I love the lyrics~ Sobz...
明知留不住更不想结束 努力记住你此刻的眉目
记住这拥抱的温度 对抗快来临的孤独
为什么幸福它总是仓促
不在乎付出因为我在乎 但让你哭我就无可宽恕
年轻的我们太低估 世界该有的冷酷
在多的爱也没帮助
My Finally
一个也是有吻 Finally
我最终的恋人别哭泣
用力用力忘你在哪里
我的心中不曾离开你 永远的
当我想起你会得到 爱的离奇
我要退出 也为你祝福
别为我哭我会嫁给无助
年轻的我们太低估 世界该有的冷酷
在多的爱也没帮助
My Finally 一个也是有吻 Finally
我最终的恋人别哭泣用力用力忘你在哪里
我的心中不曾离开你 永远的
当我想起你会得到爱的离奇
忘记一步一切就荒芜 希望爱复燃吧!
But tis lyrics got alot of errors, but i cant edit. Bek cek.
Monday, May 21, 2007
Bad Person
Had a very bad dream last fri night.
I was and still am quite affected by it. But i guess i managed to say to that person wat i really felt that time, even though it was only in the dream. I didnt wake up in tears, but i felt broken once more.
I knew that i will dream of it again, thanks to somebody who kept brining it up though i had already been trying to put it behind me. -_-"
For the sake of many individuals, I twist my words all the time. To make them feel better and to feed their egos. Often due to tis, I have alot of regrets.
Ppl will never know the truth. To cover up for their mistakes, i jus bit wat i suffered in silence and put them in better light.
I know wat really happened. And i cant say it out. Sigh.
Perhaps i shd jus stop being nice altogether.
It doesnt pay u noe. To take in everything urself. To suffer alone. Its plain dumb n stupid.
They will never know what you had done for them, would they? Will they get it one day when they think back?
In the end, they only remembers u as the bad person. And thats the return you get.
I remembered i wrote tis statement during one of my film n video project during poly days. It was a review for our own project, team, etc.
I wrote, "It's not easy to be a bad person, let alone all the time. But someone's got to do it. And so, who's more ideal than me? Since I've been doing it so much, that others had already embedded the bad being in myself. I can't bear to let others do it. I have to make the move, so that the rest dun haf to suffer wat i did."
I seriously wondered wat my lecturer thot when i wrote that. Then again, thats provided he got read thoroughly.
I didnt write the exact same words, but that was wat i meant though.
Perhaps i should really change... I feel torn.
I was and still am quite affected by it. But i guess i managed to say to that person wat i really felt that time, even though it was only in the dream. I didnt wake up in tears, but i felt broken once more.
I knew that i will dream of it again, thanks to somebody who kept brining it up though i had already been trying to put it behind me. -_-"
For the sake of many individuals, I twist my words all the time. To make them feel better and to feed their egos. Often due to tis, I have alot of regrets.
Ppl will never know the truth. To cover up for their mistakes, i jus bit wat i suffered in silence and put them in better light.
I know wat really happened. And i cant say it out. Sigh.
Perhaps i shd jus stop being nice altogether.
It doesnt pay u noe. To take in everything urself. To suffer alone. Its plain dumb n stupid.
They will never know what you had done for them, would they? Will they get it one day when they think back?
In the end, they only remembers u as the bad person. And thats the return you get.
I remembered i wrote tis statement during one of my film n video project during poly days. It was a review for our own project, team, etc.
I wrote, "It's not easy to be a bad person, let alone all the time. But someone's got to do it. And so, who's more ideal than me? Since I've been doing it so much, that others had already embedded the bad being in myself. I can't bear to let others do it. I have to make the move, so that the rest dun haf to suffer wat i did."
I seriously wondered wat my lecturer thot when i wrote that. Then again, thats provided he got read thoroughly.
I didnt write the exact same words, but that was wat i meant though.
Perhaps i should really change... I feel torn.
Friday, May 18, 2007
Last sat was Keith's bday, so me and marvin treated him dinner at Marriot Hotel on sunday (mother's day). It was crazily ex lor... The food wasnt bad though it wasnt fantastic. Service is good as well, since Marvin got the ice cream he wanted though it wasnt part of the buffet line.
Wonder were we charged for that? If so, how much?
Before that, i accompanied Marvin to Four Seasons Hotel's Club21 to shop. Nothing interesting, and the tabs are like @@. Lol. Then we walked back to Orchard and melted. So hot, can? Though no sun but it was so hot.
Theres tis nice good boy gay looking thin sweater that he love at Forum's Blackjack, but its 300+ lor, so not worth it. Discouraged him against it. I saw a jacket that i really really like, think it was 100 or 200+. And i love the top that used the same design pattern too. SO nice!!!! But no money cannot buy.
Headed to Zara and he bought 2 tops and a cute superman boxer. Haha, cant imagine him wearing it. Mus ask him to show liao. Kekekeke...
Wonder wat i did over the last weekend? Hmm...
Oh ya, had dinner at Waraku (my fav) after work on fri then headed for ktv, so it was soooo boring. Can die inside breathin the guys' sianness. Then watched drama for whole night, zz till next evening, then had dinner at Tamp's Crystal Jade. Not bad leh tt branch, surprisingly.
My impression of CJ totally changed.
Then it was back to more watching to complete the series, while Marvin, his sis Gina, husband Victor and their fren mahjonging noisily behind me.
Sun i went to my Boss's Baby Shower then met Marvin and Keith up for the shoppin n dinner.
I then caught SpiderMan 3 with Keith, while Marvin headed back home for preparation to club which didnt happen in the end, coz Kavan played him out, lol. Spiderman 3 wasnt that bad a movie as wat ppl said. Wasnt great but i wasnt expecting it to be anyways, jus a sequel in the storyline lor...
Tonight i should be catching 28 weeks later, cant wait. But then tts unless someone dun play me out.
Tues was my sis's bday, still haven got his gift, think i'll get something later. Provided i got go out lah... Tmr im going for blood donation with wendy. Evening got steamboat dinner with my family (mum's early bday celebration).
Kavan's bday next tues... Y so many ppl bday one!!!!
Haha.
Yest met Benjamin for dinner at Pasta Cafe. Been one yr plus ever since he went to Taiwan to work in tt games company. Now hes back for good, haf not seen him for so long le... Hes not changed abit. Sigh.
My exhibition is coming up one mth's time, both looking forward and dreading it. Its so far and hours are so long somemore. But then after tt, i would have time to plan many other things in my schedule.
Ive passed my basic theory test, and my final theory will be early July. I hope i can pass it one shot, then i can start my practical lessons. Then hopefully by end of the yr or latest early next yr i would be able to get my liscense.
Ive oso decided to take up jap, from basic, to intermediate to advance, which will take about 1.5yrs, tts if i dun fail la. Lol. And then depending on situation i might take up more papers on tt.
But i cannot take the most recent intake. it starts in june, clashes with my exhibition, so i will enrol during dec and start jan... So far away. Sad, but gd lah, hopefully i can settle my license 1st.
I no mood to write le. Another time bah, so sian.
Wonder were we charged for that? If so, how much?
Before that, i accompanied Marvin to Four Seasons Hotel's Club21 to shop. Nothing interesting, and the tabs are like @@. Lol. Then we walked back to Orchard and melted. So hot, can? Though no sun but it was so hot.
Theres tis nice good boy gay looking thin sweater that he love at Forum's Blackjack, but its 300+ lor, so not worth it. Discouraged him against it. I saw a jacket that i really really like, think it was 100 or 200+. And i love the top that used the same design pattern too. SO nice!!!! But no money cannot buy.
Headed to Zara and he bought 2 tops and a cute superman boxer. Haha, cant imagine him wearing it. Mus ask him to show liao. Kekekeke...
Wonder wat i did over the last weekend? Hmm...
Oh ya, had dinner at Waraku (my fav) after work on fri then headed for ktv, so it was soooo boring. Can die inside breathin the guys' sianness. Then watched drama for whole night, zz till next evening, then had dinner at Tamp's Crystal Jade. Not bad leh tt branch, surprisingly.
My impression of CJ totally changed.
Then it was back to more watching to complete the series, while Marvin, his sis Gina, husband Victor and their fren mahjonging noisily behind me.
Sun i went to my Boss's Baby Shower then met Marvin and Keith up for the shoppin n dinner.
I then caught SpiderMan 3 with Keith, while Marvin headed back home for preparation to club which didnt happen in the end, coz Kavan played him out, lol. Spiderman 3 wasnt that bad a movie as wat ppl said. Wasnt great but i wasnt expecting it to be anyways, jus a sequel in the storyline lor...
Tonight i should be catching 28 weeks later, cant wait. But then tts unless someone dun play me out.
Tues was my sis's bday, still haven got his gift, think i'll get something later. Provided i got go out lah... Tmr im going for blood donation with wendy. Evening got steamboat dinner with my family (mum's early bday celebration).
Kavan's bday next tues... Y so many ppl bday one!!!!
Haha.
Yest met Benjamin for dinner at Pasta Cafe. Been one yr plus ever since he went to Taiwan to work in tt games company. Now hes back for good, haf not seen him for so long le... Hes not changed abit. Sigh.
My exhibition is coming up one mth's time, both looking forward and dreading it. Its so far and hours are so long somemore. But then after tt, i would have time to plan many other things in my schedule.
Ive passed my basic theory test, and my final theory will be early July. I hope i can pass it one shot, then i can start my practical lessons. Then hopefully by end of the yr or latest early next yr i would be able to get my liscense.
Ive oso decided to take up jap, from basic, to intermediate to advance, which will take about 1.5yrs, tts if i dun fail la. Lol. And then depending on situation i might take up more papers on tt.
But i cannot take the most recent intake. it starts in june, clashes with my exhibition, so i will enrol during dec and start jan... So far away. Sad, but gd lah, hopefully i can settle my license 1st.
I no mood to write le. Another time bah, so sian.
Monday, April 30, 2007
Hurt So Bad
I absolutely love this song now.
I just got the song today. Coz i duno the title. I dun like the original though but the version sung by one fren,Kavan. I love the way he sings it...
哭了才发现自己真的受伤了
你曾对我说你永远是我的
为了爱情我把自己的幸福都忘了
你快乐我就快乐
也许是我们彼此都太年轻了
总是特别容易沉溺在爱情里
每当我再次看到身边美丽的花火
你也离开我我还是想对你说
Baby I love You So Much…
你走了我的心在淌血
Baby You Hurt Me So Bad…
想要你回到我的世界
Baby I love You So Much…
你给我的诺言已经瓦解
Baby You Hurt Me So Bad…
只要我们都爱着无论多苦都值得
说好的你怎么忘记了
Nuff said...
Isnt it?
I just got the song today. Coz i duno the title. I dun like the original though but the version sung by one fren,Kavan. I love the way he sings it...
哭了才发现自己真的受伤了
你曾对我说你永远是我的
为了爱情我把自己的幸福都忘了
你快乐我就快乐
也许是我们彼此都太年轻了
总是特别容易沉溺在爱情里
每当我再次看到身边美丽的花火
你也离开我我还是想对你说
Baby I love You So Much…
你走了我的心在淌血
Baby You Hurt Me So Bad…
想要你回到我的世界
Baby I love You So Much…
你给我的诺言已经瓦解
Baby You Hurt Me So Bad…
只要我们都爱着无论多苦都值得
说好的你怎么忘记了
Nuff said...
Isnt it?
Back & Thank You All
I am fine liao.
I guess so.
It seemed like i got over it within 18hrs. Ya, i jus looked at the clock and calculated...
At least im still alive, still able to smile & joke.
I'm alright & I got over the worst moments. And made myself go to work, though my fren insisted on calling my boss on my behalf to explain to him to allow me to take fri off.
I cannot do that one lor. And i am not the kind of person who does that.
Anyways, gonna have to thank some of u sweet little darlings.
I panicked and called the whole world around 1+am that night. Nobody picked up except Keith, although he was already asleep.
Though he wasnt able to keep up coz he was too tired. But i was really glad someone answered. He did joked and said luckily he wasnt dreamin about ghosts the next day. Coz if he did, then hearing a female crying over the phone and not saying anything at that hr is very creepy. Haha.
Also, gotta have to thank Ben, who called me back and stayed with me till 4+am.
These are the times when u will find out who really cares (though they always act tough and say they hack care abt u)even though you may not be particularly close with that person.
I am always reachable for others, ppl called me at crazy hours but never once i complained. Coz i understand how it feels when you really need someone to talk to or need someone by ur side, but you just cant get anybody, be it the hour.
I understand coz it had always been the case for me. When i say i will be there for you, anytime, i truly mean it. Unless seriously i did not managed to hear the ringing. I knoe sometimes how a phone call can change a person's fate. U never noe wat will happen to that person.
So as much as i can, i would never wan anybody i noe to go thru the same thing as i did.
Ppl always look for me when something happened, but never once have i found anyone like that until this time. This is the 1st time i actually felt i have frenz. Not those who can go out, chat, have fun with you.
But those whom stayed with you in times of need. Like me, they sacrificed their sleep, work, coz they know as a human, you are more important at that moment.
Its an irony that those who proclaimed, "I'll always be here whenever u really need me, U can always call me if u r down, i will definately get ur call or call u back asap" are never the ones who are there. Even if you happened to get them, they wouldnt really be bothered to hear you out. They will sound impatient, coz they didnt wan to get affected themselves, so they would tell u things like, "just go n slp, dun think so much, jus let it be, tok to u again".
I duno if its jus me or wat. If i noe a fren who is going thru hard times lately. I will definately and automatically, without a doubt stay closer to my phone. I will be on standby mode, just in case when things really go bad. I guess tis is only when u truly care about someone bah.
Wendy who called me in the morning. She did not ask me anything (that was bein very sensitive, thank you. Coz i did not wan to cry jus before i work for my eyes were already very swollen and its hard to put on e make up), i knew she was jus checking if im alright. I told her i will call her during lunch time. I didnt. And without even asking, she called me back again after work, she did not even ask y i didnt call her or anything lidat (u noe how some ppl will say until like ur fault again). Thank you.
Yati, who accompanied my fri morning over msn. Thank you. With you around, time passes easier during work when its all hectic and stressful. Although you are the one who is the furthest away from knowing my story, ive realised i told u more than wat most of them noe. Coz u really read n digest my words. I am really glad you chatted with me that morning. It wasnt easy.
Jensen who smsed me from morning. Who offered to treat me to something good tmr, after he heard i lost my appetite and tt im broke. Thank you.
Dave, who smsed me from noon onwards. I smsed a few but as expected not everyone replied though. Dave is very sweet, he made me feel so much better. Although sadly, he jus went through a heartache himself. He understood wat i needed. Thanks.
Keith, who called me from work. And without asking again, he offered to meet me for dinner. Even though i had no idea wat to eat or where to go. He still met me. Even though he already had plans (i only found out about tt later in the night), he cancelled it to accompany me.
Its jus so sad when it comes to situations whereby ur close fren or frenz who knew you r upset, did not bother to say anything or do anything and u even had to ask if they can accompany u. I jus find tt so sad. Coz such things shd come naturally. U shdnt expect a depressed person to ask, coz that jus make them feel worst.
And u shdnt even think along the line of, "I shd jus let him/her calm down for awhile 1st be4 contacting him/her". Screw all of us who think tis way. U wan ur frenz to die isit? U duno how to read ppl one ar, ppl who r depressed always in denial mode one. Even if you really dun haf e time to meet, at least check out ur frenz lor... So hard meh?
I never allow them to ask. I will just do it, abeit forcefully at times. Lol. I will be like, i dun care. I jus wan to meet u. Haha. No matter how cold or strong u r as a person. I noe deep down, u will still need company.
Wendy again, who oso came down to meet me and Keith later in the night. She was so tired and she still needed to work the following day. Both of them stayed with me outside till about 2+am. We jus sat there and chatted about everything, mostly about SP Services though. Lol.
And lastly, SZ, who came down to amk to meet me for dinner on sat, ktv to drink with me (she let me sing most of the time, i did realise tt), and came over to sleep with me till sun night. Thanks for the company.
I guess, without all these ppl, it would be tougher, alot tougher.
While most made me feel better, one or two or three made me feel worst. Some got me back on smiles, some provoked me and made me almost cry again. Sigh. Then again, u cant blame them. Not everyone can handle people. Some are jus not the sensitive n considerate sort.
But bottom line is, i am so glad to have the rest of u guys around. I love you all so much.
I got back up pretty quick this time. I guess it jus wasnt long enuff for me to start loving him. And i am glad i dun haf to try anymore.
Im oso not saying i am 100% ok now, lest u see me sian sian or depressed again... But manageable though. It doesnt ache anymore. But at times when i think about it, its still there, jus a alittle.
I am jus getting used to the idea of losing a person who was once there for u. Even though he doesnt accompany me and practically wasnt there at all most of the time, but its jus e feeling of noeing someone is still there. Get e idea?
But im happier now. Though i cant really go back to the state before it all started coz things have changed. Ive given up and let go some things and i noe i won't be getting them back. Such are inevitable sacrifices.
But at least im not bothered by things in tis area anymore. I am so glad i am out of it.
So its time to continue movin on. Like wat Keith said, "Just start afresh again lor, from tis moment onwards, its jus like back to the usual days".
However, a few door ways are opened coz of him (my ex). Whether i will change or not, is up to me now.
SZ asked me if i would accept another relationship again, for the 1st time, i answered her "yes". But its different now.
I am playing a different game tis time.
But no more same age liao de wor... 1st and last time, they r jus not strong enuff...
2nd to Nicholas, Keith also said, "i think you shd jus stay single.", coz i will be very tong ku when i am in a relationship.
I oso say! Say so many times le somemore. Haha...
When i was toking to keith tt day, sometimes i will say "my bf ....", then Keith will say, "who ur bf?", i will say, "him lor". Then he will like exclaim, "Wat, that jerk! wat bf! forget him liao lor!".
Haha, i find that very funny.
Tmr is holiday! Think i'll jus slack n rest at home. Very tired leh... Enjoy ur public hol hor?
I guess so.
It seemed like i got over it within 18hrs. Ya, i jus looked at the clock and calculated...
At least im still alive, still able to smile & joke.
I'm alright & I got over the worst moments. And made myself go to work, though my fren insisted on calling my boss on my behalf to explain to him to allow me to take fri off.
I cannot do that one lor. And i am not the kind of person who does that.
Anyways, gonna have to thank some of u sweet little darlings.
I panicked and called the whole world around 1+am that night. Nobody picked up except Keith, although he was already asleep.
Though he wasnt able to keep up coz he was too tired. But i was really glad someone answered. He did joked and said luckily he wasnt dreamin about ghosts the next day. Coz if he did, then hearing a female crying over the phone and not saying anything at that hr is very creepy. Haha.
Also, gotta have to thank Ben, who called me back and stayed with me till 4+am.
These are the times when u will find out who really cares (though they always act tough and say they hack care abt u)even though you may not be particularly close with that person.
I am always reachable for others, ppl called me at crazy hours but never once i complained. Coz i understand how it feels when you really need someone to talk to or need someone by ur side, but you just cant get anybody, be it the hour.
I understand coz it had always been the case for me. When i say i will be there for you, anytime, i truly mean it. Unless seriously i did not managed to hear the ringing. I knoe sometimes how a phone call can change a person's fate. U never noe wat will happen to that person.
So as much as i can, i would never wan anybody i noe to go thru the same thing as i did.
Ppl always look for me when something happened, but never once have i found anyone like that until this time. This is the 1st time i actually felt i have frenz. Not those who can go out, chat, have fun with you.
But those whom stayed with you in times of need. Like me, they sacrificed their sleep, work, coz they know as a human, you are more important at that moment.
Its an irony that those who proclaimed, "I'll always be here whenever u really need me, U can always call me if u r down, i will definately get ur call or call u back asap" are never the ones who are there. Even if you happened to get them, they wouldnt really be bothered to hear you out. They will sound impatient, coz they didnt wan to get affected themselves, so they would tell u things like, "just go n slp, dun think so much, jus let it be, tok to u again".
I duno if its jus me or wat. If i noe a fren who is going thru hard times lately. I will definately and automatically, without a doubt stay closer to my phone. I will be on standby mode, just in case when things really go bad. I guess tis is only when u truly care about someone bah.
Wendy who called me in the morning. She did not ask me anything (that was bein very sensitive, thank you. Coz i did not wan to cry jus before i work for my eyes were already very swollen and its hard to put on e make up), i knew she was jus checking if im alright. I told her i will call her during lunch time. I didnt. And without even asking, she called me back again after work, she did not even ask y i didnt call her or anything lidat (u noe how some ppl will say until like ur fault again). Thank you.
Yati, who accompanied my fri morning over msn. Thank you. With you around, time passes easier during work when its all hectic and stressful. Although you are the one who is the furthest away from knowing my story, ive realised i told u more than wat most of them noe. Coz u really read n digest my words. I am really glad you chatted with me that morning. It wasnt easy.
Jensen who smsed me from morning. Who offered to treat me to something good tmr, after he heard i lost my appetite and tt im broke. Thank you.
Dave, who smsed me from noon onwards. I smsed a few but as expected not everyone replied though. Dave is very sweet, he made me feel so much better. Although sadly, he jus went through a heartache himself. He understood wat i needed. Thanks.
Keith, who called me from work. And without asking again, he offered to meet me for dinner. Even though i had no idea wat to eat or where to go. He still met me. Even though he already had plans (i only found out about tt later in the night), he cancelled it to accompany me.
Its jus so sad when it comes to situations whereby ur close fren or frenz who knew you r upset, did not bother to say anything or do anything and u even had to ask if they can accompany u. I jus find tt so sad. Coz such things shd come naturally. U shdnt expect a depressed person to ask, coz that jus make them feel worst.
And u shdnt even think along the line of, "I shd jus let him/her calm down for awhile 1st be4 contacting him/her". Screw all of us who think tis way. U wan ur frenz to die isit? U duno how to read ppl one ar, ppl who r depressed always in denial mode one. Even if you really dun haf e time to meet, at least check out ur frenz lor... So hard meh?
I never allow them to ask. I will just do it, abeit forcefully at times. Lol. I will be like, i dun care. I jus wan to meet u. Haha. No matter how cold or strong u r as a person. I noe deep down, u will still need company.
Wendy again, who oso came down to meet me and Keith later in the night. She was so tired and she still needed to work the following day. Both of them stayed with me outside till about 2+am. We jus sat there and chatted about everything, mostly about SP Services though. Lol.
And lastly, SZ, who came down to amk to meet me for dinner on sat, ktv to drink with me (she let me sing most of the time, i did realise tt), and came over to sleep with me till sun night. Thanks for the company.
I guess, without all these ppl, it would be tougher, alot tougher.
While most made me feel better, one or two or three made me feel worst. Some got me back on smiles, some provoked me and made me almost cry again. Sigh. Then again, u cant blame them. Not everyone can handle people. Some are jus not the sensitive n considerate sort.
But bottom line is, i am so glad to have the rest of u guys around. I love you all so much.
I got back up pretty quick this time. I guess it jus wasnt long enuff for me to start loving him. And i am glad i dun haf to try anymore.
Im oso not saying i am 100% ok now, lest u see me sian sian or depressed again... But manageable though. It doesnt ache anymore. But at times when i think about it, its still there, jus a alittle.
I am jus getting used to the idea of losing a person who was once there for u. Even though he doesnt accompany me and practically wasnt there at all most of the time, but its jus e feeling of noeing someone is still there. Get e idea?
But im happier now. Though i cant really go back to the state before it all started coz things have changed. Ive given up and let go some things and i noe i won't be getting them back. Such are inevitable sacrifices.
But at least im not bothered by things in tis area anymore. I am so glad i am out of it.
So its time to continue movin on. Like wat Keith said, "Just start afresh again lor, from tis moment onwards, its jus like back to the usual days".
However, a few door ways are opened coz of him (my ex). Whether i will change or not, is up to me now.
SZ asked me if i would accept another relationship again, for the 1st time, i answered her "yes". But its different now.
I am playing a different game tis time.
But no more same age liao de wor... 1st and last time, they r jus not strong enuff...
2nd to Nicholas, Keith also said, "i think you shd jus stay single.", coz i will be very tong ku when i am in a relationship.
I oso say! Say so many times le somemore. Haha...
When i was toking to keith tt day, sometimes i will say "my bf ....", then Keith will say, "who ur bf?", i will say, "him lor". Then he will like exclaim, "Wat, that jerk! wat bf! forget him liao lor!".
Haha, i find that very funny.
Tmr is holiday! Think i'll jus slack n rest at home. Very tired leh... Enjoy ur public hol hor?
Friday, April 27, 2007
Broken Up
We broke up yest night.
Let's leave this blog as it is for awhile.
Wait for me to return bah...
Let's leave this blog as it is for awhile.
Wait for me to return bah...
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Singing Dinosaur
Im so sleepy n tired... Didnt sleep well last night at all... Slept late oso though i was so sleepy... Sigh. Tis morning rain until i cannot wake up lor... Almost MC but cannot!
I dreamt i died twice. One was at genting. The hotel collapsed and i was in the room. It collapsed down the hill and into the valley... Damn scary, confirm die de lor...
Then 2nd dream was the aftermath or something. Going to be end of the world le. So it was before that. Then got tis restaurant tt sells famous da long bao (its huge compared to xiao long bao, think i was hungry). Inside hor, they got those huge ass aquarium where they kept monsters for showcase! Well, more like ugly dinosaurs bah... But tt restaurant damn magnificent! Then got one line of beautiful china waitresses standing in front of the aquarium waiting to serve guests de...
The dinosaurs can sing somemore, or at least tt scary one in the corner who was eyeing me...
But his singing was horrible though... At 1st i thot hes growling, then it became more like trying to tell me something... Very coarse and husky, then i realised hes actually singing, mandarin somemore! Awful voice underwater... It took me so long before i realised hes singing Lee Hom's Di Yi Ge Qing Chen to me... KNS. Duno wat e hell...
Then e corner waitress who was standing in line before the glass, turned around n rolled her eye balls at the monster. And gave me a look as if to say, get used to it... lol... Damn funny.
Needless to say, later they escaped lor, they survive on land oso... The restaurant was at a building that look like suntec tower. Hmm...
But before tt, jus when i heard building collapsing and all, thinking e monsters escaped (was ready to run, coz ive dreamt of such dreams too many times i noe wat to do liao). Ended up was tt ppl were throwing down all the dao long bao from upstairs the restaurant, down for us to eat... Coz we going to end of world le mah... So we were all grabbing the famous dao long bao... Haha... I still remember the taste somemore.
SZ grabbed alot. She took pork, vege and prawns de... But she said the green one (vege) the best. As expected of her!
Then it was more food and more eating. It was so shiok coz everyone knew it was going to be end of the world... We all started eating for free... There were many places (buffets) which were left unattended, so we public just went in to eat n help ourselves...
Gosh i mus be damn hungry...
Yest kept raining wor, how to jog lidat... Marvin n Kavan jio me go gym, said cfm no rain, haha... I dun wan, i still wan go jog outdoor... Then Marvin cursed me say sure rain non stop... Lol
In the end, i went to zz, jus when i was about to doze off, Marvin called... Woke me, chat while he was waiting for Kavan to pick him up. Ask them come pick me they dun wan... So end up 8+ liao, i decided to jog coz rain stopped.
I walk to stadium, closed liao... KNN.
So i ran ard the neighbourhood and started to rain wor... THen i hack care continued to run lor. Finished liao i go buy my fav ginger warm beancurd. Sat down stairs to eat... Damn shiok ok?
Then i went back do some chores, watch tv, study abit then zz le...
Wanted to go club de, coz Marvin jio me accompany him with his coz mates... But then we couldnt find more ppl and i dun wan to be wif all the xiao di dis... Makes me feel so auntie. Ended up i asked him to cancel... Haha...
In the end all healthy living le lor... All go exercise...
But yest didnt jog enuff... Sigh...
Tonight after my thing, maybe i go again. Later see how bah. After work will be so rushed.
I dreamt i died twice. One was at genting. The hotel collapsed and i was in the room. It collapsed down the hill and into the valley... Damn scary, confirm die de lor...
Then 2nd dream was the aftermath or something. Going to be end of the world le. So it was before that. Then got tis restaurant tt sells famous da long bao (its huge compared to xiao long bao, think i was hungry). Inside hor, they got those huge ass aquarium where they kept monsters for showcase! Well, more like ugly dinosaurs bah... But tt restaurant damn magnificent! Then got one line of beautiful china waitresses standing in front of the aquarium waiting to serve guests de...
The dinosaurs can sing somemore, or at least tt scary one in the corner who was eyeing me...
But his singing was horrible though... At 1st i thot hes growling, then it became more like trying to tell me something... Very coarse and husky, then i realised hes actually singing, mandarin somemore! Awful voice underwater... It took me so long before i realised hes singing Lee Hom's Di Yi Ge Qing Chen to me... KNS. Duno wat e hell...
Then e corner waitress who was standing in line before the glass, turned around n rolled her eye balls at the monster. And gave me a look as if to say, get used to it... lol... Damn funny.
Needless to say, later they escaped lor, they survive on land oso... The restaurant was at a building that look like suntec tower. Hmm...
But before tt, jus when i heard building collapsing and all, thinking e monsters escaped (was ready to run, coz ive dreamt of such dreams too many times i noe wat to do liao). Ended up was tt ppl were throwing down all the dao long bao from upstairs the restaurant, down for us to eat... Coz we going to end of world le mah... So we were all grabbing the famous dao long bao... Haha... I still remember the taste somemore.
SZ grabbed alot. She took pork, vege and prawns de... But she said the green one (vege) the best. As expected of her!
Then it was more food and more eating. It was so shiok coz everyone knew it was going to be end of the world... We all started eating for free... There were many places (buffets) which were left unattended, so we public just went in to eat n help ourselves...
Gosh i mus be damn hungry...
Yest kept raining wor, how to jog lidat... Marvin n Kavan jio me go gym, said cfm no rain, haha... I dun wan, i still wan go jog outdoor... Then Marvin cursed me say sure rain non stop... Lol
In the end, i went to zz, jus when i was about to doze off, Marvin called... Woke me, chat while he was waiting for Kavan to pick him up. Ask them come pick me they dun wan... So end up 8+ liao, i decided to jog coz rain stopped.
I walk to stadium, closed liao... KNN.
So i ran ard the neighbourhood and started to rain wor... THen i hack care continued to run lor. Finished liao i go buy my fav ginger warm beancurd. Sat down stairs to eat... Damn shiok ok?
Then i went back do some chores, watch tv, study abit then zz le...
Wanted to go club de, coz Marvin jio me accompany him with his coz mates... But then we couldnt find more ppl and i dun wan to be wif all the xiao di dis... Makes me feel so auntie. Ended up i asked him to cancel... Haha...
In the end all healthy living le lor... All go exercise...
But yest didnt jog enuff... Sigh...
Tonight after my thing, maybe i go again. Later see how bah. After work will be so rushed.
Sian
Im so sleepy n tired... Didnt sleep well last night at all... Slept late osom though i was so sleepy... Sigh.
Yest kept raining wor, how to jog lidat... Marvin n Kavan jio me go gym, said cfm no rain, haha... I dun wan, i still wan go jog outdoor... Then Marvin cursed me say sure rain non stop... Lol
In the end, i went to zz, jus when i was about to doze off, Marvin called... Woke me, chat while he was waiting for Kavan to pick him up. Ask them come pick me they dun wan... So end up 8+ liao, i decided to jog coz rain stopped.
I walk to stadium, closed liao... KNN.
So i ran ard the neighbourhood and started to rain wor... THen i hack care continued to run lor. Finished liao i go buy my fav ginger warm beancurd. Sat down stairs to eat... Damn shiok ok?
Then i went back do some chores, watch tv, study abit then zz le...
Wanted to go club de, coz Marvin jio me accompany him with his coz mates... But then we couldnt find more ppl and i dun wan to be wif all the xiao di dis... Makes me feel so auntie. Ended up i asked him to cancel... Haha...
In the end all healthy living le lor... All go exercise...
But yest didnt jog enuff... Sigh...
Tonight after my thing, maybe i go again. Later see how bah. After work will be so rushed.
Yest kept raining wor, how to jog lidat... Marvin n Kavan jio me go gym, said cfm no rain, haha... I dun wan, i still wan go jog outdoor... Then Marvin cursed me say sure rain non stop... Lol
In the end, i went to zz, jus when i was about to doze off, Marvin called... Woke me, chat while he was waiting for Kavan to pick him up. Ask them come pick me they dun wan... So end up 8+ liao, i decided to jog coz rain stopped.
I walk to stadium, closed liao... KNN.
So i ran ard the neighbourhood and started to rain wor... THen i hack care continued to run lor. Finished liao i go buy my fav ginger warm beancurd. Sat down stairs to eat... Damn shiok ok?
Then i went back do some chores, watch tv, study abit then zz le...
Wanted to go club de, coz Marvin jio me accompany him with his coz mates... But then we couldnt find more ppl and i dun wan to be wif all the xiao di dis... Makes me feel so auntie. Ended up i asked him to cancel... Haha...
In the end all healthy living le lor... All go exercise...
But yest didnt jog enuff... Sigh...
Tonight after my thing, maybe i go again. Later see how bah. After work will be so rushed.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Not Lost
Thanks Astra.
I have a meeting at 4pm, and i need to prepare some materials. Then again, think i need a short break now thus im here. Muahahahah...
Im not so sure about this relationship though. Its not going well at all, we didnt even have any "honeymoon" period. I wasnt ready, he was ready but not anymore (after he realised how difficult it is). And we sort of neglected one another tis few days, coz its jus not working.
Then again, i guess we have to give it some time.
I can only say time will tell. TIME WILL TELL...
Ive given up too many times in tis. The last i said was the last sunday morning at his place. When he was jus about to sleep, in his gone state.
I whispered:
"Sorry."
"For?"
"Ive given up..."
"Given up wat?"
"You..."
"Sigh... Dun think about it le."
Then he hugged the wide awake me and slept.
Im not sure if he remembers. But i think he did.
Coz we drifted already.
So now im jus getting used to all tis. I guess its jus gd training for me. Makes me a harder person. Ive always wanted to be tough, heartless and hard. So tt i would not get affected by things.
I told my fren i couldnt work now coz i am so affected. And unlike man who can easily throw their thots aside and carry on with their daily routine, women jus take it harder.
But im doing fine now i guess. My mood from rock bottom has gone up. I guess like wat ppl say, when you are at rock bottom, theres no way to go except upwards.
But i think its thanks to the jog yesterday. I totally enjoyed it. My mood immediately picked up 80%. Or isit coz of the choc i took be4 i ran? Hmm... Or isit coz of the music i was listening to when i jogged? Coz i found it easier... I still have not lost my form. And im glad. But my leg injury is still with me. Sigh.
Im doing it again tonight, hoping to make it a routine, but i cant make it tmr coz i got an appointment. Maybe later? See how bah.
I love the mental torture when u had to push urself forward when you cant. I love the beads of sweat pouring down ur body. I love the adrenaline rush in your blood.
I love it when i look in the mirror, i see myself covered in sweat and in a nearly see thru tee (coz of e sweat). And the sweat beads appearing thru my make up, and my make up doesnt smudge, keke. I find it extremely sexy. Lol. Makes me have the urge.
I couldnt sleep last night, not sure isit coz of these things happening or isit coz i slept too much on mon night. I hope its e latter. Or so i consoled myself.
Mons and Tues are always the hardest for me. Coz i will be very caught up with work and i will be damn stressed. Ive always hope there will be someone, be it a close fren to help ease me during early part of weekdays. Then again, ive been going thru these myself. Maybe it shd jus still tis way.
No matter where tis goes. I guess its not at all wasted. Ive changed meanwhile and i think ive become tougher again, not that im not tough enuff for those who knoe me. But i wan to be tougher, like steel. Like cold blooded. I wan to be cold and hard.
I guess we r still trying bah. Or at least trying to let time tell. Perhaps its true that some things arent there anymore. We dun tok about it already, in fact we dun tok already, jus short words of safety only.
Im kinda numb to tis already... Going to the immune stage. But tis is fine. If i can becum immune tts great. Coz if it happens again, at least i can still carry on.
Ironically, today is our one mth.
What a long mth it had been.
Living is already really difficult, y make relationship the same.
My 8th relationship. He took the lucky number away.
Keep smiling, Celestine. Im sure u'll be fine, jus like always~~~
I have a meeting at 4pm, and i need to prepare some materials. Then again, think i need a short break now thus im here. Muahahahah...
Im not so sure about this relationship though. Its not going well at all, we didnt even have any "honeymoon" period. I wasnt ready, he was ready but not anymore (after he realised how difficult it is). And we sort of neglected one another tis few days, coz its jus not working.
Then again, i guess we have to give it some time.
I can only say time will tell. TIME WILL TELL...
Ive given up too many times in tis. The last i said was the last sunday morning at his place. When he was jus about to sleep, in his gone state.
I whispered:
"Sorry."
"For?"
"Ive given up..."
"Given up wat?"
"You..."
"Sigh... Dun think about it le."
Then he hugged the wide awake me and slept.
Im not sure if he remembers. But i think he did.
Coz we drifted already.
So now im jus getting used to all tis. I guess its jus gd training for me. Makes me a harder person. Ive always wanted to be tough, heartless and hard. So tt i would not get affected by things.
I told my fren i couldnt work now coz i am so affected. And unlike man who can easily throw their thots aside and carry on with their daily routine, women jus take it harder.
But im doing fine now i guess. My mood from rock bottom has gone up. I guess like wat ppl say, when you are at rock bottom, theres no way to go except upwards.
But i think its thanks to the jog yesterday. I totally enjoyed it. My mood immediately picked up 80%. Or isit coz of the choc i took be4 i ran? Hmm... Or isit coz of the music i was listening to when i jogged? Coz i found it easier... I still have not lost my form. And im glad. But my leg injury is still with me. Sigh.
Im doing it again tonight, hoping to make it a routine, but i cant make it tmr coz i got an appointment. Maybe later? See how bah.
I love the mental torture when u had to push urself forward when you cant. I love the beads of sweat pouring down ur body. I love the adrenaline rush in your blood.
I love it when i look in the mirror, i see myself covered in sweat and in a nearly see thru tee (coz of e sweat). And the sweat beads appearing thru my make up, and my make up doesnt smudge, keke. I find it extremely sexy. Lol. Makes me have the urge.
I couldnt sleep last night, not sure isit coz of these things happening or isit coz i slept too much on mon night. I hope its e latter. Or so i consoled myself.
Mons and Tues are always the hardest for me. Coz i will be very caught up with work and i will be damn stressed. Ive always hope there will be someone, be it a close fren to help ease me during early part of weekdays. Then again, ive been going thru these myself. Maybe it shd jus still tis way.
No matter where tis goes. I guess its not at all wasted. Ive changed meanwhile and i think ive become tougher again, not that im not tough enuff for those who knoe me. But i wan to be tougher, like steel. Like cold blooded. I wan to be cold and hard.
I guess we r still trying bah. Or at least trying to let time tell. Perhaps its true that some things arent there anymore. We dun tok about it already, in fact we dun tok already, jus short words of safety only.
Im kinda numb to tis already... Going to the immune stage. But tis is fine. If i can becum immune tts great. Coz if it happens again, at least i can still carry on.
Ironically, today is our one mth.
What a long mth it had been.
Living is already really difficult, y make relationship the same.
My 8th relationship. He took the lucky number away.
Keep smiling, Celestine. Im sure u'll be fine, jus like always~~~
Monday, April 23, 2007
Attached
I was obviously back like wat, 2 weeks ago?
But having gone through alot of issues over the past 2 weeks which left me with no mood to blog at all. I am having prob working, let alone to blog.
U noe wat affects me? Humans, which is y i prefer to be alone. And u noe wat kind of humans tt affect me personally? Frenz and lovers. And u noe who affects me greatly? Enuff to make me lose my zz, mood to work, moltivation and even change me? A Lover.
YES.
I am attached. Coming a mth in a couple of days actually. In wat already seemed like ages. And thats not a positive comment.
Under normal circumstances, i would not have gone into it again. Especially since ive kept myself single for the past 2 yrs. But there was something in tis one, that was different. I had stopped knowing guys since 2 yrs back to prevent myself from gettin attached easily.
I am hard to get, but i am not without weakness.
I noe as long as i close the newer options, i would be safe. Working circle is fine, i am very firm by that. I do not entertain colleague skirt chasers. Work is work, its jus business. But not socially. Socially its hard to stay very firm. Coz ultimately, u are toking social here.
I noe my weaknesses. If the guy noes how to work me, he will get me, definately, for I do not judge looks, height and richness. He will nail it if he knoe how. Even when i do not fall for him, coz my love can be nurtured.
But tis time he came so naturally, i cant even stop it. And god damn it, hes a damn gd mind player. He read me and he got it. But duno he suay or wat lah... Guys with me all no gd ending de lor...
But thats another thing altogether. I'll tok about tis another time.
Will post the genting pics after tis week.
But having gone through alot of issues over the past 2 weeks which left me with no mood to blog at all. I am having prob working, let alone to blog.
U noe wat affects me? Humans, which is y i prefer to be alone. And u noe wat kind of humans tt affect me personally? Frenz and lovers. And u noe who affects me greatly? Enuff to make me lose my zz, mood to work, moltivation and even change me? A Lover.
YES.
I am attached. Coming a mth in a couple of days actually. In wat already seemed like ages. And thats not a positive comment.
Under normal circumstances, i would not have gone into it again. Especially since ive kept myself single for the past 2 yrs. But there was something in tis one, that was different. I had stopped knowing guys since 2 yrs back to prevent myself from gettin attached easily.
I am hard to get, but i am not without weakness.
I noe as long as i close the newer options, i would be safe. Working circle is fine, i am very firm by that. I do not entertain colleague skirt chasers. Work is work, its jus business. But not socially. Socially its hard to stay very firm. Coz ultimately, u are toking social here.
I noe my weaknesses. If the guy noes how to work me, he will get me, definately, for I do not judge looks, height and richness. He will nail it if he knoe how. Even when i do not fall for him, coz my love can be nurtured.
But tis time he came so naturally, i cant even stop it. And god damn it, hes a damn gd mind player. He read me and he got it. But duno he suay or wat lah... Guys with me all no gd ending de lor...
But thats another thing altogether. I'll tok about tis another time.
Will post the genting pics after tis week.
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Away For The Long Weekend
Im in the office as usual. Terribly sick, horribly weak... Sigh...
And im going Genting tonight. Good gracious me... Sigh...
Im so sick, so sleepy, think i will finally get to sleep tonight... Guess i might be able to sleep throughout the coach for the 1st time...
Gonna get more medicine to bring over after work.
Meeting Wendy n Marvin for dinner before my departure. Aint them sweet, though Wendy's going with me to Genting of coz. Lol.
I will be back sun night, late at night. Sigh. If only i can get mon leave... But tts impossible.
Tataz...
Take gd care of urself while im gone okie? Must miss me wor...
And im going Genting tonight. Good gracious me... Sigh...
Im so sick, so sleepy, think i will finally get to sleep tonight... Guess i might be able to sleep throughout the coach for the 1st time...
Gonna get more medicine to bring over after work.
Meeting Wendy n Marvin for dinner before my departure. Aint them sweet, though Wendy's going with me to Genting of coz. Lol.
I will be back sun night, late at night. Sigh. If only i can get mon leave... But tts impossible.
Tataz...
Take gd care of urself while im gone okie? Must miss me wor...
Monday, March 26, 2007
Colorgenics
http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/
This is so creepy can... Right, SZ?
Actually i did twice, the 1st was damn accurate as well. But i forgot to save it. Knowing myself in depth, i have 2 sides to my personality. So i knew i had to do it 2 times, coz i haf 2 different flow of mindset...
1st time was damn negative and its right on for all my weaknesses, which ppl always refused to accept in themselves... While it is oso abit hard for me to swallow, i noe its true, jus still kinda hard for ppl to throw it at ur face. Lol.
Results ~
You work hard, seeking success. You are self-sufficient and in spite of all the trials and tribulations that have beset you in the past you carry on regardless.. You are one to be admired because you pursue your objectives single-mindedly and with initiative. You know that you can 'do it' and what is more, you will - without necessarily being dependent upon the goodwill of others.
The way things are at this time is causing you considerable stress and anxiety. Your friends and acquaintances consider you to be - to say the least - difficult and unapproachable. Now it is because of this that you need to find some sort of solution. By doing nothing and waiting for matters to right themselves will only make things worse, but don't rush into making hasty decisions - make haste slowly.
You feel very lonely and frustrated at this time but your shyness and modesty precludes you from establishing any deep form of relationship. You feel rather isolated and alone. You are egocentric and you believe that you are always right - well maybe you are - but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.
You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.
You need to be respected as an exceptional individual. This is the only way that you can hope to achieve the status that you wish to achieve. You set yourself very high standards - and come what may - you abide by them.
This is so creepy can... Right, SZ?
Actually i did twice, the 1st was damn accurate as well. But i forgot to save it. Knowing myself in depth, i have 2 sides to my personality. So i knew i had to do it 2 times, coz i haf 2 different flow of mindset...
1st time was damn negative and its right on for all my weaknesses, which ppl always refused to accept in themselves... While it is oso abit hard for me to swallow, i noe its true, jus still kinda hard for ppl to throw it at ur face. Lol.
Results ~
You work hard, seeking success. You are self-sufficient and in spite of all the trials and tribulations that have beset you in the past you carry on regardless.. You are one to be admired because you pursue your objectives single-mindedly and with initiative. You know that you can 'do it' and what is more, you will - without necessarily being dependent upon the goodwill of others.
The way things are at this time is causing you considerable stress and anxiety. Your friends and acquaintances consider you to be - to say the least - difficult and unapproachable. Now it is because of this that you need to find some sort of solution. By doing nothing and waiting for matters to right themselves will only make things worse, but don't rush into making hasty decisions - make haste slowly.
You feel very lonely and frustrated at this time but your shyness and modesty precludes you from establishing any deep form of relationship. You feel rather isolated and alone. You are egocentric and you believe that you are always right - well maybe you are - but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.
You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.
You need to be respected as an exceptional individual. This is the only way that you can hope to achieve the status that you wish to achieve. You set yourself very high standards - and come what may - you abide by them.
Monday, March 19, 2007
Some Updates, Lol.
Sigh sigh sigh... Sucks right, i always say will blog but oso nothing de...
Wat to do, i so busy one... And when i am not busy, i am so lazy lor...
Im in the office now but this morning, strangely theres nothing much... Maybe oso coz my bosses haven come in yet.
I think i slept at 5+am yest lor... So sleepy can... I one week never really slp le, every night 2-3hrs, i wan to die liao... This weekend all thks to my handsome babe, made me sleep at like wat, 10+am... -_____-" How to slp back normal lidat?
Hopefully i can concuss tonight... Hope only ar... *cross fingers* But then if so easy i last week oso wun lidat le.
My handsomebabe, buddy, he finally came back from Europe le... But then i wasnt really sure he came back, lol. Then i didnt call him... Wah, i tell u arh, he cursed me till duno like wat... He tolerated one day, and following day after my work, he called and scolded me upside down... Lol...
The moment i picked up and said "hello" only, he started tis chain of words which i cant even cut in, "U DUN MISS ME ALREADY U DUN MISS ME ALREADY, U CHANGE HEART ALREADY, U BITCH LOR, WAU LAU, I COME BACK ONE DAY ALREADY U NEVER EVEN CALL ME! TO THINK I CALLED U 1ST THING WHEN I REACHED SG, AND I EVEN HELPED U BUY ALCOHOL LOR!", etc etc.
Hahaha...
Anyways, i am glad he n his partner's back safely...
Strangely, the whole world called me on tt night as well to ask me out... I went to meet my ex colleagues for supper at 10pm (my dinner though, so hungry can!). We went to MS's Sakae Sushi supper buffet. After tt i went ktv wif my babe.
My gawd, he changed so much lor... Minusing his sudden 80s look, he suddenly becum a better drinker... Impressed man, it was e 1st time i see him drink faster, n more than me... While i suddenly resisted e idea of drinking tt night thks to the multiple nights of drinking before hand. Lol...
He exclaimed, "Wat happened to u?". "Duno leh, think ive changed while u not ard lor, suddenly like cannot take beer le..." "NVM, i MAKE SURE i bring u back!"...
Lol.
Having said tt, e person who changed my alcohol taste was saying last night, "Drink wat beer, now gd mah, drink Martell, beer like water n soda water lor." "Lidat then y u can get drunk drinking abit only leh" "Aiyah aiyah..." Haha...
Then tis person was complaining last night, "Siao liao le lah, all ur fault, now i drink half a bottle of martell oso no feel le"... "I am a gd trainer mah"...
I love this 2 bitches in my life now. Though they duno each other, and are way different from each other. But somehow, i am the middle point. Kekekek.
My voice is so bad now, coz we laughed for more than an hr yest morn... Sigh, dun even ask me y... But both of us ended up losing our voice and started coughing. Haha...
Marvin's sis getting married on 1st April, sigh, duno wat to wear leh... Time for some shopping le. SZ!!!!!!
Still so tired lor... Tonight i must make sure i go sleep after i reach home straight, if not wait n wait then at night cannot slp again...
Today is mon again... Sobz... Whole week to go...
But im going Genting again, in 3 weeks time... So excited... I noe ive said i will post my 2 last genting trip pics be4... Haha, aiyah, maybe tis time i will post lor... Tts if the pics are nice lah... But shd be nice lah, tis time round got my nice camera mah...
Im going wif Wendy n SZ. Wah lau i tell u, after i booked and bought the ticks, so many ppl scolded me say i never bring them go lah, never ask them lah, tis n tt...
When i asked them in the past, everyone is like, "dun wan lah! so sian one! go there do nothing!" tis n tt... So i go myself now, they all complained, then they said tts in the past mah... Lol...
K lah, i admit its my fault oso, coz i did considered asking another 4 ppl... But the grp will be super mixed and i haf no idea how to split for rooms... Coz its like, u noe, everyone's close to me, so how to split myself into so many pieces... Lol...
K lah, i type till so sian le oso... Till the next tym.
Wat to do, i so busy one... And when i am not busy, i am so lazy lor...
Im in the office now but this morning, strangely theres nothing much... Maybe oso coz my bosses haven come in yet.
I think i slept at 5+am yest lor... So sleepy can... I one week never really slp le, every night 2-3hrs, i wan to die liao... This weekend all thks to my handsome babe, made me sleep at like wat, 10+am... -_____-" How to slp back normal lidat?
Hopefully i can concuss tonight... Hope only ar... *cross fingers* But then if so easy i last week oso wun lidat le.
My handsome
The moment i picked up and said "hello" only, he started tis chain of words which i cant even cut in, "U DUN MISS ME ALREADY U DUN MISS ME ALREADY, U CHANGE HEART ALREADY, U BITCH LOR, WAU LAU, I COME BACK ONE DAY ALREADY U NEVER EVEN CALL ME! TO THINK I CALLED U 1ST THING WHEN I REACHED SG, AND I EVEN HELPED U BUY ALCOHOL LOR!", etc etc.
Hahaha...
Anyways, i am glad he n his partner's back safely...
Strangely, the whole world called me on tt night as well to ask me out... I went to meet my ex colleagues for supper at 10pm (my dinner though, so hungry can!). We went to MS's Sakae Sushi supper buffet. After tt i went ktv wif my babe.
My gawd, he changed so much lor... Minusing his sudden 80s look, he suddenly becum a better drinker... Impressed man, it was e 1st time i see him drink faster, n more than me... While i suddenly resisted e idea of drinking tt night thks to the multiple nights of drinking before hand. Lol...
He exclaimed, "Wat happened to u?". "Duno leh, think ive changed while u not ard lor, suddenly like cannot take beer le..." "NVM, i MAKE SURE i bring u back!"...
Lol.
Having said tt, e person who changed my alcohol taste was saying last night, "Drink wat beer, now gd mah, drink Martell, beer like water n soda water lor." "Lidat then y u can get drunk drinking abit only leh" "Aiyah aiyah..." Haha...
Then tis person was complaining last night, "Siao liao le lah, all ur fault, now i drink half a bottle of martell oso no feel le"... "I am a gd trainer mah"...
I love this 2 bitches in my life now. Though they duno each other, and are way different from each other. But somehow, i am the middle point. Kekekek.
My voice is so bad now, coz we laughed for more than an hr yest morn... Sigh, dun even ask me y... But both of us ended up losing our voice and started coughing. Haha...
Marvin's sis getting married on 1st April, sigh, duno wat to wear leh... Time for some shopping le. SZ!!!!!!
Still so tired lor... Tonight i must make sure i go sleep after i reach home straight, if not wait n wait then at night cannot slp again...
Today is mon again... Sobz... Whole week to go...
But im going Genting again, in 3 weeks time... So excited... I noe ive said i will post my 2 last genting trip pics be4... Haha, aiyah, maybe tis time i will post lor... Tts if the pics are nice lah... But shd be nice lah, tis time round got my nice camera mah...
Im going wif Wendy n SZ. Wah lau i tell u, after i booked and bought the ticks, so many ppl scolded me say i never bring them go lah, never ask them lah, tis n tt...
When i asked them in the past, everyone is like, "dun wan lah! so sian one! go there do nothing!" tis n tt... So i go myself now, they all complained, then they said tts in the past mah... Lol...
K lah, i admit its my fault oso, coz i did considered asking another 4 ppl... But the grp will be super mixed and i haf no idea how to split for rooms... Coz its like, u noe, everyone's close to me, so how to split myself into so many pieces... Lol...
K lah, i type till so sian le oso... Till the next tym.
Thursday, March 01, 2007
Some Updates
Aiyo, i so no time to blog lor.
When did i last wrote my entry. Wait let me go check 1st...
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Orh, chu 3 movie i watched Ghost Rider, not nice one... Bleah... The ghosts come out i laugh le... Then abit dumb lor, took cab go down tamp, nothing to do there, coz marvin mahjonging, oliver playing game. -__-" Then i use the com lor... So bo liao, then eat liao, same thing again, continued to wait till movie start.
Then after tt think ard 12am, take cab back. So pointless right. Duno y i go down for anyways. So extra.
Then chu 4 i forgot i do wat liao. But think i forced marvin n oliver to eat dinner wif me. Then say after 7 call me. Then no news liao... Then i called them they still slping. Marvin said they fell asleep. Damn it lor. Then Marvin ask me eat myself. So angry lor... But in the end, he woke Oliver and they met me.
But i cant remember its chu 4 or 5 leh... Maybe its chu 5 so means i rot at home on chu 4.
Anyways, we went to WARAKU to eat. I love tt place though their customer service sucks. Love e jap food there. So much better than Sushi Tei. Yucks. Am not going to Sushi Tei for a long long time. Working at SP Services and coz of Marvin made me eat there till i wan to puke le...
I tell u arh, we 2 sure kena cursed de... Some ppl nv even eat lobster and uni in their whole life, but we 2 hor, eat lobster sashimi cannot finish de somemore... 1st few time we eat, after tt we always leave alot behind. *smack myself* Did i blogged abt tis already? Nvm.
Then Oliver dropped us and we went ktv. Then after tt Oliver came to join us hor... He called Marvin but he didnt pick up, so he went to the front desk and said, "Im looking for tis 2 person, e guy always come here one, e female one, although shes a chinese but she look like a malay"...
Bloody hell, and the waiter brought him into our room lor!!!
SO BEK CEK LEH!!!
How can he say tt!!!
Then he still commended he smart... *ah bish* him ar.
Fri i rotted at home i think. Oh i headed to AMK HUB, its so much bigger than i thot. THough now only 2 basement levels opened. Didnt feel like i was in AMK. Cooked dinner and bought 2 vcds to watch.
Sat n sun i headed out as usual lor.
Then mon hor... Aiyo, think liao i oso wan to faint le. So bz can!!!
SO many many things to do, i couldnt even finish... But today all the things died down liao, i got nothing to do now. Sigh.
Tmr night i going for KTV wif Ah Bee, for drinking actually. Oso, its his bday. Bought his pressie le, goin to get SZ's late pressie tis sat.
Marvin and Oliver went to Europe le. They going France, London, Germany, Paris. I asked him get LV Wallet for me, muahahaha... And oso some alcohol at DFS. DUno he will buy or not.
2 weeks later then they come back. SObz... GOnna miss them so much.
K lah, i blog till so long oso sian. Go find some things to do.
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Orh, chu 3 movie i watched Ghost Rider, not nice one... Bleah... The ghosts come out i laugh le... Then abit dumb lor, took cab go down tamp, nothing to do there, coz marvin mahjonging, oliver playing game. -__-" Then i use the com lor... So bo liao, then eat liao, same thing again, continued to wait till movie start.
Then after tt think ard 12am, take cab back. So pointless right. Duno y i go down for anyways. So extra.
Then chu 4 i forgot i do wat liao. But think i forced marvin n oliver to eat dinner wif me. Then say after 7 call me. Then no news liao... Then i called them they still slping. Marvin said they fell asleep. Damn it lor. Then Marvin ask me eat myself. So angry lor... But in the end, he woke Oliver and they met me.
But i cant remember its chu 4 or 5 leh... Maybe its chu 5 so means i rot at home on chu 4.
Anyways, we went to WARAKU to eat. I love tt place though their customer service sucks. Love e jap food there. So much better than Sushi Tei. Yucks. Am not going to Sushi Tei for a long long time. Working at SP Services and coz of Marvin made me eat there till i wan to puke le...
I tell u arh, we 2 sure kena cursed de... Some ppl nv even eat lobster and uni in their whole life, but we 2 hor, eat lobster sashimi cannot finish de somemore... 1st few time we eat, after tt we always leave alot behind. *smack myself* Did i blogged abt tis already? Nvm.
Then Oliver dropped us and we went ktv. Then after tt Oliver came to join us hor... He called Marvin but he didnt pick up, so he went to the front desk and said, "Im looking for tis 2 person, e guy always come here one, e female one, although shes a chinese but she look like a malay"...
Bloody hell, and the waiter brought him into our room lor!!!
SO BEK CEK LEH!!!
How can he say tt!!!
Then he still commended he smart... *ah bish* him ar.
Fri i rotted at home i think. Oh i headed to AMK HUB, its so much bigger than i thot. THough now only 2 basement levels opened. Didnt feel like i was in AMK. Cooked dinner and bought 2 vcds to watch.
Sat n sun i headed out as usual lor.
Then mon hor... Aiyo, think liao i oso wan to faint le. So bz can!!!
SO many many things to do, i couldnt even finish... But today all the things died down liao, i got nothing to do now. Sigh.
Tmr night i going for KTV wif Ah Bee, for drinking actually. Oso, its his bday. Bought his pressie le, goin to get SZ's late pressie tis sat.
Marvin and Oliver went to Europe le. They going France, London, Germany, Paris. I asked him get LV Wallet for me, muahahaha... And oso some alcohol at DFS. DUno he will buy or not.
2 weeks later then they come back. SObz... GOnna miss them so much.
K lah, i blog till so long oso sian. Go find some things to do.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Chu 3~
I didnt do any spring cleaning. Lol.
SZ didnt go to our sec frenz gathering, so had asked her to haf dinner wif me and watch movie. Since im alone at home anyways. But then ended up, i headed to Marvin's place for steamboat. Marvin is mahjonging now, and Oliver is playing game beside. Damn bored can.
Will be catching a movie soon as well.
Ok lah, i will leave all the shoppin n cleaning till tmr. Kekekekek.
SZ didnt go to our sec frenz gathering, so had asked her to haf dinner wif me and watch movie. Since im alone at home anyways. But then ended up, i headed to Marvin's place for steamboat. Marvin is mahjonging now, and Oliver is playing game beside. Damn bored can.
Will be catching a movie soon as well.
Ok lah, i will leave all the shoppin n cleaning till tmr. Kekekekek.
Hmm.
I expected myself to crash in till abt 3-4 pm...
But damn i woke up so much earlier thks to someone. -_______-"
Surfed e internet till nothing to surf oso, msn oso nobody online. Minus those i blocked lah, oops! But u all sleeping ar? Or still out bai nian? Are the shops opened already today? Shd be right?
Im in a lazing kind of mood, lol. So didnt even intend to do wat i had intended. Muahaha. Aiyah, lazy lah.
My mood is still lousy and abit ruptured. I shd let it go sooonn. Dun wanna get myself affected over matters tt aint worth it at all.
But damn i woke up so much earlier thks to someone. -_______-"
Surfed e internet till nothing to surf oso, msn oso nobody online. Minus those i blocked lah, oops! But u all sleeping ar? Or still out bai nian? Are the shops opened already today? Shd be right?
Im in a lazing kind of mood, lol. So didnt even intend to do wat i had intended. Muahaha. Aiyah, lazy lah.
My mood is still lousy and abit ruptured. I shd let it go sooonn. Dun wanna get myself affected over matters tt aint worth it at all.
Happy Hols~
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!
Watever e occasion, i jus hope u all had a nice break from work and all others. For me, my break will be one week, so i'll be starting work on next mon.
On Fri, it was half day for me, i met a fren for lunch, then shopping (or rather he shop only), then dinner then more shopping, then movie. My sat and sun were pretty packed as well, it was sort of celebrating CNY n SZ's bday altogether.
Sat i went for movie, then shopping... Ooo, i bought a nike jacket which i love to bits. I really really like it, though its like a 100 bucks jacket. Jus wondering when the hell will i have the chance to wear it. Lol.
Its so nice though ex, but i noe i will definately regret if i dun grab it.
I tried it on a few times, not wanting to let it go. And SZ said to me, "Dun bother tryin already, its very nice. Jus a matter of whether u wan to buy or not." And then when i paid at the cashier, the guy said to me, "Tis is a very nice jacket!"... Hee.
Then we went home for reunion dinner, and then headed out again for ktv. I was drunk and i sat at my blk for awhile chatting on the phone, be4 i headed home and was knocked out.
On sun, it was another reunion dinner. SZ came to eat wif us, some ppl came to me place and the whole family of one of my fren as well. SZ and I went to visit my dad and then i bought her a swensen ice cream cake last min to cut and stayed in yishun till abt 2am.
Yest was boring though. I dun haf plans, so i stayed at home. Bought some booze in the evening, coz i wanted to slp the day away. Unfortunately, i got so drunk and puked like mad. Lol. But it did knocked me out.
I got up ard 11+pm, had my dinner (maggi), watched some tv till now. Gonna watch some epis of Naruto, i will be chasing it again, since its gonna follow the manga again from tis week onwards. Now tts such a great news.
Seriously, i wonder wat e hell am i gonna do for the next 6 days. Hmm... Think i shall do some spring cleaning again tmr. Pack and clear my wardrobe, one drawer, and the things on my table in e living room. Guess tts pretty much it, unless i wan to touch the storeroom, which i wun. lol.
Then on wed, i will head out to do some shopping, gonna buy a case for my ipod, track pants, masque. I will need to set a day to do some of my work, and another day perhaps to get some new working clothes. Ive been wearing the same things for yrs. Lol. Sat, i will meet SZ for some senseless shoppin at Vivo. I wan to eat the Korean food!
The entry is soooo meaningless. Lol. Okok, i will blog more tmr.
Watever e occasion, i jus hope u all had a nice break from work and all others. For me, my break will be one week, so i'll be starting work on next mon.
On Fri, it was half day for me, i met a fren for lunch, then shopping (or rather he shop only), then dinner then more shopping, then movie. My sat and sun were pretty packed as well, it was sort of celebrating CNY n SZ's bday altogether.
Sat i went for movie, then shopping... Ooo, i bought a nike jacket which i love to bits. I really really like it, though its like a 100 bucks jacket. Jus wondering when the hell will i have the chance to wear it. Lol.
Its so nice though ex, but i noe i will definately regret if i dun grab it.
I tried it on a few times, not wanting to let it go. And SZ said to me, "Dun bother tryin already, its very nice. Jus a matter of whether u wan to buy or not." And then when i paid at the cashier, the guy said to me, "Tis is a very nice jacket!"... Hee.
Then we went home for reunion dinner, and then headed out again for ktv. I was drunk and i sat at my blk for awhile chatting on the phone, be4 i headed home and was knocked out.
On sun, it was another reunion dinner. SZ came to eat wif us, some ppl came to me place and the whole family of one of my fren as well. SZ and I went to visit my dad and then i bought her a swensen ice cream cake last min to cut and stayed in yishun till abt 2am.
Yest was boring though. I dun haf plans, so i stayed at home. Bought some booze in the evening, coz i wanted to slp the day away. Unfortunately, i got so drunk and puked like mad. Lol. But it did knocked me out.
I got up ard 11+pm, had my dinner (maggi), watched some tv till now. Gonna watch some epis of Naruto, i will be chasing it again, since its gonna follow the manga again from tis week onwards. Now tts such a great news.
Seriously, i wonder wat e hell am i gonna do for the next 6 days. Hmm... Think i shall do some spring cleaning again tmr. Pack and clear my wardrobe, one drawer, and the things on my table in e living room. Guess tts pretty much it, unless i wan to touch the storeroom, which i wun. lol.
Then on wed, i will head out to do some shopping, gonna buy a case for my ipod, track pants, masque. I will need to set a day to do some of my work, and another day perhaps to get some new working clothes. Ive been wearing the same things for yrs. Lol. Sat, i will meet SZ for some senseless shoppin at Vivo. I wan to eat the Korean food!
The entry is soooo meaningless. Lol. Okok, i will blog more tmr.
Monday, February 12, 2007
Celestine's Back
I am back.
Or so i felt.
I felt i went on a journey. Ive changed. I did things that I usually wouldnt,
worked in a place which ive nv intended, did a job which i wouldnt, befriended
some whom i wouldnt as well.
It was quite tough for me the past 3 weeks. I had to deal with the transition,
not only in terms of jobscope. But rather, mentally, physically and
emotionally.
I did not realise what happened until the last saturday late night which i
spent with SZ. While i was sitting facing her (its been some time since i last
did tt) chatting, its like the moment just dawned on me all of a sudden.
The way i tok, the things ive said. I realised ive not done so for a long time.
Its not exactly like i was enlightened or something, but more like "U noe
something, suddenly I realised im back." And i thot it was quite a surreal
feeling then.
SOme things and ppl never change, even if time passes. One example will be her. Though i cant tell u oso whether is tis gd or bad. Lol, she'll get the drift. While i still meet her up these past 6 mths. I just felt our distance drifting apart more n more each time. I noe its not her. It is all just me.
I noe ive drifted away, jus tt ive not intended to tok to her abt it then. And back to tt night. I just realised tt, we are still the same. I came back and i am still me, back to the beginning. Though i couldnt answer her if tis is gd or bad when she asked.
She said i went "exploring" and sort of asked me "so how was it?". I jus felt that i went one big round and came back with nothing, since i am back at the beginning. I experienced and missed some moments and ppl that i noe i shdnt.
Anyways, i am in the office now and i got to go back to my work. But since i am back, i will continue to blog, and maybe even more often than usual for my own good. I miss blogging. While i was alway for the past 6 mths, i came in to blog for the sake of it, without even feeling anything.
So tis time its different.
I am back. And i will continue to blog. NOt just for the sake of it.
I just had abit of regret tt i did not jot down all the things tt had happened within the 6 mths. Fortunately, its jus a gap of 6 mths.
Now tt i am back. Do you miss the old me?
However, some things still changed. If not, i would haf totally gone for a journey for nothing.
Or so i felt.
I felt i went on a journey. Ive changed. I did things that I usually wouldnt,
worked in a place which ive nv intended, did a job which i wouldnt, befriended
some whom i wouldnt as well.
It was quite tough for me the past 3 weeks. I had to deal with the transition,
not only in terms of jobscope. But rather, mentally, physically and
emotionally.
I did not realise what happened until the last saturday late night which i
spent with SZ. While i was sitting facing her (its been some time since i last
did tt) chatting, its like the moment just dawned on me all of a sudden.
The way i tok, the things ive said. I realised ive not done so for a long time.
Its not exactly like i was enlightened or something, but more like "U noe
something, suddenly I realised im back." And i thot it was quite a surreal
feeling then.
SOme things and ppl never change, even if time passes. One example will be her. Though i cant tell u oso whether is tis gd or bad. Lol, she'll get the drift. While i still meet her up these past 6 mths. I just felt our distance drifting apart more n more each time. I noe its not her. It is all just me.
I noe ive drifted away, jus tt ive not intended to tok to her abt it then. And back to tt night. I just realised tt, we are still the same. I came back and i am still me, back to the beginning. Though i couldnt answer her if tis is gd or bad when she asked.
She said i went "exploring" and sort of asked me "so how was it?". I jus felt that i went one big round and came back with nothing, since i am back at the beginning. I experienced and missed some moments and ppl that i noe i shdnt.
Anyways, i am in the office now and i got to go back to my work. But since i am back, i will continue to blog, and maybe even more often than usual for my own good. I miss blogging. While i was alway for the past 6 mths, i came in to blog for the sake of it, without even feeling anything.
So tis time its different.
I am back. And i will continue to blog. NOt just for the sake of it.
I just had abit of regret tt i did not jot down all the things tt had happened within the 6 mths. Fortunately, its jus a gap of 6 mths.
Now tt i am back. Do you miss the old me?
However, some things still changed. If not, i would haf totally gone for a journey for nothing.
Saturday, January 06, 2007
Tendered My Resignation
After a long haul, i've tendered my resignation yest.
But wats frustrating thing was tt my deputy director and my supervisor were on leave, so i had to hand it to my assistant manager who doesnt really know abt the situation and therefore i couldnt even make my piece.
It would have been a shocking revelation coz they didnt noe i was leaving and thus i was planning to explain alot of matters. They knew abt the rest of them but they didnt noe i was in it too.
After all the crap of everyone leaving and me struggling to stay on. At the end of the day, i was the 1st of my grp to go. But this time its different, ive gotten a job and will be starting my new job soon. I had agreed on tt end, so even if they wanted to keep me, everything is too late.
Nvm, wat matters is im leaving. Last day will be next fri but still pending the actual confirmation day from HR.
Marvin tendered with me as well. And one week after we leave, it will be Gim Fong's turn. The rest of them had all changed their minds, 2 had decided to stay, the rest of them will be leaving in feb or march. However, my company expected alot more to quit and thus they had hired 8 more newbies to fill up the gaps.
Thing is even with me n marvin gone, they still need ard 5 more seats, wats going to happen i do not noe, i jus wish all the best to those who are staying.
Will blog more abt tis tmr.
But wats frustrating thing was tt my deputy director and my supervisor were on leave, so i had to hand it to my assistant manager who doesnt really know abt the situation and therefore i couldnt even make my piece.
It would have been a shocking revelation coz they didnt noe i was leaving and thus i was planning to explain alot of matters. They knew abt the rest of them but they didnt noe i was in it too.
After all the crap of everyone leaving and me struggling to stay on. At the end of the day, i was the 1st of my grp to go. But this time its different, ive gotten a job and will be starting my new job soon. I had agreed on tt end, so even if they wanted to keep me, everything is too late.
Nvm, wat matters is im leaving. Last day will be next fri but still pending the actual confirmation day from HR.
Marvin tendered with me as well. And one week after we leave, it will be Gim Fong's turn. The rest of them had all changed their minds, 2 had decided to stay, the rest of them will be leaving in feb or march. However, my company expected alot more to quit and thus they had hired 8 more newbies to fill up the gaps.
Thing is even with me n marvin gone, they still need ard 5 more seats, wats going to happen i do not noe, i jus wish all the best to those who are staying.
Will blog more abt tis tmr.
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Xmas Nearing
My co's xmas dinner coming, i believe its e same as everyone on the 22nd. Luckily no need go somewhere, except to take a lift down a few storeys and take e stairs to our function room (e only place wif internet access, lol), no need to dress up (hack, im going to attend wif watever i wore to work tt day). I hope there wun be much of silly games coz i am so not interested.
Yes, i am passive and boring. Cannot ar? Im saying tis, but perhaps i would still enjoy it, since i will be able to spend some last moments wif my whole grp. Its hard to gather all of us together, and tis is a gd chance since all of them will turn up as instructed without me bearing e agony of being e organiser. Tis might even be the final chance for us, be4 we all start leaving next mth.
My supervisors kept reminding us to go though, lol. They say its going to be interesting and food is going to be gd, but like always, we all dun buy tt. Lol.
Did a draw and found out the person whom ive got to prepare a gift for. And the irony is, hes not even in my departmt, i haf no idea who e hell he is. Fortunately, i managed to find a suitable (in my opinion) gift yest. Poor SZ co gift gift budget is $50, luckily mine is minimum 5 bucks. My prev co was $10.
I bought it 50% cheaper at tis place and on top of tt, i had a 20% off. Muahahha... I kinda like e gift myself too, but as usual, i will not buy it. I am happy coz its within my budget and i thot its pretty decent too.
Clocks, frams, towels, chocs are banned for our gifts, they said some ppl complained a few yrs back.
I wan to get some stuffs for my colleagues too. Sigh i am so going to be broke. I shd be settling for some chocs or cookies. Haven decided on the brand though.
I also need to get gifts for sz, my sis, 2 of my colleagues and many small gifts for other colleagues.
Yest i went to Cine's Pandora Box or something and saw so many necklaces tt i would love to own. No in fact, there are so many necklaces tt i love in cine itself. I still wan a 1 or 2 gb sd card and my mp3 player batt but tt comes later, or u can get it for me for xmas. Haha.
My perfume is running but my sis is getting for me. So happy.
Getting my pay tis thurs. I feel like going on a shopping spree, been so long since i last done tt. Recently i spent all my money on food and alcohol. Sigh. Lol.
Went to Taste Paradise the other day. And spent 100 bucks each... But im still glad i went there, after so long. Though it burnt a hole in my pocket.
I wan to spend some money to pamper myself, but then if i no job then how? Sigh, i noe i need to haf some money to tide myself over a certain period. But then my high expenses isnt going to help, and i haf no intention of making myself miserable by cooping myself at home everyday.
I jus wan to make myself happy, tts y i spent all those money. I do not wish to feel restricted at tis pt of time (when i am having a difficult time) jus coz i haf to think of so many things and stop myself fr going/eating at some places.
I just wan to go wif the flow now. I dun wan to be so hard on myself and make the already very miserable me even more miserable.
I feel like getting some things for myself.
1) 1 pair of jeans in blue (i only haf 1 in black now)
2) New heels - white, black, gold, green, pink (all my shoes wearing n tearing n smelling n dirtying, basically at risk of falling apart any second)
3) New clothes
4) Earrings (ive stopped wearing earrings, i need new ones, big long ones and those big retro kind)
5) Moisturisor (it ran out)
But be4 all tt, i need to dye my hair and haf a hair cut. I haven decided on the hair style though, headache. The colors i haf the idea, jus not so sure whether or not accepted at work. Lol. It might also hinder my job search but I wan a change.
I will not quit my job now, i will stay till end of jan. But i might continue to stay there for awhile. I will hold out till all of them leave at least. So i will tahan till 30/01/07 then see how from there.
Marvin, Sheena, Daniel and Chris will be leaving early jan, Gim Fong and Keith near end of Jan. Wendy will be staying, thankfully on tt, at least i dun haf to lunch alone, and we sit next to each other somemore.
Not so sure abt Seraphine and Meng Feng and Ken. I guess they shd be sticking ard for awhile.
Sigh, but those tt are very close to me will be gone. And i only haf Wendy. Sobz. Ppl all leave at the end of the day, especially in customer service where turn over rate is as high as sales line.
Truth is ppl come and go at the time. Its ok lah, jus take it in my stride.
If i can, hope i can survive here for awhile and then take part time studies. After im done then i can leave for greener pasture le. But all these are merely words. It a miracle to even think i can stay till end March. But i will try. =)
Xmas is nearing and i still have not decided on wat to do wif SZ yet. We'll definately be together but do wat? Lol. See how lor. I wonder wats everyone doing for xmas.
Yes, i am passive and boring. Cannot ar? Im saying tis, but perhaps i would still enjoy it, since i will be able to spend some last moments wif my whole grp. Its hard to gather all of us together, and tis is a gd chance since all of them will turn up as instructed without me bearing e agony of being e organiser. Tis might even be the final chance for us, be4 we all start leaving next mth.
My supervisors kept reminding us to go though, lol. They say its going to be interesting and food is going to be gd, but like always, we all dun buy tt. Lol.
Did a draw and found out the person whom ive got to prepare a gift for. And the irony is, hes not even in my departmt, i haf no idea who e hell he is. Fortunately, i managed to find a suitable (in my opinion) gift yest. Poor SZ co gift gift budget is $50, luckily mine is minimum 5 bucks. My prev co was $10.
I bought it 50% cheaper at tis place and on top of tt, i had a 20% off. Muahahha... I kinda like e gift myself too, but as usual, i will not buy it. I am happy coz its within my budget and i thot its pretty decent too.
Clocks, frams, towels, chocs are banned for our gifts, they said some ppl complained a few yrs back.
I wan to get some stuffs for my colleagues too. Sigh i am so going to be broke. I shd be settling for some chocs or cookies. Haven decided on the brand though.
I also need to get gifts for sz, my sis, 2 of my colleagues and many small gifts for other colleagues.
Yest i went to Cine's Pandora Box or something and saw so many necklaces tt i would love to own. No in fact, there are so many necklaces tt i love in cine itself. I still wan a 1 or 2 gb sd card and my mp3 player batt but tt comes later, or u can get it for me for xmas. Haha.
My perfume is running but my sis is getting for me. So happy.
Getting my pay tis thurs. I feel like going on a shopping spree, been so long since i last done tt. Recently i spent all my money on food and alcohol. Sigh. Lol.
Went to Taste Paradise the other day. And spent 100 bucks each... But im still glad i went there, after so long. Though it burnt a hole in my pocket.
I wan to spend some money to pamper myself, but then if i no job then how? Sigh, i noe i need to haf some money to tide myself over a certain period. But then my high expenses isnt going to help, and i haf no intention of making myself miserable by cooping myself at home everyday.
I jus wan to make myself happy, tts y i spent all those money. I do not wish to feel restricted at tis pt of time (when i am having a difficult time) jus coz i haf to think of so many things and stop myself fr going/eating at some places.
I just wan to go wif the flow now. I dun wan to be so hard on myself and make the already very miserable me even more miserable.
I feel like getting some things for myself.
1) 1 pair of jeans in blue (i only haf 1 in black now)
2) New heels - white, black, gold, green, pink (all my shoes wearing n tearing n smelling n dirtying, basically at risk of falling apart any second)
3) New clothes
4) Earrings (ive stopped wearing earrings, i need new ones, big long ones and those big retro kind)
5) Moisturisor (it ran out)
But be4 all tt, i need to dye my hair and haf a hair cut. I haven decided on the hair style though, headache. The colors i haf the idea, jus not so sure whether or not accepted at work. Lol. It might also hinder my job search but I wan a change.
I will not quit my job now, i will stay till end of jan. But i might continue to stay there for awhile. I will hold out till all of them leave at least. So i will tahan till 30/01/07 then see how from there.
Marvin, Sheena, Daniel and Chris will be leaving early jan, Gim Fong and Keith near end of Jan. Wendy will be staying, thankfully on tt, at least i dun haf to lunch alone, and we sit next to each other somemore.
Not so sure abt Seraphine and Meng Feng and Ken. I guess they shd be sticking ard for awhile.
Sigh, but those tt are very close to me will be gone. And i only haf Wendy. Sobz. Ppl all leave at the end of the day, especially in customer service where turn over rate is as high as sales line.
Truth is ppl come and go at the time. Its ok lah, jus take it in my stride.
If i can, hope i can survive here for awhile and then take part time studies. After im done then i can leave for greener pasture le. But all these are merely words. It a miracle to even think i can stay till end March. But i will try. =)
Xmas is nearing and i still have not decided on wat to do wif SZ yet. We'll definately be together but do wat? Lol. See how lor. I wonder wats everyone doing for xmas.
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