HYDEXGACKT Dreams

Last wk, I met up wif SZ, and she was saying about HYDE and i asked, "U noe about him?"... She replied, "Of coz, u tok so much about him in ur blog!"... Lol... But she doesnt really noe how HYDE and Gackt look like apart from e few pics i posted of HYDE...

Anyways, last thurs, when we went shopping, i told her lets go HMV for awhile... Coz i wanted to see HYDE's albums... Then i went to see see look look liao and i also showed her Gackt & Miyavi... I happily told her, "Okie, enuff liao, can go now!" and left e shop... And she said i was like taking a peep at my secret lover and then left happily lidat... Hahaha...

Well, i admitted its true anywas... Heh... I was smiling all the way out...

Then later on in the evening, while she was at the washroom, i was waiting for her outside one toy shop... Then i started thinking about HYDE... Then tis couple passed by me and the guy gave me a very funny look... I then turned to my reflection n saw tt i was actually smiling not knowingly... And tt guy actually thot i smiled at him... Male's ego!!!

Then i told her so much about Gackt tt day... Muahahahha... I knoe him inside out lor!!!

I usually only intro Gackt to girls, coz girls somehow are easily obsessed wif him... HYDE is my personal fav, so i dun share... Hahahah...

Anyways, on fri morning... I was dreaming and then suddenly i saw at a very far view, theres Gackt... But just at tt moment, i was woken up by a call... I swear i was cursing at the caller...

Then sat we went out and watched Poseidon... More about Poseidon & Hostel soon... THen she came to sleepover... And i showed her many many pics of Gackt, HYDE & Mana... I like Mana coz hes pretty... Victorian classic lollita, i like!!! But his legs r so skinny, i often wonder how guy's legs can be lidat... Even much skinnier than girls...

Anyways, Gackt is 180cm, 60KG... I never thot any tall guys could be skinnier... Until i noe Miyavi... Miyavi is 185cm and 57kg!!! How crazy is tt!!! I bet girls at 185 weighs heavier than tt!

I loaded Moon Child for SZ to see... And then we slept wif a heavy heart... Coz everybody died in the show mah... I like duno watch how many times liao tt movie...

And she actually said, "Since Gackt wrote tt story, after watching tt movie, i seemed to understand him better!"... Haha...

The next morning we woke but were both tired... So we went back to sleep... In tt very short time, i dreamt like ages... But then i dreamt of HYDE & Gackt... But i cant remember...

Last night, i slept for 12hrs!!! I cant believe i was tt tired...

But i dreamt of both of them again... Tis time i remember... But it was a confusing one...

I dreamt tt i was studying my old secondary (AMKSS) but then the sch building was my Yishun Primary Sch... And then i am of class 3/1 but it consists of my poly mates as well, Navin, Weiyong, Din, whom i am not close wif somemore...

Anyways, for some reason, Gackt came to sg and studied in my sch... He was of class 3/5... In tt class consisted of my sec bitchy netball girls, who were so possessive about him tt they dun allow any other girls to be near him... SZ was in tt class too...

And hes in his black suit somemore... So funny...

So we had tis project work thingy and the teams could consist of mixed classes... Somehow, my leader, think its Navin, he actually chose Gackt... Muahahahha... I was so happy when i found out but pretended i dun care... Lol...

Then we wanted to haf a grp meeting in e class, so we sent one guy to contact Gackt... I wanted to do it but they did it be4 me... *sob*... Then suddenly, Gackt, in his suit, came barging into our classrm... He is so gd looking... But looks abit different... I pictured him wifout make up and he looked so chinese...

We discussed and meanwhile i took many secretive glances at him... Lol... I almost died... We were going to do the project later in the evening in sch...

And then e dream moved to another sub dream... We were on a bus, going somewhere, together wif a big grp pf schmates... Then, somehow i went to borrow e washroom of a apartment and suddenly Gackt kept knocking on my door, asking me to be quick, etc... I was pooing and had to use my leg to hold e door, in case he broke e door, which he nearly did...

Anyways, when i was done... I crossed to e apartment next to it where everybody gathering at e sofa area... And suddenly Gackt sang Happy Birthday to me... Hahaahah... I realised it was aug 14 and i had no idea how Gackt found out since ive not had e chance to tok to him yet... We ate some food n cake... Then i went to chat wif Gackt... And i found out e 1st apartment i went to was where hes staying now...

Afterwards, we all left to go back sch... And somehow, i was walking wif Gackt alone... So we tok for a long time... I asked him how cum hes in sg, and y was he in my sch, how he find sg, etc... It was so magical...

Next we went to do our project, and we were filming car scenes at our quadrangle... And alot of stunts were shot... THen i realised HYDE was in our grp... We had camp fire and he kept singing wif his guitar... I asked Gackt to sing but he doesnt wan to... He said he doesnt really like singing in real life other than for shows... Lol...

HYDE was e star of our video... He was e driver too... We were shooting mtvs or sort, and of coz, using HYDE's song... But i disagreed wif e grp and insisted they use both Gackt and HYDE...

Later on, Gackt went to haf a photo shoot, organised by our mandai zoo... He was cross-dressed... Gosh, i still remember his look in his red gown...

The dream went on... But not impt to continue... So basically tts it.. A day in sch wif HYDE & Gackt... Hiak hiak...

So Creepy

From my son's weird strange behavior, it seems like "something" had just entered my house and is near my rm...

OH MY GAWD!!! Y isnt my sis here sleeping wif me?

Arrgghh...

Not Thinking Properly

I think i had overdose of medi... I couldnt think properly the whole day and i feel drowsy when none of the medi i took haf drowsy effects...

Not thinking properly i ate another cold medi just a moment ago, by the time i thot of it, it had already gone swimming in my tummy...

I am eating 3 kinds of cold medi... I just thot of it... I should stop it... Coz my condition isnt becuming better and i lost all appetite... I thot i was only taking 2 types, but i just realised i took 3 types today...

I was eating one type till one day my sis asked me to take another type coz i dun seem to get better... And then without knowing i took another type on my own... So i just realised i am killin myself... Haha...

I am not getting better... It somehow just stuck here...

But i believe the overdosage is not serious enuff of coz to kill me... Think i shd be better tmr wifout the medi, since i am going out...

Ive watched Hostel and bought many things yest... I walked so much till my feet hurts till now... Tmr i am not going to wear heels... In fact, we walked so much yest and our feet hurts so much till we couldnt even complete our shopping, and thus its part 2 tmr... Am gonna wear track shoes so tt i could walk more n rest my feet... More about these when i feel better...

Tmr i would be out wif SZ, and she would be staying overnight at my place... Coz my sis is at Thailand now...

Wanted to bath but i think i go sleep soon le... Coz tmr i need to wake in e morning to vacuum, mop floor, clean house, wash toilet... Sigh... Bath tmr morning bah...

Nightz.

But then i wan to finish watching Survivor 1st... Lol

Overrated

I overestimated my own body... I thot i sort of recovered today liao... So I intended to do some stuffs n chores today... But then the illness hit me back and i felt giddy whole day, might be coz i switched medi... So i ended up doing nothing again... Urgh, and i refused to sleep coz i wanted to sleep early tonight...

Am gonna take more medi and get a good sleep now... Coz tmr i am going out... To shop for presents!!!! I hope i dun end up buying more for myself... Haha...

Hope i feel better tmr... But hack, i am going out anyways...

And i am going to watch Hostel!!! Finally found a companion... Heh, hope e boobies dun turn me off too much... But then only left one place and 2 slots left for e movie... So duno will get to watch or not... Tmr see how... If not then watch Poiseidon... Like Titanic lidat...

I am so excited... I hope i can walk... I would be walking alot in Orchard tmr...

No HYDE

I seriously thot i would dream of HYDE yest... Well coz i was day n night dreaming about him, and i had been dealing wif my illness for the past 3 days wif repeat playing of songs from his 3 solo albums, day n night... Till my mp3player abit crazy liao... Might be time to change... But it still can last an other 1 and half yr i believe...

Do u noe i can fall asleep listening to HYDE's rock music? Somehow his songs are lullaby to me... I cant sleep wif Gackt's rock songs though, coz his songs are too noisy... And he sing too loudly, lol... If i managed to fall asleep, he would no doubt wake me up wif his next song... Hahahah... Dun even mention Miyavi... Heavy metal rock music are annoying when u r sick, and his hyperactiveness makes me dizzy... But all would be well when i recover...

I compiled HYDE's 3 solo albums coz i wanna hear the difference, and his improvements... I'll leave tt to another entry another day... Also i wanna review his latest album, Faith, which was released early May... Hes going Taiwan soon for a solo concert i predict... I am so jealous... I wish i can teleport myself there...

Anyways, I thot to myself, i would definately see him in my dreams last night as a matter of factly... But then hor... I dreamt about everything, our conversations (we speak in english in my dreamings), the things in our conversations, his wife, his kid... Just dun haf him lor!!! I am so angry!!!

Y cant u appear in my dream as arranged? Urgh... Haha... Anyways not ur fault lah...

I just watched his old singles, Horizon PV coz i read alot of his fans kept saying its creepy and sort... But then hor, where got creepy? Wats so creepy about it? I dun get it at all... So disappointing, i was expecting creepy special effects but there were none except to hint tt he is dead... But he still look like him mah, so wats creepy about it?

Micheal Jackson's ghost look creepy i agree... Oh btw, they kinda look alike u noe... I haf the pictures...

My mum just said she wans to share the prata... I told her to eat all if she wans and she grumbled... Duh...

Back

I feel much better now...

Well at least my fever had gone down... I need not sleep on my bed whole day.... I can breathe thru my nose some times... & I can move my body ard... Well at least i can wake up 7 am in the morning and download stuffs... Coz i slept too much... Even wif drowsy pills, i couldnt sleep last night...

My flu and cough are still there though... And my cough is very bad tis time...

I told my sis last night in a very weird voice, "Ur virus is so poisonous! I haf not been so sick for so long liao!"...

True i haf been sick often, but not like tis time...

I couldnt even move, lucky i no need see doc, coz i am sure i couldnt even walk downstairs... And i cant even tok...

I cannot speak properly... And it is damn frustrating when my family knoe i am sick and yet they still wan to chit chat... And coz i cannot exert energy, whenever i reply, they go, "HUH?", "HUH?", "HUH?"... Which annoyed me even more...

It takes great pain to try to speak ok? Luckily nobody calls me lately... Except SZ who called when i was sleeping on my very 1st day of illness...

I hate to be seriously sick... Coz it makes me feel very lonely... I can deal wif being alone... Just tt when i am sick or when i am buying my groceries (heavy bags!), i feel lonely... I think these are e only times when i feel i dun wan to be alone...

Then again, ironically, when i am attached and sick, i felt lonely... So i would rather feel lonely when im single than attached... Becoz u feel even more lonely when u r attached n sick and plus heartaches...



No matter, i am glad i went thru it...

Being seriously sick always makes me feel like dying in the process... I wonder how ppl can go thru e sufferings of cancer n other sorts for yrs...

My mum bought me roti prata!!! Does anyone noe i am still sick? Even though i speak wif a horrible scratchy coarse voice, she said, "Aiya, recover liao lah!"... "Eat spicy food confirm cure faster!"...

She said the prata is for my lunch today, coz she wan to go out, lazy to cook porridge... But duno i wake up so early so change to my beakfast, so relunctantly shes cooking my porridge for lunch and dinner now be4 she go shopping... -_-"

Ive been eating plain porridge for lunch and dinner for e past 3 days... SZ, ur fav!!! And i am so sick of it... No more teochew porridge for e rest of the yr...

I hope i am back, stronger! Lol...

Bull's Eyes!

There is a flu virus going ard my house aka my sis, who brought the virus from her bank... It stayed floating minding its own business for 2 weeks, and finally, decided to hit me yest evening... Bull's Eyes! Perfect landin!

For 2 weeks, i wasnt infected, i thot to myself my health has come back and i am strong...

I duno isit coz of the 3 bowls of strong herbal tea i drank day be4, which might be e culprit who somehow screwed up my inner immune system...

Sigh... Tis is bad...

I kept eating medicine n sleep... Tis morning i woke up feeling worst than ever (fever, blocked nose, sorethroat cough, etc)... But now i felt slightly better... I did not see doc, i simple ate the medicine my sis took fr her doc (free one, company pay)...

I hope i can recover tmr... So many things for me to do...

Luckily i went KTV last week... Coz my cold usually wun go away for weeks...

My dear gal had finished her exams, but then she now everyday got tution coz her students having exams soon... Sigh, how to meet lidat?

My sis is going overseas tis week to Thailand...

Oh, i seriously hate those ppl who duno anything bout politics and still claim like they noe n wan to tok about it as if its so cool...

One female said, "Wow, though its pathetic, but the opposition managed to win 2 seats tis time, but its a START! I hope they can make some changes!"

Its like i duno whether to laugh or wat... I merely rolled my eye balls... Wat u mean its a START? U dun even noe about the prev elections even though u r so much older than me meh? *tsk tsk*

For those who duno wat i am toking about and are brave enuff to admit u duno, well, the opposition had been holding on to these 2 seats for the past 3 or 4 elections... They haf been there for about 15 - 20 yrs... More about these in another posts after ive recovered....

Seriously it only makes u look stupid when u make a comment lidat... Even so, i doubt the others found it stupid, for they themselves are also idiots who duno anything about sg politics but pretended to be smart alecs...

Wa, sick still can get angry...

I shall go rest my soul now...

Naruto 2nd Movie

Oh my god!!!!!!!

I tell u ar, the 2nd Naruto movie is good... Its almost great... At least a hundred times better than e never-moving anime series...

The backgrds paintings are very good... I love the backgrds... Also, the characters look way better... In the anime series, the characters all look kinda distorted after they grew bigger... But the movie was gd... The story is interesting as well though nothing special... But at least the flow of the story catches ur attention...

I thot the 1st one was ok, so i never expected the second one to be better... I was glued fr beginning to end when i saw the second one...

But of coz, i am alittle biased... Just a little...

Becoz...

GAARA is in it!!!!

Finally i see Gaara again, like after so long... FInally they decided to incorperate Gaara into e movie, which they shd haf done it so long ago...

I always dun understand y they created such an interesting character (even more than e lead), and then just made it a side kick and then worst made him disappear totally... -_-"

He played such a big part in the manga and then u just make him disappear in the anime... Wat a joke!

Although i am quite disappointed at the limited scenes where Gaara appeared in the movie... But i seriously felt his impact whenever he appears... He is tt strong!!! I was kinda hoping tt Gaara would be involved in the final battle in e end... But then, i believe they wanted e focus to be on Naruto, so they didnt do it... So disappointing...

Nevertheless, seeing Gaara is so exciting and refreshing...

He opened the movie and got me so excited... Didnt think tt i would see him... Hahah... He grew bigger as well, and his voice has changed too...

The music and sounds effects were better on tis one too... Although i kinda felt the theme song's title Ding Dong Dang kinda irritating...

But in general, its worth watching... Much more than e 1st... Its a leap in improvement...

I hope tis movie is not e reason behind y they never move on the anime series... If it is then its like -_______-"!!! But i heard its moving on soon, then again, i heard it so long ago liao... But then at least they cleared e movie, i am sure they haf more time now to move on...

Gaara is da bomb!!! You are so cool...

2nd Yr Death Anniversary

I headed to YCK Sec Sch in the noon for e voting...

My sis initially wanted to vote for a particular party, she gave her reasons and asked which side i was voting... I told her and then gave her my reasons... In the end, she followed me... Hhahahah...

Anyways, got serial number one lor... -_-"

I am rather excited about the results... Just 15 mins more...

Watched The Parent Trap a moment ago, so heart warming, and my fav Lindsay Lohan is just so cute when shes small... So young and yet acting 2 roles, so amazing... And last night i watched the famous old old blockbuster, Indecent Proposal... Aww, it was a bittersweet movie... I like it... So touching at the end...

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I found out today is the actual date for my Baby's 2nd yr death anniversary... My eldest sis smsed me yest, telling me about it... Now tt i remembered, she did tis last yr 2...

I had to console her even though i dun feel very gd about it... Its not impt to let her noe how i really think about the incident since its already been history... So wats impt is for her to feel better and move on...

Now, i am sure i would remember tis date... Urgh... But no matter, i hope Baby is happy where ever he is now... I do not believe tt all pets go heaven... Even though i told my eldest sis tt i believe Baby is happy now in heaven... I haf to say things according to ppl's religious beliefs...

I do not believe tt there is heaven... Even if there is, i do not think tt every one would be very happy... I do not believe a place where there is ever flowing milk, honey, grass and equal feelings to be happy... But i do believe in the spiritual world and hell so to speak...

I believe he had been reborn and is somewhere now... At least i feel closer to him tt way...

Although its been 2 yrs, i still miss ya, Baby... Hope u'll live ur new life to the fullest again...

PS: My mum came back early today... Coz she lost money lor... My son is very moody today, duno y... He didnt wan wan to eat his dinner... Duno isit coz my mum came back, coz u see, he dun like her...

Wonderful Night

I was totally shagged n knocked out e moment i got on my bed tis morning... I didnt realised how tired i was until i felt my body giving way n sleeping 1st even be4 my brain...

I did not even respond to my hp alarm... I slept very deep... Cant remember wat i dreamt though... Luckily not fillet o fish again... Lol... Its gd tt i dun haf work or date today, if not i confirm miss it one...

My sis bf bought me food today... So i ate late lunch early dinner? Dun think i'll cook later, lazy...

Yest while on e train, i smsed my date saying, "We eat sushi? I very long no eat le!"... And the reply was, "Me also! I was already thinking of tt! Already envisioned myself eating tt later! Haha!"... Something along tt line...

Very happy tt we ate sushi (my fav), 1 and 1/2 hrs of dinner time is never enuff for us... Kinda rush for me, coz i haf too many things to say... Either i got no time to taste my food properly or no time to tok... Haha... But food was especially good yest, duno y...

Then we headed for KTV... I had a great time... It was more enjoyable than my last one, though at the same place, wif e same person... The last time we came out feeling so sian, tis time we were both excited n happy...

I sang all the songs i wanted to except two songs... But nvm, next time sure haf one...

I sang alot of newer songs tis time... I made the effort to go learn one lor... I usually sing old songs haha... And then i sang alot of female songs n duets tis time... I usually sing alot of male songs, coz somehow i like male songs better... There are more gd males songs than female songs...

I was singing and at some pts i couldnt recognise my voice... Lol... I realised coz i wasnt used to me singing female songs... Haha, forgot tt i sounded like tt... And my date laughed at me when i said tt... Coz i was singing e verse and suddenly i paused n said, "Eh? i sing one ar?" ( i tok it was e female singer) and my date said, "Ya lah!"...

And then the room we got was so romantic... Got view somemore lor... If u stand or sit high up on the sofa, u can sing n enjoy e view (though view wasnt very appealin but it was very romantic)... The room is huge somemore... I think i got medium room instead... No more kbox... Lol... Tis has got to be my fav ktv outlet...

Then i went to my date's neighbourhood and we sat and tok for hrs... I interrupted our conversation to sms Jul, Happy Birthday wor... Heh... Hope she haf a good bday tis yr!

After i sent my date back (how nostalgic), i walked past tis cheers outlet, and e cheers person said "Morning" to me when i walk past... So sweet...

I was walking further coz i wan to save alittle on my midnight cab fare... I was walking walking then suddenly one cab just pulled over for me... So i hopped on... And then meanwhile, the driver and i chatted... He tried to use english to chat me up so i appreciated it coz i can tell he cant really speak e language...

We had quite abit of laughs toking about the speeding cameras, summons, etc... Oh i got a surpise when i got on the cab, coz the uncle was actually listening to Jap pop songs... Haha, so stylo!!! I like!!! He was listening to Smap songs...

The journey was extremely smooth (of coz lah 4+ am in the morning leh)... I reached my place very soon and at a incredible low rate... I only paid 7 bucks including midnight fare... So amazing... Its e lowest ive gotten so far (fr tt place lah)...

In fact, its even lower than the ride from there in the day... Amazing...

Anyways, i went home pleased... I hope the sunflower i gave can last though... Didnt take pic though i had my cam wif me... Lol... Told u i dun use my cam outside, which is y i shd get e new one... Hhaha..

Then i saw rm sent Jul white roses wor, nice right? Told u white roses very nice liao... Sigh, i am so jealous, i also wan!!!!!

Wrong One

Urgh... I bought the wrong lip balm...

Due to the contractors surveying my house, i couldnt get to the meeting place sooner... Coz u see, i wanted to get flower for my date, it was meant to be a surprise... So i hurried the flower, then rushed to watsons, grabbed e things i wanted to get and hurried to the restaurant entrance... All the time, hiding the flower...

So in the midst of e messiness, i bought e wrong lip balm... Correct brand but wrong how u say? I duno how to say, aiyah supposed to get e blue one, i took e red one... Sigh... Lucky didnt cost me much...

I bought my body scrub and also e foundation... I think i got the right shade tis time... I used eye judgement instead, coz e shade i bought ran out of tester... I dropped 2 shades lighter... Lol... Just tested it on my hand and it seemed gd, but hand not accurate one, dun do tt... But then i am still wearing my makeup, so cannot test it yet...

Yes, i just got home 45 mins ago... Sent my date home, so sweet of me, its been awhile...

We had a great time... More tmr... I am so tired... My eyes are so red...

Killings, And More

The contractors just left... They were very surprised landlord not ard, coz they need some decisions about e upgrading... Lol... The only decision i made was to tell them to tear down e kitchen cabinet, coz too old liao... I think we would be getting own contractor to do new cabinets after e upgrading... I think...

These few nights hor, i haf been having nightmares leh... Manslaughter every night... Killing ppl and getting killed every night... Massarce... So much blood, so much death... So much fear... In order to protect my own life and others, i got to start killing too... Too damn sick... Sick to my stomach...

Sometimes its like game, but when we r in e game we can really die like Battle Royale lidat... Survivor game... Sometimes its war, or reality killings...

Urgh...

The MP came knocking on doors tis morning but i was sleeping so i ignored... No, actually they were the impatient one, when i went to the door, they already went next door... So bloody impatient!!! I overheard a guy saying, "Im ur district's nominee..." Or something lidat in mandarin... So i dun even noe hes PAP MP or the opposition...
-_________-"

Then half an hr later, someone knocked my door extremely loud... I went to the door, same thing again... Tt person disappeared... Disturb my sleep only... Now i am so tired...

Ok not toking more, coz i haf a date... Going for dinner and KTV, woohoo~

Gonna go prepare now...

Kagen No Tsuki Final Thots

I haf said countless times tt I am a idealistic (or naive as to wat some called) person... Too idealistic for my own good... Becoz in reality, there is no such things as idealism, becoz human nature eventually evolves according to times and situations...

The more idealistic u r, the more u would get hurt... Becoz u believe in everything...

So whenever i see idealistic situations, i get pretty emotional... Which is one of the reasons y i cry at movies, anime, manga so much... Becoz unfortunately, these are the only places i see my own idealogy reflected back to me...

In a century where i thot my theories are weird, i never thot tt some ppl still use these kind of idealogy in their creations (though artificial), becoz i thot the audiences now are so practical tt nobody would follow or comprehend those kind of ideas anymore...

Look at movies nowadays, it is ok to haf mulitple partners, it is ok to haf flings becoz tts wat everybody is doing, it is ok to try relationships coz at most break lor, married then divorce lor, find another one, piss me off...

But every now and then, some would appear...

Kagen No Tsuki is a pretty dark world... While in tt story, the world is filled wif betrayal... Ur husband, bf, best fren, etc... Anyone can betray u, no matter how close or impt they r to u... There is no such thing as becoz i am ur husband, i would be loyal, becoz i am ur fren, i would help u... No such thing...

Its rather saddening also to find out Adam isnt as endearing as in the movie... He did not commit suicide so to speak, it wasnt a decision, he confessed tt he simply wasted his life away, sank into ultimate depression and so happened he had an overdose in drugs and died...

But it is also sad to see that in e manga, Adam's spirit would never be put to rest... Although its his punishment which he had accepted in the end, but then ending a story lidat is heavy for e heart u noe? At least the movie had the happy sweet ending ya?

Reading the manga, i understood y exactly he said to Mizuki, "Tis is ur fault, u died!" wif RAGE...

I saw something in the manga which e movie totally decided to differ, it might be unintentional... They might haf made the changes according to realism of reality...

The resolution of Mizuki, her stand wif Adam, their love were totally on 2 different grounds i thot...

In e manga, Mizuki returned to her body becoz she realised she wasnt alone anymore... She claimed tt she was lonely in e real world, which was y she had wanted to give up... It wasnt love tt bind her to follow Adam... But later Adam also said he lost to the strong hold in reality which was Tomoki...

Tis is not really how i like to see the story though... It made everything seemed too lightly n not worth fighting for...

In the movie, she knew everything, but chose to give her new life and e ppl ard her another chance and she wans to live her life to e fullest...

But in the manga, her memory is wiped clean after she returned... Tt to me, is unfair... It is more respectable if u make a decision when e noe e full picture...

I do not believe in reincarnation when ur memories are wiped clean... But of coz, if u do remember tts creepy also but tts another side of e story... But ideally, it is unfair to not noe wat u had gone thru when u r given another chance...

When u fall, u bleed, learn the lesson and try again... But if u can try again, but u forgot e lesson learnt, then there is no pt... It jus goes in a vicious cycle...

And also, it is sad tt becoz she couldnt remember anything, Hotaru lost her as a fren... How can lidat...

I thot there is something bout the manga which had a great impact... But the author used idealogy in tt case...

The idealogy in tis story lies in e character Hotaru... Hotaru helped Mizuki selflessly, and went all out for a person out of true genuine affection for another being... But of coz, she is idealistic becoz she is a child... It wouldnt be convincing if the author used a older character...

She mentioned something near e end of e manga, which is something i had been saying all along...

She said,

"U said earlier tt no matter wat we do, we couldnt help Eve (Mizuki) as long as she herself, doesnt wan to live... Ive always thot like tt... But now i wan to believe tt we haf the power to move Eve's heart with our wishes... I wan to believe that our wishes would be Eve's hope of living..."

And she tried her best, believing... And therefore, she saved her... Although she lost a fren afterwards, but its ok to her, as long as Eve is alive...

Tt is strong idealism which moved me...

I always say suicides in most cases, could be avoided if everyone pays attention to the ppl ard them... She tried to persuade her, but Eve was set on giving up n pushed her away many times, but she did not give up... She tried again and again, even though she knew she is not strong enuff...

Its exactly wat i haf been saying...

Ppl told me, tt it is all up to the individual, we cannot help, tis n tt... When i tell ppl some things, e 1st thing they tell me is always "I cant help u, only u can help urself!"... These are all bullshits and excuses... Never underestimate wat mere words can do... It can reach and save the most unimaginable... Wat do u think therapists are for?

Idealism doesnt exist anymore... Human nature had already changed...

Some frenz told me tt their best fren had suicided and they only found out days, weeks or mths after their deaths... I can only feel pity tt they even used the words, "best frens"...

Human values change... I guess thats how we haf to live wif it...

Btw, the movie Queen of the Damn is great... I love vampire movies... Although the movie is so long ago, it doesnt really feel so... Except tat they censored off so many parts till i dun even noe wat happened... Lol...

HYDE Madness

I was browsing thru my photo collections and i seriously just cant take my eyes off HYDE's 2006 photos...

His 2006 photos are just simply amazing, especially his "Faith" album set...

Comparing his photos of his past, this is his best set... His hairstyle totally complemented and enhanced his boyish features and made him look so much younger...

Although i haf a fetish for blonde/white hair and his lovely hair extensions for Cape Of Storm Single... I really love white hair and extensions... He also had his extensions for one L'arc En Ciel Album, very rock punk hairstyle, but i forgot which one liao... Lol... Ive always loved his long hair... But then, his current hair cut is as endearing as well... Though not very short, but short in my preference...

Although i kinda miss his make up and all... But then its always gd to see the natural side of him... He did haf one photo wif heavy makeup... So tt did satisfy me, haha...


How can you still look so great? Your 2006 photos really blew me away when i 1st saw them mths ago...


Although i love him alot, but i haf to be honest... I am not a big fan of his solo works... While they are good, they are not the best... I still prefered Laruku's songs... Somehow, i agree wif their fans tt their solo works all lack certain elements (n tts e work of each other)... Good but not great...

L'arc En Ciel songs are classics... I can listen to them over and over for so many yrs already... Especially their last Awake album, which totally showcased their growth... Maybe not as rock anymore but the songs fully matured...

I duno whether is it the trend for movies... While HYDE & Gackt's Orenji No Taiyou (Orange Sun) for moon child and his Cape Of Storm for Last Quarter matches the movie brilliantly, but as solo music, they r just not there... Strange... Especially Orenji No Taiyou... Cape Of Storm is much better though but only if u caught e movie...

When i was reading e manga, Cape of Storm didnt matches i thot... Maybe becoz e characters n plots a little different i guess...

Eh? I just realised both his movies' about Moon... Lol...

But nevertheless i appreciate his solo works, its another side of him... And his determination to showcase his under rated vocal strength... All artists wan to do their own music someday... Wif complete freedom and all... And wif his own record company, it is natural tt he continued tis path... And sticking together as a band for about 12 yrs since e underground live houses days is something tts both amazing n admirable... Most bands dun last (especially wif e same band members) and yet they do... Except Sakura who was busted for drugs and they had to recruit a new drummer... But tts all donkey yrs ago, when i was like wat? In pri sch?

And ending off wif one of my fav photos...







Lol, he is just sooooooo cute... How can u not smile?

Last Quarter Thots Part 1

*Spoiler warnings*

Okay i am done wif e movie and manga of Last Quarter Kagen No Tsuki... I doubt anyone would be watching e 2 yr old movie so i think i would tok about it...

Hmm... How shd i put it?

The storylines are somewat different, especially the ending... No, actually the endings are totally different and sets off 2 different moods...

The movie somewat gives u a weird feeling due to e ending twist tt they added (which i cannot understand y they did tt, will cum to it later *spoiler*), but they also resolved the story and gives u a somewat pleasant, sweet n happy ending to the main story...

Oh the real ending to e main story line (movie) is at the end of the looooonnnnnngggg credits, so if u r going to watch, make sure u scroll to the end...

The manga leaves you feeling sad... And i think it makes ppl feel a little lost too... Not so gd for emotional ppl like me...

I am not into plain happy perfect sweet lovey love stories tt much, so in order to intrigue me, its got to haf some different elements...

The different element about Last Quarter is tt its somewat a ghost story, reincarnation (spoiler), world between reality n dream... Of coz, i am not going to deny HYDE is e main trigger of interest... Lol... He resembles his character in the manga as well...

Be4 i caught e movie, i already noe e story... But tt doesnt stop me from getting emotional...

I think if u watch it plainly, u won't be feeling much... But i did shed quite abit of tears coz it was sooooo sad... The manga was worst... Sigh... If u start to imagine wat some characters went thru all these 20 yrs, etc... U would feel very sad for them... So for e non chalant audience, u most probably dun feel a thing... Coz the movie doesnt really show u wat they went thru, u got to think it thru urself...

As of all Japanese movies, i think u haf to tolerate their sllloooowww pacing and slllooowww speeches... To be frank, i wasnt comfortable initially... It was so slow, it was barely tolerable... But then after awhile i started getting chills, spooks, n all, i forgot about e pacing, and it moved a little faster in the middle...

The movie in summary is based on the novel by Ai Yazawa, "Kagen no Tsuki" is about a girl named Mizuki (Chiaki Kuriyama) who meets a mysterious guy named Adam (HYDE of L'Arc~En~Ciel). Although Mizuki had never seen Adam before, she realised he knows her... The moment she met him, she was drawn into him... One day he called telling her he's leaving and if she wants to go on e condition tt she would haf to find him before the moon disappears that night. She got hit by a car and her soul lost its memory and finds herself trapped in an old mansion. She met a girl named Hotaru, who had an accident on the same night as Mizuki while she was out looking for her cat, and therefore was e only one who could can see her. Mizuki does not remember her own name or anything except Adam. Hotaru and her friend Mura decide to figure out what happened to Mizuki and they gave her the nickname "Eve". They found out about the family that once lived in the mansion and what happened to their daughter, Sayaka, but it doesn't add up. . .

(Er hem, i copied e above summary, coz i just cant summarise... But i edited it though, too many spoilers... Lol)

If u wan to catch it then stop here... If u wan to find out more then read on...

On Mizuki's 19th bday (manga is 17th, maybe they found it too young), she broke off wif her bf, who slept wif her best fren... Then she ran away from home coz she hate her new step mum and small step sis... Her own mother suicided coz of e affair, and the father married e mistress later...

Anyways, she had known a haunting melody since she was born but she could never complete e tune... When she was running away, she heard tis melody coming from tis old abandoned mansion (huge but old n creepy) and she went inside (brave girl)... The mansion is spooky, the doors open themselves and the lights on themselves too... She did not find it strange, i believed she must haf thot they were sensors... Lol... Anyways, its supposed to be spooky, so only i would side track when i was watching e scenes...

There in one of the rooms, she saw tis gorgeous handsome guitarist playing the tune... That man is Adam, he claimed tt hes renting the mansion for a week... Hes from London, half english, half jap (manga is English wif blonde hair n blue eyes)... He said he noes her etc... And where ever he walks, the lights on themselves... Creepy... Hes a man of few words as well...

She in the end stayed wif e guy in e mansion, confided in him etc... Adam disappears in the day and only returned at night... She did not go to sch nor her part time job, and refused to contact everyone... Everybody is lookin for her... Her bf Tomoki kept calling her but she refused to pick up...

One night, Adam held her and shouted, "Tis is all ur fault, u died!"... And tried to strangle her ( i couldnt really see coz e movie was so dark tt moment, i found out fr e manga, haha)... His hands were icy cold... He let go and Mizuki tried to leave e mansion... But Adam stopped her, hugged her, weeped and said, "Dun leave me, i cannot go on without u, pls stay by my side."...

She obliged and then one week ended... On e last day, Adam disappeared and called her hp (her phone batt was already flat)... He told her hes leaving and Mizuki asked him to take her... So he said if she could reach a place before sunrise, he would take her...

She went home to take her passport and ran to tt place... She saw Adam at the other side of the road, and crosses e traffic crossing... While shes in e middle (e lights had becum red), her bf Tomoki saw her and shouted at her... She stopped, turned back, saw Tomoki and then she was knocked down by a coming car...

She came to tis place wif a gate... But e gate is locked, she could not cross over... She saw a girl and e girl is looking for her cat... She helped her, and e cat crawled out from behind e gate and ran off... The girl then ran after her cat and disappeared...

Mizuki saw behind the gates a figure tt looks like Adam, and e haunting tune... She shouted Adam!

Oh my god e way i type, i am going to take ages...

Next is e funny part, i cant stop laughing, no idea y e author drew it tis way... Maybe to ease e tension? Its e same as movie n manga... E next scene u see Adam suddenly singing and then zoom out, hes standing on a cliff and then zoom out, its a MTV!!! And then e TV was offed... Lol... Adam is HYDE anyways, so u can imagine how funny it was...

Hes singing tt haunting tune... Sing as in a full song...

The MTV was shown on e TV at the hospital, the small girl (whom Mizuki saw jus a moment ago) offed the tv then.... She had an accident while looking for her cat... And she was being discharged tt day...

Anyways, e small girl, Hotaru, kept on looking for her cat... And one fine day, she walked past tis old mansion and saw a cat entering the mansion door... She sneaked in and heard e haunting tune... Someone's playing the piano...

She saw Mizuki in the room, and tt cat... But the cat isnt her cat though...

They recognised each other... But Hotaru thot it was just a dream... Hotaru asked who Mizuki is, and she said she doesnt remember anything... She cant remember anything, except tt she is looking for her bf, Adam... She named e cat Adam too...

Mizuki told Hotaru tt she is trapped in e mansion... She couldnt leave... Hotaru decided to help her... Meanwhile, a schmate of Hotaru called Mura followed her... Hotaru introduces Mizuki to him and Mizuki greeted him... Mura then exclaimed, "Who r u toking to? Theres nobody here!"...

He thot Hotaru was crazy until he saw e floating handkerchief... Mizuki returned Hotaru her napkin... Mura could not see her, but realised "something" is there...

So at tis pt, u would realised, Mizuki is a ghost! Mizuki was shocked too... She broke down and felt tt if she had died she wouldnt be able to see Adam anymore...

Mura and Hotaru both decided to help Mizuki return to heaven... And they thot tt by helping her find Adam, she would be able to rest in peace...

So who is Adam exactly? Where is he now? Y is Mizuki trapped in the mansion? Who is Mizuki truly? How are they going to solve the mystery? Who is the true love of Mizuki? Who exactly is Tomoki? Mizuki is wearing a necklace bearing the initials of S.K., who is S.K.? How is S.K. related to Mizuki?

Heh heh, not telling u leh... Go and watch the movie lor!!! Lots of twists n turns... I however, shudder at the ending twist... Its weird... How can you date your brother? Eh? Wat brother? Oops...

Hahhah... Aiyah, entry too long liao, to be continued...

Back Early

My mum went back M'sia earlier today (1 day early) coz shes angry over bf for drinking till so late last night and returning in the middle of e night...

She initially only intended to go in tmr... Tis morning while i was still sleeping, she came in and said shes so sick of seeing his face, so shes going back earlier...

Then few hrs ago, her bf came back, then i realised hes not working today... No wonder my mum left...

It wasnt comfortable with him and me alone in the house at all... And its worst tt i moved my computer to e living room... Otherwise i can just lock myself in my room like usual... At least i feel safer... No matter, i tolerated the pressence wif my manga (i am finishing the last few chapters) and loud jap music...

No mood for other things at all...

We dun tok coz he cannot communicate in english or mandarin... He only speak hokkien, which i dun really understand... It is so hard to communicate in simple chinese words... Even so, most of the time, he doesnt understand...

Anyways, i just realised he doesnt noe my mum left... He still thot its tmr, and was waiting for my mum to come back... He just asked me, "Mum go out arh?"... I then told him tt she went back M'sia liao...

He had a shock on his face, i didnt really wan to look at him but he was really surprised... I wonder wat were e thots tt ran thru his mind? Was he thinking y she left earlier without telling him? Or was he thinking great, he can go drinking till very late tonight then?

I wonder whether he even noe tt my mum is angry wif him...

I wanted to tell him "She left coz she angry wif u mah!"... But of coz i didnt, i doubt he understands anyways...

Hes out now... Hope he doesnt come back too drunk later in the night...

Earlier in the day while i was still sleeping, i received a call (eldest sis) to go downstairs to pick up some stuffs... And when she realised i was sleeping, she asked if i would be at home e rest of e day n said she'll pass them to me later and tt i can go back to sleep...

Then hor, 20 mins later... She called again and asked if i was awake... -______-" So relunctantly i said i was and went down to get the stuffs immediately... (ok lah, i am lazy, can?)Well, i didnt even haf enuff time to get back to sleep... And it was so sudden i didnt even manage to wash up...

My flat is going thru upgrading soon (sigh nightmare!!! gotta move out for 8 days, duno where to stay then)... The contractors would be coming on thurs to take photos n measurements... So i would be stuck at home... Anyways, i would be stuck at home for quite some time coz of my son... Cant be out for the whole day... Nobody's home...

Sigh...

Last Quarter Kagen No Tsuki

(Tis entry is supposed to be yest night but blogger screwed up)

After 12 hrs of searching finding downloading converting, i finally watched the movie tt ive wanted to watch...

Last Quarter Kagen No Tsuki

I also found e manga as well... Heh heh heh...

I am so stubborn, i just wanted to watch it no matter wat, and thus i spent all my time yest loooking for it... Tis is no gd, dun pick up the bad habit! I just finished the whole movie and after tis, i am going to sleep, sigh, wif a heavy heart n swollen eyes though... I hope i dun get nightmares later...

The movie was creepy, the music was so eerie... I had to remove my ear piece several times coz of the haunting tune... The kind where u hear woman whispers or humming is the worst!!!

Chiaki Kuriyama (battle royale 1 & Jap girl in Kill Bill) is the female lead in tis movie... She is so scary... She gave me chills man... Her face alone is a scary thing, duno its gd or bad though... I kinda regreted watching the movie in the middle of the night, alone in the living room... So scary...

The last third of the movie made my chills go away but in exchange, i cried so much... Its so sad... I love tragic love stories... But depending on how u see it, maybe e love isnt a tragic... But it is to me... How worst can it get when u noe e love of ur life is dead, a wandering trapped spirit whereas u r still living in e real world? And hes been waiting for u for so many yrs, alone...

To me, tts very sad...

I am tired now fr all the crying... Ok i shall sleep 1st, will tok about it more later...

The main reason y i insist on catching the 2004 yr old movie is of coz...

U guess?










Coz my HYDE sama is in it mah!!!! Who else? How can any other ghost be as daunting as him???

He is e beautiful, creepy and haunting ghost... I like tis movie more than Moon Child... But then, he just played a very small little part... Less than 10 scenes of him and less than 15 lines... Lol...

Shall read e manga later... Hope its less creepy...

I am craving for Mac's fillet-o-fish burger... In fact, i craved for it so much i actually dreamt of eatting it 2 times in 2 separate dreams 2 days ago... Hahahah... I better go fullfil tis small little craving... But then no chance to eat leh... I think i go claim e burger wif my ezlink pts, then no need to pay mah... *cheapskate*

$2 Service Charge

Urgh, I forgot when im over 21, the stupid POSB would start charging me $2 service charge for below $500 savings...

Other banks would charge no matter wat age u r... So POSB was being nice... Lol, until my bday last yr of coz...

Damn it... Totally forgot...

And today is the 30th, so i just got deducted again!!!

I duno kena how many times liao... Bekcek...

But its my fault lah, i overlooked on tt... Nvm, at least i bloody hell definately will remember now.

Need to manage my accounts more properly now on...

Extreme Makeover

Yest i dreamt of SZ again... I always dream of her one leh...

But majority of my dreams about her all turned out negatively one... Lol... And then i would sms her wat i dreamt and she always either say, "Its just a dream." or "So funny." or "Y u dream of such things?"...

Like how i last time dreamt tt we had a big quarrel and then in a pub or something, we made up by *eh hem* making out... She nudged her head over and we had tis deep smoldering wet kiss... Hahahah...

And i still remember e aftertaste somemore... It was so vivid coz it was so shocking... I kissed girls be4 but never a wet one... I gotta admit while it was kinda sweet in e dream, coz we made up but it was somewat creepy... Haha...

As much as i can be physically close to other girl frenz (like holding arms etc), but i just can never do it wif her... In fact, the 1st time i held her hand was like only 2 yrs ago when we were at Genting... No idea y... But i told her tt there is tis barrier wif her... Hahahah...

Even when crossing arms abit purposely, i still felt it was weird...

Maybe becoz i noe she is not e physically close kind of person so i cant bring myself doing it... Wouldnt i be a perfect bf if i was a guy, it means if my gf is a virgin i wouldnt haf sex wif her? Then again, if i am guy, then things would be different... Hahaha...

I told her about e kiss and shockingly she replied, "U actually think it is OK for us to kiss in ur dream?"...

Then after some exchange, she said, "Well, we can try it in real life to find out how its like." or something along tt line... I remained silent for awhile coz i was doing some things and she then sent me another msg, saying, i can ignore e prev msg... Hahaha...

I replied n said, "No need to find out, i already noe."... But truth be told, it was a gd kiss, i guess u wouldnt dream of having horrible kisses... Unless maybe u haven kiss be4 and thus duno wats a gd kiss...

Anyways, yest i dreamt tt i met her up today at Northpoint after her exam... And somehow, Northpoint looked more atas... Lots of restaurants and new shops... She looked totally different... Her hair is longer than mine, rebonded, dyed wif highlight streaks... She had her bangs cut... Her fashion sense totally changed 180! Her heels were even higher than mine!

She looked so different... Maybe it was good she changed herself like tt to make herself look trendy, clubber or sort, but i was certainly very very uncomfortable e whole time... I couldnt accept the changes... She had heavy make up on as well... And when we were outdoor, she took her a pair of stylo reflective sunglasses...

Too cool man! Where e hell did my old SZ go? I certainly prefered the natural SZ...

And then when we got inside, i realised e sunglasses had transition lens, to which i felt it was a waste of money... I had no idea tt she would do tis kind of makeover, or spend tis kind of money just becoz she got the progress package money! Somehow i figured tt she used tt money in my dream...

She was being very chatty somemore... She kept toking thru out e whole shopping trip, but i wasnt really listening to her... I was in my own world coz i was truly so uncomfortable i just wanted to tell her i wanna go home... I kept thinking y she becum lidat, wat happened?

It is so scary... I think her fault lah, she said she wan to do tis do tt to her looks... Then i go n compute tis image in my dream... Hahhah...

I seriously hope she doesnt do all of these though... Coz one reason i like about her is shes down to earth compared to other girls i noe... Subtle changes can lah, since as we grow older, we tend to do different things to ourselves...

But not 180 suddenly... Cannot accept, will heart attack!!!

Hahahah...

Anyways, e dream ended when we settled down at a Jap Curry Steamboat Restaurant... So cool eh? I thot of it one leh (in my dreams though)... But we never gotten down to eating it and i felt something lickin my toes (Urgh, Pappy!)... Sigh... I wan to try out the food leh!!!

Mother's Day Gift

My family all got timing one... There would be a certain time in e day when im still sleepin, and my son would try to wake me up by licking my toes or hand ard tt time (he doesnt wake me earlier)... Then when i woke, he would bring his ball to me... Then i would tell him, "No, no ball!"... And then start cursing, "Where got ppl play ball e moment they wake up one? *tsk*"... Ok, hes not "ppl" but watwever!

After which, still on my bed, i would play my mp3s on speaker mode (moi hp) and throw e phone on my sis's bed... Then while enjoying e songs and thinking back wat i dreamt (wif my eyes closed), usually after 5 - 10 mins, my mum would return from her shopping...

And tis goes on everyday!

But my mum's quite funny today... She came back wif 3 new bags n barged into my room... Actually not barge, coz my rm door not closed one... She walked into my room, wif a proud grin and said, "I bought 3 bags hor, then 3 of u (her 3 children) each pay as Mother's Day gift ok?"...

Lol, i wanted to laugh... She win liao, lidat also can... Next time i also wan to try...

I go buy new hp or camera then come back tell my bf, hubby, or whoever, "Oi! I bought a new phone, u pay for it as my bday gift ok?"...

BF/Hubby: Dun wan...

Me: Huh? But i bought liao leh!!!! Dun lidat lah! Pay abit pls!!! Handsome??? I really really really love e phone lor!

Muahahahahah...

Actually lidat also gd lah, at least they got something they like, rather then buy them things tt r useless or not to their likings...

Growing

U noe, i kept saying my eyes only got one wif eye lid (right eye), which grew last yr... Okay, somehow, the other one is growing too recently (left)...

No idea y but i did realised the line is growing, but very weak though... And e line is like about only half now and i doubt it would grow more... I guess if i start putting on stickers, it may be fixed, but then hor, its not comfortable to haf stickers on ur lids leh...

I cannot tahan on a day to day basis... Then take out liao hor, got mark one, coz skin cannot breathe... So, let it be lah...

Oh, kinda reminded me of e motion sickness remedy i said some time ago... The sticking of e plaster over ur naval hor, i think it works... Coz i tahaned a 1 hr journey in sg and didnt feel nauseous... So i think it works, jus tt u can see the plaster thru my top... Lol, i didnt realised until much later on coz i was wearing white...

But seriously hor, taking it off is nightmare man... Cant imagine how ppl endure waxing... Especially their private areas...

Only 5 days left to SZ's final paper, but then hor, she arh, got tution from wed to sun wor, so only can meet up for a meal... Must be trying to catch up after her exams... No matter, next week see how... At least i noe now i haf some money... Not so jialat...

I need to get a new foundation coz my face turned fairer already and my current foundation is getting weirder n weirder each day due to the mis-matched color... Hmm, i guess i may need to get 1 or 2 shades lighter... I hate choosing foundation shades coz i can never get e right one...

I am now light brown liao... I am the fairest among my siblings le... Actually i think my 2nd sis would soon take over me, coz she is recovering from her tan (fr wakeboarding) very fast... My eldest sis turned darker coz she goes swimming alot lately...

I am used to being called the charcoal, malay, or indian one in my family... And its kinda strange tt i am fairer now... My mum said, "At least u can becum fairer, i thot u forever black black one!"... I was told even as baby i was born dark dark one... When i saw my hand is actually fairer than my sisters, it just felt so strange, coz i also feel tt i can never get fairer... Hahaha...

I also found out my skin tone is warm, so tt explains y i somehow look better in red and gold accessories... But i dun look nice in brown though... Weird... And i look better in white n pink which is supposed to be for ppl wif cool skintone...

But i am still dark though compared to other chinese who are white, or yellowish or rosy beige... I am in the olive brown category, just tt i am now in the lighter range... Hahahah...

But then like i always say i wuold get dark as soon as i get under e sun... So fair now also no use... Maybe coz i haf been using sun screen on my face lately...

Some time ago, i was sitting on the floor in front of my mum, who was sitting on e sofa bench... Then she took some of my hair and see see look look... Then she said, "Ur gold one quite nice hor?"... I then said, "Actually not supposed to be gold, supposed to be white or yellow... Some r white... All kinds of color lah, coz we didnt bleached long enuff, scare my hair spoil..." She replied, "Yah, these r white..."

Me: Got purple tint somemore leh...

Depending on my next job, i am so going to get full white next time, wif a light blonde as the base, e one i chose originally... I am so fascinated wif white streaks now...

I am also crazy about white roses... I saw one bouquet some time ago while shopping wif SZ... I cant seem to find a particular type of flower tt i like... But when i saw it, I fell in love wif it...

While i like flowers in general, i dun really like some as individual... If i receive i happy wif anything, but then if i buy for myself then i would choose properly... I dun like sun flower coz e flower is too big and strong... I prefer more feminine ones... I dun like tulips or lilies coz they r too weak, very fast wither one... Lol, i am so mafan... Birds of paradise is not flower to me... Those small small ones also just side flowers...

So i prefer roses in the end... But roses got many colors mah... I used to like blue, green, purple ones when i was little... Then as i grow older, i fancy e red, pink, deep pink... I hate yellow and beige...

Dun give me yellow rose wor, means breakup one leh... I can accept funeral white flowers like lilies or white roses... But i cannot accept breakup flowers... SZ gave me one then, but she didnt noe... Dun wan anything to happen btween us mah...

I gave her shoes last yr and forgot to take back Ang Bao money, so meant e friendship would break, then she gave me yellow rose tis yr... So choi choi!!!

Anyways, now i love white roses, but they dun make nice dry flowers though, coz they would turn yellow brown, i dun like... So give n tt for now... No such thing as perfect right?

Progress Package $

The money is IN, everybody! Check your acc! Heh heh!

Now i am not tt broke anymore...

______________________________

I was just telling my mum, my frenz dad kept borrowing money fr her, and its hard to say no jus becoz its father asking u... Even if its for no gd purposes, even if u noe u cannot get back e money...

Then she hor, actually said, "U see! I so gd, no money also never borrow from u all!"...

Wa lao, never my foot arh... She still owe me money lor, further more i never even thot of asking it back coz she is my mother lor... Further more, when i was younger, she took all my savings, pawned all my jewellry somemore...

Sigh...

Actually i did try to ask it back yrs ago and it turned really bad... So i gave up...

Besides, she now got money wat, got allowance lor, even more than my old salary... Just dun gamble everything away lah... She next week going Genting again... Sigh, lets jus wish her gd luck...

Just becoz she is my mother, i pretended wat she said was true and just kept quiet...

Zuo Ren Zhen Nan...

Moi 1st Vote!

Hmm, i noe i said many entries be4 tt my area will surely walk over...

But then little did i noe, for e 1st time in 15 yrs, and for e 1st time in 18 yrs for our PM, tt our district is being challenged... I just moved here couple of yrs ago though... If not for my place's good location, i can say tt AMK is nothing compared to Yishun in terms of a home... But tts just my opinion... However, obviously as i grew up, Yishun became abit too far off to get anywhere...

However, i just checked my online poll card and it stated my Electoral Division and Polling District is YCK wor...

So now then i realised i am not under AMK leh...

Then now got to wait for them to send the poll card...

Hmm...

Confidential voting eh? Seriously, i haf no idea who's in the opposition party YET. I saw the news and caught a glimpse of his face though...

SZ also kena, shes from Nee Soon Central... Yishun damn big hor, got Nee Soon Central, East, West, etc... The different separations is y Yishun looks rather different from the other sides... It used to be all kinds of pattern one, then until yrs ago they started tis flower theme, which makes each area one particular flower, so means Blk 100+ would haf tis flower, Blk 200+ would haf another flower etc... Kinda cute i thot then...

Next sat's the polling day... Gonna get myself down to the secondary sch beside my flat...

Night Changes Many Thots

Yest night while i was laying down on my bed, trying to sleep... My thots began to spin and i duno y but it came to the night when my dog, Baby, was put to sleep... It was as though a stubborn recorder player that i couldnt find e button to off it...

I tried to shrug it off but somehow i just cant... The scene just kept on playing on my mind... Every detail, every moment, his last cry, his last struggle, his will to stay alive, his resistance to death, as the nurse injected one after one syringe of poison coz he just wouldnt leave...

It took 4-5 syringe to end his life... When others just needed one... It was extremely miserable... Coz it took so much longer than our hearts can bear... Wats worst is knowing ur small little child not wanting to go, i guess breaks e ppl's hearts much more, who made e decision...

To me, it is saddening to noe tt in e last moments of ur life, u felt huge pain (due to e needle n poison), and when u resist it wif all ur might, only to hear ur love ones, telling u to stop and go in peace... And the nurse injecting it over n over again to make sure u die...

The memory was so vivid as if it was just yest... And i started to cry... Feeling the warmth of my own son between my legs, made me cry even harder... I hope i do not haf to make tt decision 10 yrs later...

It was a decision which i couldnt stop... Baby only stayed wif me for 3 yrs, be4 moving to my eldest sis place... To which he spent his last 8 yrs at...

I said no, to which the rest of e family said i was heartless to let Baby go thru so much pain... I do not believe in murder... However nice u put it, it is injecting poison into his blood... And having seen how the whole process is like, i am even more firm on my stand fr ever...

I asked them one qns then, "So u mean next time when i haf cancer, u can put me to sleep if its allowed?"...

To me, there is no diff between deciding deaths of pets or humans... We r e same, becoz we haf feelings... Just in their case, simpler n less complex...

No matter, it happened... Just be4 my sis signed on the paper, she looked at me and said, "Dun blame me."...

I guess theres no choice eh? I had already voiced my thots... Hes ur dog after all... We werent particularly close but somehow i felt it affected me more than anyone else... Maybe i am just plain dumb in tis sense... I think too much...

Its already been 2 yrs, i didnt wan to remember e date coz it would make me sad... But i remembered it was be4 my dip show... Yrs haf passed and every time i thot i can forget about e whole thing...

But somehow its still here...

I dreamt of his spirit then, i was back in my old house where he stayed wif me... I can felt his pressence but i cant see him... He then handed me a very nice collar wif diamantes... And he left...

Mths later (in reality), i saw tt collar in one of e pet shops... I told my sis about it and she asked me to buy it... I didnt...

It was just a dream...

Its never e same when somebody dies... While u console urself n others tt they still live in ur heart or watever shit u tell urself... Its just never gonna be the same...

While u still hold some memories, the moment the life is gone, you start losing the memories...

I looked ard me, and everybody seemed to haf gotten over it, especially wif their new pets...

But i cant... While i haf Pappy in my heart, i also haf places for others... Baby is still in there somewhere... A place where Pappy cant replace... Even though i am not particular close wif Baby... In fact, i noe Baby doesnt like me... And i had e least opportunity to be wif him unlike e rest of my family...

I tried to recall how Baby looks like, but its jus fading away...

I do haf his pictures... But i still cant fully remember how hes like... The image is getting blurer each time... So i feel sad... I feel sad that death takes all once existed away slowly wif e passing of time...

I took his last set of pics when he came for a visit together wif my sis n her hubby... I had a bad feeling then tat hes going to leave soon... I told my mum but didnt to e rest... And its so strange tt in my photos, it was e best photos of him ever but also, he already looked dead in some of them...

I hope to believe hes somewhere else now...

At the least, my sis n her hubby gave him a very gd life before it ended... I guess tts wats most impt...

Missing you, Baby~

(Im not blaming on anyone or saying tt it is very wrong to put ur pets to sleep... Becoz i noe i could never interfere in how u take care of your own... I am against putting pets to sleep becoz i saw e process n saw the pain incurred... However, i agree tt there are situations where it may be inevitable to do it...

However, as much as it comes to my own, i hope he goes in the natural way when his time comes... I like to believe that death is destined rather than a decision...

For i haf seen many whose pets were very sick and deemed hopeless... Everybody asked them to put their pets to sleep but the owner just ignored everyone... And miraclously, the pets recovered and stayed alive for another few yrs...

I like to belive in the natural cycle of life... But i also understand tt sometimes, u just haf to do it, no matter how much it breaks you.)

Saladin (New 3D Animation Series)

I forgot to post tis... Just checked e link, its still there...

Introducing you to Malaysia's 3D Animated Series called Saladin... The series is based on the life of Salah Al-Din Yusuf Bin Ayyub. Saladin was one of Islam’s most legendary figures, who united and led Muslim factions in the past.

I wonder is he also the one i saw in one of e foreign war epic movies i saw some time ago, called Salahudin? I thot it was Saladin, but others said its Salahudin then... But i forgot which was e movie... Is it Alexander?

Anyways, after e miserable failure of our own 3D animation movie, Zodiac... Malaysia's upcoming animation series is simply of a different level as wat we did in sg... Well, we r still stuck in producing 3d works for the kids... Just by watching the 6 min long trailer, u can already tell we r way miles apart...

Sadly but true, tis brought many others to question y cant we produce e tis kind of calibre, many do not think we lack e talents, having seen so many personal great 3d works... Besides, MDA did pumped in couple of million bucks for Zodiac, and so did M'sia's MSC to Saladin... So in the end, are we putting our fundings in the right places? I wonder...

Anyways, watch e trailer... Its pretty good... But do not even think of comparing it wif works of Pixar, deamworks, disney etc... In the 1st place, tis is not a movie but a series... And having seen quite a no. of foreign (western) 3d series, tis is one of the top notch... As u noe, usually series would cut its budget and most likely only targets kids...

The series aroused my interest... And i am actually interested in knowing more... I guess tts great enuff... As ppl who are exposed to CG itself, sometimes our opinions are more likely to be different... So our review would be biased to either too high expectations or too technically...

So i always believe the responses from the general public is more valuable... After all, arent we making the works for the consumers? While a gd CG movie would make e CG ppl pay for e tickets, but profits only come in from the rest of e population...

And from e reviews of others, i believe tis series will rock...

Just Alittle More

I was typing another serious entry a moment ago, until it was rather painful thinking about e past and i eventually lost my train of thots... I stopped and saved it as draft though its incomplete... Perhaps it would be easier if i dun use my own experiences on my entries... It shd be simpler tis way...

I doubt i am going to finish tt entry though... Maybe i shdnt think about complicated/serious/emotional stuffs when im alone... It makes it even tougher...

Some randoms stuffs...

Yest night i shifted my whole computer table to my living rm... It was such a chore... But i haf to do it... Coz i haf to get some things done in the night, and i cant use my com without a proper sitting chair and decent light... Besides i cannot disturb my sis who would be sleeping...

I am not saying i would definately get e things done right away, now, tonight, or tmr (due to personal reasons n struggles), but i noe at least it was a start... I noe i haf to move on, and i will... Just tt Im trying not to push n force myself too hard, coz i noe it would surely backfire... Then again, maybe i shd be harder on myself, as wat the rest would say...

But to push an already weakened state of mind to e wall is abit too difficult to manage... At least i tried and i did small little things, step by step, to aid me in pushin forward, and to me, tts impt, regardless of wat others say... I also stopped a few events/matters from happening tt would cause me to carry on the standstill even though some of them seemed quite appealing n lucrative...

But like i said, i am not the kind of person who is motivated and driven by money and materialistic temptations even though i need it to survive at the least...

I chatted wif a fren last night over msn and told him tt i decided on some things after giving some thots... And he actually said, "Well, i do not knoe whether to feel happy for u, support u or otherwise. ", "But keep moving on and dun look back."

I was pleasantly surprised, coz a normal person would jus say, "Tts great!" or something to tt effect... But from his words, i knew he took in wat i said seriously, gave it some thot and replied to me individually, to Celestine... Although he doesnt noe me very well, but apparently he remembered e impt stuffs about me in tis particular situation... Or at least enuff to come to tis conclusion...

In fact, wat he said was exactly how i felt... I made a decision, but it wasnt neccessarily wats best or something i truly wan, but the thing is i duno wat i wan now, coz i no longer wan anything... But if i carry on like these, i would never move on... And not moving on would cease all possibilities to find wat my heart and soul truly seek...

And thus i do not noe whether i shd be happy and supportive about it tt ive finally come somewhere or otherwise... He nailed tt... A place where others do not see, cant be bothered to see, or they saw but either chose to ignore or decided not to say anything about it...

But of coz, we also tok alot of nonsense later on... Lol...

Anyways, luckily my whole computer table can be pushed ard... Luckily my living got tis particular space to put it although i am blocking e walking path... And luckily in tis position, i can connect to the tel line... Haha...

But putting it here has its disadvantages as well, when my mum or me cook, the smoke n oil are going to be coated on my com... Also, my mum would watch tv and thereby i would be affected...

I will see how it goes though... Hope i get it done, soon...

Just 8 more days to SZ's graduation... I am very excited and looking forward to it... I haf not seen her for some time liao... She is mugging extensively for her final exams and under alot of stress... I feel so sorry tt i cant do anything about it to lessen up her burden...

I can only hope my comfort reached her when she needed it, though digitally...

Shes got to cross tis final hurdle herself... So i thot tt i would make more effort on my part, in my own things... Work hard together, tts wat i thot... The only thing i can do, the only way i can lend her my strength in my own small way... Which explains y e follow up of certain things i did... Like e chalet, i tried n fought hard...

You must jia you, ok? Yao over le! Just alittle more... Wo ye shi zai nu li wor... Though maybe not as much as e mental strainings u r having, but wo zhen de ye nu li, nu li de huo ze, nu li de hu xi (if u get wat i meant)...

PS: Jus read my entry as it is, i dun type e explicit details for obvious reasons...

NSRCC Chalet

(Finally, blogger was down e whole of yest)

Loads pf pics ahead... I am not very in the mood for blogging now, so perhaps i'll tok about the event in another entry... Tis one just to show u how it looks like... NSRCC = National Service Resort Country Club. Its at Tenan Merah... Very near changi...

My eldest sis n her hubby signed up for the country club... Few thousands of dollars each for the course of 5 yrs... They r thinking of upgrading to condo, so they thot they shd try out condo facilities lifestyle 1st...

Becoz if u stay in condo, for the facilities u haf to pay 200+ per mth minimum no matter u got use or not... Dun even touch on the maintenance fees part, which is another few hundreds... They told e agent they wouldnt noe whether they would be comfortable using the same facilities over yrs n yrs... So e agent told them one way to find out is to sign up at a club and see whether u like tt kind of lifestyle or not...

For public, the chalet would be over 300 bucks, for members would be about 180, per night... But of coz as of all chalets u HAF to book 2 nights minimum... But my sis was lucky coz somebody cancelled last min so she was able to haf it as one night...









Our chalet number, got 2 free parking lots for each chalet... After 11pm, u haf to be quiet and only a max of 8 to stay over night... U can haf as many in the day as u like obviously... Of coz, u can choose to haf more ppl staying overnight, just dun be too noisy as they would come and spot check...






The fan is not supposed to be there, so ugly... Coz we just arrived and e air con wasnt cold enuff yet...


Got karaoke system but we didnt noe, so never bring discs... So sad...


The 2 gamblers... Sigh, they gambled for 12 hrs straight, moving from poker to mahjong till 3am...





Dining area which later in the night became laptop area...


Was so bored taking pics... But I thot i shdnt waste e effort of bring down my cam... Pardon e no make up face...


Kitchen... Alot of plates, cups, bowls in the cabinet... But we dun dare to use... Lol...


The freezer box is so useful...


The level 1 toilet... No bad, quite clean and spacious... Got towels, soap n shampoo etc... Then housekeeping will change for u next day lor...


No bathtub though... But shower area is huge, can bath in grps, hahahah....


The sinful mahjong at the side of e stairs... I hate mahjong btw, in fact i just hate gamblers... Mahjong is not only sinful but noisy! I cannot stand it... My family member lost alot of money over those stupid tiles... So i hate it for personal reasons... But if frenz wan to play play lor, but bf cannot...


Lets see wats up there...




Tis is e second room... 2 single beds, wif make up table n wardrobe wif many hangers...

I didnt take e 1st rm, which was a queen size bed coz there were ppl sleeping...


The view from the room..


It was so hot when we just arrived... I didnt bring my cap but fortunately i had my sunglasses... Thank god... It became my hair band also...


I need to get a new pair of colored shades, coz the plastic started to crack liao... When i was in NYP, i fell in love wif a pair of green/yellow shades, but the tt pair was broken... So sad...

Where can i get nice cheap pair of good shades?


The second level toilet... Much cleaner n nicer than e 1st... I only used tis one the whole day...




My big sis n her hubby wore these popular shoes, the croc or something lidat... 50 bucks a pair, her hubby one is grey...

I borrowed it and bounced ard, lol... Its super comfy, and has got very good grip and bounce.... But it is super ugly lor... The shoes is super huge and makes my big foot look gigantic and makes me look like a dwarf...

But then it is really really comfy... The most comfortable ive ever worn...


The garden in front is big... I can imagine kids playing soccer, dogs playing fetch... But too bad lah, no pets allowed...


Every 10 mins, a plane will fly past...


The last one ive been to was alot better and nicer... Though unfortunately i didnt take any photos... I haf no idea where was e last one though... Cant remember... lol
The beds were huge, super comfy... And got bath tub in one of the toilets... But then its only 1 level though... Kitchen was smaller though... But very ex i heard...

I went to tis place wif my mum and 5 married couples in their 30s... And 3 teenager boys... All of them i duno one... Shall tok about it more next time if i got e mood...


I look horrible wif out make up, sigh, nvm, hack lah... At least i managed up a smile...

To be continued...

Puzzle Game

I like to play games tt involve unlockin locked doors, non creepy/ghostly/scary kind...

So jus to share wif u tis current one i am playing...

Test ur intellect n analytical skills...

MOTAS is an online graphic adventure game in which the adventurer has to solve riddles and puzzles, find and use objects, escape from locked rooms, find hidden passages and be a detective and examine everything to unlock the doors of the mystery of time and space.

Click e link n play... But then its very long coz there r many levels... U dun haf to clear all levels in one shot though, u can always revisit the site... The levels would be unlocked once u clear them...

I started playing yest night, then i continued level 8 which i was stucked few hrs ago today after i woke... But i cleared it and i am currently stuck at level 12...

While i was playing tis, i am sometimes amazed at myself, i never noe tt i still can think... Lol... Hahahah... But i also realised i couldnt really think much when i just woke... Play as and when u like, probably when u r free, as it takes up alot of time and might give u headaches... haha...

If u give up easily and dun like to think one, then dun play lah...

Chalet

I haf a chalet later to attend to... At Tanan Merah's NSRCC... Damn far, but never been there be4, go see see also gd... Heard tt e houses are big n beautiful... Then again, e one im going may be cheap n small... Not sure yet...

If its nice maybe i take pics, but see how lah... Better bring my cap, sunglass and sun block, duno wat i would be doin there anyways... Maybe i go sleep... Lol... Duno wear skirt or wat also...

Going off in the noon and got BBQ later on...

But i am coming back later tonight alone, not going to sleep there... Coz no one would be at home tonight except my mum's bf, so I would haf to come back to feed my son his dinner, which would haf becum supper... Her bf doesnt take care of my son anyways...

Am already sick of e long mrt ride fr Tanan Merah to YCK...

Was wondering how i cum back wif all e bbq smoke smell... Maybe i shd bath there, but tt would mean i haf to pack alot of things like e toiletries... So troublesome... Maybe i dun bbq, eat can liao... Coz every time i do the BBQ one... Maybe today i relax abit... Haha...

Anyways, after i wake liao then think...

I got things to do tonight, and since my sis's going somewhere else n not coming back to sleep... I shd use e opportunity to get some of my stuffs done...

Anyways, CONGRATS to Jul for getting her advertising degree coz... So happy for her...

But then hor, sigh, another one... I happy for ppl but sad for myself... When then my turn? 4 yrs later, must bear wif it... Cannot compare, different ppl different lives different obligations... Sure would see my day one...

The Old Times - Gaming

I suddenly thot of bloggin tis, no idea y... Suddenly my mind is flooded wif memories of e old days...

I was born into a rich family, almost wif a gold spoon, but unfortunately, the good times ended be4 i even started to remember anything... So the times i started making memories, my family had already broken up, the richness was history...

My small little family (all females) was a slightly above average income family... But due to the breakup, we moved from one of e richest district in sg then, Katong, which i believe many of u duno tt place except the katong laksa... Lol... Funny leh, i tell u hor, e laksa then at tt district wasnt famous one lor... & moved to a relatively poor but quiet and peaceful neighbourhood, Yishun...

Most part of it was still like pulau ubin... Wif small fishing ponds n huts... I am not kidding!!! The channel 8 program, Good Morning Teacher (e famous Chen Liping (ai yoyo) and Li Nan Xing drama) was shot there...

And u noe wat, tt place was owned by my sis's fren's family... They then later on sold their land to e government and we said bye bye to tt place forever... I used to sneak in there to play... *wipes tears*

At tt time, there was no sembawang, woodlands, or watever... Sg just seemed to stop there... Then i am surrounded by forests one u noe... When i just moved there, there wasnt as many HBDs as now obviously... No such thing as condos unlike now... The district was still underdeveloped... No Northpt shopping centres, no golden village... Only buses, no MRT yet...

The nearest hang out is at AMK... Coz u noe AMK under who lah, so AMK was developed earlier...

Becoz of e move, my sis transfered fr a SAP pri sch to a neighbourhood one... The second best pri sch in Yishun then, e best there was Chong Fu (i think), but we couldnt get in... Well, coz we werent rich anymore and thereby not influencial enuff to get in... So we settled in Yishun Pri... She went 1st, i went kindergarden (no gd memories, only bad ones) coz we were 4 yrs apart...

I duno u remember or not, during my time, water guns were in trend suddenly... And the best one was like $50+, those giant ones tt u pump one time can shoot far far... The cheaper ones u got to pump like siao to shoot near near... Lol... The money is smaller then in case u dun remember...

I got the big big one... Hehehehe... And i put watercolor (often black) inside and sabo the kids in my neighbourhood... Muahahaha... I was a spoilt and evil kid then... I always bully ppl one... So now retribution lor, ppl bully me...

I grew up there much like a kampong kid... I play wif mud, spiders, insects, water, drains, go explore forests, new places, kill animals (sigh)... Aiyah, all those dirty dirty things wif e kids of e whole neighbourhood...

Very dangerous though, i anyhow eat fruits somemore... Lucky never die... Not to mention obviously we did many crazy things like jumping off e blk from e 3rd level... Now u ask me i also dun dare liao... Tis is one of e reasons y my body is actually covered in scars... Haha...

So next time dun let ur kids lidat... But then now they also no chance do these things liao lah... Where to find quick sand, quick mud now... I almost drowned in orange mud up to my neck... And had to go big drain wash myself... Then e boys all take off their clothes one... Lol... Then i wanted to sabo and took their clothes to hide... But gave them back in e end...

Sounds so much like e old movies...

Though e time was not long, but i was genuinely happy then... Though i got injured almost every other day, but i was happy... After a short 2 yrs, sg started to develop and Yishun too... Mrt came though stopped at our district coz they haven develop e rest of the line... Shoppin centre, cinema, etc... Reservoir was built, forests were cut down, big drains removed...

So it came to a pt tt kampong play days ended, and we could only roam about hdb buildings... Then i moved house again (i moved 4 times in yishun actually), then started to lead more similar lives as to u guys in pri sch... My pri 3 life onwards became normal hdb kid's life...

I still go catch spiders n all lah, jus tt not many places to explore liao... Oh, but i dun catch though, i merely follow e guys there... Then we go play somewhere else... But becoz of my old kampong nature, i would bring my grp go do dangerous but fun stuffs... I was a bad influence... Their parents always call my house ask where their children were one... Lol... But then i only wanted to share e fun mah...

Then daily games upgraded into digital gaming... At tt time hor, sg not many arcades, e nearest was again AMK... But for a 7 yr old to travel so far i dun get to do it very often, but sometimes got ppl bring me there... Also at tt time, only gangsters go arcades... Unless u wan to hook ah bengs, but i was too young, so i always kena ordered ard only... Lol...

But then hor, got money one leh... U help them hor (not do bad things lah, run errands like carry their things or convey message coz too noisy liao), sometimes i get $50 leh!!! Then i take cab go home then e gangsters would go somewhere else wif e girls... Duno they go where, i wonder now... Haha... They usually would give me money to go home coz its a burden to bring small kids ard... Then those gangsters rode motobikes in black leather outfits wif black sunglasses one leh... Very stylo then, but obiang now lah...

Those were e days... Now come to think about it so scary... Lucky they never sell me away... Haha...

So if u cannot or no money go arcade at tt pt, there is only 2 kinds of gaming systems at home... Not playstation or xbox, but sega and nintendo... But hor, they r so ex...

I was lucky to own Sega then... The 1st generation, big black box one... Then u slot e tape vertically... Then sometimes cannot detect u take e tape n blow at e chip, hit e machine a few times then can work... Haha...

But its not worth it at all... No such thing as memory card then... So i never managed to complete any of my games except one (which my guy fren n i completed after many of hrs in my place)... Then one tape is like between 60-90 bucks... Currency different then wor if u dun remember...

1 packet of food = $1.50, soft drinks = $0.60, yakult = $0.25, $1 ice cream = $0.60, normal ice cream = $0.30, MacDonalds one meal = $4, etc... So anything more than $50 is like so crazy...

I remembered i got alot of Sonic, 1, 2, 3, and duno wat versions they haf... But hor, Sonic play no ending one leh, i dun even noe got how many levels... Got one sonic hor, it gave me 99 lives... 99 leh!!! So confirm got many levels mah... So i wanted to find out and play for 18 hrs, but still wun finish one...

In e end, i gave up... Coz cannot save one... Then cannot pause e game forever mah, my mum dun allow... Even though sometimes i use Tails instead of Sonic and fly thru e whole game but still cannot finish... Damn it!!!

Then Street Fighters 1st gen came out... Then alot of guys crazy over it... Although i dun play, but my frenz come my house to play games everyday after sch, so i bought for them to play... See, i so nice hor... Haha...

Very sian one lor, u play one game till far far liao, then coz cannot save got to start all over again...

Then nintendo came up wif e memory card thingy and launched e cd rom kind... I didnt ugrade le coz my games cannot waste mah... Besides i play games everyday till i wan to puke liao... In e end my games i never touch, let my frenz use only... I started to go into collecting movies... Haha... If i sian i play wif e 1st gen Game Boy... E black n white thick thick one...

U noe hor, if u continuosly play gameboy for long hrs, e batteries would explode inside e Gameboy and crack e cover... Happened to my fren then... I not so hardcore then coz same thing cannot save one 1st gen... Scary... It hurt his fingers then...

Then got adapter to connect 2 players together, but nobody owned Gameboy then, in my neighbourhood... I think those rich kids all cannot go out one, tts y i duno them... Haha... Also i think they r all in EM1, i was from EM2, no rich kids one leh...

Then when home gaming became common n cheap, i already got so sick of it and moved on wif my life liao... There ends my gaming life, my primary sch days... Unless u count my occasional playing of Gameboy Color... Becoz tts e only old gaming device tt i still keep... Not my one somemore, belonged to one of my ex bfs... He never take back...

But also spoil liao lah, cannot save anymore...

If u r ard same age as me, and u duno wat e hell i was toking about... Either u never go out when young or you must be living in big houses (Urrgh)... I duno which part of sg u stayed, but i remembered every single thing tt happened then...

I had a wonderful childhood coz i go out everyday, and i made frenz wif everybody... Although my experiences would maybe scare many of the city kids away... But i seriously thot everybody shd go thru tt kampong childhood period... Learn alot one leh...

I totally changed also becoz of the things tt happened during my childhood... Maybe i would share more when i got e "feel" to blog about it... Got many many stories one u noe... Heh...

Sigh, but now every changed liao... Sobz...