I didnt do any spring cleaning. Lol.
SZ didnt go to our sec frenz gathering, so had asked her to haf dinner wif me and watch movie. Since im alone at home anyways. But then ended up, i headed to Marvin's place for steamboat. Marvin is mahjonging now, and Oliver is playing game beside. Damn bored can.
Will be catching a movie soon as well.
Ok lah, i will leave all the shoppin n cleaning till tmr. Kekekekek.
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Hmm.
I expected myself to crash in till abt 3-4 pm...
But damn i woke up so much earlier thks to someone. -_______-"
Surfed e internet till nothing to surf oso, msn oso nobody online. Minus those i blocked lah, oops! But u all sleeping ar? Or still out bai nian? Are the shops opened already today? Shd be right?
Im in a lazing kind of mood, lol. So didnt even intend to do wat i had intended. Muahaha. Aiyah, lazy lah.
My mood is still lousy and abit ruptured. I shd let it go sooonn. Dun wanna get myself affected over matters tt aint worth it at all.
But damn i woke up so much earlier thks to someone. -_______-"
Surfed e internet till nothing to surf oso, msn oso nobody online. Minus those i blocked lah, oops! But u all sleeping ar? Or still out bai nian? Are the shops opened already today? Shd be right?
Im in a lazing kind of mood, lol. So didnt even intend to do wat i had intended. Muahaha. Aiyah, lazy lah.
My mood is still lousy and abit ruptured. I shd let it go sooonn. Dun wanna get myself affected over matters tt aint worth it at all.
Happy Hols~
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!
Watever e occasion, i jus hope u all had a nice break from work and all others. For me, my break will be one week, so i'll be starting work on next mon.
On Fri, it was half day for me, i met a fren for lunch, then shopping (or rather he shop only), then dinner then more shopping, then movie. My sat and sun were pretty packed as well, it was sort of celebrating CNY n SZ's bday altogether.
Sat i went for movie, then shopping... Ooo, i bought a nike jacket which i love to bits. I really really like it, though its like a 100 bucks jacket. Jus wondering when the hell will i have the chance to wear it. Lol.
Its so nice though ex, but i noe i will definately regret if i dun grab it.
I tried it on a few times, not wanting to let it go. And SZ said to me, "Dun bother tryin already, its very nice. Jus a matter of whether u wan to buy or not." And then when i paid at the cashier, the guy said to me, "Tis is a very nice jacket!"... Hee.
Then we went home for reunion dinner, and then headed out again for ktv. I was drunk and i sat at my blk for awhile chatting on the phone, be4 i headed home and was knocked out.
On sun, it was another reunion dinner. SZ came to eat wif us, some ppl came to me place and the whole family of one of my fren as well. SZ and I went to visit my dad and then i bought her a swensen ice cream cake last min to cut and stayed in yishun till abt 2am.
Yest was boring though. I dun haf plans, so i stayed at home. Bought some booze in the evening, coz i wanted to slp the day away. Unfortunately, i got so drunk and puked like mad. Lol. But it did knocked me out.
I got up ard 11+pm, had my dinner (maggi), watched some tv till now. Gonna watch some epis of Naruto, i will be chasing it again, since its gonna follow the manga again from tis week onwards. Now tts such a great news.
Seriously, i wonder wat e hell am i gonna do for the next 6 days. Hmm... Think i shall do some spring cleaning again tmr. Pack and clear my wardrobe, one drawer, and the things on my table in e living room. Guess tts pretty much it, unless i wan to touch the storeroom, which i wun. lol.
Then on wed, i will head out to do some shopping, gonna buy a case for my ipod, track pants, masque. I will need to set a day to do some of my work, and another day perhaps to get some new working clothes. Ive been wearing the same things for yrs. Lol. Sat, i will meet SZ for some senseless shoppin at Vivo. I wan to eat the Korean food!
The entry is soooo meaningless. Lol. Okok, i will blog more tmr.
Watever e occasion, i jus hope u all had a nice break from work and all others. For me, my break will be one week, so i'll be starting work on next mon.
On Fri, it was half day for me, i met a fren for lunch, then shopping (or rather he shop only), then dinner then more shopping, then movie. My sat and sun were pretty packed as well, it was sort of celebrating CNY n SZ's bday altogether.
Sat i went for movie, then shopping... Ooo, i bought a nike jacket which i love to bits. I really really like it, though its like a 100 bucks jacket. Jus wondering when the hell will i have the chance to wear it. Lol.
Its so nice though ex, but i noe i will definately regret if i dun grab it.
I tried it on a few times, not wanting to let it go. And SZ said to me, "Dun bother tryin already, its very nice. Jus a matter of whether u wan to buy or not." And then when i paid at the cashier, the guy said to me, "Tis is a very nice jacket!"... Hee.
Then we went home for reunion dinner, and then headed out again for ktv. I was drunk and i sat at my blk for awhile chatting on the phone, be4 i headed home and was knocked out.
On sun, it was another reunion dinner. SZ came to eat wif us, some ppl came to me place and the whole family of one of my fren as well. SZ and I went to visit my dad and then i bought her a swensen ice cream cake last min to cut and stayed in yishun till abt 2am.
Yest was boring though. I dun haf plans, so i stayed at home. Bought some booze in the evening, coz i wanted to slp the day away. Unfortunately, i got so drunk and puked like mad. Lol. But it did knocked me out.
I got up ard 11+pm, had my dinner (maggi), watched some tv till now. Gonna watch some epis of Naruto, i will be chasing it again, since its gonna follow the manga again from tis week onwards. Now tts such a great news.
Seriously, i wonder wat e hell am i gonna do for the next 6 days. Hmm... Think i shall do some spring cleaning again tmr. Pack and clear my wardrobe, one drawer, and the things on my table in e living room. Guess tts pretty much it, unless i wan to touch the storeroom, which i wun. lol.
Then on wed, i will head out to do some shopping, gonna buy a case for my ipod, track pants, masque. I will need to set a day to do some of my work, and another day perhaps to get some new working clothes. Ive been wearing the same things for yrs. Lol. Sat, i will meet SZ for some senseless shoppin at Vivo. I wan to eat the Korean food!
The entry is soooo meaningless. Lol. Okok, i will blog more tmr.
Monday, February 12, 2007
Celestine's Back
I am back.
Or so i felt.
I felt i went on a journey. Ive changed. I did things that I usually wouldnt,
worked in a place which ive nv intended, did a job which i wouldnt, befriended
some whom i wouldnt as well.
It was quite tough for me the past 3 weeks. I had to deal with the transition,
not only in terms of jobscope. But rather, mentally, physically and
emotionally.
I did not realise what happened until the last saturday late night which i
spent with SZ. While i was sitting facing her (its been some time since i last
did tt) chatting, its like the moment just dawned on me all of a sudden.
The way i tok, the things ive said. I realised ive not done so for a long time.
Its not exactly like i was enlightened or something, but more like "U noe
something, suddenly I realised im back." And i thot it was quite a surreal
feeling then.
SOme things and ppl never change, even if time passes. One example will be her. Though i cant tell u oso whether is tis gd or bad. Lol, she'll get the drift. While i still meet her up these past 6 mths. I just felt our distance drifting apart more n more each time. I noe its not her. It is all just me.
I noe ive drifted away, jus tt ive not intended to tok to her abt it then. And back to tt night. I just realised tt, we are still the same. I came back and i am still me, back to the beginning. Though i couldnt answer her if tis is gd or bad when she asked.
She said i went "exploring" and sort of asked me "so how was it?". I jus felt that i went one big round and came back with nothing, since i am back at the beginning. I experienced and missed some moments and ppl that i noe i shdnt.
Anyways, i am in the office now and i got to go back to my work. But since i am back, i will continue to blog, and maybe even more often than usual for my own good. I miss blogging. While i was alway for the past 6 mths, i came in to blog for the sake of it, without even feeling anything.
So tis time its different.
I am back. And i will continue to blog. NOt just for the sake of it.
I just had abit of regret tt i did not jot down all the things tt had happened within the 6 mths. Fortunately, its jus a gap of 6 mths.
Now tt i am back. Do you miss the old me?
However, some things still changed. If not, i would haf totally gone for a journey for nothing.
Or so i felt.
I felt i went on a journey. Ive changed. I did things that I usually wouldnt,
worked in a place which ive nv intended, did a job which i wouldnt, befriended
some whom i wouldnt as well.
It was quite tough for me the past 3 weeks. I had to deal with the transition,
not only in terms of jobscope. But rather, mentally, physically and
emotionally.
I did not realise what happened until the last saturday late night which i
spent with SZ. While i was sitting facing her (its been some time since i last
did tt) chatting, its like the moment just dawned on me all of a sudden.
The way i tok, the things ive said. I realised ive not done so for a long time.
Its not exactly like i was enlightened or something, but more like "U noe
something, suddenly I realised im back." And i thot it was quite a surreal
feeling then.
SOme things and ppl never change, even if time passes. One example will be her. Though i cant tell u oso whether is tis gd or bad. Lol, she'll get the drift. While i still meet her up these past 6 mths. I just felt our distance drifting apart more n more each time. I noe its not her. It is all just me.
I noe ive drifted away, jus tt ive not intended to tok to her abt it then. And back to tt night. I just realised tt, we are still the same. I came back and i am still me, back to the beginning. Though i couldnt answer her if tis is gd or bad when she asked.
She said i went "exploring" and sort of asked me "so how was it?". I jus felt that i went one big round and came back with nothing, since i am back at the beginning. I experienced and missed some moments and ppl that i noe i shdnt.
Anyways, i am in the office now and i got to go back to my work. But since i am back, i will continue to blog, and maybe even more often than usual for my own good. I miss blogging. While i was alway for the past 6 mths, i came in to blog for the sake of it, without even feeling anything.
So tis time its different.
I am back. And i will continue to blog. NOt just for the sake of it.
I just had abit of regret tt i did not jot down all the things tt had happened within the 6 mths. Fortunately, its jus a gap of 6 mths.
Now tt i am back. Do you miss the old me?
However, some things still changed. If not, i would haf totally gone for a journey for nothing.
Saturday, January 06, 2007
Tendered My Resignation
After a long haul, i've tendered my resignation yest.
But wats frustrating thing was tt my deputy director and my supervisor were on leave, so i had to hand it to my assistant manager who doesnt really know abt the situation and therefore i couldnt even make my piece.
It would have been a shocking revelation coz they didnt noe i was leaving and thus i was planning to explain alot of matters. They knew abt the rest of them but they didnt noe i was in it too.
After all the crap of everyone leaving and me struggling to stay on. At the end of the day, i was the 1st of my grp to go. But this time its different, ive gotten a job and will be starting my new job soon. I had agreed on tt end, so even if they wanted to keep me, everything is too late.
Nvm, wat matters is im leaving. Last day will be next fri but still pending the actual confirmation day from HR.
Marvin tendered with me as well. And one week after we leave, it will be Gim Fong's turn. The rest of them had all changed their minds, 2 had decided to stay, the rest of them will be leaving in feb or march. However, my company expected alot more to quit and thus they had hired 8 more newbies to fill up the gaps.
Thing is even with me n marvin gone, they still need ard 5 more seats, wats going to happen i do not noe, i jus wish all the best to those who are staying.
Will blog more abt tis tmr.
But wats frustrating thing was tt my deputy director and my supervisor were on leave, so i had to hand it to my assistant manager who doesnt really know abt the situation and therefore i couldnt even make my piece.
It would have been a shocking revelation coz they didnt noe i was leaving and thus i was planning to explain alot of matters. They knew abt the rest of them but they didnt noe i was in it too.
After all the crap of everyone leaving and me struggling to stay on. At the end of the day, i was the 1st of my grp to go. But this time its different, ive gotten a job and will be starting my new job soon. I had agreed on tt end, so even if they wanted to keep me, everything is too late.
Nvm, wat matters is im leaving. Last day will be next fri but still pending the actual confirmation day from HR.
Marvin tendered with me as well. And one week after we leave, it will be Gim Fong's turn. The rest of them had all changed their minds, 2 had decided to stay, the rest of them will be leaving in feb or march. However, my company expected alot more to quit and thus they had hired 8 more newbies to fill up the gaps.
Thing is even with me n marvin gone, they still need ard 5 more seats, wats going to happen i do not noe, i jus wish all the best to those who are staying.
Will blog more abt tis tmr.
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Xmas Nearing
My co's xmas dinner coming, i believe its e same as everyone on the 22nd. Luckily no need go somewhere, except to take a lift down a few storeys and take e stairs to our function room (e only place wif internet access, lol), no need to dress up (hack, im going to attend wif watever i wore to work tt day). I hope there wun be much of silly games coz i am so not interested.
Yes, i am passive and boring. Cannot ar? Im saying tis, but perhaps i would still enjoy it, since i will be able to spend some last moments wif my whole grp. Its hard to gather all of us together, and tis is a gd chance since all of them will turn up as instructed without me bearing e agony of being e organiser. Tis might even be the final chance for us, be4 we all start leaving next mth.
My supervisors kept reminding us to go though, lol. They say its going to be interesting and food is going to be gd, but like always, we all dun buy tt. Lol.
Did a draw and found out the person whom ive got to prepare a gift for. And the irony is, hes not even in my departmt, i haf no idea who e hell he is. Fortunately, i managed to find a suitable (in my opinion) gift yest. Poor SZ co gift gift budget is $50, luckily mine is minimum 5 bucks. My prev co was $10.
I bought it 50% cheaper at tis place and on top of tt, i had a 20% off. Muahahha... I kinda like e gift myself too, but as usual, i will not buy it. I am happy coz its within my budget and i thot its pretty decent too.
Clocks, frams, towels, chocs are banned for our gifts, they said some ppl complained a few yrs back.
I wan to get some stuffs for my colleagues too. Sigh i am so going to be broke. I shd be settling for some chocs or cookies. Haven decided on the brand though.
I also need to get gifts for sz, my sis, 2 of my colleagues and many small gifts for other colleagues.
Yest i went to Cine's Pandora Box or something and saw so many necklaces tt i would love to own. No in fact, there are so many necklaces tt i love in cine itself. I still wan a 1 or 2 gb sd card and my mp3 player batt but tt comes later, or u can get it for me for xmas. Haha.
My perfume is running but my sis is getting for me. So happy.
Getting my pay tis thurs. I feel like going on a shopping spree, been so long since i last done tt. Recently i spent all my money on food and alcohol. Sigh. Lol.
Went to Taste Paradise the other day. And spent 100 bucks each... But im still glad i went there, after so long. Though it burnt a hole in my pocket.
I wan to spend some money to pamper myself, but then if i no job then how? Sigh, i noe i need to haf some money to tide myself over a certain period. But then my high expenses isnt going to help, and i haf no intention of making myself miserable by cooping myself at home everyday.
I jus wan to make myself happy, tts y i spent all those money. I do not wish to feel restricted at tis pt of time (when i am having a difficult time) jus coz i haf to think of so many things and stop myself fr going/eating at some places.
I just wan to go wif the flow now. I dun wan to be so hard on myself and make the already very miserable me even more miserable.
I feel like getting some things for myself.
1) 1 pair of jeans in blue (i only haf 1 in black now)
2) New heels - white, black, gold, green, pink (all my shoes wearing n tearing n smelling n dirtying, basically at risk of falling apart any second)
3) New clothes
4) Earrings (ive stopped wearing earrings, i need new ones, big long ones and those big retro kind)
5) Moisturisor (it ran out)
But be4 all tt, i need to dye my hair and haf a hair cut. I haven decided on the hair style though, headache. The colors i haf the idea, jus not so sure whether or not accepted at work. Lol. It might also hinder my job search but I wan a change.
I will not quit my job now, i will stay till end of jan. But i might continue to stay there for awhile. I will hold out till all of them leave at least. So i will tahan till 30/01/07 then see how from there.
Marvin, Sheena, Daniel and Chris will be leaving early jan, Gim Fong and Keith near end of Jan. Wendy will be staying, thankfully on tt, at least i dun haf to lunch alone, and we sit next to each other somemore.
Not so sure abt Seraphine and Meng Feng and Ken. I guess they shd be sticking ard for awhile.
Sigh, but those tt are very close to me will be gone. And i only haf Wendy. Sobz. Ppl all leave at the end of the day, especially in customer service where turn over rate is as high as sales line.
Truth is ppl come and go at the time. Its ok lah, jus take it in my stride.
If i can, hope i can survive here for awhile and then take part time studies. After im done then i can leave for greener pasture le. But all these are merely words. It a miracle to even think i can stay till end March. But i will try. =)
Xmas is nearing and i still have not decided on wat to do wif SZ yet. We'll definately be together but do wat? Lol. See how lor. I wonder wats everyone doing for xmas.
Yes, i am passive and boring. Cannot ar? Im saying tis, but perhaps i would still enjoy it, since i will be able to spend some last moments wif my whole grp. Its hard to gather all of us together, and tis is a gd chance since all of them will turn up as instructed without me bearing e agony of being e organiser. Tis might even be the final chance for us, be4 we all start leaving next mth.
My supervisors kept reminding us to go though, lol. They say its going to be interesting and food is going to be gd, but like always, we all dun buy tt. Lol.
Did a draw and found out the person whom ive got to prepare a gift for. And the irony is, hes not even in my departmt, i haf no idea who e hell he is. Fortunately, i managed to find a suitable (in my opinion) gift yest. Poor SZ co gift gift budget is $50, luckily mine is minimum 5 bucks. My prev co was $10.
I bought it 50% cheaper at tis place and on top of tt, i had a 20% off. Muahahha... I kinda like e gift myself too, but as usual, i will not buy it. I am happy coz its within my budget and i thot its pretty decent too.
Clocks, frams, towels, chocs are banned for our gifts, they said some ppl complained a few yrs back.
I wan to get some stuffs for my colleagues too. Sigh i am so going to be broke. I shd be settling for some chocs or cookies. Haven decided on the brand though.
I also need to get gifts for sz, my sis, 2 of my colleagues and many small gifts for other colleagues.
Yest i went to Cine's Pandora Box or something and saw so many necklaces tt i would love to own. No in fact, there are so many necklaces tt i love in cine itself. I still wan a 1 or 2 gb sd card and my mp3 player batt but tt comes later, or u can get it for me for xmas. Haha.
My perfume is running but my sis is getting for me. So happy.
Getting my pay tis thurs. I feel like going on a shopping spree, been so long since i last done tt. Recently i spent all my money on food and alcohol. Sigh. Lol.
Went to Taste Paradise the other day. And spent 100 bucks each... But im still glad i went there, after so long. Though it burnt a hole in my pocket.
I wan to spend some money to pamper myself, but then if i no job then how? Sigh, i noe i need to haf some money to tide myself over a certain period. But then my high expenses isnt going to help, and i haf no intention of making myself miserable by cooping myself at home everyday.
I jus wan to make myself happy, tts y i spent all those money. I do not wish to feel restricted at tis pt of time (when i am having a difficult time) jus coz i haf to think of so many things and stop myself fr going/eating at some places.
I just wan to go wif the flow now. I dun wan to be so hard on myself and make the already very miserable me even more miserable.
I feel like getting some things for myself.
1) 1 pair of jeans in blue (i only haf 1 in black now)
2) New heels - white, black, gold, green, pink (all my shoes wearing n tearing n smelling n dirtying, basically at risk of falling apart any second)
3) New clothes
4) Earrings (ive stopped wearing earrings, i need new ones, big long ones and those big retro kind)
5) Moisturisor (it ran out)
But be4 all tt, i need to dye my hair and haf a hair cut. I haven decided on the hair style though, headache. The colors i haf the idea, jus not so sure whether or not accepted at work. Lol. It might also hinder my job search but I wan a change.
I will not quit my job now, i will stay till end of jan. But i might continue to stay there for awhile. I will hold out till all of them leave at least. So i will tahan till 30/01/07 then see how from there.
Marvin, Sheena, Daniel and Chris will be leaving early jan, Gim Fong and Keith near end of Jan. Wendy will be staying, thankfully on tt, at least i dun haf to lunch alone, and we sit next to each other somemore.
Not so sure abt Seraphine and Meng Feng and Ken. I guess they shd be sticking ard for awhile.
Sigh, but those tt are very close to me will be gone. And i only haf Wendy. Sobz. Ppl all leave at the end of the day, especially in customer service where turn over rate is as high as sales line.
Truth is ppl come and go at the time. Its ok lah, jus take it in my stride.
If i can, hope i can survive here for awhile and then take part time studies. After im done then i can leave for greener pasture le. But all these are merely words. It a miracle to even think i can stay till end March. But i will try. =)
Xmas is nearing and i still have not decided on wat to do wif SZ yet. We'll definately be together but do wat? Lol. See how lor. I wonder wats everyone doing for xmas.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Tough Week
Really wasted my mc on tues.
Went to newton wif my colleagues on wed. Like wat my colleague said, next time dun waste time organising anymore, coz its so sian anyways. Waste of time, jus e usual grp of us will do.
The food was bad for e stall we picked. Sigh. We then headed to ktv, opened a bottle of chivas, and had to do wif coke as mixer... Can u imagine, they only haf coke, green tea or tonic. Wat choice did we haf.
It was quite frustrating coz in a big grp, some only sing, some sing n drink alittle, some sing n drink alot, some no drink n no sing, some drink alot but no sing, how to settle e bill lidat.
Ended up there were some dispute, and its quite saddenin for one to even sms me, "next time wan to ask us pay, jus say, its not like we or i dun wan to pay"... Duhz, he totally misunderstood my words as usual. Its not like i haf any prob in asking them for money on behalf, its jus tt i haf no idea how to split the bill to be fair for all.
Ended up, my colleague offered to pay the whole 200 bucks bill coz he said every time tok abt money sure dispute, so he rather settle it. Tis is jus so not the right way.
Anyways, tt was history. I wun bring it up again. Anyways, our times together ending soon as well. 1 leaving tis dec, 3 leaving early jan, 1 leaving end jan, and e rest kiving the status. I am so going to miss a few of them.
How i wish the job could be more bearable so tt we could extend our time there. But in reality, things dun work tt way.
I tok to my ex colleague of my prev company. They are still interested in having me back and might be willing to wait till feb as well. I was tempted to say yes. But then again, i need to think it thru.
Quitting after my confirmation, i would need 1 mth's notice, and tt would leave it as march. Wait till tt long? I hardly think so. But I might not even get to wait till then, if they ask me to leave, it shd be ard jan. But tt would mean the paying back of money of coz.
On thurs, i met up wif kenneth and sz. Headed to bishan's dome, then cafe cartel then to amk's kbox. They were having 40% off everything coz it was duno wat anniversary celebration thingy. Not tt i care, coz i hate kbox. Their system, room, songs, tv, suck. But their service is gd though, and tts their only saving grace.
It was so boring can. And freezing and their systems and mic cock up so many times. The ktv was so boring even kenneth agreed. Luckily i decided to end it early, if not can die lor.
Kenneth's going india for 6 mths for exchange programme (his uni thingy). Wish him all the best and may he rtn safe n sound.
Then at night i was attacked by stomach cramps (gastric), it got very bad, the cramps come every 3-5 mins ard 4+am. I went to take a whole truckload of pills and the cramp slowed down to ard once every 15mins.
I headed to work on fri. Tried to work, but cant take the cramps, went to see doc, took e most painful jab ive ever taken. Doc said the jab will stop the spasms. But apparently, it was all crap.
I came back to work for abt an hr, i couldnt take it anymore, and had to leave. Yes, i took mc. Wasted half of my day working. Coz in the end, i got to pay back a full day's pay. Can it get any worst.
While i was away seeing doc, i saw my shitty cases bounched to another 2 colleagues. Sigh, i haf no idea wat will happen after i leave. But my colleagues said fortunately they r leaving together or be4 me anyways. Lol.
4 mcs altogether, sobz. 1 in dec though. Abt $300 bucks. Will try not to mc anymore.
I am still sick, can feel my stomach very wounded... Its still painful. No appetite to read also. Sigh. And now my digestive system cant retain or digest food. So wat goes in comes out, u noe wat i mean.
Tmr mon le... Full 5 days of working, provided if i dun work on sat though.
Must tahan!!! 1.5 weeks left to pay day. So broke now. Sobz.
Oh, my monitor died on my yest night. Got a new one today. LG LCD 17 inch, $200+. I really cant live without my pc. Was so happy to see it alive again.
Hope i feel better tmr.
Take care all of u.
Went to newton wif my colleagues on wed. Like wat my colleague said, next time dun waste time organising anymore, coz its so sian anyways. Waste of time, jus e usual grp of us will do.
The food was bad for e stall we picked. Sigh. We then headed to ktv, opened a bottle of chivas, and had to do wif coke as mixer... Can u imagine, they only haf coke, green tea or tonic. Wat choice did we haf.
It was quite frustrating coz in a big grp, some only sing, some sing n drink alittle, some sing n drink alot, some no drink n no sing, some drink alot but no sing, how to settle e bill lidat.
Ended up there were some dispute, and its quite saddenin for one to even sms me, "next time wan to ask us pay, jus say, its not like we or i dun wan to pay"... Duhz, he totally misunderstood my words as usual. Its not like i haf any prob in asking them for money on behalf, its jus tt i haf no idea how to split the bill to be fair for all.
Ended up, my colleague offered to pay the whole 200 bucks bill coz he said every time tok abt money sure dispute, so he rather settle it. Tis is jus so not the right way.
Anyways, tt was history. I wun bring it up again. Anyways, our times together ending soon as well. 1 leaving tis dec, 3 leaving early jan, 1 leaving end jan, and e rest kiving the status. I am so going to miss a few of them.
How i wish the job could be more bearable so tt we could extend our time there. But in reality, things dun work tt way.
I tok to my ex colleague of my prev company. They are still interested in having me back and might be willing to wait till feb as well. I was tempted to say yes. But then again, i need to think it thru.
Quitting after my confirmation, i would need 1 mth's notice, and tt would leave it as march. Wait till tt long? I hardly think so. But I might not even get to wait till then, if they ask me to leave, it shd be ard jan. But tt would mean the paying back of money of coz.
On thurs, i met up wif kenneth and sz. Headed to bishan's dome, then cafe cartel then to amk's kbox. They were having 40% off everything coz it was duno wat anniversary celebration thingy. Not tt i care, coz i hate kbox. Their system, room, songs, tv, suck. But their service is gd though, and tts their only saving grace.
It was so boring can. And freezing and their systems and mic cock up so many times. The ktv was so boring even kenneth agreed. Luckily i decided to end it early, if not can die lor.
Kenneth's going india for 6 mths for exchange programme (his uni thingy). Wish him all the best and may he rtn safe n sound.
Then at night i was attacked by stomach cramps (gastric), it got very bad, the cramps come every 3-5 mins ard 4+am. I went to take a whole truckload of pills and the cramp slowed down to ard once every 15mins.
I headed to work on fri. Tried to work, but cant take the cramps, went to see doc, took e most painful jab ive ever taken. Doc said the jab will stop the spasms. But apparently, it was all crap.
I came back to work for abt an hr, i couldnt take it anymore, and had to leave. Yes, i took mc. Wasted half of my day working. Coz in the end, i got to pay back a full day's pay. Can it get any worst.
While i was away seeing doc, i saw my shitty cases bounched to another 2 colleagues. Sigh, i haf no idea wat will happen after i leave. But my colleagues said fortunately they r leaving together or be4 me anyways. Lol.
4 mcs altogether, sobz. 1 in dec though. Abt $300 bucks. Will try not to mc anymore.
I am still sick, can feel my stomach very wounded... Its still painful. No appetite to read also. Sigh. And now my digestive system cant retain or digest food. So wat goes in comes out, u noe wat i mean.
Tmr mon le... Full 5 days of working, provided if i dun work on sat though.
Must tahan!!! 1.5 weeks left to pay day. So broke now. Sobz.
Oh, my monitor died on my yest night. Got a new one today. LG LCD 17 inch, $200+. I really cant live without my pc. Was so happy to see it alive again.
Hope i feel better tmr.
Take care all of u.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
I MC Today
Had a stressful monday, duno y though every mon was bz as usual, but the supervisors made it worst by creating a pressurizing n irritating mood. The whole ambience for tt day was tensed n awful. Wasnt easy for everyone.
Went for dinner at Village afterwards. Then to ktv. Wanted to keep it non alcohol, coz ive been drinking too much lately. I told my frenz i will not drink for the next 18 days till my next pay and every laughed. And i so happened to already drink on the 1st day. Lol.
But i didnt exactly go drinking though we did drank, but it was like jus a few bottles. And we had no mood, didnt even bother to finish the last drink and left. We also left early for e ktv. Decided to take mc today wif my colleague though we didnt reach home too late, was still ard 12+am. But lazed ard till 2am.
Wanted to keep e mc till tis thurs coz i had plans. But i was feelin quite sian. And my colleague shared e same sentiments.
Got test tmr as well, sian. Supposed to be today but i mc so got to take it tmr. Got 2 tests tis week, duno y they decided to torture us recently. But i organised a dinner trip to newton after work. Thinking of tt also sian. Grp of 9. Sian. But i cannot dun go, coz if i dun go, it will be cancelled as usual. I dun go some others will drop out also. I had to hold them together. Lol.
Abit wasteful today's mc. Coz i seriously prefer thurs de. But sian to go today also.
3 mcs tis mth le, $240. Urgh, nvm.
16 days more to payday. Hope i dun get fired. Lol.
My sis is downloading naruto from epi 1 to watch. My gawd.
Fruits basket is coming to a end, the last chapter. And i hate the ending.
I got over the deathnote anime coz its exactly e same anyways, and i dun like to wait one epi after one epi after one epi.
Recently no gd movies to watch also. Sian.
Inuyasha manga shd also end soon, its nv ending.
Hunter X Hunter duno will continue or not. Duno wat will happen to the characters.
Bleach, sigh. Nvm.
Tired leh. Though i slpt quite abit, but i got a feeling i wun be able to slp tonight. Haha. C how lor. Sian. Gotta work tmr. Sobz. Who will save me???
Went for dinner at Village afterwards. Then to ktv. Wanted to keep it non alcohol, coz ive been drinking too much lately. I told my frenz i will not drink for the next 18 days till my next pay and every laughed. And i so happened to already drink on the 1st day. Lol.
But i didnt exactly go drinking though we did drank, but it was like jus a few bottles. And we had no mood, didnt even bother to finish the last drink and left. We also left early for e ktv. Decided to take mc today wif my colleague though we didnt reach home too late, was still ard 12+am. But lazed ard till 2am.
Wanted to keep e mc till tis thurs coz i had plans. But i was feelin quite sian. And my colleague shared e same sentiments.
Got test tmr as well, sian. Supposed to be today but i mc so got to take it tmr. Got 2 tests tis week, duno y they decided to torture us recently. But i organised a dinner trip to newton after work. Thinking of tt also sian. Grp of 9. Sian. But i cannot dun go, coz if i dun go, it will be cancelled as usual. I dun go some others will drop out also. I had to hold them together. Lol.
Abit wasteful today's mc. Coz i seriously prefer thurs de. But sian to go today also.
3 mcs tis mth le, $240. Urgh, nvm.
16 days more to payday. Hope i dun get fired. Lol.
My sis is downloading naruto from epi 1 to watch. My gawd.
Fruits basket is coming to a end, the last chapter. And i hate the ending.
I got over the deathnote anime coz its exactly e same anyways, and i dun like to wait one epi after one epi after one epi.
Recently no gd movies to watch also. Sian.
Inuyasha manga shd also end soon, its nv ending.
Hunter X Hunter duno will continue or not. Duno wat will happen to the characters.
Bleach, sigh. Nvm.
Tired leh. Though i slpt quite abit, but i got a feeling i wun be able to slp tonight. Haha. C how lor. Sian. Gotta work tmr. Sobz. Who will save me???
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Rain Of Glass
I guess i will not quit end of tis yr at the end of e day, might even be able to pull thru my confirmation, but tts if im strong enuff, otherwise it will be byebye jan07.
Not like its so easy anyways, dec n jan r 2 crucial mths for e company to ask u 2 leave. We wouldnt get any bonus if they ask us to leave any day next mth, n u would jus wonder y e hell u tolerated all e crap n shit for.
Unless i noe e exact kind of jobs to look for next n actually make myself do it, i will jus bump ard in tis job 1st though its going to be super lonely coz they r all leaving...
I am rather close wif some of them, and though im trying not to get attached to them, things jus happened. And i noe becoz of tt i will feel sad when they leave but hey, tts life. Nothin is forever. I kinda like some of them though we didnt spend alot of time together. Some r nice n sweet at times, while some r... nvm...
I also need to noe whether will i be able to survive without them after they left. I wan to noe how far i can tolerate in tt circumstance. If i cant i'll jus leave as well. But at least a few will still be ard though, so its not tt bad i guess.
They hired another batch of newbies. Its kinda strange n amazing at the same time how many ppl came n left. Its like u will wonder how many ppl actually worked in tis co. be4. Lol
Coz of my work location, it jus so happened one day me n colleague hopped to acid bar on a sudden decision and ive been hangin ard there ever since. I did try to stop going there last week, lol, coz its drying my bank. But i went there again twice tis week.
And every time i go there, i will definately bring a new person there.
Yest i brought SZ there, then saw Kenneth who i reprimanded for not contacting me for 1.5 yrs. Lol. He was wif a grp of frenz, Jiayi, Sheena, Salley, Meiyue.
Oh and then something happened also. The customers above me knocked the glass off the table, shattered and rained directly on me. I was shock and the bar froze. Everyone working there was very worried but fortunately i wasnt injured.
It was all within a split second, i heard glass shattering and the next moment i realised i was showered by the glass pieces. I touched my hair and dropped the pieces. Its not the bar's fault. And they haf been very nice to me as well. It jus e dumb customers who didnt even apologise sincerely.
I was still very nice n polite n i did not pursue at all. I was in a gd mood. So i jus let it be.
Will be meeting Kenneth wif SZ again tis comin thurs coz hes leaving for India in dec for half a yr.
Start of a new week again. 6 days of ... Sigh, nvm i will not think abt it.
Not like its so easy anyways, dec n jan r 2 crucial mths for e company to ask u 2 leave. We wouldnt get any bonus if they ask us to leave any day next mth, n u would jus wonder y e hell u tolerated all e crap n shit for.
Unless i noe e exact kind of jobs to look for next n actually make myself do it, i will jus bump ard in tis job 1st though its going to be super lonely coz they r all leaving...
I am rather close wif some of them, and though im trying not to get attached to them, things jus happened. And i noe becoz of tt i will feel sad when they leave but hey, tts life. Nothin is forever. I kinda like some of them though we didnt spend alot of time together. Some r nice n sweet at times, while some r... nvm...
I also need to noe whether will i be able to survive without them after they left. I wan to noe how far i can tolerate in tt circumstance. If i cant i'll jus leave as well. But at least a few will still be ard though, so its not tt bad i guess.
They hired another batch of newbies. Its kinda strange n amazing at the same time how many ppl came n left. Its like u will wonder how many ppl actually worked in tis co. be4. Lol
Coz of my work location, it jus so happened one day me n colleague hopped to acid bar on a sudden decision and ive been hangin ard there ever since. I did try to stop going there last week, lol, coz its drying my bank. But i went there again twice tis week.
And every time i go there, i will definately bring a new person there.
Yest i brought SZ there, then saw Kenneth who i reprimanded for not contacting me for 1.5 yrs. Lol. He was wif a grp of frenz, Jiayi, Sheena, Salley, Meiyue.
Oh and then something happened also. The customers above me knocked the glass off the table, shattered and rained directly on me. I was shock and the bar froze. Everyone working there was very worried but fortunately i wasnt injured.
It was all within a split second, i heard glass shattering and the next moment i realised i was showered by the glass pieces. I touched my hair and dropped the pieces. Its not the bar's fault. And they haf been very nice to me as well. It jus e dumb customers who didnt even apologise sincerely.
I was still very nice n polite n i did not pursue at all. I was in a gd mood. So i jus let it be.
Will be meeting Kenneth wif SZ again tis comin thurs coz hes leaving for India in dec for half a yr.
Start of a new week again. 6 days of ... Sigh, nvm i will not think abt it.
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Tuesday Bluez
Yo yoz. Surprise surprise...
I am so tired but i dun feel like slpin. Duno y leh. I noe if i now jus rest myself alittle i would fall aslp immediately... But i dun wan to. Dun wan my night to jus go lidat. I am mad i noe.
Strangely, i developed tuesday bluez after tis job. Somehow tues seemed to be so much more miserable than mons which of coz doesnt seem to be tt way for the rest. Perhaps like one of my colleagues who mentioned, its due to my retardation. lol.
But really mah, mon still ok de lor, but tues is like shit lor. Mon i very hyper de though lack of slp. But tues i am like dead fish.
Today, forgetting tt it was tues and i was in gd mood. I went wif a very goofy mood. Actually i noe where tt goofiness came fr lah, jus tt i wun say it here...
I was happy and filled wif energy. But then hor, when it came to lunch time, my energy suddenly all drained away. Lol. I found it very hard to concentrate and time crawled. I told tt colleague who said i am retarded tt i no mood, and he said, of coz mah, its tues for u...
YA HOR~ Hahahahah...
I feel like mc-ing again, but then last week i jus took one leh... 80 bucks leh... Sigh...
But cannot take it liao...
So sian sian sian... I went to eat outside jus now and bought some things too. Tok abt saving money, sigh. But i didnt drink hor, though i did alittle on sat. But it was jus a harmless bottle.
I tried to organise another grp outin for my colleagues. Bringing 11 ppl together is so tiring lor... If not for others i wun do it de. Though tentatively its set on next wed or thurs, and 4 haven replied me yet.
U may ask y i so urgent, coz if i ask them tmr, cfm no replies de. I noe their dead patterns inside out. Took me whole night to at least get some answers lor. But it was abt 65% so i am happy.
I still haf not thot of where to eat though. Lazy to think now. And they also no ideas de.
One new guy (Daniel) smsed me, asking if i was leaving soon then wan to gather up coz it was so sudden. I told him i did think of leaving but trying hard to hold back. I think i can tolerate bah... U think?
Ok lah, think i go sleep le... Gotta wake at 5am... Sian...
Can i mc?
Sigh...
I am so tired but i dun feel like slpin. Duno y leh. I noe if i now jus rest myself alittle i would fall aslp immediately... But i dun wan to. Dun wan my night to jus go lidat. I am mad i noe.
Strangely, i developed tuesday bluez after tis job. Somehow tues seemed to be so much more miserable than mons which of coz doesnt seem to be tt way for the rest. Perhaps like one of my colleagues who mentioned, its due to my retardation. lol.
But really mah, mon still ok de lor, but tues is like shit lor. Mon i very hyper de though lack of slp. But tues i am like dead fish.
Today, forgetting tt it was tues and i was in gd mood. I went wif a very goofy mood. Actually i noe where tt goofiness came fr lah, jus tt i wun say it here...
I was happy and filled wif energy. But then hor, when it came to lunch time, my energy suddenly all drained away. Lol. I found it very hard to concentrate and time crawled. I told tt colleague who said i am retarded tt i no mood, and he said, of coz mah, its tues for u...
YA HOR~ Hahahahah...
I feel like mc-ing again, but then last week i jus took one leh... 80 bucks leh... Sigh...
But cannot take it liao...
So sian sian sian... I went to eat outside jus now and bought some things too. Tok abt saving money, sigh. But i didnt drink hor, though i did alittle on sat. But it was jus a harmless bottle.
I tried to organise another grp outin for my colleagues. Bringing 11 ppl together is so tiring lor... If not for others i wun do it de. Though tentatively its set on next wed or thurs, and 4 haven replied me yet.
U may ask y i so urgent, coz if i ask them tmr, cfm no replies de. I noe their dead patterns inside out. Took me whole night to at least get some answers lor. But it was abt 65% so i am happy.
I still haf not thot of where to eat though. Lazy to think now. And they also no ideas de.
One new guy (Daniel) smsed me, asking if i was leaving soon then wan to gather up coz it was so sudden. I told him i did think of leaving but trying hard to hold back. I think i can tolerate bah... U think?
Ok lah, think i go sleep le... Gotta wake at 5am... Sian...
Can i mc?
Sigh...
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Congrats! Congrats!
Congrats to me~~~ *throws confetti all ard* But tis is no happy post.
Ive finally survived the 3 mths agency bond in my current job. 18 Nov was my official 3 mth, and i cancelled my OT on tt sat coz i knew i couldnt take it anymore.
It might haf been a very short time for most of u, but not so for me. Its been a long haul. It felt more like 6 mths.
Nevertheless, i am proud to haf endured through tis 3 mths of torment. *GIVES MYSELF A BIG PAT ON MY BACK (LUCKY I CAN STILL REACH.)*
I had on so many occasions when i just wanted to disappear from work, reach home, type my resignation and throw it on my manager's desk. Though its nothing to do wif her. But the frustration made me lost my mind on so many occasions.
I became more n more nasty. Having to deal with horrible and nasty ppl every day... If i continue in tis job for any longer. I would most prob becum cold, sian and heartless. Which in a way is wat i wan and dun wan to becum. Dun get it? Nvm. Tts jus me.
I intended to quit end of tis mth, coz i already had advanced pay, if i leave now i haf to retn them alot of money. But it would be quite silly at tis pt coz to endure another mth, i would get pro-rated bonus, which is like abt 300+... I dun really care abt e money, wats 300+ for another mth of mental torture, but its jus dumb to leave now...
I noe i haf not blogged for so long, blogger prompted me for my user id and i forgot wats tt. Lol.
Cross my heart, I had really genuinely wanted to stay in tis job for 1-2 yrs. At least to make it more stable coz none of my jobs ive held previously for the past 3 yrs lasted more than 3 mths... Sounds like a useless, spoilt person toking, but who cares. If i explained in details which i wun, u noe its not my fault and i am not procrastinating nor am i in self denial mode.
Being in the job itself got tougher each day. Recently, it became so boring. I narrowed from 2 yrs plan to 1 yr, to jus cross my confirmation which is 6 mths, to after dec, to tis mth.
It wasnt easy.
I am abit stubborn though, i wan to leave, but i feel fucked up to pay them back my mcs. Coz our mcs are unpaid leave. I took one in oct, and i paid back. Tis mth though they changed the system, i took 2 mcs which is like 160 bucks. So if i leave before 6 mths, i would haf to pay alot of money back... And in a way, i am not willing to do so.
However, its not easy to survive till 18 feb 07 which happen to my chinese new yr which also happened to be my gd fren, SZ's bday.
But watever, they might even jus fire me before the end. And hire a bunch of newbies. Its already 12 new ppl after my batch, and abt the same no. of ppl left & fired as well during tis period of time.
If i strangely, magically managed to survive till feb, i would most prob jus stay till end of next yr. Though its going to be very lonely coz everyone i knew will be gone by jan. But i highly doubt so as well, since the last time they cfm someone is like 2 yrs back. And unless i stumbled upon some numbing potion, its unimaginable to even think tt i will stay till then.
Sigh. But i am trying my best u noe. I gave my best le. It took me alot of strength to tahan tis 3 mths u noe.
My prev company wanted me back, but its hard for me to retn u noe. But tts even harder to start everything all over again. And seriously i haf no idea wat to look for or rather i haf lost the confidence in looking for another one, fearing all the jobs would end up like the ones ive had for the past yrs again.
I of coz understand tt jobs r jobs, most of the time, they r fucked up and we had to endure it and we at the end of the day still haf to earn a living, especially when we all haf so much commitmts.
But if i forever think tis way, and stick to watever shit im facing. I will nv be able to break away fr tis.
Though i haf no idea how much time ive left in tis world, but i noe i shdnt jus stop here. At least its still easier for me to continue searching in hope of finding where i wan to go then to do it 10 yrs later.
I wan to leave le. But i mus tahan. Must ren till jan... But if i can ren till next jan i might as well cross my confirmation right, or wait till they fire me (fire u = ask u to leave = no compensatn btw).
I very scared to go work tmr... I haf 1 big shitty case, caused by one dumb counter staff who screwed tis cust. And now i got to clear tt stupid girl's shit. I hope she gets wat she deserved. Coz i am so going to complain abt her after hopefully i managed to resolve e case tmr.
I haf 2 small shit cases to follow up also.
Sian sian sian sian...
Oh and i am kinda broke until the next pay which is 4 weeks away. Urgh.
See how lor, maybe for next 2 weeks or so, i go supermarket buy bread and make sandwich everyday to eat.
And i shall not go drinking nor eat at fancy restaurants. But see how lah. Lol.
I plan to come back straight after work for next 2 weeks, to save money and eat maggie mee. But 1st i would need to go and buy maggie mee 1st... Lol.
But if i dun go out haf fun hor, i would feel even worst lor. Hmmmmmmmmm...
Ok lah, i blog another time le. Soon, i hope.
Ive finally survived the 3 mths agency bond in my current job. 18 Nov was my official 3 mth, and i cancelled my OT on tt sat coz i knew i couldnt take it anymore.
It might haf been a very short time for most of u, but not so for me. Its been a long haul. It felt more like 6 mths.
Nevertheless, i am proud to haf endured through tis 3 mths of torment. *GIVES MYSELF A BIG PAT ON MY BACK (LUCKY I CAN STILL REACH.)*
I had on so many occasions when i just wanted to disappear from work, reach home, type my resignation and throw it on my manager's desk. Though its nothing to do wif her. But the frustration made me lost my mind on so many occasions.
I became more n more nasty. Having to deal with horrible and nasty ppl every day... If i continue in tis job for any longer. I would most prob becum cold, sian and heartless. Which in a way is wat i wan and dun wan to becum. Dun get it? Nvm. Tts jus me.
I intended to quit end of tis mth, coz i already had advanced pay, if i leave now i haf to retn them alot of money. But it would be quite silly at tis pt coz to endure another mth, i would get pro-rated bonus, which is like abt 300+... I dun really care abt e money, wats 300+ for another mth of mental torture, but its jus dumb to leave now...
I noe i haf not blogged for so long, blogger prompted me for my user id and i forgot wats tt. Lol.
Cross my heart, I had really genuinely wanted to stay in tis job for 1-2 yrs. At least to make it more stable coz none of my jobs ive held previously for the past 3 yrs lasted more than 3 mths... Sounds like a useless, spoilt person toking, but who cares. If i explained in details which i wun, u noe its not my fault and i am not procrastinating nor am i in self denial mode.
Being in the job itself got tougher each day. Recently, it became so boring. I narrowed from 2 yrs plan to 1 yr, to jus cross my confirmation which is 6 mths, to after dec, to tis mth.
It wasnt easy.
I am abit stubborn though, i wan to leave, but i feel fucked up to pay them back my mcs. Coz our mcs are unpaid leave. I took one in oct, and i paid back. Tis mth though they changed the system, i took 2 mcs which is like 160 bucks. So if i leave before 6 mths, i would haf to pay alot of money back... And in a way, i am not willing to do so.
However, its not easy to survive till 18 feb 07 which happen to my chinese new yr which also happened to be my gd fren, SZ's bday.
But watever, they might even jus fire me before the end. And hire a bunch of newbies. Its already 12 new ppl after my batch, and abt the same no. of ppl left & fired as well during tis period of time.
If i strangely, magically managed to survive till feb, i would most prob jus stay till end of next yr. Though its going to be very lonely coz everyone i knew will be gone by jan. But i highly doubt so as well, since the last time they cfm someone is like 2 yrs back. And unless i stumbled upon some numbing potion, its unimaginable to even think tt i will stay till then.
Sigh. But i am trying my best u noe. I gave my best le. It took me alot of strength to tahan tis 3 mths u noe.
My prev company wanted me back, but its hard for me to retn u noe. But tts even harder to start everything all over again. And seriously i haf no idea wat to look for or rather i haf lost the confidence in looking for another one, fearing all the jobs would end up like the ones ive had for the past yrs again.
I of coz understand tt jobs r jobs, most of the time, they r fucked up and we had to endure it and we at the end of the day still haf to earn a living, especially when we all haf so much commitmts.
But if i forever think tis way, and stick to watever shit im facing. I will nv be able to break away fr tis.
Though i haf no idea how much time ive left in tis world, but i noe i shdnt jus stop here. At least its still easier for me to continue searching in hope of finding where i wan to go then to do it 10 yrs later.
I wan to leave le. But i mus tahan. Must ren till jan... But if i can ren till next jan i might as well cross my confirmation right, or wait till they fire me (fire u = ask u to leave = no compensatn btw).
I very scared to go work tmr... I haf 1 big shitty case, caused by one dumb counter staff who screwed tis cust. And now i got to clear tt stupid girl's shit. I hope she gets wat she deserved. Coz i am so going to complain abt her after hopefully i managed to resolve e case tmr.
I haf 2 small shit cases to follow up also.
Sian sian sian sian...
Oh and i am kinda broke until the next pay which is 4 weeks away. Urgh.
See how lor, maybe for next 2 weeks or so, i go supermarket buy bread and make sandwich everyday to eat.
And i shall not go drinking nor eat at fancy restaurants. But see how lah. Lol.
I plan to come back straight after work for next 2 weeks, to save money and eat maggie mee. But 1st i would need to go and buy maggie mee 1st... Lol.
But if i dun go out haf fun hor, i would feel even worst lor. Hmmmmmmmmm...
Ok lah, i blog another time le. Soon, i hope.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Sank The Movie
Do not watch Sinking Of Japan, no matter wat u are enticed wif... I wasnt interested but still went wif my fren. It barely made it, i tolerated and did wanted to leave the cinema... I am amazed i managed to stay thru out the movie.
But of coz to add on top of tt, i went to the worst cinema (bugis) and the seats still sucks and i left wif motion sickness and a big giddiness and headache...
Wat abt the movie topping the charts in Japan, Korea and Hong Kong? Did the audience all went becoz of Kou Shibasaki and Shinji Higuchi?
I got a feeling the movie was jus a try out platform to showcase Japan's special effects... And i dare say the effects are pretty gd, pretty impressive, pretty real... Its interesting to see some parts of Japan underwater... Somehow reminds me of sharks tale.
But they spent so much time n effort on the CG, they forgot about the pacing and plot. I noe its from a famous novel, but they shd haf adapted the story better right...
Editing sucks in tis movie, often emotional scenes got cut off abruptly... And i was like WTF? Try to save screen time ar? Then cut down the effects shots lah... They all look the same wat...
And the sound hor, aiyo... Sucks as hell... No impact, the surround is like shit... Imagine natural disasters leh, the greatest opportunity to showcase sound effects skills but they failed miserably... I did not feel the impact at all...
I didnt even cry in tis movie... Coz the pacin is so slow till u wouldnt be able to follow the movie and all the emo scenes became so cheesy...
Imagine, when e couple knew they r going to separate the next day (forever), the girl actually ask e guy, "Can you make love to me?"... Then e guy bursts into tears for like 5 mins and replied, "I cant do it now..." Wa biangz...
I actually laughed out lor...
Sigh...
Duno isit i changed le or not... I seldom cry at movies anymore...
The guy beside me was so fed up he started smsing...
Even he cannot take it... Lol...
Anyways, i think some will still cry over e movie... But for the rest, dun waste ur time lah... Go watch Prestige... I wanna catch Flushed Away... Open next week, i am so excited...
Did i mentioned abt The Guardian? Watched it on mon night... The movie was alright, still watchable... Although the movie is very predictable. But during the bootcamp training damn funny, think guys will relish in it... I left feeling depressed too... Sad lor... But tis kind of movie like tis de lah.... Cfm got main characters die de...
But of coz to add on top of tt, i went to the worst cinema (bugis) and the seats still sucks and i left wif motion sickness and a big giddiness and headache...
Wat abt the movie topping the charts in Japan, Korea and Hong Kong? Did the audience all went becoz of Kou Shibasaki and Shinji Higuchi?
I got a feeling the movie was jus a try out platform to showcase Japan's special effects... And i dare say the effects are pretty gd, pretty impressive, pretty real... Its interesting to see some parts of Japan underwater... Somehow reminds me of sharks tale.
But they spent so much time n effort on the CG, they forgot about the pacing and plot. I noe its from a famous novel, but they shd haf adapted the story better right...
Editing sucks in tis movie, often emotional scenes got cut off abruptly... And i was like WTF? Try to save screen time ar? Then cut down the effects shots lah... They all look the same wat...
And the sound hor, aiyo... Sucks as hell... No impact, the surround is like shit... Imagine natural disasters leh, the greatest opportunity to showcase sound effects skills but they failed miserably... I did not feel the impact at all...
I didnt even cry in tis movie... Coz the pacin is so slow till u wouldnt be able to follow the movie and all the emo scenes became so cheesy...
Imagine, when e couple knew they r going to separate the next day (forever), the girl actually ask e guy, "Can you make love to me?"... Then e guy bursts into tears for like 5 mins and replied, "I cant do it now..." Wa biangz...
I actually laughed out lor...
Sigh...
Duno isit i changed le or not... I seldom cry at movies anymore...
The guy beside me was so fed up he started smsing...
Even he cannot take it... Lol...
Anyways, i think some will still cry over e movie... But for the rest, dun waste ur time lah... Go watch Prestige... I wanna catch Flushed Away... Open next week, i am so excited...
Did i mentioned abt The Guardian? Watched it on mon night... The movie was alright, still watchable... Although the movie is very predictable. But during the bootcamp training damn funny, think guys will relish in it... I left feeling depressed too... Sad lor... But tis kind of movie like tis de lah.... Cfm got main characters die de...
Sunday, October 22, 2006
OT Queen
I watched The Prestige last night and gawd, i love tt show. The plot is interesting and exciting. Alot of depth and i love the ways the script writer and editor overlap the story. Back and forth from the past and present. It makes me stay glued to the end... And not to mention the twists and turns of the truth...
Though the twists n turns werent something as original as Sixth Sense or The Others, but it certainly made its impact nonetheless... Although it didnt WOWed us, it certainly made the audience gasped...
The movie was so grey, it left me feeling heavy and unjustifiable... Pls dun watch it if u already noe the story, its very ptless tt way... The whole suspense of the movie is the truth... If u already noe the plot, u would sleep ur way thru e movie...
I just thot it was a simple rivalry battle between 2 magicians, i didnt expect there was so much more to the story... I am glad i insisted on watching tis instead of The Departed.
However, the movie certainly isnt for the less educated/intellectual or those who prefered comedies... Coz most probably you would haf fallen asleep within the 1st 30 mins... I wasnt expected it to be a heavy movie, so i went wif a tired body n mind and i was struggling keeping my eyes open...
But i had to, if you missed wat they said, it meaningless to stay on... Those who are more intelligent would haf also gotten more out of the movie and it would make a good discussion topic as it opened up alot of thots... Coz of all the subtleties of the underlaying messages... But for normal audience, it would jus be another quite interesting movie...
Its been quite some time since ive watched a movie of tis calibre. It felt more than 3 hrs instead of 2 hrs... Tts how much they made my brain work...
I am so not used to tis weekend, coz i didnt work yest... And the silly thing was, i didnt noe it was hol. If it wasnt for my colleagues, i would haf came to work yest 7+am... lol... And my ignornace became a joke the past week...
I work alt sats, but for the past 1 mth, i came back every OFF sat to do OT. On my own accord of coz, and obviously for the money... But also coz i jus wan to keep myself occupied although i am so drained wif all the over time...
I requested OT for tmr, wed and next sat (my off day) for next week... Coz tats the only 3 days they opened up for OT. I am now officially named the OT QUEEN in my office... Lol... Although i dun mind doing OT, but tt doesnt mean i enjoy it... I am certainly not looking forward to working 11.5 hrs tmr...
I am not sure how long would i be able to carry in tis job, so might as well make the most out of it... Besides, i haf to be happy tt my OT is being paid for as compared to the prev jobs i did... My HR knowing me, will always ask me if i can help wif OT whenever they needed more manpower...
Most of the time i would always give a green light, but i told them jus make sure the company pays me... Hahahaha...
I guess i shd be able to clear most of my things very soon... And then i would blog as usual... Besides, we just hired 7 new ppl, i doubt i will haf any chance to do OT after tis...
Tmr the malays in my office would be having half day offs... So we can all already predict its going to be a hell day tmr, since we also noe alot of ppl will be taking "mc" tmr...
I jus hope ppl dun call up coz its holidays for gawd sake. Pls be nice...
And envy those of u whos offing tmr also...
Alright, shall end here. Back to my chores...
Though the twists n turns werent something as original as Sixth Sense or The Others, but it certainly made its impact nonetheless... Although it didnt WOWed us, it certainly made the audience gasped...
The movie was so grey, it left me feeling heavy and unjustifiable... Pls dun watch it if u already noe the story, its very ptless tt way... The whole suspense of the movie is the truth... If u already noe the plot, u would sleep ur way thru e movie...
I just thot it was a simple rivalry battle between 2 magicians, i didnt expect there was so much more to the story... I am glad i insisted on watching tis instead of The Departed.
However, the movie certainly isnt for the less educated/intellectual or those who prefered comedies... Coz most probably you would haf fallen asleep within the 1st 30 mins... I wasnt expected it to be a heavy movie, so i went wif a tired body n mind and i was struggling keeping my eyes open...
But i had to, if you missed wat they said, it meaningless to stay on... Those who are more intelligent would haf also gotten more out of the movie and it would make a good discussion topic as it opened up alot of thots... Coz of all the subtleties of the underlaying messages... But for normal audience, it would jus be another quite interesting movie...
Its been quite some time since ive watched a movie of tis calibre. It felt more than 3 hrs instead of 2 hrs... Tts how much they made my brain work...
I am so not used to tis weekend, coz i didnt work yest... And the silly thing was, i didnt noe it was hol. If it wasnt for my colleagues, i would haf came to work yest 7+am... lol... And my ignornace became a joke the past week...
I work alt sats, but for the past 1 mth, i came back every OFF sat to do OT. On my own accord of coz, and obviously for the money... But also coz i jus wan to keep myself occupied although i am so drained wif all the over time...
I requested OT for tmr, wed and next sat (my off day) for next week... Coz tats the only 3 days they opened up for OT. I am now officially named the OT QUEEN in my office... Lol... Although i dun mind doing OT, but tt doesnt mean i enjoy it... I am certainly not looking forward to working 11.5 hrs tmr...
I am not sure how long would i be able to carry in tis job, so might as well make the most out of it... Besides, i haf to be happy tt my OT is being paid for as compared to the prev jobs i did... My HR knowing me, will always ask me if i can help wif OT whenever they needed more manpower...
Most of the time i would always give a green light, but i told them jus make sure the company pays me... Hahahaha...
I guess i shd be able to clear most of my things very soon... And then i would blog as usual... Besides, we just hired 7 new ppl, i doubt i will haf any chance to do OT after tis...
Tmr the malays in my office would be having half day offs... So we can all already predict its going to be a hell day tmr, since we also noe alot of ppl will be taking "mc" tmr...
I jus hope ppl dun call up coz its holidays for gawd sake. Pls be nice...
And envy those of u whos offing tmr also...
Alright, shall end here. Back to my chores...
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
DEATH NOTE ANIME
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG...
DEATH NOTE ANIME OUT ALREADY!!!
Just watched e 1st 2 epi... OMG OMG OMG...
SZ, go watch, the real KIRA... Not e movie one... The original one...
OMG OMG OMG...
My heart was pounding, was so excited seeing the manga story come alive...
My new colleague told me de, i didnt even noe came out liao...
OMG OMG OMG OMG...
Okok, enuff of my excitement... E rest of u can catch the movie though... Tok about tis another time...
Seriously they shd haf done tis many yrs back...
DEATH NOTE ANIME OUT ALREADY!!!
Just watched e 1st 2 epi... OMG OMG OMG...
SZ, go watch, the real KIRA... Not e movie one... The original one...
OMG OMG OMG...
My heart was pounding, was so excited seeing the manga story come alive...
My new colleague told me de, i didnt even noe came out liao...
OMG OMG OMG OMG...
Okok, enuff of my excitement... E rest of u can catch the movie though... Tok about tis another time...
Seriously they shd haf done tis many yrs back...
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Updates
I am still sick, and ive not recovered... It may be due to the haze, or it may be just myself.
I haf not used my pc for the past week, coz my house's going thru the upgrading and u cant imagine e mess, dust, dust, dust and more dust. Sent my dog to pet hotel and burnt a hole in my pocket... It was very sad when hes not ard... Took him back yest and its hard not to get him stepping onto the dusty forbidden areas which formed e majority of the house.
My fish had comitted suicide. She paralysed herself, and couldnt get up to eat. And thus, after 6 days, she finally starved herself to death. Rest in peace, wu fu... She had been wif us for many yrs, exceeding her own lifespan. And i am glad shes gone to a better place.
Im online today, coz no choice i got to type a small report coz i got no time to do in the office. But im kinda lazy and unfit to do it now also u see. Alright lazy is the main reason.
Watever, next week the upgrading still continues... After i forced myself to start my report, and cover my pc wif dirty n dusty blankets, i am going to say byebye for another week. Hopefully the project finishes on time. Coz i miss my air con, normal toilets, warm water shower and my usual life...
Cya next week.
I haf not used my pc for the past week, coz my house's going thru the upgrading and u cant imagine e mess, dust, dust, dust and more dust. Sent my dog to pet hotel and burnt a hole in my pocket... It was very sad when hes not ard... Took him back yest and its hard not to get him stepping onto the dusty forbidden areas which formed e majority of the house.
My fish had comitted suicide. She paralysed herself, and couldnt get up to eat. And thus, after 6 days, she finally starved herself to death. Rest in peace, wu fu... She had been wif us for many yrs, exceeding her own lifespan. And i am glad shes gone to a better place.
Im online today, coz no choice i got to type a small report coz i got no time to do in the office. But im kinda lazy and unfit to do it now also u see. Alright lazy is the main reason.
Watever, next week the upgrading still continues... After i forced myself to start my report, and cover my pc wif dirty n dusty blankets, i am going to say byebye for another week. Hopefully the project finishes on time. Coz i miss my air con, normal toilets, warm water shower and my usual life...
Cya next week.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Ill >>> iLL
I have fallen ill again... Like, wats new right.
Anyways, its saddening to see my blog abandoned. But i really haf either no time or no energy. Yest was supposed to be my off day. But due to shortage of manpower now, i went back to do 5 hrs of OT. i would have done another 3 hrs if i have not arranged to meet up wif SZ.
Ive been clocking OT alot lately, now got chance then do lor... After they hired more ppl, wan to do also dun haf le. And i better earn more while i can be4 they fire me.
Tmr i will be working from 730am-7pm... Sigh... I dun even wan to think about it.
My job has been on the rocks lately. But tts all im going to say for now. It only makes me feel yet again, tt all my efforts n e hard work i put in, though more than anyone else, is jus me being plain stupid. Then again, when was it justisfiable or appreciated anyways.
I will be changing seats tmr. Hopefully at a new place, things will turn for the better, i hope.
My mum said ive been too tired, tts y i kept falling sick, and not recovering...
Oh, did i mentioned i went to play tennis wif my colleague and i fell on tues? I fell and grazed and bruised myself during the 1st ball. Then i realised i was playing too serious... Lol. I only realised how painful it was after i went back...
Showering was a big challenge. Not to mention climbin stairs and walking...
My house from tues till next next fri, 10 days, will be going thru e upgrading... Sigh, no toilets to use... Duno how... And not yet finished somemore, think next yr they come back do the kitchen additional room or something... So meanwhile cant cook too. They will be tearing down our kitchen cabinet, up till the stove area... Its gonna be very messy. Not to even mention the reconstruction of the 2 toilets...
My family had a big quarrel today. Resulted in my mum display her unhappiness living here and my sis asking my mum to leave. So e conclusion was to sell away tis house 2 yrs later, money split between them both and everyone separate their own ways...
Sigh... Looks like i am really going to carry on renting rooms for a long time. If tts e case, most prob i will give up my degree. I dun think i can earn enuff to cover all the commitments... Then again, when we separate, how am i going to bring my son wif me. Ive not encountered any landlords who allow their tenant to cook pets...
Besides, hes goin to be trapped in e room for his whole lifetime. Its gonna be very miserable and i dun wan him to go thru the kind of life tt i am going to.
See how lah... Theres still some time... Shall see.
Anyways, its saddening to see my blog abandoned. But i really haf either no time or no energy. Yest was supposed to be my off day. But due to shortage of manpower now, i went back to do 5 hrs of OT. i would have done another 3 hrs if i have not arranged to meet up wif SZ.
Ive been clocking OT alot lately, now got chance then do lor... After they hired more ppl, wan to do also dun haf le. And i better earn more while i can be4 they fire me.
Tmr i will be working from 730am-7pm... Sigh... I dun even wan to think about it.
My job has been on the rocks lately. But tts all im going to say for now. It only makes me feel yet again, tt all my efforts n e hard work i put in, though more than anyone else, is jus me being plain stupid. Then again, when was it justisfiable or appreciated anyways.
I will be changing seats tmr. Hopefully at a new place, things will turn for the better, i hope.
My mum said ive been too tired, tts y i kept falling sick, and not recovering...
Oh, did i mentioned i went to play tennis wif my colleague and i fell on tues? I fell and grazed and bruised myself during the 1st ball. Then i realised i was playing too serious... Lol. I only realised how painful it was after i went back...
Showering was a big challenge. Not to mention climbin stairs and walking...
My house from tues till next next fri, 10 days, will be going thru e upgrading... Sigh, no toilets to use... Duno how... And not yet finished somemore, think next yr they come back do the kitchen additional room or something... So meanwhile cant cook too. They will be tearing down our kitchen cabinet, up till the stove area... Its gonna be very messy. Not to even mention the reconstruction of the 2 toilets...
My family had a big quarrel today. Resulted in my mum display her unhappiness living here and my sis asking my mum to leave. So e conclusion was to sell away tis house 2 yrs later, money split between them both and everyone separate their own ways...
Sigh... Looks like i am really going to carry on renting rooms for a long time. If tts e case, most prob i will give up my degree. I dun think i can earn enuff to cover all the commitments... Then again, when we separate, how am i going to bring my son wif me. Ive not encountered any landlords who allow their tenant to cook pets...
Besides, hes goin to be trapped in e room for his whole lifetime. Its gonna be very miserable and i dun wan him to go thru the kind of life tt i am going to.
See how lah... Theres still some time... Shall see.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
A Quick One
Thot i shd blog abit, while waiting for my turn to shower...
I could haf blogged last weekend, coz sat i off, and SZ didnt date me... But then silly thing was, jus when i wanted to blog, my sis started to hog the pc to do her assignments... Oh well...
My beloved lunch buddy (colleague) had resigned... I am so sad... I haf no idea how to feel when the rest of them resigned... Sigh, but we r meeting for tennis after work tis coming tues, tts if nothing crops up... Gonna book it tmr.
I cant see very well today... Think i am too tired... Everything is so hazy and my eyes are closing, even if i am typing all these...
Last fri was my lunch buddy's last day... So i organised a farewell gathering after work, 9 of us went for dinner at mushroom pot and then ktv till 12 after tt... I was beat, still gotta work tmr u noe...
Yest i went for John Tucker Must Die movie... I bought 2 lipgloss, and got 2 voucher to exchange for 2 pearls in retn at Isetan. The guy will open the oysters in front of u, the whole place stinks, imagine it in e midst of Isetan... But its pretty amazing seeing him digging e pearl wif a knife out of e poor oyster's tummy... I haf not seen tis in real life be4...
I also bought a tennis skirt. Lol... I like 2, but only bought 1. Sad. Then we headed to Country Mana and then to esplanade. Managed to catch Juz B's performance at waterfront... Juz B's e malay grp from superband which i raved about... They sang a mixture of malay, chinese and english songs...
I still like one of the lead, so handsome...
We then headed to Marina Mandarin (my fav lounging area). Drank my fav drink Lycheetini or Lychee Martini so to speak... I only had a glass, budget u noe, budget... I haf tis thing tt i drink alcohol very fast, so u can imagine how tough it is for me to sip my drink for hrs... No idea how ppl can sip it slowly...
Ive always wanted to just gulp it in one go... Lol... Tts y i still drink beer, coz beer is something i can drink like water and yet u wun get drunk... I haf no idea y ppl always tell me, "I drink hard liquor one, i dun drink beer"... I mean like, yah, obviously u choose hard liquor over beer, but thing is tts not a reason to say u dun drink beer wat... Its jus like water wat... Something like tonic water... Lol...
As much as i love lounging there and observing all the rich/atas ppl... The drinks there r still very ex, not tt i mind though...
Sigh, i go shower le... My sis wan to use the pc... Till next time...
I could haf blogged last weekend, coz sat i off, and SZ didnt date me... But then silly thing was, jus when i wanted to blog, my sis started to hog the pc to do her assignments... Oh well...
My beloved lunch buddy (colleague) had resigned... I am so sad... I haf no idea how to feel when the rest of them resigned... Sigh, but we r meeting for tennis after work tis coming tues, tts if nothing crops up... Gonna book it tmr.
I cant see very well today... Think i am too tired... Everything is so hazy and my eyes are closing, even if i am typing all these...
Last fri was my lunch buddy's last day... So i organised a farewell gathering after work, 9 of us went for dinner at mushroom pot and then ktv till 12 after tt... I was beat, still gotta work tmr u noe...
Yest i went for John Tucker Must Die movie... I bought 2 lipgloss, and got 2 voucher to exchange for 2 pearls in retn at Isetan. The guy will open the oysters in front of u, the whole place stinks, imagine it in e midst of Isetan... But its pretty amazing seeing him digging e pearl wif a knife out of e poor oyster's tummy... I haf not seen tis in real life be4...
I also bought a tennis skirt. Lol... I like 2, but only bought 1. Sad. Then we headed to Country Mana and then to esplanade. Managed to catch Juz B's performance at waterfront... Juz B's e malay grp from superband which i raved about... They sang a mixture of malay, chinese and english songs...
I still like one of the lead, so handsome...
We then headed to Marina Mandarin (my fav lounging area). Drank my fav drink Lycheetini or Lychee Martini so to speak... I only had a glass, budget u noe, budget... I haf tis thing tt i drink alcohol very fast, so u can imagine how tough it is for me to sip my drink for hrs... No idea how ppl can sip it slowly...
Ive always wanted to just gulp it in one go... Lol... Tts y i still drink beer, coz beer is something i can drink like water and yet u wun get drunk... I haf no idea y ppl always tell me, "I drink hard liquor one, i dun drink beer"... I mean like, yah, obviously u choose hard liquor over beer, but thing is tts not a reason to say u dun drink beer wat... Its jus like water wat... Something like tonic water... Lol...
As much as i love lounging there and observing all the rich/atas ppl... The drinks there r still very ex, not tt i mind though...
Sigh, i go shower le... My sis wan to use the pc... Till next time...
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
RIP
I cant believe Steve Irwin is died. Sigh.............. Killed due to a sting ray somemore... How can it be... So sad... May u rest in peace...
I noe i noe... I will blog...
But then i wake up at 5+ am every morning to go work leh... Where got energy to blog... Soon lah... Soon ok! Promise!!!
I noe i noe... I will blog...
But then i wake up at 5+ am every morning to go work leh... Where got energy to blog... Soon lah... Soon ok! Promise!!!
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Maths!!!! >_<"
I am still undergoing training... And then today we were doing maths the whole day!!! Calculations!!! Can die i tell u...
E 6 of us nearly died, wif e exception of a guy whos although sick but still got to come work coz they say sick also mus come coz cannot miss training. Anyways, hes such a maths person, he suddenly got so enthusiastic over e maths probs... Hes so happy today... Lol. He said its so exciting n challenging whereas e rest of us were like brain dead.
Killed alot of brain cells u noe... And they all thot of leaving, too scary n stressful... Lol.
Hes not gd wif pc though, but hes damn gd n fast wif maths. Kudos man! E rest of us were jus swimming ard. Although i did well initially, being e 1st to solve e 1st qns. But when it came to e actual exam ar, 5 of us failed... Muahahaha, including me... And guess who passed?
He passed wif 90 over percent lor!!! Siao one...
We didnt exactly fail, jus tt if u fall under 80%, my trainer considers us fail. Theres a girl who scored 49% though... Very hard one lor, how to score 80%? I didnt even bring back e paper for revision, muahahaha...
Our 1st day, besides all e orientation n stuffs, we jus had lectures, e whole day... Can sleep ar... I so long no listen to lectures liao... And then my eye sight bad mah, cant really see e board somemore... Muahahahah... Especially when it comes to numbers...
Then 2nd and 3rd day is learning their software systems etc...
4th day maths >_< Then tmr more theory lectures then thurs exam again... Urgh...
Im very tired now... Shall tok about e interviews n e job soon.
E 6 of us nearly died, wif e exception of a guy whos although sick but still got to come work coz they say sick also mus come coz cannot miss training. Anyways, hes such a maths person, he suddenly got so enthusiastic over e maths probs... Hes so happy today... Lol. He said its so exciting n challenging whereas e rest of us were like brain dead.
Killed alot of brain cells u noe... And they all thot of leaving, too scary n stressful... Lol.
Hes not gd wif pc though, but hes damn gd n fast wif maths. Kudos man! E rest of us were jus swimming ard. Although i did well initially, being e 1st to solve e 1st qns. But when it came to e actual exam ar, 5 of us failed... Muahahaha, including me... And guess who passed?
He passed wif 90 over percent lor!!! Siao one...
We didnt exactly fail, jus tt if u fall under 80%, my trainer considers us fail. Theres a girl who scored 49% though... Very hard one lor, how to score 80%? I didnt even bring back e paper for revision, muahahaha...
Our 1st day, besides all e orientation n stuffs, we jus had lectures, e whole day... Can sleep ar... I so long no listen to lectures liao... And then my eye sight bad mah, cant really see e board somemore... Muahahahah... Especially when it comes to numbers...
Then 2nd and 3rd day is learning their software systems etc...
4th day maths >_< Then tmr more theory lectures then thurs exam again... Urgh...
Im very tired now... Shall tok about e interviews n e job soon.
Monday, August 21, 2006
Tis is an angry post, no pt reading it.
I am feeling so miserable. I am so miserable i wan to bitch about everything (or at least wats going on). But i cant. Coz i am the stupid one who used my real name for my site ( i am vain, i like to use my name every where).
I dun lie to strangers tt i dun blog. So any idiot can google my name and *poof*, u can see my blog in e 1st 3 links.
Urgh.
I haven been updating coz ive started working (my sis's been hoggin e pc for her assignments as well). Today is my 3rd day.
I am bonded for e next 3 mths. My job is a 3 yr contract but i am not bonded though. I am a 3 yr contract staff, which is crap coz i lost out on e benefits. I thot it was a PERMANENT position. I am not a freshie bumping ard. I wan to find a long term stable job ok!
I made a wish on my bday tt i wish for a full time job. But i forgot to say wat kind of job.
I am so sick of ppl telling me, "U will find an ideal job!", "Ur next job will be better!", crap.
They told me those when i was schlin, and my 1st job? Fucked up. Then they tell me e same thing, and my 2nd job? Fucked up. Then they told me e same thing. My 3rd job? Super fucked up. Then comes e fourth job and ppl said im lucky and all tt crap. Wat happened in e end? Super super fucked up. It fucked up even more when i complained out of frustration and ppl told me its not e end of e world.
Since when did i say it was e end of the world? U rich brats haf no idea how tough it is to survive in e real world ok!!!
And then my 5th job? Fucked up. Then wat happened? Ppl told me e same thing, "U will find a gd job one, dun worry!"...
How fucked up can these ppl get?
Its like saying u will win lottery and every time u lose i will tell u, confirm win next time... Of coz one bloody day, u will eventually win due to probability. And then i am supposed to say, "See, i told u, ur life is not so suay. U will win someday."
WTFFFFFFFF!!!!! Yah, one bloody day.
Y cant u jus see tt, even if u haf e same qualifications, same skills, same human, same everything, tt ur life, fate, destiny can go totally different? How some can jus be so blessed wif great 1st jobs, and some never ever finding somewhere they can settle down contentedly...
It has nothing to do wif expectations. U think those blessed ppl expect very little, tts y they r rich, tts y they found gd jobs wif great bosses, colleagues, tts y they haf happy family?
Pls lah, when ur environment is blessed, it is blessed. Its out straight one mah, ur boss so gd to u, ur pay so high, e other one's boss like shit, pay very low etc. Its got nothing to do wif expectations, asking too much, too demanding or watever shit.
Although i haf to admit some really asked too much for their own gd, and never finding one and always complaining. But im not toking about those ignorant ppl.
Only 3 days, and i already realised i am so suay. U can be ignorant, blur, new, fresh but lucky, so u get ur way wif it. I am seasoned, hardworking and well balanced but i get all e dirty shit.
I took up tis job to shut everyone ard me. To shut all e crap and also to prove to everyone tt my next job isnt something happily ever after as long as u dun give up.
But of coz, i wun deny deep down i am hoping things would change for e better as well. I am always prepared to apologise and say i am wrong, things haf indeed became better.
But reality slaps hard in my face ok. -_______-"
U can tell someone patronisingly tt things will becum better, but u will not be able to comprehend how much more tt person yearns for it than jus ur mere word of politically correct statements.
I wanted to take my time to find a gd job. But all the pressure made me bit it out of spite. I took it realising theres no future at e last min.
Wat crap about aiyah, jus work and then find a job meanwhile.
Do u noe i cannot jus take mc or leave in my job? Unless u wan me to be fired or get lesser money. If i can jus take leave or mc, i wouldnt mind hogging e job and look for greener pastures.
U guys say until like its so easy lidat. Wat no stress, u hearsay only, u noe nuts.
My mum is e worst, she said i am a useless, slow, incapable person. So i shd jus stick to a lowly, simple job and jus live day by day. She said i shd stop looking for better jobs (coz they wouldnt wan me coz i am e worst) and jus stick wif tis (e kind tt nobody wans). And then when she realised i am not happy, she is pissed off tt i myself am e one who agreed and yet i am so unhappy about it.
Yah yah, serves me right. Serves me right for anyhowly taking a job tt i feel very unhappy about jus so tt i can give u money coz u kept complaining no money when i can jolly well see u suffer and jus bump ard till i used my last dropped of self-earned savings.
I am not like those freshies liao leh. I dun wan to work 3 mths, quit, look for jobs again, knowing how bloody tough its for me. I told u i cannot work tis job and look at the same time. My leave's got to be balloted a few rounds. And if we anyhow take mc its going to affect my work conduct, which leads to many other things.
I heard things like "if i noe ur job like tis, i would haf adviced u not to take it". Bloody hell, if u really mean it, when i initially told u, u would haf BOTHERED to find out more from me when i told u about it. If u r a true fren or family, u would haf bothered. U would haf been concerned.
Rather than saying, "up to u, u decide lor.", "after 3 mths then see how", "flip coin", "its ur life, so u decide urself, i am not saying anything", "wow, tts cool, got job gd! take! take! gd start!".
And then after i took it, come telling me, "aiyah ur job no gd", "aiyah y u so stupid go take", tis n tt.
I am so tired but i cant sleep. And tis is driving me even more crazy. And plus i think i am pmsing. I got to wake up at 6+ am every morning and yet i jus cant sleep before 3am. Its frustrating.
My insomia seems to be getting worst. I haf no idea wat e hell's going on. And my backache had worsened lately as well. I think my whole body/system/mind's jus starting to crash n breakdown.
At tis rate, i will burn out very soon.
I think i may need medical help very soon. Or at least do a x-tray on my spine.
But i will only get my pay next mth. Urgh.
Aiyah, watever. I am alone. So i jus haf to suck everything in.
I dun lie to strangers tt i dun blog. So any idiot can google my name and *poof*, u can see my blog in e 1st 3 links.
Urgh.
I haven been updating coz ive started working (my sis's been hoggin e pc for her assignments as well). Today is my 3rd day.
I am bonded for e next 3 mths. My job is a 3 yr contract but i am not bonded though. I am a 3 yr contract staff, which is crap coz i lost out on e benefits. I thot it was a PERMANENT position. I am not a freshie bumping ard. I wan to find a long term stable job ok!
I made a wish on my bday tt i wish for a full time job. But i forgot to say wat kind of job.
I am so sick of ppl telling me, "U will find an ideal job!", "Ur next job will be better!", crap.
They told me those when i was schlin, and my 1st job? Fucked up. Then they tell me e same thing, and my 2nd job? Fucked up. Then they told me e same thing. My 3rd job? Super fucked up. Then comes e fourth job and ppl said im lucky and all tt crap. Wat happened in e end? Super super fucked up. It fucked up even more when i complained out of frustration and ppl told me its not e end of e world.
Since when did i say it was e end of the world? U rich brats haf no idea how tough it is to survive in e real world ok!!!
And then my 5th job? Fucked up. Then wat happened? Ppl told me e same thing, "U will find a gd job one, dun worry!"...
How fucked up can these ppl get?
Its like saying u will win lottery and every time u lose i will tell u, confirm win next time... Of coz one bloody day, u will eventually win due to probability. And then i am supposed to say, "See, i told u, ur life is not so suay. U will win someday."
WTFFFFFFFF!!!!! Yah, one bloody day.
Y cant u jus see tt, even if u haf e same qualifications, same skills, same human, same everything, tt ur life, fate, destiny can go totally different? How some can jus be so blessed wif great 1st jobs, and some never ever finding somewhere they can settle down contentedly...
It has nothing to do wif expectations. U think those blessed ppl expect very little, tts y they r rich, tts y they found gd jobs wif great bosses, colleagues, tts y they haf happy family?
Pls lah, when ur environment is blessed, it is blessed. Its out straight one mah, ur boss so gd to u, ur pay so high, e other one's boss like shit, pay very low etc. Its got nothing to do wif expectations, asking too much, too demanding or watever shit.
Although i haf to admit some really asked too much for their own gd, and never finding one and always complaining. But im not toking about those ignorant ppl.
Only 3 days, and i already realised i am so suay. U can be ignorant, blur, new, fresh but lucky, so u get ur way wif it. I am seasoned, hardworking and well balanced but i get all e dirty shit.
I took up tis job to shut everyone ard me. To shut all e crap and also to prove to everyone tt my next job isnt something happily ever after as long as u dun give up.
But of coz, i wun deny deep down i am hoping things would change for e better as well. I am always prepared to apologise and say i am wrong, things haf indeed became better.
But reality slaps hard in my face ok. -_______-"
U can tell someone patronisingly tt things will becum better, but u will not be able to comprehend how much more tt person yearns for it than jus ur mere word of politically correct statements.
I wanted to take my time to find a gd job. But all the pressure made me bit it out of spite. I took it realising theres no future at e last min.
Wat crap about aiyah, jus work and then find a job meanwhile.
Do u noe i cannot jus take mc or leave in my job? Unless u wan me to be fired or get lesser money. If i can jus take leave or mc, i wouldnt mind hogging e job and look for greener pastures.
U guys say until like its so easy lidat. Wat no stress, u hearsay only, u noe nuts.
My mum is e worst, she said i am a useless, slow, incapable person. So i shd jus stick to a lowly, simple job and jus live day by day. She said i shd stop looking for better jobs (coz they wouldnt wan me coz i am e worst) and jus stick wif tis (e kind tt nobody wans). And then when she realised i am not happy, she is pissed off tt i myself am e one who agreed and yet i am so unhappy about it.
Yah yah, serves me right. Serves me right for anyhowly taking a job tt i feel very unhappy about jus so tt i can give u money coz u kept complaining no money when i can jolly well see u suffer and jus bump ard till i used my last dropped of self-earned savings.
I am not like those freshies liao leh. I dun wan to work 3 mths, quit, look for jobs again, knowing how bloody tough its for me. I told u i cannot work tis job and look at the same time. My leave's got to be balloted a few rounds. And if we anyhow take mc its going to affect my work conduct, which leads to many other things.
I heard things like "if i noe ur job like tis, i would haf adviced u not to take it". Bloody hell, if u really mean it, when i initially told u, u would haf BOTHERED to find out more from me when i told u about it. If u r a true fren or family, u would haf bothered. U would haf been concerned.
Rather than saying, "up to u, u decide lor.", "after 3 mths then see how", "flip coin", "its ur life, so u decide urself, i am not saying anything", "wow, tts cool, got job gd! take! take! gd start!".
And then after i took it, come telling me, "aiyah ur job no gd", "aiyah y u so stupid go take", tis n tt.
I am so tired but i cant sleep. And tis is driving me even more crazy. And plus i think i am pmsing. I got to wake up at 6+ am every morning and yet i jus cant sleep before 3am. Its frustrating.
My insomia seems to be getting worst. I haf no idea wat e hell's going on. And my backache had worsened lately as well. I think my whole body/system/mind's jus starting to crash n breakdown.
At tis rate, i will burn out very soon.
I think i may need medical help very soon. Or at least do a x-tray on my spine.
But i will only get my pay next mth. Urgh.
Aiyah, watever. I am alone. So i jus haf to suck everything in.
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