, tis chap died heroically coz he wanted to save his best fren who had fallen to the dark side... So the villain (his best fren) and him died together...
Then u noe wat?
End credits showed the gal pregnant wor!!! And gave birth to a baby boy who looked exactly like e chap... Be4 tt, after he died, the gal said she now wan to protect the Iruga in her... I didnt noe shes refering to their baby...
In fact, i didnt even noe, tt night meant tt they had SEX!!!!
Unbelievable... Sooo weird... Makes no sense... He injured so badly like in coma wan to die tt kind still can haf sex... Somemore haf sex liao allow him to live longer... So crappy...
Which meant one thing, hes sorry tt he chose his best fren instead of her n their baby... Which is like even more sad right...
Ragnarok hor, alot of ppl die... I dun like... Ending left only 4 characters, the rest be it good or evil or died along their way...
To me, the show nailed it on 2 episodes... Episodes 19 and 20... I cried n cried on epi 20... Very sad... And their acting and flow is excellent... The way the story writer depicted how the character's reaction to e horrible thing she did was simply brilliant...
He didnt jus make her break down n cry...
She was in shock after she saw the truth... It took her a long time for the reality to sink in and she totally lost it...
She wanted to give in to her enemy, and said Enuff Already... She asked, if she died will she be able to be with Alice... So sad, like e story in Naruto... The haku story... Isit Haku? Cannot remember lah, the 1st mission of Naruto...
(Oh my god, my mum jus told me i had been using the same rice bowl as her bf... Wa lao... So disgusting, now she then tell me... Nvm, she bought another bowl for me liao... Eeeee... )
Imagine in a world of demons n humans, u befriended a monster (who disguised as a human), and soon became very close very close wif her... Both of u became best frenz, coz both of u haf no families...
Everyone said monsters n human will never become frenz... Ppl laugh at u, cursed u... But u never once falter... Coz u noe the frenship u've wif her was genuine n strong...
Upon travelling quests to earn money in trading, all u can think of is her hiding in ur hometown everyday... One day, your journey turned back to ur hometown and u went to look for her... U asked her to travel wif u and she agreed... Both always together...
U made a pact wif her to meet her the next morning in their usual meeting place, which is a park on top of a hill...
But night before, the evil villain casted a spell on her... She mutated...
Next morning, the city was in detruction, coz the monster, gigantic and super ugly had destroyed the place...
U waited at the park and wonder y is she late... U started to hum both ur fav tune...
The monster heard it, and headed to the park...
The monster stood before u... U then saw smoke n fire in ur hometown... U cursed n yelled at the monster, for destroying the home town of urs n ur best fren...
U started to hack n slash at the monster, all the while, the monster never fought back... U cursed and slashed, cursed and slashed... U called the monster evil, u called the monster UGLY!!! Almost enjoying the process of killing such a huge demon... U were drenched, totallly drenched with the monster's blood... U threw the monster off the hill...
U started to think of ur best fren... Where is she? Y is she late? U started to hum...
The monster who was half conscious, heard the song, and climbed back up the hill... The monster crawled, desperately crawling behind u... The monster tried to reach for u but couldnt... The monster died, and laid motionless...
U knew u heard ur best fren behind u... U shouted her name and turned...
U saw the monster, lying there... Half of the mutated monster's face was ur best fren...
U stood there...
Wat haf u done?
How could u not tell?
The ever 1st great monster u killed, was?
Monday, October 10, 2005
Awkard...
I am lazy to job hunt leh... No gd right... I noe I noe...
I headed over to central tt night... I went treasure hunting in tt particular shop and again, i spent money wor...
I met one DMD guy, duno his name, he also duno mine... Forgot liao lah... Haha, coz we duno each other one...
He: Eh, u look familiar leh, from where one arh?
Me: NYP...
Haha, even when i was in dmd, i also duno him... We knew each other, coz we always bumped into each other in sch(when alone)...
It went from total strangers jus crossing paths, to exchanging quick smiles to acknowledge tt we noe we keep seeing each other and finally during yr 3, he broke the ice and kicked up a conversation... I remembered we were alone in the lift of BLK L... Then we walked over to the atrium area, where i headed home and he went to the canteen...
And then, from smiling, we moved on to simple greetings every time we saw each other... Then, finally one fine day, he said, "I see u so many times, still duno ur name!", we exchanged names, but i seriously couldnt catch his name...
It was a chinese name i think... Wei something i think, i am very bad in remembering chinese names...
He bought himself a huge remote controlled helicopter wor, cost $80+... I told him i was thinking whether or not to buy some figurines... Then he said, "Money earned is to spend one, buy lah." I replied, "Cannot think like tt, money earned mus save also!"... We then started laughing, but it became awkard after tt, coz we ran out of small toks... So we separated in the small shop...
He was wif his frenz... SO i left him with them...
Anways, i bought them lah in the end... Haha, will post up pictures... I also bought something that is funny but not worth e money but i like leh... Haha... I will post the pics in tmr entry or something...
I also wanted to buy drama series... And the one tt i mentioned hor, is really trying to cheat money one... Coz its latest mah... THen u noe how much it vost or not?
$29!!!!!
Not for whole series leh, only Part 1 with 7 episodes... Altogether got 3 Boxes... Crazy leh... Chinese drama series where got this price one... Cheat money, i dun allow them to cheat my money... So ive decided to REN and watch TV instead... Hahaha...
I spent $17.50... Not alot i noe... But then, on toys like abit stupid right... Dun care lah, i like can liao...
I headed over to central tt night... I went treasure hunting in tt particular shop and again, i spent money wor...
I met one DMD guy, duno his name, he also duno mine... Forgot liao lah... Haha, coz we duno each other one...
He: Eh, u look familiar leh, from where one arh?
Me: NYP...
Haha, even when i was in dmd, i also duno him... We knew each other, coz we always bumped into each other in sch(when alone)...
It went from total strangers jus crossing paths, to exchanging quick smiles to acknowledge tt we noe we keep seeing each other and finally during yr 3, he broke the ice and kicked up a conversation... I remembered we were alone in the lift of BLK L... Then we walked over to the atrium area, where i headed home and he went to the canteen...
And then, from smiling, we moved on to simple greetings every time we saw each other... Then, finally one fine day, he said, "I see u so many times, still duno ur name!", we exchanged names, but i seriously couldnt catch his name...
It was a chinese name i think... Wei something i think, i am very bad in remembering chinese names...
He bought himself a huge remote controlled helicopter wor, cost $80+... I told him i was thinking whether or not to buy some figurines... Then he said, "Money earned is to spend one, buy lah." I replied, "Cannot think like tt, money earned mus save also!"... We then started laughing, but it became awkard after tt, coz we ran out of small toks... So we separated in the small shop...
He was wif his frenz... SO i left him with them...
Anways, i bought them lah in the end... Haha, will post up pictures... I also bought something that is funny but not worth e money but i like leh... Haha... I will post the pics in tmr entry or something...
I also wanted to buy drama series... And the one tt i mentioned hor, is really trying to cheat money one... Coz its latest mah... THen u noe how much it vost or not?
$29!!!!!
Not for whole series leh, only Part 1 with 7 episodes... Altogether got 3 Boxes... Crazy leh... Chinese drama series where got this price one... Cheat money, i dun allow them to cheat my money... So ive decided to REN and watch TV instead... Hahaha...
I spent $17.50... Not alot i noe... But then, on toys like abit stupid right... Dun care lah, i like can liao...
Da Vinci Code
I am almost done with the Da Vinci Code book, left about less than 1/4... So Shuzhen, can return u very soon liao... I realised i am a genius... I can break the codes even before they explain... Muahahahaha...
No lah, actually, truth is I read all other 3 books... And the thing about Dan Brown is that his books style, the twist, the code breaking are all the same... Even the story flow and endings are similiar... Thus, i can easily spot through the plot and meanings...
Also, i watched the documentary on Da Vinci Code liao, so the contents werent shocking or wat anymore... I noe wat to expect, also i haf quite a good history on Christianity and i can tell u, the book isnt half as revoking as wat i noe... But i wun touch on tt nonetheless... Will kena sue one u noe? I dun wanna go jail for a mth or a day...
The only part i find interesting is tt they touched on Walt Disney and the hidden agenda that Snow White, Sleeping Beauty, Cinderalla contained... Hmm, duno real or not leh...
I am so into the codes tt, i can tell u one of the books, the codes write wrongly leh!!! I even showed Shuzhen on the train, and of coz, she gave me the look tt says im crazy to go match all of them... Hahaha...
This book however, has the least spelling and grammer mistakes wor, compared to other 3... I think it meant tt the Author really love this book... Otherwise, it would have ended up like the other 3... I think it is unwise to read this book last... Coz its n0t as intriguing as it shd be... But bo bian ma... I got this book last...
Actually i got things to say one... But ive decided to keep it to myself... Hahah...
In short...
I think u need to differentiate between wats fact and wats not... A novel is still a novel... It does not haf enuff grounds for u to pass judgement on certain issues, especially tok about major ones... Some things have been going on all the time, and certain things have been written all these times as well...
The best to understand a subject is to devote ur time into researching n history...
If u dun, dun be too hasty to feel enlightened or pass judgement, seriously, it only makes u superficial...
Like wat Dan Brown said in this book, "History is one-sided", and likewise novel is even more one sided and its not even theoretically accurate...
Take it as an interesting n fresh perspective... Not as a ground for intense judgement...
No lah, actually, truth is I read all other 3 books... And the thing about Dan Brown is that his books style, the twist, the code breaking are all the same... Even the story flow and endings are similiar... Thus, i can easily spot through the plot and meanings...
Also, i watched the documentary on Da Vinci Code liao, so the contents werent shocking or wat anymore... I noe wat to expect, also i haf quite a good history on Christianity and i can tell u, the book isnt half as revoking as wat i noe... But i wun touch on tt nonetheless... Will kena sue one u noe? I dun wanna go jail for a mth or a day...
The only part i find interesting is tt they touched on Walt Disney and the hidden agenda that Snow White, Sleeping Beauty, Cinderalla contained... Hmm, duno real or not leh...
I am so into the codes tt, i can tell u one of the books, the codes write wrongly leh!!! I even showed Shuzhen on the train, and of coz, she gave me the look tt says im crazy to go match all of them... Hahaha...
This book however, has the least spelling and grammer mistakes wor, compared to other 3... I think it meant tt the Author really love this book... Otherwise, it would have ended up like the other 3... I think it is unwise to read this book last... Coz its n0t as intriguing as it shd be... But bo bian ma... I got this book last...
Actually i got things to say one... But ive decided to keep it to myself... Hahah...
In short...
I think u need to differentiate between wats fact and wats not... A novel is still a novel... It does not haf enuff grounds for u to pass judgement on certain issues, especially tok about major ones... Some things have been going on all the time, and certain things have been written all these times as well...
The best to understand a subject is to devote ur time into researching n history...
If u dun, dun be too hasty to feel enlightened or pass judgement, seriously, it only makes u superficial...
Like wat Dan Brown said in this book, "History is one-sided", and likewise novel is even more one sided and its not even theoretically accurate...
Take it as an interesting n fresh perspective... Not as a ground for intense judgement...
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Sat liao, Hunting starts~
I knoe today Sat le, i bought the sat papers, going to look thru tonight... Got to start hunting... Sigh, sianz... Not in the bestest mind to hunt but no choice lah...
I feel quite bored... Feel like going to central to buy some drama series to watch leh... But its impulsive... Got one show i got watch abit... Can buy... But im not sure whether will i love it coz i didnt really watch...
Hmm... Shall i or shall i not?
I am lazy to go there... But then, if i really wan to buy i will go over one... I duno... Naruto got 2 new episodes liao, but Shuzhen not free to pass me, got to wait...
I feel quite bored... Feel like going to central to buy some drama series to watch leh... But its impulsive... Got one show i got watch abit... Can buy... But im not sure whether will i love it coz i didnt really watch...
Hmm... Shall i or shall i not?
I am lazy to go there... But then, if i really wan to buy i will go over one... I duno... Naruto got 2 new episodes liao, but Shuzhen not free to pass me, got to wait...
Horror Nightmare~ Scary~
Nightmare~ That left my heart pom pom tiao when i woke up... Aiyah, coz of Jul lah, i think we tok too much about death last night before i sleep...
Btw, u got see the trailer of "Wig" or not? So scary... Eeeee... I think its becoz of the trailer too, coz i saw it before i slept as well...
I dreamt that one of my poly mates died... I think i better dun mention who she is, in case she get offended... But seriously, i didnt choose her...
I was in my house (my house when i was sec 1), discussing my new job with a recruitment agent and filling up some forms... Then i received a call from a man, asking me whether i noe where is his daughter... I said i dun, but he dun believe... He said her best fren thot shes home already only to realise she's not... The best fren also in poly and in real life also her best fren...
I told the father that i am busy and will call him back... He said hes coming over to my place... I thot he will take some time, so i said ok... After like jus after 3 mins of discussion with the agent, a man just walked into my kitchen...
He told me my house door wasnt locked so he came in...
He kept asking me for his daughter, but i told him i seriously duno... I even told him to check my house if he wans to...
Then just this moment, someone knocked on my door...
I opened the door and was shocked to see his daughter, who was my fren anyways, standing there... But she looked weird, like she had been thru some sort of truama...
Her Dad screamed and said he knew he would find her here...
I rested her in my living room...
After some time, we still couldnt figure out what happened... I think she said she was lost or something... Then she remembered my place and came over...
Her Dad then proceeded to wan to bring her home... But she backed away, grabbed my hand, and said, she cant...
I looked at her and said, "Wat u mean u cant?" "U cant stay here!"
She replied, "I haf to stay here! Only u can help me!"
All of a sudden, my TV turned on all by itself...
It was showing a special news report... A girl had been crashed and mashed when a big statue fell on top of her... And she wasnt discovered until a few days later... It was very near to the pedestrian walkway somemore, but no one discovered...
It was one of the most horrible gory scenes ive ever seen, and it is real in my dreams... Then they showed the deceased photo...
IT WAS HER~
I turn and look at my fren, who had turned all bloody n scary...
It was this moment, when we all realised she had died... My agent ran out of my house... Leaving me, her and her Dad...
She said her soul cant rest coz she died with vengance... When she was crashed, she tried to ask for help but no word came out of her mouth, coz her throat was crash... She tried to stretch her arms to the pedestrains, but no one bothered to look...
She was angry... Thus, she couldnt rest...
She threatened that i must help her... If not she'll haunt me for the rest of my life until i join her...
Her Dad was too shock to even say anything...
I knew i had to do something... So i headed over to some temple to look for some high powered monks... All along, with her beside me, bloody, scary... I cant forget the scene man... Ur fren bloody and all...
The monk told me in order to exorcise her soul, i mus re-enact the scene...
And so we did... We went back to the place, lifted the statue up and re-enacted the whole scene... I saw how the whole accident happened... It was grueling and heart wrenching to see ur fren killed again with your own naked eyes...
I saw her under the statue struggling... But everyone that walked pass, only bothered to rush to the bus stop to board their buses home... Nobody bothered to look...
I stood there and wept...
The monks then did the exorcism...
We then went back... On the bus, i was extremely saddened... I couldnt even think properly...
When i reached home... I immediately went to my kitchen... I splashed my face with water and look up to the mirror...
Then...
I saw her, pointing at me...
I didnt managed to help her... And this time, she is really angry... With me...
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My dream ended... Scary leh... If u see wat i dreamt u'll noe y its so scary...
And its someone i noe of...
I hope she is fine... In real life...
My son woke me up actually... I took a look ard my house when i opened my eyes... Though it was a different house, but it was so real...
Btw, u got see the trailer of "Wig" or not? So scary... Eeeee... I think its becoz of the trailer too, coz i saw it before i slept as well...
I dreamt that one of my poly mates died... I think i better dun mention who she is, in case she get offended... But seriously, i didnt choose her...
I was in my house (my house when i was sec 1), discussing my new job with a recruitment agent and filling up some forms... Then i received a call from a man, asking me whether i noe where is his daughter... I said i dun, but he dun believe... He said her best fren thot shes home already only to realise she's not... The best fren also in poly and in real life also her best fren...
I told the father that i am busy and will call him back... He said hes coming over to my place... I thot he will take some time, so i said ok... After like jus after 3 mins of discussion with the agent, a man just walked into my kitchen...
He told me my house door wasnt locked so he came in...
He kept asking me for his daughter, but i told him i seriously duno... I even told him to check my house if he wans to...
Then just this moment, someone knocked on my door...
I opened the door and was shocked to see his daughter, who was my fren anyways, standing there... But she looked weird, like she had been thru some sort of truama...
Her Dad screamed and said he knew he would find her here...
I rested her in my living room...
After some time, we still couldnt figure out what happened... I think she said she was lost or something... Then she remembered my place and came over...
Her Dad then proceeded to wan to bring her home... But she backed away, grabbed my hand, and said, she cant...
I looked at her and said, "Wat u mean u cant?" "U cant stay here!"
She replied, "I haf to stay here! Only u can help me!"
All of a sudden, my TV turned on all by itself...
It was showing a special news report... A girl had been crashed and mashed when a big statue fell on top of her... And she wasnt discovered until a few days later... It was very near to the pedestrian walkway somemore, but no one discovered...
It was one of the most horrible gory scenes ive ever seen, and it is real in my dreams... Then they showed the deceased photo...
IT WAS HER~
I turn and look at my fren, who had turned all bloody n scary...
It was this moment, when we all realised she had died... My agent ran out of my house... Leaving me, her and her Dad...
She said her soul cant rest coz she died with vengance... When she was crashed, she tried to ask for help but no word came out of her mouth, coz her throat was crash... She tried to stretch her arms to the pedestrains, but no one bothered to look...
She was angry... Thus, she couldnt rest...
She threatened that i must help her... If not she'll haunt me for the rest of my life until i join her...
Her Dad was too shock to even say anything...
I knew i had to do something... So i headed over to some temple to look for some high powered monks... All along, with her beside me, bloody, scary... I cant forget the scene man... Ur fren bloody and all...
The monk told me in order to exorcise her soul, i mus re-enact the scene...
And so we did... We went back to the place, lifted the statue up and re-enacted the whole scene... I saw how the whole accident happened... It was grueling and heart wrenching to see ur fren killed again with your own naked eyes...
I saw her under the statue struggling... But everyone that walked pass, only bothered to rush to the bus stop to board their buses home... Nobody bothered to look...
I stood there and wept...
The monks then did the exorcism...
We then went back... On the bus, i was extremely saddened... I couldnt even think properly...
When i reached home... I immediately went to my kitchen... I splashed my face with water and look up to the mirror...
Then...
I saw her, pointing at me...
I didnt managed to help her... And this time, she is really angry... With me...
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My dream ended... Scary leh... If u see wat i dreamt u'll noe y its so scary...
And its someone i noe of...
I hope she is fine... In real life...
My son woke me up actually... I took a look ard my house when i opened my eyes... Though it was a different house, but it was so real...
His Smile~
I cant sleep... Well, very common for me right... Okok...
I headed to Motorola service center last sat to upgrade my phone software... Stupidly, i was too eager, so i headed over even though it was a SATURDAY!!! Nvm lah, wait lor, i told myself...
I took my ticket Q and the current was like 272 and my number was like 302. Ok lah, only 20+, sure got ppl cannot wait one... I think i stood for 30 mins, then i found a seat and sat for the next hr... Strangely, i didnt bring my mp3 player... Dunno y... So i can say i wait in emptiness... So i started to look ard and observe the sales ppl lor...
Haha, u noe y?
Coz hor, hp centers the sales ppl sure pretty n handsome one lor... Wahahaha...
There were 2 new girls on training too... One mature n pretty, the other, err... Young n green... But still nice lah, wif make up and all... Their orange uniform reminded me of M1... Which seriously, i wanted to try for the sales job but didnt...
The mature gal is attached to a earnest looking chap, who is very sincere in his speech... And the young gal is attached to a cute guy, who seemed soft spoken but very young... I was actually looking at a particular guy, handsome (my flower boy type, long fringe, fair, tall, etc), but he abit dao dao one...
Anyways, the mature gal kept smiling at me every time when we had eye contact, coz her counter was in front of me only... Very sweet n pretty... If i guy sure chase one... Hahaha... But sure got bf one lah, so pretty...
Anyways, guess who served me?
Its the young girl with the young cute guy... I think young girls will seriously think hes cute... I find him cute coz of the way he tok...
He let e young girl try when it was my turn... At 1st i thot, jialat, sure very blur n slow one... So i told myself mus be patient, and i had been observin her, and shes still extremely green... Mus let newbies try mah... Lucky she encountered me... Hahaha...
As expected, i asked one qns, she ask the guy in mandarin... Then the guy replied to her in mandarin, then she ans me back... When seriously, i can understand mah... Haha... Both of them sitting in front of me wat... Their small talk i also can hear... Very funny...
Obviously, she was still raw, her language not pro enuff... And el quite bad... But nvm lah, gal, can learn one...
Through our conversation, i realised the guy had worked there 6 mths...
Anyways, i left thinking the guy is really cute n polite, but too young for my appetite... Haha...
Then next day, i had a crappy day coz i had fallen out wif tt SOMEONE... Thus i was in a terrible, almost breakdown mood...
I headed to e service center to collect my phone... Then suddenly when i was sitting there, the cute guy just came out of a room, saw me across and smiled to me... Haha... Instantly arh i tell u, i felt so much better... How e hell did he managed to remember me out of so many customers he see?
Then i think he did wanted to try his luck to serve me but it wasnt my phone... Coz he clearly wasnt serving but went to take the phone to serve (it was random one) after he saw me... Anyways, his colleague (e earnest looking one) served me... Meanwhile when i was toking to the earnest looking guy, the cute guy actually came over to our counter, to SMILE at me leh!!!
Hahahah... I wanted to tok to tt guy and ask him how he remember... But i was halfway listening to e earnest guy and it was rude to interrupt... The earnest guy saw i smiled and turned and saw his colleague... Haha... Then the cute guy realised we were toking and so he left...
He really made my day... So sweet, remember ur customer one... Hehe...
Too bad lah, too bad...
I headed to Motorola service center last sat to upgrade my phone software... Stupidly, i was too eager, so i headed over even though it was a SATURDAY!!! Nvm lah, wait lor, i told myself...
I took my ticket Q and the current was like 272 and my number was like 302. Ok lah, only 20+, sure got ppl cannot wait one... I think i stood for 30 mins, then i found a seat and sat for the next hr... Strangely, i didnt bring my mp3 player... Dunno y... So i can say i wait in emptiness... So i started to look ard and observe the sales ppl lor...
Haha, u noe y?
Coz hor, hp centers the sales ppl sure pretty n handsome one lor... Wahahaha...
There were 2 new girls on training too... One mature n pretty, the other, err... Young n green... But still nice lah, wif make up and all... Their orange uniform reminded me of M1... Which seriously, i wanted to try for the sales job but didnt...
The mature gal is attached to a earnest looking chap, who is very sincere in his speech... And the young gal is attached to a cute guy, who seemed soft spoken but very young... I was actually looking at a particular guy, handsome (my flower boy type, long fringe, fair, tall, etc), but he abit dao dao one...
Anyways, the mature gal kept smiling at me every time when we had eye contact, coz her counter was in front of me only... Very sweet n pretty... If i guy sure chase one... Hahaha... But sure got bf one lah, so pretty...
Anyways, guess who served me?
Its the young girl with the young cute guy... I think young girls will seriously think hes cute... I find him cute coz of the way he tok...
He let e young girl try when it was my turn... At 1st i thot, jialat, sure very blur n slow one... So i told myself mus be patient, and i had been observin her, and shes still extremely green... Mus let newbies try mah... Lucky she encountered me... Hahaha...
As expected, i asked one qns, she ask the guy in mandarin... Then the guy replied to her in mandarin, then she ans me back... When seriously, i can understand mah... Haha... Both of them sitting in front of me wat... Their small talk i also can hear... Very funny...
Obviously, she was still raw, her language not pro enuff... And el quite bad... But nvm lah, gal, can learn one...
Through our conversation, i realised the guy had worked there 6 mths...
Anyways, i left thinking the guy is really cute n polite, but too young for my appetite... Haha...
Then next day, i had a crappy day coz i had fallen out wif tt SOMEONE... Thus i was in a terrible, almost breakdown mood...
I headed to e service center to collect my phone... Then suddenly when i was sitting there, the cute guy just came out of a room, saw me across and smiled to me... Haha... Instantly arh i tell u, i felt so much better... How e hell did he managed to remember me out of so many customers he see?
Then i think he did wanted to try his luck to serve me but it wasnt my phone... Coz he clearly wasnt serving but went to take the phone to serve (it was random one) after he saw me... Anyways, his colleague (e earnest looking one) served me... Meanwhile when i was toking to the earnest looking guy, the cute guy actually came over to our counter, to SMILE at me leh!!!
Hahahah... I wanted to tok to tt guy and ask him how he remember... But i was halfway listening to e earnest guy and it was rude to interrupt... The earnest guy saw i smiled and turned and saw his colleague... Haha... Then the cute guy realised we were toking and so he left...
He really made my day... So sweet, remember ur customer one... Hehe...
Too bad lah, too bad...
Friday, October 07, 2005
Ive Made Up With Him
I had fallen out wif this chap some time like close to one yr ago...
As much as i had enjoyed his companionship, i hate him as well... It was a very weird symmetry...
He is one of the most observant, and intelligent person i know... Many of the things ive said, he caught them almost immediately and was able to spun them into a series of challenging, exciting and intriguing conversations which can take hrs... We used to haf numerous intelligent banter which i couldnt find anywhere else...
Sometimes, when we were chatting in the restaurants, i can see myself smiling and thinking to myself that i am lucky to find a person on this mental level... It was spiritually satisfying...
However, the downside was, he is just a pain in the ass... He is the greatest MCP ive known... He is extremely self centered... And he basically has his nose high up on his head... He always say hes the superior breed in human, etc etc... And some of his moral values are just too narrowed vision and screwed...
To sum up, he is just a Intelligent Jerk...
I thot, hey, no one's perfect... As a fren, u've got to accept both e bad n e good...
And thus, the frenship developed...
But more often, we would haf this great outing but it always ended up in heated arguements...
Ok, cut things short... There came a pt when it was my last straw... It became mental torture... And so we've fallen out...
But fate is funny... After almost a yr later... I bought a new phone, and my phone had a bug... It will automatically dial out to random numbers on my phone book while im having a conversation...
So, for a period of time, i have ppl whom we haf lost touched, calling me back and said, "You called me arh?"
And yes, one fine day, my phone chose his magic numbers... I was thinkin "Oh shit!"... But i chose to ingore him... I thot he wouldnt bother calling back coz he was too superior and ppl shd call him instead... Besides, he stays by himself, and thus, he would always ask u to call him back coz of the free incoming... Which i believe u all noe how much i hate calculative ppl...
And surprisingly, he actually messaged me... But i was in the theatre and thus i explained it was my phone's bug... He proceeded to tell me to enjoy my show and will call me for a chat during weekend...
I was thinking, "alamak, die lah, i dun wan leh..."
Anyways, he called and we had a conversation for hrs...
A phone call changed everything...
He has changed completely 180 degrees...
I told him i am so impressed by him, by his changes... Which he then apologised for his past egoistic self, etc... Almost all his bad pts which affected me and the ppl ard him, magically just disappeared...
Oh, btw, he didnt tell me about his changes... Unlike some ppl who go ard telling, "I am not the same anymore" etc... I noticed his change through the conversation... And thus, prompted me to go into tt topic... Coz i was amazed... I thot i was chatting wif a total different person...
I have never seen or known anyone who can change themselve within less than 1 yr... He realised his mistakes and just changed himself like that... Now, who the hell do this nowadays? Ppl will tell u i am like tt wat, take it or leave it...
Especially, for a guy who is not young anymore, who had his brains filled wif his horrible ego... He completely turned it ard...
And the thing about human is tt, sometimes, like me, u need to go thru a hell of a time before u change... If u dun, and life is like smooth sailing, chances are u will be who u r for a long time... But thing is nothing happened... He jus said, time changes a person...
So in a way, i am glad tt my phone had a bug, and somehow, connected this person... Although i can tell u we seldom meet up and we are not in the close fren category... But im still glad...
It again proved my initial pt tt even the worst person can change himself, its jus a matter whether the person wans to do it or not... Its nice to see some little so called miracles (considering how rare it is a scene in sg) every now n then...
I know ppl live for themselves nowadays...
But from these little so called "miracles", they are just a bunch of excuses...
(I noe from the story u cannot judge his changes, coz i never tok about the details as well... The story can go on n on... But it will only bore ppl... Haha... But i can assure u tt it is a truly remarkable effort on his part and i wan to give him tt credit... Haha, coz u simply duno how much i suffered wif him... LOL... His changes may not buy back frenships, or win back favors from his current social circle... But wat i can gurantee is tt, with his kind of mindset, hes going to go far, and it will serve him very well... We both jobless leh... Haha, he also jus left his job like 2 weeks before me...)
As much as i had enjoyed his companionship, i hate him as well... It was a very weird symmetry...
He is one of the most observant, and intelligent person i know... Many of the things ive said, he caught them almost immediately and was able to spun them into a series of challenging, exciting and intriguing conversations which can take hrs... We used to haf numerous intelligent banter which i couldnt find anywhere else...
Sometimes, when we were chatting in the restaurants, i can see myself smiling and thinking to myself that i am lucky to find a person on this mental level... It was spiritually satisfying...
However, the downside was, he is just a pain in the ass... He is the greatest MCP ive known... He is extremely self centered... And he basically has his nose high up on his head... He always say hes the superior breed in human, etc etc... And some of his moral values are just too narrowed vision and screwed...
To sum up, he is just a Intelligent Jerk...
I thot, hey, no one's perfect... As a fren, u've got to accept both e bad n e good...
And thus, the frenship developed...
But more often, we would haf this great outing but it always ended up in heated arguements...
Ok, cut things short... There came a pt when it was my last straw... It became mental torture... And so we've fallen out...
But fate is funny... After almost a yr later... I bought a new phone, and my phone had a bug... It will automatically dial out to random numbers on my phone book while im having a conversation...
So, for a period of time, i have ppl whom we haf lost touched, calling me back and said, "You called me arh?"
And yes, one fine day, my phone chose his magic numbers... I was thinkin "Oh shit!"... But i chose to ingore him... I thot he wouldnt bother calling back coz he was too superior and ppl shd call him instead... Besides, he stays by himself, and thus, he would always ask u to call him back coz of the free incoming... Which i believe u all noe how much i hate calculative ppl...
And surprisingly, he actually messaged me... But i was in the theatre and thus i explained it was my phone's bug... He proceeded to tell me to enjoy my show and will call me for a chat during weekend...
I was thinking, "alamak, die lah, i dun wan leh..."
Anyways, he called and we had a conversation for hrs...
A phone call changed everything...
He has changed completely 180 degrees...
I told him i am so impressed by him, by his changes... Which he then apologised for his past egoistic self, etc... Almost all his bad pts which affected me and the ppl ard him, magically just disappeared...
Oh, btw, he didnt tell me about his changes... Unlike some ppl who go ard telling, "I am not the same anymore" etc... I noticed his change through the conversation... And thus, prompted me to go into tt topic... Coz i was amazed... I thot i was chatting wif a total different person...
I have never seen or known anyone who can change themselve within less than 1 yr... He realised his mistakes and just changed himself like that... Now, who the hell do this nowadays? Ppl will tell u i am like tt wat, take it or leave it...
Especially, for a guy who is not young anymore, who had his brains filled wif his horrible ego... He completely turned it ard...
And the thing about human is tt, sometimes, like me, u need to go thru a hell of a time before u change... If u dun, and life is like smooth sailing, chances are u will be who u r for a long time... But thing is nothing happened... He jus said, time changes a person...
So in a way, i am glad tt my phone had a bug, and somehow, connected this person... Although i can tell u we seldom meet up and we are not in the close fren category... But im still glad...
It again proved my initial pt tt even the worst person can change himself, its jus a matter whether the person wans to do it or not... Its nice to see some little so called miracles (considering how rare it is a scene in sg) every now n then...
I know ppl live for themselves nowadays...
But from these little so called "miracles", they are just a bunch of excuses...
(I noe from the story u cannot judge his changes, coz i never tok about the details as well... The story can go on n on... But it will only bore ppl... Haha... But i can assure u tt it is a truly remarkable effort on his part and i wan to give him tt credit... Haha, coz u simply duno how much i suffered wif him... LOL... His changes may not buy back frenships, or win back favors from his current social circle... But wat i can gurantee is tt, with his kind of mindset, hes going to go far, and it will serve him very well... We both jobless leh... Haha, he also jus left his job like 2 weeks before me...)
A Short One 1st....
Me hungry, n my son hungry... So going to eat 1st...
Anyways, went KTV last tues night with Jul, Eve and Xing Jie... I 1st time meet Xing Jie wor... Wah, finally managed to give back Jul her books... Finally er... Sang till 12 am and came back by cab...
Oh, and Xing Jie stay very near me wor... So near... Just a street away tt kind...
KTV was gd lah, listened to so many May Day songs coz Eve super crazy over them while i dislike them... Wahahah... Nvm lah...
It was more enjoyable than i imagined it would be... So i guess tts gd... Jul is still the damn funny chap who i always laugh at when i see her, duno y... Hahaha...
Ok, more later...
Anyways, went KTV last tues night with Jul, Eve and Xing Jie... I 1st time meet Xing Jie wor... Wah, finally managed to give back Jul her books... Finally er... Sang till 12 am and came back by cab...
Oh, and Xing Jie stay very near me wor... So near... Just a street away tt kind...
KTV was gd lah, listened to so many May Day songs coz Eve super crazy over them while i dislike them... Wahahah... Nvm lah...
It was more enjoyable than i imagined it would be... So i guess tts gd... Jul is still the damn funny chap who i always laugh at when i see her, duno y... Hahaha...
Ok, more later...
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Making Up
Ironically, when u gain something, u lose something... I made up wif a person on last sat, and i fall out wif one on sun...
I had fallen out wif "someone" whom i had decided not to say here... Coz ppl who duno me, they are going to pass accusations and labels like they noe better... But i think u can pretty much guess who, especially SHuzhen...
I haf tolerated this someone for like 10 yrs? From a stranger to a person who i accept as who he is to me... He has a extremely weird temperament... And i can say his mind is pretty screwed... But tats how he lived for the past 16 yrs...
But as u noe me, i haf an extremely high tolerance level to ppl i wan to tolerate... There is no way i can make it work, coz this someone, wouldnt listen to a single word i say... He only wan me to listen to him... And so i bear all the mental torture, grief, misery silently all these 10 yrs...
Everyone can see how miserable i look after i visited him, and how disappointed i am every time he calls... I dun even haf to say who, everyone can see where ive been to, and who jus called... I act pretty well, so u can pretty much figure the extend tt i actually reveal the truth on my face...
I guess i was in a bad mood as well... But it wasnt jus tt, i noe tt for sure... I noe i had been down, but im still rational enuff to judge. I did broke down in front of him... I had never ever did tt before... Maybe i needed an avenue to cry, but wat happened later broke my heart even more...
Extract of our conversation:
Him: Aiyah, then u dun do liao...
Me: I was trying to help, and yet u do this? Hao Xing Bei Gou Yao...
Him: XXXXX Started to duno tok about wat not related at all...
Me: See, u didnt even listen to wat i said... Forget it... I give up...
Him: She like tt, u also like tt... (Which is again not related at all)
Me (crying) : All these yrs, ive tolerated ur temper, visited u, all for nothing... U dun even appreciate... This is y she doesnt come to visit u at all... And im the only stupid one doing this out of nothing... Asking for nothing, and yet, u do tis!
Him: Sigh, then DUN COME LAH!
After awhile... I was sobbing like hell...
Him: U dun angry...
Me: Im not angry... Im heart broken...
Him: Heart-broken is angry wat! Tis u also duno!
Me: Sigh, u see, u dun even understand human emotions... Not even a word of consolation... U duno how much u broke my heart... How deep u hurt me... I really Xing1 Hui1 Yi4 Leng3...
Him: XXXx, he went on to tok about himself, totally ignoring the situation... But ended wif "U mus come see me", before i left...
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I came back and told my sis... She corkily said, "Told u he wun appreciate liao wat!" I knew from her face she wanted to add, "But u stupid mah, still continue duno for wat!"
In many cases i spent many many yrs trying so hard to make a difference... But ultimately, i realised things arent gonna work and i haf to let go... Which is wat makes my life so miserable, i knew i am going to be miserable continuing, but im doing it nonetheless, coz i haf a little hope tt things are going to change as long as i keep trying...
Unfortuntately, it takes 2 hands to clap... Its not going to work, no matter how hard i try... If the person doesnt put in even the slightest effort... I am jus sinking deeper...
Recently, i haf learnt to let certain things go... And dun be so persistent anymore... At the very least, i answered to myself tt, i had tried, but it didnt work... And it wasnt due to me, coz ive done my part... Theres no pt in a tug of war when my opponent doesnt even allow me to pull...
Unfortunately, i couldnt bear my heart to turn to stone...
I picked up his call the next day... He called like 10 times... I still gave in...
But maybe, i shall keep the distance from now on... I shall try to remove the emotional attachment slowly, bit by bit...
Will tok about the making up story in my next entry...
I had fallen out wif "someone" whom i had decided not to say here... Coz ppl who duno me, they are going to pass accusations and labels like they noe better... But i think u can pretty much guess who, especially SHuzhen...
I haf tolerated this someone for like 10 yrs? From a stranger to a person who i accept as who he is to me... He has a extremely weird temperament... And i can say his mind is pretty screwed... But tats how he lived for the past 16 yrs...
But as u noe me, i haf an extremely high tolerance level to ppl i wan to tolerate... There is no way i can make it work, coz this someone, wouldnt listen to a single word i say... He only wan me to listen to him... And so i bear all the mental torture, grief, misery silently all these 10 yrs...
Everyone can see how miserable i look after i visited him, and how disappointed i am every time he calls... I dun even haf to say who, everyone can see where ive been to, and who jus called... I act pretty well, so u can pretty much figure the extend tt i actually reveal the truth on my face...
I guess i was in a bad mood as well... But it wasnt jus tt, i noe tt for sure... I noe i had been down, but im still rational enuff to judge. I did broke down in front of him... I had never ever did tt before... Maybe i needed an avenue to cry, but wat happened later broke my heart even more...
Extract of our conversation:
Him: Aiyah, then u dun do liao...
Me: I was trying to help, and yet u do this? Hao Xing Bei Gou Yao...
Him: XXXXX Started to duno tok about wat not related at all...
Me: See, u didnt even listen to wat i said... Forget it... I give up...
Him: She like tt, u also like tt... (Which is again not related at all)
Me (crying) : All these yrs, ive tolerated ur temper, visited u, all for nothing... U dun even appreciate... This is y she doesnt come to visit u at all... And im the only stupid one doing this out of nothing... Asking for nothing, and yet, u do tis!
Him: Sigh, then DUN COME LAH!
After awhile... I was sobbing like hell...
Him: U dun angry...
Me: Im not angry... Im heart broken...
Him: Heart-broken is angry wat! Tis u also duno!
Me: Sigh, u see, u dun even understand human emotions... Not even a word of consolation... U duno how much u broke my heart... How deep u hurt me... I really Xing1 Hui1 Yi4 Leng3...
Him: XXXx, he went on to tok about himself, totally ignoring the situation... But ended wif "U mus come see me", before i left...
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I came back and told my sis... She corkily said, "Told u he wun appreciate liao wat!" I knew from her face she wanted to add, "But u stupid mah, still continue duno for wat!"
In many cases i spent many many yrs trying so hard to make a difference... But ultimately, i realised things arent gonna work and i haf to let go... Which is wat makes my life so miserable, i knew i am going to be miserable continuing, but im doing it nonetheless, coz i haf a little hope tt things are going to change as long as i keep trying...
Unfortuntately, it takes 2 hands to clap... Its not going to work, no matter how hard i try... If the person doesnt put in even the slightest effort... I am jus sinking deeper...
Recently, i haf learnt to let certain things go... And dun be so persistent anymore... At the very least, i answered to myself tt, i had tried, but it didnt work... And it wasnt due to me, coz ive done my part... Theres no pt in a tug of war when my opponent doesnt even allow me to pull...
Unfortunately, i couldnt bear my heart to turn to stone...
I picked up his call the next day... He called like 10 times... I still gave in...
But maybe, i shall keep the distance from now on... I shall try to remove the emotional attachment slowly, bit by bit...
Will tok about the making up story in my next entry...
Moving On...
I gave myself one weeks time to get moving... Im gonna spend the next 4 days not thinking about anything, and also to put the memories behind me... No matter how good it was, life is as such, i will haf to continue to seek...
I will start my job hunt on this coming sat henceforth... To do up my resume, look up sat's recruit and also online searches...
Hopefully to find a job within this mth...
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For interesting links... If u r bored...
http://flash.qbol.net/pl;p/youxi/images/04042203.swf
There are 13 items hidden in this room in order to let you get out of this room.
If you found:0-6 items, your IQ is very low, total idiot
6-8 items, Low IQ, u r an idoit
9-10 items, u r normal
11-12 items, your IQ is high, above the average.
13 items found and get out of the room, there are less than 4000 people in the world can do it.
Also, a very disgusting story about housemates... Make sure u r not eating...
http://www.livejournal.com/users/shiroioji/114944.html
Enjoy...
I will start my job hunt on this coming sat henceforth... To do up my resume, look up sat's recruit and also online searches...
Hopefully to find a job within this mth...
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For interesting links... If u r bored...
http://flash.qbol.net/pl;p/youxi/images/04042203.swf
There are 13 items hidden in this room in order to let you get out of this room.
If you found:0-6 items, your IQ is very low, total idiot
6-8 items, Low IQ, u r an idoit
9-10 items, u r normal
11-12 items, your IQ is high, above the average.
13 items found and get out of the room, there are less than 4000 people in the world can do it.
Also, a very disgusting story about housemates... Make sure u r not eating...
http://www.livejournal.com/users/shiroioji/114944.html
Enjoy...
Sunday, October 02, 2005
Retrenched, 2 Weeks After Confirmation & A Pay Rise!
Finally, i can blog about it... Couldnt blog since Thursday. Extremely long entry ahead... Long story...
Shocking News: I HAD BEEN RETRENCHED!
Just when everything had been going so well, the shocking news came... Everything happened on last Thurday.
My company went into serious prob. One of our manufacturer screwed up and made our biggest client, who stands about 70-80% of our revenue, extremely unhappy. Thus, that client decided to pull out from us.
My Bosses are going to the US to sue the manufacturer, which of coz, u noe lawsuits will take an extremely long time.
It is not so much about the lawsuit, Im not sure whether will they be able to win back the most impt customer. If they dun, then its hard to continue.
My Bosses assured me again n again that e decision wasnt due to me... They really tried but they cant... Otherwise, they wouldnt give me my confirmation as well... Coz tis issue is not sudden, and it was a long and painful decision.
My female Boss said, it took her so long to finally find someone she like, someone capable and someone who can click with her mentally, after changing so many... It was a pity...
My male Boss said, if there is anything he can do for me, he will... Coz he is sincerely sorry for the unfortunate situation that drove them to desperation... If in the long future, they managed to climb back up, he will call me again... He hope... But of coz, it will take a long time to settle this issue.
My projects had been put on hold, due to the budget... So i called to cancel the appointment i made with the company then. All my mths of efforts just vanished at that moment... I even shredded all my notes, research and proposal before i left...
It was so god damn hard to stay composed then, during the meeting... I jus kept my smile and said, "Well, no worries, things happen, and sometimes we just have to take them in our stride." "Not a problem"
My Bosses were very sad, and i told them "Its ok"...
They said its up to me, i can leave on thurs or fri... I told them fri then, to round the things off... And my Boss said, "tts y we like u so much"... Which made the whole situation even more depressing...
I messaged my colleague behind me, and told him tmr my last day... He thot i was joking... And i told him i was sacked... He said his heart nearly stopped... He cant believe it, it was too sudden...
U noe we lunched in everyday, so my Boss told me that my lunch is on him tt day... But i didnt noe wat to eat... So he brought us out to Crystal Jade restaurant to eat... It was a good meal, though i wasnt in the mood... But everyone was trying to act like nothing happened...
I couldnt even see half of my colleagues coz they were on medical leave... Which was even more sad... I couldnt even see them one last time, in the company...
But of coz, my Bosses did watever they can for me... Instead of retrenchment letter, they let me do up a resignation... It reflects better for me... They wrote me a letter of reccomendation... And they also gave me one mth compensation, when they are actually not obligated to... Coz i was there for only a short time...
They could have easily gotten rid of me during my probation... But they didnt. So i noe they tried... But unfortunately, things happen...
My colleague was very sad, coz we really worked very well together...
The night before, my 2nd sis even told me before i slept that i dun noe how lucky i was to find such a gd company... And then this happened the next day...
I dun particularly like my job, but i love my company, my Bosses and my colleagues... They were so understanding, selfless... There was no politics, no rumours, no nothing... Just pure working relationships and frenships... I was prepared to stay long... But... Sigh...
I called up my each family member and they were so shocked, coz it was so sudden...
They consoled me and said, its ok, i will find another job, this is very common, market is really bad...
I finished all my work, handed over all my stuffs... And realised i haf nothing on hand anymore... So i told my Boss, my last day can be tt day unless they still need my help...
And thus, my last day was on thurs...
Before i left, my Boss came over and said, "Im missing u already"... I said, "Me also, how arh?" Sigh...
They saw me to the lift... And then my colleague drove me back... My colleague cant understand after so many, finally we got someone, and we worked so well... He cant understand y they haf to let me go... Is it tt bad? But it also made him realised how vulnerable he felt in the company now... He said hes going to be extremely lonely from now on... Especially the next day since hes alone...
I called up my other colleague who was on medical leave... I said, "U next monday come back arh? U come back not going to see me liao wor.. I got retrenched..." He was so shocked, and he said it was so unfair to me... He told me, before i came, the company was really quiet... But after i came, the situation changed, and i was the one, whom he tok to the most... He was very sad... He said that hes going to be lonely... He said he really cant bear... He also felt that he was on the chopping board next... But i told him wun one lah...
Coincidentally, my 1st sis asked me out for movie, coz it was complimentary... But she asked me i got mood or not... I said ok... We went to watch The Myth, i wanted to watch Tim Burton's Corpse Bride though coz i noe the Myth story already, but nvm lah... Then they brought me to eat the most delicious Bak Chow Mee and then to petshops...
Then i reached home ard 10 + pm, and i was all alone... Very sad n depressed... But i jus haf to get over it...
I really love the company... Never have i found a company that i really love... I wanted a company where i can stay long term... And now, i found myself back to sq1, i got to find numerous ads and send my resume, go for grueling interviews, start all the mignling, socialising, settling down process all over again... The thought of it already made me so sian...
I never regretted choosing this company, even though i had been offered other jobs then... Coz they were really such wonderful colleagues... I wrote them a farewell email, and their replies were very sweet...
I really duno how man...
I went for a slight retail therapy but it didnt work... Then i sent my hp for software upgrade... Upon which i realised after i left, tt my data which was going to be lost, had my photos of my company... I guess its really not meant to be...
Just when i thought for the 1st time, i haf some luck in my life and that my life is rather peaceful and became slightly better and this happened...
I told some ppl i really think i am a jinx leh... The 1st 2 companies i worked in went bankrupt... 3rd company didnt do well when i went in and picked up immediately after i left... And now this 4th one...
4 liao leh... Got so qiao one meh...
Jul said i think too much... My Dad said my life is always so suay wat, no choice...
Maybe e next one will be much better? I duno but i certainly hope so... Though i doubt it will be...
Jul asked me to rest 1st, but my mum wan me to quickly find, coz she wan the money...
Sigh... Sianz...
Shocking News: I HAD BEEN RETRENCHED!
Just when everything had been going so well, the shocking news came... Everything happened on last Thurday.
My company went into serious prob. One of our manufacturer screwed up and made our biggest client, who stands about 70-80% of our revenue, extremely unhappy. Thus, that client decided to pull out from us.
My Bosses are going to the US to sue the manufacturer, which of coz, u noe lawsuits will take an extremely long time.
It is not so much about the lawsuit, Im not sure whether will they be able to win back the most impt customer. If they dun, then its hard to continue.
My Bosses assured me again n again that e decision wasnt due to me... They really tried but they cant... Otherwise, they wouldnt give me my confirmation as well... Coz tis issue is not sudden, and it was a long and painful decision.
My female Boss said, it took her so long to finally find someone she like, someone capable and someone who can click with her mentally, after changing so many... It was a pity...
My male Boss said, if there is anything he can do for me, he will... Coz he is sincerely sorry for the unfortunate situation that drove them to desperation... If in the long future, they managed to climb back up, he will call me again... He hope... But of coz, it will take a long time to settle this issue.
My projects had been put on hold, due to the budget... So i called to cancel the appointment i made with the company then. All my mths of efforts just vanished at that moment... I even shredded all my notes, research and proposal before i left...
It was so god damn hard to stay composed then, during the meeting... I jus kept my smile and said, "Well, no worries, things happen, and sometimes we just have to take them in our stride." "Not a problem"
My Bosses were very sad, and i told them "Its ok"...
They said its up to me, i can leave on thurs or fri... I told them fri then, to round the things off... And my Boss said, "tts y we like u so much"... Which made the whole situation even more depressing...
I messaged my colleague behind me, and told him tmr my last day... He thot i was joking... And i told him i was sacked... He said his heart nearly stopped... He cant believe it, it was too sudden...
U noe we lunched in everyday, so my Boss told me that my lunch is on him tt day... But i didnt noe wat to eat... So he brought us out to Crystal Jade restaurant to eat... It was a good meal, though i wasnt in the mood... But everyone was trying to act like nothing happened...
I couldnt even see half of my colleagues coz they were on medical leave... Which was even more sad... I couldnt even see them one last time, in the company...
But of coz, my Bosses did watever they can for me... Instead of retrenchment letter, they let me do up a resignation... It reflects better for me... They wrote me a letter of reccomendation... And they also gave me one mth compensation, when they are actually not obligated to... Coz i was there for only a short time...
They could have easily gotten rid of me during my probation... But they didnt. So i noe they tried... But unfortunately, things happen...
My colleague was very sad, coz we really worked very well together...
The night before, my 2nd sis even told me before i slept that i dun noe how lucky i was to find such a gd company... And then this happened the next day...
I dun particularly like my job, but i love my company, my Bosses and my colleagues... They were so understanding, selfless... There was no politics, no rumours, no nothing... Just pure working relationships and frenships... I was prepared to stay long... But... Sigh...
I called up my each family member and they were so shocked, coz it was so sudden...
They consoled me and said, its ok, i will find another job, this is very common, market is really bad...
I finished all my work, handed over all my stuffs... And realised i haf nothing on hand anymore... So i told my Boss, my last day can be tt day unless they still need my help...
And thus, my last day was on thurs...
Before i left, my Boss came over and said, "Im missing u already"... I said, "Me also, how arh?" Sigh...
They saw me to the lift... And then my colleague drove me back... My colleague cant understand after so many, finally we got someone, and we worked so well... He cant understand y they haf to let me go... Is it tt bad? But it also made him realised how vulnerable he felt in the company now... He said hes going to be extremely lonely from now on... Especially the next day since hes alone...
I called up my other colleague who was on medical leave... I said, "U next monday come back arh? U come back not going to see me liao wor.. I got retrenched..." He was so shocked, and he said it was so unfair to me... He told me, before i came, the company was really quiet... But after i came, the situation changed, and i was the one, whom he tok to the most... He was very sad... He said that hes going to be lonely... He said he really cant bear... He also felt that he was on the chopping board next... But i told him wun one lah...
Coincidentally, my 1st sis asked me out for movie, coz it was complimentary... But she asked me i got mood or not... I said ok... We went to watch The Myth, i wanted to watch Tim Burton's Corpse Bride though coz i noe the Myth story already, but nvm lah... Then they brought me to eat the most delicious Bak Chow Mee and then to petshops...
Then i reached home ard 10 + pm, and i was all alone... Very sad n depressed... But i jus haf to get over it...
I really love the company... Never have i found a company that i really love... I wanted a company where i can stay long term... And now, i found myself back to sq1, i got to find numerous ads and send my resume, go for grueling interviews, start all the mignling, socialising, settling down process all over again... The thought of it already made me so sian...
I never regretted choosing this company, even though i had been offered other jobs then... Coz they were really such wonderful colleagues... I wrote them a farewell email, and their replies were very sweet...
I really duno how man...
I went for a slight retail therapy but it didnt work... Then i sent my hp for software upgrade... Upon which i realised after i left, tt my data which was going to be lost, had my photos of my company... I guess its really not meant to be...
Just when i thought for the 1st time, i haf some luck in my life and that my life is rather peaceful and became slightly better and this happened...
I told some ppl i really think i am a jinx leh... The 1st 2 companies i worked in went bankrupt... 3rd company didnt do well when i went in and picked up immediately after i left... And now this 4th one...
4 liao leh... Got so qiao one meh...
Jul said i think too much... My Dad said my life is always so suay wat, no choice...
Maybe e next one will be much better? I duno but i certainly hope so... Though i doubt it will be...
Jul asked me to rest 1st, but my mum wan me to quickly find, coz she wan the money...
Sigh... Sianz...
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